About a mwaka had passed. Mello was now a loner. He had no Marafiki and liked it that way. They were all just lying assholes anyway… He and Matt were still roommates but they didn't talk anymore. Matt had tried for a while but eventually gave up. So the room was always filled with tense silence. Until today that is. Mello stormed down the hallway, shaking violently. He could feel everyone's eyes on him which only made him feel worse. He just found out that the new kid, Near, was now above him in every class. How? How could a little runt like him beat him with the snap of a finger? It didn't make any sense! He made it to his room and burst into the door. Luckily Matt wasn't there yet and the blond slammed the door behind him. Was he not studying hard enough, trying hard enough? Was...he not enough? The thought enraged him and he began destroying everything in his path. First it was dad, then Linda, then Matt, then...L… His destruction came to a halt as tears stung his eyes. No, not L, he can't give up on him, not yet! God please not L!!!! Mello fell to his knees and began to sob. Why, why did everyone leave?!?!?!? He curled up into a ball on the floor as the tears streamed down his face.
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Matt exited his last class, a little confused. Mello hadn't been there. Which he knew for a fact he should be, considering that he wasn't sick au anything. Plus he saw him get up for classes this morning. It was odd… As he made his way back to his room, he noticed a group of kids chatting in the hallway. He raised a brow and approached the first familiar face he saw, Linda. “Hey, what's going on here?” Linda turned to look at him, disgusted, but still answered, “Near is the juu of the class now. Didn't wewe hear?”
“No. Whose Near?”
“The new kid, duh! Ya know, maybe if wewe got your head out of those dumb games, wewe might know something. au ya know, if Mello would have dropped wewe a long time ago, he might still be at the top.” As Linda smirked, Matt's eyes widened. Oh god, Mello! He pushed his way past Linda and the other kids and ran the rest of the way to his room. Who knew how the blond was reacting to this…
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Mello hadn't fully pulled himself together yet and was just laying in the floor, shaking, though he had stopped crying. A million thoughts ran through his head about what a failure he was and how L had every right to abandon him. What good was he anyway? The sound of the doorknob turning broke his thoughts and he hid his face in his hands, not wanting to look at the person entering. Matt stepped inside, not only shocked kwa the state their room was in, but to see what state Mello was in as well. He gently closed the door behind him, “Mells...I heard what happened....are wewe okay?” Mello didn't respond, hoping he would just go away. Matt sighed and approached him, “Look, this isn't that bad. So what if Near is at the juu of the class, you're still smart!” Mello glared up at him, “Smart won't get L to take me back! I must be the best!!!!” Fresh tears filled his eyes. “And why do wewe even care anyway?! Can't wewe just leave me alone!?” Matt blinked at the sight of the tears before kneeling inayofuata to him, “Because you're still my friend. Even if wewe called it quits ages ago, I never did. wewe are my friend, Mells, and I meant that.” The new tears poured down Mello's cheeks and Matt pulled him into a hug. “I-I'm sorry!”
“You don't have to be sorry…” Matt held Mello for what almost felt like an eternity before the two pulled away. “Come on, I'll help wewe clean this up.” Mello smiled and the two began to clean the mess Mello had made.