I know, bila mpangilio post.
But this is the only place where I know I can write and express myself without them seeing it and well, lets face it, anyone I know see it.

I'm so scared, I am so fucking scared that he's forgotton about me already. I was just a fling that made me feel so good and happy.
Man, I had never been so happy,I couldn't escape from the smiles I had when he spoke and when he kissed.
I need him, I can't kubeba it when he's gone, au when I can't see him. I toss and turn and fidgit when he doesn't text back au talk back to me.
I feel this weight on my chess, I'm alone, thinking about him.

I can't help but think every sekunde of the day, how much I miss him. How much i crave his touch and upendo again. He treated me with real passion and warmth, and I feel like I need that for the rest of my life, just to survive.
I loved the way he treated me, like, I was just so perfect and special.
I have never felt so safe, in my life.
I never wanted to go home, I wanted to stay with him.
I loved him he kissed me out of the blue, and never forced me into anything.
I upendo that he is the only person in the world that makes me excited and confident about myself.

And I can't help but wonder if it was just a one off and I'll never have it again.
That I'm insignificant to you, that im just one of the many girls wewe talk to.
You've told me, how many and Im scared out of my brain.
I mean I just want to rip my hair out, and scream and cry and hundle up in a ball at just the thought of wewe forgetting the times we had.

We pretended, we were so passionate, and soft and affectionate.
I want you. Fuck, I want wewe so bad. I would die for you, I would.
In times of need, I want wewe to be the one to tell me that things are going to be alright.

Your the one I want to cuddle up to at night.

I haven't felt like this about someone, and It's eating away at me. I can't kubeba it anymore.
I'm so scared, paranoid, self-consious- That I'm just not good enough, and whatever we have, will soon be forgotten like the rest of my affairs.

You're different to the rest.

I'm falling for you. I only pray that wewe haven't forgotten about me already.