it was the morning after and elena had stayed all night with damon giving him the cure. while he was still sleeping she had nothing to do but relive last night in her head. what the hell just happened au better yet whats gonna happen? elena thinks that if she admits that she feels something for damon that would make her another katherine. elena doesnt want to be like katherine. she doesnt want to feel anything for damon. difference is katherine alisema she loved both but showed that wasn't the case. katherine knew damon would die using the dagger to kill elizah but didn't care au once again put her needs above anyone elses. elena being forced with damon's death let her put down her guard and she let herself lead with her moyo and not with her head where damon is concerned. she remembered whan damon was upset about being used kwa her that he told elena that she had zaidi in common with katherine than just her looks. those words really stuck with her. not only because of the person katherine is but because now she was the one that put that look of hurt and disappointment on damon's face. once again he was fooled kwa someone he had invested feelings in. eventhough she was upset kwa what he did to jeremy elena realized the friendship au understanding they had built up until then wasn't so easy for her to just throw away. elena knew deep down her and katherine were not alike in the sense of being a selfish person and would do anything not to be compared to her again even if that means convincing herself what she felt last night wasn't real au anything zaidi than one friend being there for another. all of a sudden damon started moving around and while half asleep damon remembered elena's words " i like wewe now..just the way wewe are" then the kiss. was it a dream he thought? first thing out of his mouth was elena's name. "i'm here damon, i told wewe i wouldn't leave you." damon did his usual half smirk. that smirk quickly left whan he saw the look on elena's face. he could tell she didn't want to talk about last night au what happened between them. he saw she was almost coming out of her skin. eventhough he knew it was finally something zaidi for her now than just friendship au an understanding he knew it wasn't the right time to push her not to mention not the right thing to do especially to stefan especially after what stefan had just done for him. yes he loves elena and has waited for elena to onyesha that infact she infact too feels something but damon also loves stefan and quickly realizes what happened last night still doesn't change the facts. stefan is out there and elena still loves him which puts damon right back to his reality. the only problem is this time damon didn't compell elena to forget his upendo for her. awkward doesn't begin to describe the tension in that room untill they were interrupted again, this time kwa andie. normally damon would just compell her to leave but realized what for? clearly there was nothing for him and elena to discuss and truthfully damon just neede to feel some upendo and concern and clearly elena couldn't be the one to give it anymore. all the kisses and upendo tha came from andie damon wished were coming from elena but at this point this is his reality his (distraction). elena didn't seen too thrilled with andie's onyesha of upendo and concern especially when it was her in damon's kitanda last night who was the one being there for him. elena realized there was another new feeling she was having called slighht jealousy. was she pissed she was feeling it au was she pissed that damon was the one making her feel it? she told damon " shouldn't andie leave." damon knew elena was getting upset and maybe even a little jealous and that slight smirk came back to his face. never the less he compelled andie to leave and asked elena what was the problem? he alisema he had just come back from the brink of death and excuse him for trying to get some upendo from someone as to let her know he couldn't get it from her so that's why he's got andie. elena starts to tell damon how wrong it is what he is diong to andie all the while wondering if her concern was really for andie au for how it was infact making her feel. damon tells elena she should be zaidi concerned about figuring out a way to bring stefan back than what he's doing to andie. while they both know they need to rescue stefan from klaus, they look at each other as to say they will save stefan and bring him nyumbani and go back to the way things were. would it really be so hard? damon and elena look at each other knowing that whatever happened last night happened and really nothing has changed but instead they know they realized what happened last night happened and now everything has changed. this is how i would like to see the first episode of s3 start but i guess like the rest of wewe i'll just keep wishing things in my head and wait to see what they actually give us. all i know it better be damn good