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linkThe upendo between Carlisle and Esme is unbelieveable. One would think that their endless joy and happiness would rub off on me, but for some reason it only makes me feel worse. I am glad that they have found each other. I would never hold that against them. Yet at the same time, the intensity between them leaves me feeling lonely and even zaidi in despair.
I have been traveling in order to keep myself busy. It seems to help keep my mind and body occupied. I have visited many different vampire friends. Most do not live the same lifestyle...
