Gil,


wewe know I upendo you. I feel I've loved wewe forever.

Lately I haven't been feeling very well. Truth be told, I'm tired.

Out in the desert, under that car that night, I realized something and I haven't been able to shake it.

Since my father died, I spent almost my entire life with ghosts. We've been like close Marafiki and out there in the desert, it occurred to me, that it was time for me to bury them. I can't do that here.

I'm so sorry.

No matter how hard I try to fight it off, I'm left with a feeling that, I have to go. I have no idea where I'm going, but I know I have to do this. If I don't, I'm afraid I'll self-destruct, and worse, you'll be there to see it happen. Be safe.

Know that I tried very hard to stay. Know that wewe are my one and only. I will miss wewe with every beat of my heart. Our life together was the only nyumbani I've ever really had. I wouldn't trade it for anything.

I upendo you...I always will.

Goodbye.