upendo

In the end
By: Alyssa Rivers

Every time I close my eyes
I go back in time
Thought damaged memories and dreams
Of unfinished majibu of why it happened

I go though seeing all the
Tears of morrow
To blackness and darkness of my life
To never knowing when it will end
All over again

Until now
I can’t feel
My moyo beat slowly down
My breathing stopping one kwa one
My hands and body grow cold and numb

Do wewe know what this means?
I do
My memories and dreams
My tears of morrow
My not knowing when it will end

As finally
Come to an end
I’m gone
Forever

We hung out almost
Anywhere,
With one another.
We were always
Together,
wewe alisema forever.

When we came to
High school,
I tried to hold
On to you.

wewe come to talk,
once in a while,
But I only give,
wewe a smile.

I always listen to the
Same melody,
And wewe keep appearing
In my memory.

I think of wewe every
single day,
But your face seem to
quickly fade away.

I give out hopes and wishes
Just to see wewe one last
time,
But I can only see wewe in my
Mind.

wewe will always live in my
Heart,
And nothing will ever tear
us apart.

I'm trying not,
To cry,
All I wanted to do
Was say goodbye.

Trying to forget the pain,but everywhere I go,it follows me
It hurts knowing that you're not here anymore
If I think back it hurts even more,cause then I remember again what I've lost
All I have left from wewe are the fun and beautiful memories,but they're not so real like wewe were
My thoughts wander,trying to find yours,but you're to far away for me to reach
I try to think how it would've been if wewe wre still alive but you're resting now
My tears are sad,but also happy because I'm lucky to have known you
A great person in life one who loved to have a great time
Now you're flying with the angels,but one siku we'll fly together and have those great times again

To give it all away
To be loved one day
Never liking what i saw
Never seen a face this raw

Believing this silly lie
To see this pathetic life
My pain grows stronger
My life go longer

Pain fills my soul
Never able to make my life Whole
To die would be a pleasure
Hateing my life just a measure

The thoughts of suicide
I just want someone to be kwa my side
Hanging myself infront on mum
My neck soon turns num

Please wewe cry
It was my choice to die
Never able to breath
Mother would never leave

Pain fills me
Getting hit kwa the bully
Hated it all
Hang myself in the mall

Screams fill my head
Never tucked into my bed
My life was hell
All they ever say is oh well

I call for you
But all wewe do is screw
Falling into water to drown
With and brick to keep me down

All i ever do is pray
That maybe i can stay
But im left to die
All to do is cry

They never shared
They never cared
Lift my up into the light
I know my future stands bright

when i wake my eyes start to water
my father has not been around for years
my tears are not to shed for i try
to be brave for my brothers and sisters

we live in a house with mrs and mr camln
they are nice but still not family
we all have a story to tell
we cant hide in a shell when some one
some wear is going threw pain
some one some wear is in the rain wanting to get out
my moyo fill's up with worry
i say sorry but what is the use
we all need to step up and be a friend
to some one cuz we all have a story so do u

This poem is all about the beauty of nature that I feel...
This poem is totally opposite to the last poem I wrote"I don't belong to the world"

Look what I see there
those roses are very dear to me
Hear what I am hearing now
those imba birds are very dear to me..

This green nyasi freshens up my mood
that blue sky , gives me a hope
that shiny sun brightens up my smile
These winds are calming my heart

See what I see there
a upinde wa mvua after a very heavy rain
those colors can be seen in my eyes
I can feel the magic of this nature

I am flying with the butterflies
even though I am on land
I am imba with the birds
even though I don't have a nest.

a man can feel all this nature
when he own the treasure
the treasure isn't the gold
that treasure is just the happiness.

When wewe hope,
wewe expect and wish,
wewe have a feeling for wanting,
Your desires to be filled,
wewe don’t want them killed,
Hope makes wewe stronger,

We live to hope,
Hope is what keeps us going,

Keep it sealed,
Let it be healed,
Like it’s your shield,
Sometimes it’s your battle field,

Keep hope close to wewe in life,
Sometimes wewe need to rethink twice,
For hope is unstable,
It comes and goes,

Hope is a special gift,
Not everyone knows,
If they do, they don’t bother to show,


Some of us want to lose hope,
Some of us want to regain hope,

Some think it’s a useless tool,
Yet they’re the ones blind,
Who won’t come to mind?

wewe and I, we all need hope,
No matter how far we seem from it,
It will find us one day,
For hope will come to us,

Wish and desire wewe moyo out,
Keep in mind,
Don’t back away;
wewe know what wewe want,


Keep hoping till the END……

Looking back on everything,
I still remember his smile.
I wish things didn't end so soon,
And turn back time for awhile.

No matter how much it hurts,
I still upendo him so.
A part of me needs him so much,
Can't seem to let him go.

Knowing I won't be able to see him,
Makes my moyo cry out in pain.
I can't believe we won't talk anymore,
The thought makes me wanna go insane.

He was my reason for waking up,
For the smile wewe see on my face.
Going a single siku without him,
Makes me feel so out of place.

I was afraid of opening up,
Now I'm afraid of the inayofuata day.
Whenever I see him one last time,
I'm terrified of what he may say.

I know tomorrow will hurt,
But the tears will fade away.
Life is too short for regrets,
There will be a brighter day.

But when I see him one last time,
I won't know what to do...
When he tells me that last goodbye,
I'll whisper,"I already miss you.."

Oh Payton why did wewe go,
I miss you,
wewe never knew i was
alive,
I would do any thing for you

I was always in the dark,
wewe were the sun and I was the shade,
wewe never even looked at me,
I always thought of you

Without wewe I could die,
I was so sad when wewe moved,
wewe didn't care when wewe moved,
But I will never ever forget you,
I wish wewe had met me

Every night I can't go to kitanda cause
of you,
And each night i wish wewe will
songesha back where wewe belong,
Also wish wewe loved me back
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Hi this is my small poem
Hope wewe like it its for
my upendo Payton. He was sweet
to everybody. When I meet him
all he alisema hi. I looked into his
big brown eyes and I fell in
upendo with him. Thats the only time
he ever look at me. And the time
he alisema hi he just wanted to
go out with my friend. But she
knew I liked him so she alisema no for me
And he never ever alisema anything else
to us.

The pain it hurts, It rips and tears.
Unstoppable, But I don't care.
All the lies about me, all the tears that have come.
They're all from wewe and the things you've become.
Don't wewe remember, when we were young and small?
All the secrets we shared, do wewe remember at all?
Now my hatred for wewe is growing strong.
Every insult wewe throw, why must it be so wrong?
That face makes me shake.
How much zaidi can I take?
Now do wewe see what you've done?
This happened to me.
Congratulations, you've won.
Now are wewe glad that wewe killed me inside?
because now I wish I had really died.
Of course wewe don't, you'll never know.
All the pain and suffering i'll never show.
My moyo isn't mending.
Because all you're bending back.
Only now it's black


So I'm new to this site, I was wondering maybe some Marafiki au something? I'm still figuring out this site. So yeah.. First poem posted? Yay? D:

-OfmiceandDes

This is my first poem. I don't even know if wewe would call this a poem, it's just what I was feeling right this moment. maoni tell me what wewe think.

What is he thinking? Sometimes I wonder what goes on in a guys mind. I mean when wewe look directly into his eyes for the first time au just that morning when wewe pass him in the hallway. What does he think about wewe when he sees you. When wewe say hi as wewe walk kwa him and look him in the eyes,what is he thinking. Is it, why is she looking at me that way au something else. Some people might think I'm crazy for thinking this but it crosses every girls mind sometime au another. I pass him in the hall and smile, is it just curiousity au just me wondering, what does he think about me.