Not a question- i just need to get this out...:(

I know its getting close to the anniversry of mj's death and i still cant get over the fact that he gone. Sometimes the only thing that keeps me going sometimes is my imagination. I sometimes dream that mj is my best friend and we do alot of fun stuff. I dream that im onset of his bad video au im going on tour, doing sinema togther. I sometime i wish i was the friend who was there for him through everything. i wish i was there to comfort him through those harsh times.i want to tell him everything is ok,that it doesnt matter what people think of you. Everytime that i get on stage and preform i feel mj is there watching me, cheering me on even though i cant see him i just feel that hes there. Sometimes i can't help but smile sometimes when i think about mj. But sometimes it hits me that hes gone and i just breakdown and cry, even if i was happy just dakika earlier. I wish that somehow mj would comeback, i want him to have a sekunde chance, michael didnt deserve to go through what he went through, noone like mj should have to experience that,michael never found his true love, which a person like michael should have another chance at finding there true love. I want zaidi than anything in this world is for people to stop saying hurtful things about him, i want them to realize that he wasnt a child mosleter, he was innocent, he would never do such thing. Michael didnt deserve it. I just want his name to be unhated for good and for people to see - the man behind the mask of lies, au the man in the mirror. Because thats what michael taught the world,he taught us to upendo ourselves.