I didn't intend on uandishi this originally, but I just felt like venting, so here I go. Being asexual isn't easy, but it's part of who I am. I can't exactly change that. What's hard is some people can't accept it.
I thought that I wouldn't be bullied once I was in college. I still get bullied for being asexual. It's indirectly, unlike when I was in high school. At least, I'm not getting beat up for it.
I overheard one person saying that the reason I'm asexual is that I can't get a date. I could if I wanted to. I have been asked out kwa a few people, but I turned them down. They just weren't my type. One of them didn't even like rock and roll. That's a deal breaker for me.
For the longest time, I've actually been afraid to date. When I was in high school, there was one guy who told me that I would like sex if I tried it. He then told me to meet him after school. I did not meet with him. I went straight home. I'm sure if I had met with him, he would have raped me. After opening up to some of my Marafiki here about it, Layla pointed out to me that I shouldn't let just one incident make me afraid of dating. I'm not currently looking. I'm waiting for romance to find me.
I thought that I wouldn't be bullied once I was in college. I still get bullied for being asexual. It's indirectly, unlike when I was in high school. At least, I'm not getting beat up for it.
I overheard one person saying that the reason I'm asexual is that I can't get a date. I could if I wanted to. I have been asked out kwa a few people, but I turned them down. They just weren't my type. One of them didn't even like rock and roll. That's a deal breaker for me.
For the longest time, I've actually been afraid to date. When I was in high school, there was one guy who told me that I would like sex if I tried it. He then told me to meet him after school. I did not meet with him. I went straight home. I'm sure if I had met with him, he would have raped me. After opening up to some of my Marafiki here about it, Layla pointed out to me that I shouldn't let just one incident make me afraid of dating. I'm not currently looking. I'm waiting for romance to find me.
After a long time of getting bullied, I began to consider self-harm. I confessed this consideration to Zoe and Gavin. Zoe said, "Please don't hurt yourself. It's not the answer." Gavin said, "Zoe's right. If wewe hurt yourself, you'll have to deal with all those scars. Why do wewe want to hurt yourself anyway?" I began to cry. He hugged me and said, "It's all right. wewe can tell me." I talked about all the bullying I was facing. Zoe said, "Alyssa, those bullies are just losers. wewe have family and Marafiki who upendo you." Gavin said, "That's right. wewe don't have to hurt yourself. Any time something is bothering you, tell us." I said, "Okay." Zoe said, "If wewe hurt yourself, wewe won't be the only one who hurts. We'll be hurt, too." I said, "I don't want to hurt wewe all." We shared a group hug. Over the years, I gained some Marafiki and Lost some, too, but I still had Zoe and Gavin. They will be my closest Marafiki until the end of time.
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