Shivering,I laid there inayofuata to Louie.I was very cold,even through i was wrapped in Louie's bare arms.The clock had just pasted midnight and I couldn't sleep.My sinuses were bothering me,I feared I was coming down with a cold.I was going to originally go nyumbani but he wanted me stay,regretfully I did stay.
I sat up in kitanda and wiped my watery eyes inflicted kwa my allegries.
Suddenly,I felt a tickle in my nose and I sneezed loudly.
Louie rolled over as I thought I had awoken him,but he continued to snooze on.I got out of kitanda and went to the bathroom and flicked on the light.
I whiped my redden eyes and adjusted to the bright lamp.
I looked at sicken self in the mirror.I turned on the water to the sink and splashed some cold water on my face,the chilly tempurature felt refreshing on my face.
I took a toweltans patted my face,I looked once again in the mirror,I looked a bit better the before.As a n effect,I turned off the light and walked downstairs to the jikoni to get something to drink.I didn't bother to turn on the lights down stairs since I didn't want to wake anyone,but it made me a bit scared since I had a small fear of the dark.
I opened the fridge and looked for something fora midnight snack.On the juu self,there was a glass of milk,a bowl of cookies,and some cold medicine along with a note.I picked up the note and whispered it to myself,
"dear amber,I know your not feeling well,and I know your going to be up-Liam"I read.
I smiled because Liam was right about me being up.He was a very kind thoughtful person,he was like mother of the boys.Always making sure they were fed,happy,clothed and tooken care of.I picked up my snack and sat on the counter.
Soon I felt as if someone were watching me,I grew a bit scared.So I put my hand on kisu that was fairly close to me if I needed it.
I looked around to see someone walking toward me from the dinning room.
"Who's there?"I asked in fear.
They flicked on the light.
"I didnt mean to scare you."Niall alisema in a sleepy voice.
He whiped his eyes and let out a yawn.I felt relief it just one of the boys through Niall and I rarely talked and he was a bit mysterious.He opened the fridge and grabbed the jugg of milk.
"It's okay,did I wake you?"I asked.
"No,I couldn't sleep."
"Me niether."I alisema a few sekunde late.
"How come?"he asked then taking a sip from the jug.
"I have a bad cold."I explained.
"Yea,it's the weather nowadays."he swung around.
I paused for a sekunde and thought about how this was our first actaul conversation,it wasn't just an awkward stare.
"So why are wewe awake?"I alisema then eating a maziwa dipped cookie.
"Just been thinking a lot."he alisema looking at the ground.
"About what?"i asked without thought.
"Just missing my family that's all."he seemed to lie.
"Oh...I get that to."I alisema softly without rethought.
It was a few dakika before someone alisema something again.
I finshed my snack and headed to the living room,Niall followed.
We sat on opposite sides of the couch,he let me have the remote.He seemed really reluctant to speak to me for some odd reason,Was he just shy au did he not like me?Either way it was still and awkward situation.
I flicked through the channels,since that was all I knew to do.I didn't know how to really work the remote.
He leaned over and pointed to a button that alisema 'Tv Guide'
I clicked it and the tv showed all the channels
After a few dakika of me looking through it all,nothing was on that was good.
"We could play Wii."he suggested."We'll just have to be quite and shut the hallway door."he then whiped his weary eyes.
"that would be nice."I nodded since now I was entirely awake.
He got up off the kitanda and walked over to the tv then putting in a disc in the wii.He shortly returned with a remote.
The wii turned on and he selected the game'Wii sports'
He clicked tennis and soon we began to play.
He swung down the remote and served the ball,I was confused kwa how to play and missed.He chuckled slightly,Then showed me how to play.He served the ball once again and I swinged at it,hitting the ball.I smiled a bit as he hit it back,I returned then he returned it.I stood up to get a better swing,I swung once then hit the ball very hard,scoring a point.
"Lucky shot..."he alisema in such tone.
"Lucky?Winning isn't based on luck."I teased.
kwa the end of the game,I had won and was now tired,but he instisted we play a different game. link
"ITS RAINING MEN!"the tv blarred it's music.
I had picked the song gladly on just dance and was beating him.
Shortly,We heard foot steps on the stair case.Niall looked at me,took my hand and turned off the lights and the TV.We hid behind the couch.I laughed a bit but he signed for me to be quite.
"Alright,Jokes up."A cranky Liam walked in.
I couldn't bare to laugh,We both giggled and smiled.Liam walked behind the coach,He wore a green facial mask and a pink robe.
That caused us to laugh loudly.
"What!This is how I keep up my looks!"he fussed."Go to kitanda already,it's 1am!"
"Only if we had some chips we could have a snack,"Niall laughed.
"And some sauce!"I smiled.
"Don't forget a bottle of coke."he replied.
Liam was not laughing,he grabbed us kwa our ears and lead us upstairs,we both complained about the pain but he continued walking throwing us to our bedrooms.Shortly after he went to bed,I went out in the hall to see if Niall was awake.I poked my head out the door and looked down the dark hall.
Looking back was Niall.I stepped out and walked to him.
He laughed in remembrance of Liam.
I was a bit blown away how our conversation had completely changed and was no longer awkward.
"We could had a feast,only if we had some chips."he told me.
I smiled and covered my mouth so I wouldn't laugh.
He chuckled and snickered at me.
That night was the first time,I had spoken to Niall.It turned out,he was a bit like me,Shy at first but once he got out that shell,he was actaully a very nice person.The way he smiled made me,want to smile.It was a very peculiar sititutation.
He yawned and stretched.
"Yea,especially after playing just dance."
"You mean losing just dance."I teased him.
"Yea,I admit to it,but I'll get wewe inayofuata time so.."I then remember about louie how I left him uncovered.
"Sure wewe will."
He scratched his head and put his head back,signaling that he wanted to go to bed.
"Well,I'm going to bed."he said.
"Okay,i guess."I alisema then walking back to Louie's room.
I was about to walk in when Niall called me.
I looked back at him.
"It was fun,Hanging out."
I smiled and nodded.
"Good night."he said.
"You too."I alisema then returning to the room.
I really hoped we could be Marafiki one day,he seemed like a nice guy.
I returned to my room,And laid on my bed.
A teddy kubeba companyed me,It had Anna's name on it.
It was A teddy kubeba Zayn meant to give to Anna.He asked me to give it to her one siku when he was busy,I never did.See that my probelm,Zayn was just to perfect.He was Mr.Perfect while I was ..well mr.Un-perfect.I was the most unpopular of the boys,sometimes I just felt like quiting.
I covered my self up and hugged on the teddy bear.
"Niall."I heard a voice.
"Amber?"I alisema then rolled over.
It was Liam.
"You know she's with Louie."he told me with a stare.
"Huh?What does that have to do with anything?"
I sat up in kitanda and looked at him,He still had some of the facial mask on his chin.
"You have a little something..."I told him.
"I know,and wewe should know not to mess with her."
"I didn't do anything,"
"Oh and it was just a conquensdent,that wewe were up when she was?and wewe were flirting with her behind the kitanda while wewe were shirtless."
"I wasn't flirting with her!"I yelled carelessly.
"Don't lie,Because I know how wewe hired the Santa for her."
"Yea,I did that but that has nothing to do with tonight.."
"I don't wanna hear another thing, about this now leave that girl alone,she's not yours."he fussed at me.
I was to tired to say something back so I just turn my back to him.
"Just remember what had happened between wewe and Anna."he whispered then walking out.With that he made me angered,so I turned back to find he was already gone.
At one point I fell in upendo with Anna,and couldnt bare it because she was with Zayn.I was already so jealous of Zayn,to think he even had the one girl I loved in this world killed me,so I told her how I felt as an attempt to get even.Ofcoarse she didn't upendo me back,she loved Zayn and Zayn only.
Leaving me alone and unwanted,well atleast that's how I felt at the time.It was very ironic through because Zayn was my bestfriend and he was closest to me.I didn't think he thought that of me through,no one did.
Then I met Amber,she seemed like a really enjoyable person,but I chose not to speak to her.When she was around,I always turned my back,but unfornately she was mostly there with Louie,so I was like that most if the time.
And what Liam had just told me,meant I couldn't at all talk,I just had to go back to her making her think I was such a negative person.
He wasn't trying to be controlling,Liam isn't like that at all.
He had a sister named Carter,that was back when we lived in
The same apartment in England.They moved there with they're aunt,who was really busy with her job so Liam mostly took care of her,He practically raised her.I couldn't do it if I was him,especially since Lottie and I get in fits all the time,it just proved how much of a powerful person Liam was,that's why we never argued with Liam,We knew he was only caring for us like he used to do for Carter.
Carter was very beautiful,and I was very fond of her.
Liam was rather protective of her,and didn't want her moyo to get broken,and chiefly warned me to watch out,but I promised I'd never hurt her and I never did.
Then there was that summer,not just any summer,It stood out and was something to remember.We were all about 14,and she was 13,Every one was in that stage in life,growing up and become who they are.Also feelings grew between some of us.
Zayn was the first of us boys to get a girlfriend,It didn't surprise me.Zayn is my best friend out of the whole group,through it's pretty ironic because of my deep jealousy,but behind the looks and fame I know I could put my trust and hopes on him even if one direction didn't exist.I never had anyone like that,where they trusted me and were I was needed,i was never wanted.
But then there was that summer,it wasnt just any summer,it had gave me something to remember for the rest of my life.
Back then I spent a lot of time with carter,nearly every other day.
And as the days went by,I began to relize how much of a kind wonderful person,she was.One of my inayopendelewa memories with her,was that night we were on the roof of her apartment.
The stars sparkle were completely visible that night,for the city had went through a strong storm and we were in a power outage,it was hot inside so we hung out on the roof with a pair of pillows and a blanket to share.We had some lit candles and a low battery flash light if we need to see,and of coarse some snacks...for me.
The candles dimly lit glowed in the darkness,and allowed me to see carters beauty and wonderus smile,even through her beauty was noticable from a mile away kwa my eye.
The sky was clear with the exception of the shining stars glaze and the moons glowing lust that allowed a small amount of visibility across the quite city floors.I laid there gazing at Carter and reminiscing on the good times and flipping through the bad.
She'd smile every now and then when she wasnt Lost in all the stars and say something sweet and I'd ruin it and say something stupid like I upendo you.
On my 15th birthday,she gave me a mkufu that had a small strip of silver on it engraved 'your everything,Carter'
She was so excited to see me wear it,when I couldn't take such an expensive gift,but I thought how much she put into it.
I accepted the gift,and as a result brought her a silver bracelet with 'My Sweetheart,' engraved on it.I saved every dime I had to get that bracelet,it meant alot to me to give it to her,and to see her smile.Liam started worrying that she would get hurt and told me not to give it to her,I was going to do it anyway but I had the chance he stop me.That same rainy August day,Carter was sick and in bed.I went to see her,through I had give the bracelet to Liam.She rolled over and kitanda and greeted me with a hug.
She wore pink polka dot matching pajamas and a smile.
I stayed and talked with her,but I'd help her if she was coughing badly.She wasn't just only sick,she seemed bothered and didn't know why,she wouldn't tell me so I just assumed it was her headache that was bothering her.She laid her head down and fell sleep,so I soon left,I was going across the mitaani, mtaa to get her Icecream for when she woke.Then here's the part that brings me down every time I think about it,even just hearing her name brings flash backs to my head.When I was walking across the street,I heard so done yell my name,I looked back to see carter dodging at me she pushed me out the way. link
I sat up a d turned around to see the scattered glass,and Carters motionless body laying in the cold wet mitaani, mtaa in front of a bus.I yelled 'No!' then ran over to Carter's side.I held her in my arms,crying.Be glad you've probably never had to be at the side of loved one who had been hurt badly,and had to watch them die.Its worst experience I've ever been through.She still had a pinch of life in her,she looked at me with dirt smudges and blood on her face and tears falling from her eyes and she told me not be sad.I asked why she would do such a thing for me.
She told me because of the bracelet and that meant the world to her,that she could so my upendo where ever she went.I alisema she was very stupid for it,but she laughed softly cause she didn't care.She then started to fade away,she closed her eyes and took those last breaths and like that she was gone.
The ambulance, magari ya wagonjwa soon arrived but before I let go of her I slipped the bracelet on her wrist then they carried her away.
I sniffed a few times as I laid in bed,I wiped my tears and closed my eyes.I wondered sometimes what my life would be like if she were still around,of coarse I'd probably would have never audition and became famous,but I would have had her.I would have proposed and married her,maybe had a family.
I would be a diffrent person,I wouldnt be unwanted au forgotten.
But...if wewe had the chance to chose the one wewe upendo au fame and fortune,what would wewe do?
I pushed that thought out of head,I would have chosen Carter probably,but it didn't matter because it was jut a bunch of 'What ifs' and 'maybes' that we're all just possibilities that didn't matter.
I couldn't change it even I tried.I whiped my eyes and pushed back my hair.
Suddenly I found my self in a meadow,the sky was a clear shade of blue and the sun was pouring a heavy ray on my skin.
The green rich nyasi was an at ankle height as the scene was brightly enjoyable.I stood up to my feet,and whispered in trying to find out where I was.Unexpectedly,I felt a light tap on my shoulder and looked behind me.Carter stood there purely in the white hospital gown,she had died in and blushingly smiled in such grace.She pulled my curiosity so I affectionately smiled back.
"Hi,niall,"she alisema ever so sweetly.
She delightfully took my hand in to hers and we peacefully flew away into the sun.