Who am I? The swali lingers in the air,
tracing the now faded maswali that once floated there too.
They dream away with every breath I take, crumbling with despair.
How do I know who I am?
I'm just victimized with care.
But I must survive, devour the words with demand.
Digest all emotions, forget those words like they have forgotten me.
They choose to avoid me, but they return as I command;
'Who am I?'
I can't help but chant.
I try to detain them, I try,
but they make their escape, swimming into freedom.
They try to answer me, but they lie.
Desperate yet beautiful, I let them go.
I can't stop them this time.
The light from the window that's shaped in my mind,
shone with such might, haunting me with such grace.
I try, yet again, to climb through that window, but the darkness, it's conquering my find.
The light means death but it pulls me in, tragic and terrifyingly beautiful,
the shape of my window is so carefully lined.
I dreamt of purity, but that's not what I see.
I'd hoped to be there now, but I'm still here, in this world.
I wanted to be on my own, I wanted to be free.
But all I ask now is the question; 'Who am I?'
And I know who I am: I'm just me.
tracing the now faded maswali that once floated there too.
They dream away with every breath I take, crumbling with despair.
How do I know who I am?
I'm just victimized with care.
But I must survive, devour the words with demand.
Digest all emotions, forget those words like they have forgotten me.
They choose to avoid me, but they return as I command;
'Who am I?'
I can't help but chant.
I try to detain them, I try,
but they make their escape, swimming into freedom.
They try to answer me, but they lie.
Desperate yet beautiful, I let them go.
I can't stop them this time.
The light from the window that's shaped in my mind,
shone with such might, haunting me with such grace.
I try, yet again, to climb through that window, but the darkness, it's conquering my find.
The light means death but it pulls me in, tragic and terrifyingly beautiful,
the shape of my window is so carefully lined.
I dreamt of purity, but that's not what I see.
I'd hoped to be there now, but I'm still here, in this world.
I wanted to be on my own, I wanted to be free.
But all I ask now is the question; 'Who am I?'
And I know who I am: I'm just me.
I lift Your Head- Our Eyes Meet
I Stare Into Those Auburn Eyes,
The Auburn Eyes Know What Comes Next...
And That Is The Long Awaited Good Bye
But With My Hands Shaking,
Anxious Auburn Eyes Awaiting
Every Part Of This Is What I've Been Dreading,
Yet Everything Up To This Moment Is Where We've Been Heading,
I Want To Tell wewe These Things,
I Wish To Sing To wewe About These Things!
These Things I Feel When wewe Are Near,
And Then Right Then- Right There I Realize My Greatest Fear...
That Is If Those Auburn Eyes Leave,
Leave Me Here.
You've got some real demons,
wewe know that right?
upendo and hate,
Black a white.
wewe don't know which is which,
Darkness au light
I'm trying to save you,
Believe me, I am.
But something makes me believe
wewe don't want to understand
wewe want to live in your world,
Created just for you
And hide in the blindness
Without a clue
The world is turning,
Nothing will last.
Promise me that when I'm gone,
wewe won't stay locked in the past
You've got some real demons,
wewe know that right?
Don't let your demons define you,
You're both darkness and light
wewe know that right?
upendo and hate,
Black a white.
wewe don't know which is which,
Darkness au light
I'm trying to save you,
Believe me, I am.
But something makes me believe
wewe don't want to understand
wewe want to live in your world,
Created just for you
And hide in the blindness
Without a clue
The world is turning,
Nothing will last.
Promise me that when I'm gone,
wewe won't stay locked in the past
You've got some real demons,
wewe know that right?
Don't let your demons define you,
You're both darkness and light
For you, hon!!!! Because wewe asked me:D
A wild rose,
A white dove,
A peace long promised.
Death doesn't seem
So scary anymore.
I go towards the light!
I'm so close,
I hear it calling me,
I start running,
I'm almost there.
A few zaidi steps,
And I would, forever, have
Eternal peace...
I came back to the world
It wasn't my time yet!
Hope wewe like it:D
A wild rose,
A white dove,
A peace long promised.
Death doesn't seem
So scary anymore.
I go towards the light!
I'm so close,
I hear it calling me,
I start running,
I'm almost there.
A few zaidi steps,
And I would, forever, have
Eternal peace...
I came back to the world
It wasn't my time yet!
Hope wewe like it:D
one siku wewe will sink
and i will hear your crys so loud,they vibrate the house in town,and when wewe fall ill hear the sounds of ppl laughing except for meee
because even though wewe did me wrong and even though wewe shut me down and even changed me and threw me around like your toy and even though wewe alisema wewe cared even though wewe werent really there and wewe made me into a monster i never kneww and took away the hope of love...but...
im not you.So i say to you.... change your life because it will not get any better with wewe tearing down the walls of everything and everyone wewe ever finally get that chance to break them...
pls just stop because the only one whos going to break the most is only you.
and i will hear your crys so loud,they vibrate the house in town,and when wewe fall ill hear the sounds of ppl laughing except for meee
because even though wewe did me wrong and even though wewe shut me down and even changed me and threw me around like your toy and even though wewe alisema wewe cared even though wewe werent really there and wewe made me into a monster i never kneww and took away the hope of love...but...
im not you.So i say to you.... change your life because it will not get any better with wewe tearing down the walls of everything and everyone wewe ever finally get that chance to break them...
pls just stop because the only one whos going to break the most is only you.
shadows in the night
every one keeps telling me i'll be alright
I tell myself i'll never be the same
as long as i know his name
he made me fall in upendo
we never have to fight
he makes me fell alright
he is a njiwa the sign of upendo
to feel the upendo
it fits like a glove, glovu
upendo send from above
shadows in the night
we never fight
people tell me i'll be alright
i no i won't untell he comes back to me
that will set me free
we can be
the showdows in the night
he came back to me
every one keeps telling me i'll be alright
I tell myself i'll never be the same
as long as i know his name
he made me fall in upendo
we never have to fight
he makes me fell alright
he is a njiwa the sign of upendo
to feel the upendo
it fits like a glove, glovu
upendo send from above
shadows in the night
we never fight
people tell me i'll be alright
i no i won't untell he comes back to me
that will set me free
we can be
the showdows in the night
he came back to me
The darkness in my eyes
fill with tears as children cry
the sound of thunder
rings in my ears
leaving while my earth starts to flood
soaking wet and crying never seems to bother me
flying into darkness as mother yells in her sleep
blood on the white kitanda sheets on the curtains
never feel complete with sorrow and despair
to the graveyard i run and visit my father
where sunlight never hits
breath in smoke of sisters ciggeret
ashes fall to the floor
as i fall also never open my eyes
never breath again
my hollow soul finds its way nor to heaven au hell
its Lost for ever and ever
haunting earth brings me the most joy i ever had
dead nor alive i breath in darkness
but never forget me living souls
for i may have left the physical world
i have not yet left the mental world of memory
i never yet again feel the beating moyo of living
i live like no other
breath like no other
upendo like no other
but yet i burrow into the light of the world again
fill with tears as children cry
the sound of thunder
rings in my ears
leaving while my earth starts to flood
soaking wet and crying never seems to bother me
flying into darkness as mother yells in her sleep
blood on the white kitanda sheets on the curtains
never feel complete with sorrow and despair
to the graveyard i run and visit my father
where sunlight never hits
breath in smoke of sisters ciggeret
ashes fall to the floor
as i fall also never open my eyes
never breath again
my hollow soul finds its way nor to heaven au hell
its Lost for ever and ever
haunting earth brings me the most joy i ever had
dead nor alive i breath in darkness
but never forget me living souls
for i may have left the physical world
i have not yet left the mental world of memory
i never yet again feel the beating moyo of living
i live like no other
breath like no other
upendo like no other
but yet i burrow into the light of the world again
do wewe truely know who i am
maybe things i write seem happy, depressing, sad?
but am i any of those things?
am i really seen kwa my personality au kwa my body
the truth is i hate life
my mother is a bossy rude horrible person
my dad is never home
my sister is a lowlife girl thinking she'll fine a job
i only have TWO friends
most people i know have at least ten
Kenzie parks, Brandon Rector
there is no more
do wewe really think i eat au sleep
do wewe think i go to school
i haven't slept in like a mwezi the avoid one nightmare
that never seems to want to leave
i skip school my mom just drops me off then i run
i try to hide from my family
until they find me and hit me au kick me
do wewe really think im happy?
the last time i was happy when a friend died
i stood kwa her grave smiling
saying "Jess i'll be there soon"
think if suicide worked for her it would work for me
so inayofuata time wewe see me
ask yourself
am i like her?
do i truely know..canal?
maybe things i write seem happy, depressing, sad?
but am i any of those things?
am i really seen kwa my personality au kwa my body
the truth is i hate life
my mother is a bossy rude horrible person
my dad is never home
my sister is a lowlife girl thinking she'll fine a job
i only have TWO friends
most people i know have at least ten
Kenzie parks, Brandon Rector
there is no more
do wewe really think i eat au sleep
do wewe think i go to school
i haven't slept in like a mwezi the avoid one nightmare
that never seems to want to leave
i skip school my mom just drops me off then i run
i try to hide from my family
until they find me and hit me au kick me
do wewe really think im happy?
the last time i was happy when a friend died
i stood kwa her grave smiling
saying "Jess i'll be there soon"
think if suicide worked for her it would work for me
so inayofuata time wewe see me
ask yourself
am i like her?
do i truely know..canal?
Stopping kwa Woods on a Snowy Evening
kwa ROBERT FROST
Whose woods these are I think I know.
His house is in the village though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.
My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.
He gives his kuunganisha bells a shake
To ask if there is some mistake.
The only other sound’s the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.
The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.
kwa ROBERT FROST
Whose woods these are I think I know.
His house is in the village though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.
My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.
He gives his kuunganisha bells a shake
To ask if there is some mistake.
The only other sound’s the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.
The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.