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I only just started cutting and I haven't told anyone about it yet.....I don't want people thinking I'm doin it for attention I'm doing it because of stuff that happened with my mum and dad...I'm also doing it because this boy that I like that did like me has apparently been using me and he's been breaking me moyo kwa saying he loves me but then he went to my best friend...this one guy has made me cry so much and now I'm doing this to my self I don't want to do it but I cant help it. I just don't want people thinking that I'm doing this for attention I don't even want to tell anyone but I don't just want to keep it inside me I need to tell my best friend but I don't want to hurt her because she does cut as well and it really hurt me when she told me she cut and know I do it 😞😢

I Remember
© Jennifer
I remember the way it felt
when wewe where on juu of me
It was like wewe controlled me
Your forced yourself in
So I gave up & let wewe win

I remember the way wewe looked at me
when I alisema NO
It was like wewe wanted to onyesha wewe were in control
wewe pushed harder
and I tried to say no again
wewe covered my mouth
so I gave up & let wewe win.

I remember the sounds wewe made.
It was like wewe enjoyed it too much to care.
there were other people there
I should of yelled for them
But I was too ashamed; too afraid
they wouldn't believe me
au say it was my fault
I remember everything wewe did
But don't worry your secrets safe
I'm still afraid.
Nobody will believe me
So I give up and I guess wewe win.

Sanctuary


Fate has caused me all this pain
Inside I bare these scars
That will not heal
Please help me feel
All the upendo I was denied

I've tried to find sanctuary in myself

Why can't I find the truth of it all
Left behind in darkened times
Will I rise au will I fall?
But in the end its all the same to me

This curse inflicted upon my heart
Has gone and left me all alone
No one can justify
The cruelty i've known
Will I ever be the same again?

I've tried to find the sanctuary in myself

Why can't I find the truth of it all
Left behind in darkened times
Will I rise au will I fall?
But in the end its all the same to me

Is this the answer to all thay is real?
Can pain really be love?
Is life too cruel to feel?

Why can't I find the truth of it all
Left behind in darkened times
Will I rise au will I fall?
But in the end its all the same to me