Did it work? I dont think it did! Let me see...

I stare up at my little red ballon....
Floating above me,
Without a care in the world.
I wish to be like my little red ballon..
I want to fly..
So I can fly away from all the.
Hurt and Pain
And Scars and sadness..
I want to fly away from this colorless world..
And be free..
And just not care
Not care about what everyone thinks
So says au does..
Just float.
So I alisema to myself..
Self,
Why don't wewe go learn how to fly?
Why don't wewe try to learn?
So wewe my be free..
And then I got this crazy I idea that...
What if I jumped from a really high place..
And maybe just maybe I'd just know what to do..
As I walk shaky up to the edge I see a never ending life of sadness in front of me..
But if I look up I see a life of happiness and I now I want to go there...
Just one zaidi step..
And I'll fly..
Just like my little red ballon..
And be free..


~P.S THIS IS NOT ABOUT ME~

Okay here;s what's going on...


I found help and I made it to a phone in time I was brought to the doctors and ER and whatever.

The reason why I keep on passing out is because I triggered something in my spine that leads to my nerves and I messed it all up. I was also put on some new meds that help with sleep they messed up everything also but also I've been really sad lately..And the reason behind that is some meds I have to take everyday..

I take two pills in the morning because I need help focusing because when I was younger my mind couldn't tell what was fiction and what was reality I would get Lost in my mind and sometimes couldn;t find a way out..But as I'm getting older those meds are working against me and in there theres some type of thing that triggers depression so I am no only taking those..

I'm really sick the doctor said..
And another thing,,
I came out..
I told my mother what I'd been doing..
About the pills..
So were working that out to..