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Riku114 alisema …
Shit man. Im starting to fall down the rabbit hole of Marvel. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Yall I dont want to gain another HUGE series to keep track of :v nyota Wars added to it and :v zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Like Im feeling urged to go back and actually fully watch the Iron Man sinema rather than half assing them too :v zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
That's good though. Embrace Marvel, Riku. wewe know wewe want to !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Fun story time. I dont really remember the details too well, but like... three au four years ago, I was having some kind of a high anxiety day. I dunno if it was a panic attack that I didnt know of, an anxiety attack, au some traumatic shit au anything, but I was experiencing high anxiety and was excessively zoned out as to cope with it, and some guy came to like... touch me, hug me, au pat me au something ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
So like... I had a sekunde au two of panic where I shoved him up against the railing of the upper floor and was like... a sekunde au two away from instinctually pushing him over the railing of the sekunde floor before I snapped out of it and somehow managed to play it off as a joke zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Like I dont know HOW I played it off without any maswali asked cos I pushed him like a good 5-10 feet to get him to the railing and I wouldnt be shocked if I had a crazed look XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Nah I didnt look sad. I have a resting bitch, kahaba face no matter what emotion Im feeling zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
RIP all my classes from today mbele tho XD My brain officially went from like 90% checked out, to like 100% checked out for the rest of the school mwaka when I finished my AP Government test (even tho I still have an AP Econ test on Wednesday XD) ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog ametoa maoni…
Awesome. Be lazy time? zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
2ntyoneplts ametoa maoni…
Lazy is life zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Honestly, the sheer degree of which I like Stephen Strange is.... STRANGE.

Like I watched the movie, enjoyed it a lot, but he wasnt all too high on my list, but out of no where suddenly Im just as hyped to see him on screen as the long term Marvel inayopendelewa of mine - Loki?

And I just get that natural "Hes a favorite" feel, but I dont know exactly why..?

I mean Imma make Wanta watch it and I wanna watch it to analyze and see why I might like him XD But still. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
My memory is iffy but maybe I kinda relate to him? Who knows. I know I do have some similarities zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
I really dont have the ability to be comfortable saying I like a character just cos I like them. I need to be able to know what in specific I like :v zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
wewe know, if wewe think about it, being a hero, a famous hero, just honestly isnt fair. Its borderline toxic. At the point that someone becomes a famous hero, the pressure to constantly be the hero and be responsible of helping others and saving the siku just would consume the life of the 'hero'

Sure they are saving people and being great people, but it comes at the cost of their limited existence.

When wewe think about it like that, wewe have to pity superheroes ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog ametoa maoni…
oh they undeniably have it pretty bad. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog ametoa maoni…
As an idealist, I can assure wewe gets rough having the pressure to always remain upbeat XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
2ntyoneplts ametoa maoni…
IKR if I was a ‘hero’ I’d probably like idk zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog alisema …
I think I adequately fucked with Riku's mind right before she went to sleep. I'm satisfied with that ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog alisema …
Why does Faba not have a Flygon? ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
I AM BEING SHAMED FOR HAVING AN ESTIMATE OF 300-450 ENGLISH SONGS PICKED OUT ON THAT LIST.

FIRSTLY, THATS ONLY LIKE THE juu OF THEM EACH

SECONDLY, I ADMIT IM A muziki JUNKIE, BUT COMPARED TO SOME PEOPLE I KNOW AND ZANHAR, IM A CUTE BABY ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
THIRDLY, I HAVE AN INSTUMENTAL PLAYLIST PROBABLY 9X LONGER, A JAPANESE PLAYLIST ABOUT THE SAME LENGTH (guessing), AND A KOREAN PLAYLIST THAT IS PROBABLY A BIT SMALLER zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
THIS IS NOTHING jembe, hoe zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
*cough* My irl Marafiki have no place judging me :v zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog ametoa maoni…
My USB currently has 225 songs in the English folder. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Honestly, people in my school make fun of me for only listening to 'weeb' music, but truth is I probably like zaidi English songs than most of the people saying that. Im a muziki junkie. Its just I have so much I like that downloading all of it is overwhelming :v ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
^ #Relatable !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog ametoa maoni…
muziki is just really nice. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
2ntyoneplts ametoa maoni…
Without this muziki I don’t know how I would’ve fought this - Lane Boy |-/ zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Ha. My English teacher had us 'read' like six vitabu in preparation for the AP Exam essay, then I did my mock on Romeo and Juliet (one that wasnt one of the six) and I alisema Id probably do it on the AP Exam cos I know that one better than I should

She alisema I shouldnt because its been a while since I read it and since it doesnt cover all the topics that well and should study the other vitabu (not that I even studied R&J) ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
But fuck that XD Totally wrote my essay on Romeo and Juliet XD I know that piece too well solely cause its famous, cos I read Tybalt two years zamani and really liked his character zaidi than I should have, watched an anime version of the play (which btw, had the plot changed a lot, I recommend the anime), and cos its jsut a good piece to analyze off of since a lot of stories can take a lot of inspiration and similarities off of it zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Even one of my side stories has a lot of parallels I didn't really intentionally do zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
^ YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSS !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Despite never really watching the movie au anything, Ive always been attached to the idea and things themed / inspired from Alice in Wonderland ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Same honestly. Have always found its whole concept fascinating !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
2ntyoneplts ametoa maoni…
Me too! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Im sorry Im like.... on a tired high.

I only got 3 hours of sleep for a really busy siku XD

If I say weird stuff, enjoy XD ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog ametoa maoni…
TIRED RIKU! DON'T APOLOGIZE! COME OUT FURTHER! DO MORE! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
If I talk too much I might start casually talk about murder au shit. Im in a demented tired :v zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
2ntyoneplts ametoa maoni…
A tired high? Oh so that’s what wewe call it. That happens to me as well. So excuse any crazy stuff I say... I’m out of it a lot zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog alisema …
Seriously Riku needs to stop being all ansty about it and accept my offer to let her stab me with one of her knives. I mean sheesh. It's a flesh wound. MAYBE liver injury at worst. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Keep talking weird shit like that and itll be in the head zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
jk jk zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Honestly, I am not going to lie. I am 'crazy' and 'insane'. I used to be even zaidi so, but honestly even now I still can be. I've gone to the point of naming myself something else. I've talked way too excessively with people in my head, one of which tried to convince me I was a god before I realized I was getting way too off the rocker.

I've thought of excessively sadistic things with no guilt au shame to back it up. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Personally, I strongly accept that part of me. The closer wewe get to me, the zaidi creepy and unsettling things wewe might find my mind causing. But its honestly something I accept of myself. I am definately working out of it since it isn't a GOOD thing to be like this, but its not something Im going to let harm my esteem au hold against myself zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
I dont disclose too much of specifics of how... off... I can get at times since theres no need for that to spill out onto here, because I always sound like a psycho edgelord and I find that cringey, and because personally I dont like to attribute it to my ujumla, jumla character. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
But yeah thats just kinda a ramble zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
I want sleep ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
wewe NEED sleep !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog ametoa maoni…
Sleep? zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
GDragon612 ametoa maoni…
ya deserve sleep so much zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog alisema …
"If that's the case, then wewe owe it to yourself to pick apart the games wewe LOVE, not just the ones wewe hate."

upendo that. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Person: Im so stressed out Imma pull out my hair!

Me, a person with Trichotillomania: https://tinyurl.com/y8fvjeqz ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Honestly, I'm not the type to be like "OMG wewe ARE MAKING LITTLE OF MY DISORDER" because Trich is pretty poorly covered and that is a common saying, but I still kinda just take a pause whenever I hear it zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Cos like... bitch, kahaba I doubt wewe are literally gonna pull out your hair :v Stop appropriating my culture zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Jk jk zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
I just find it funny-ish whenever I hear that line zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog alisema …
I text Riku too much. Confirmed. RIP ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
2ntyoneplts ametoa maoni…
Ha I bet ya do! Y’all are so close! :) zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
*deep breath* *sigh* Honestly, searching for a roommate is a pain in the punda with my family issues and vulnerability issues and just my ujumla, jumla trust issues and stuff. Like I know I'll be fine regardless and I'll make Marafiki and all just fine. Its just my brain being stupid about it while I'm waiting for a reply combined with how this whole "I cant just get this done with" stuff does not fit with me who likes to get things done with before moving onto the next. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
2ntyoneplts ametoa maoni…
Good luck buddy. Try not to listen when wewe tell yourself stuff like that. You’ll get through it and everything will work out. :). [Wow. Listen to me, little motivationist. I’m trying.] Stay Alive |-/ zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Nah, to be honest, the things that concern me are genuine issues I need to keep in check. Some of the issues I have with making irl Marafiki are deep rooted with family issues of mine and I actually genuinely do sabotage them myself with how my anxiety and stuff reacts to certain things. Its a work in progress and all and I know Ill get through it XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Its just a stinkin pain in the asssss zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
2ntyoneplts alisema …
Hi I’m back! A few days is like a mwaka when wewe live here ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Welcome back zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Honestly, Im waiting for zaidi information on Osoro Shidesu specifically from Yandere Simulator. Cos honestly right now she kinda borders relatable, but there is so little actually aliyopewa out on her character.

Im super interested tho. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
She looks interesting. Has a pretty cool appearance too !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
So got back from Infinity War.

Not nearly as depressing au sad as like.... 99% of people make it out to be. Maybe its the fact I bathe in tragedy au because I write stories and tragedy as much as I do, but it didnt really hit me too hard.

Also rather predictable if wewe ask me. Like I wasnt shocked au surprised with anything other than the abrupt ending. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
With that being said. I loveeeed the movie. It was great and I honestly like how the first like... half of the movie had my vipendwa XD Thor, Loki, Dr. Strange, and Guardians of the Galaxy. Just awesome XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Oh and Stark. Thats the other one. XD juu Five Marvel Characters. ((Yes GoG is counted as one imo XD)) zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Great to know. Looking mbele to seeing it myself !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
My dad pissed me off. My dad just wants us to keep breeding my bird and wonders why we arent letting Smokey breed and every time we tell him its not healthy for them, its abusive to make them breeders for money, and that it adds to the problem that most parrots go to shitty homes, he just scoffs.

I called him out at constantly scoffing at it and hes like "You could make money"

So like. Fuck that greedy punda bastard. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Ill stuff that asshole in a cage with a woman and force them to have children for money. See how he fucking likes it. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Not really but still. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
I dont HATE him as much as I sound like I do. I just refuse to forgive him au give him any leeway au even truly see him as my dad / family until he gets his behavior straightened a bit and honestly and genuinely makes amends and realizes how shitty of a person he was / still sometimes is zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Honestly, smart charismatic people are some of the last people wewe want to trust. They can analyze people way too well, and with charisma, they can pull strings way too well to make things happe-

.... oh shit wait. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
2ntyoneplts ametoa maoni…
Lol! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Also a bila mpangilio fact

Birds are literally dinosaurs

I raise baby dinosaurs ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Also, wewe doubt it until wewe hear what baby cockatiels sound like. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
link zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Also bila mpangilio fact about Riku

On an average, I make sure to get at least 30-60 dakika of bird video within each day.

It makes me happy. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
On another note, as I begin talking of my plans for the future and all, the rate of which my upendo and knowledge on birds began to become well known rapidly sped up

At this point, I can now expect that if I hear any talk of birds between two people and there seems to be disagreement au uncertainty of facts, that within five dakika Ill hear "Hey Riku! wewe are the bird expert, give us some info on this topic!" across the room ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
2ntyoneplts ametoa maoni…
It’s expected kwa now I imagine:) zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Im just shaking my head here at this argument between two people over Akashi.

One side is arguing "Akashi doesnt care for team work and bringing people together and only cares about winning." The other side is arguing "No, Akashi is all for team work and bring people together. Its one of his strongest characteristics and his main role in his team."

And Im just like.... Neither of wewe are right au wrong. wewe are just ignoring an entire half of his character. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Like I dont even know how they just ignore one side au the other. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Honestly I really need to see "The Last Game" since there is a lot zaidi interaction between Bokushi and Oreshi. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
GONNA WATCH INFINITY WAR TODAY.

#HYPE ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
BlindBandit92 ametoa maoni…
It was a great movie. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
^ #ThanosDemandsYourSilence lol !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Annnd my dad didnt understand me when I alisema we had to leave early cos itd be busy / sold out XD So going tomorrow! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Decided to take the trumpet solo in the Game of Thrones theme for Zeppie cos she seemed happy enough that we were playing it, I figured Id do that in her name as well. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Honestly, Im tired as hell despite me constantly sleeping at least an saa au two early most nights.

I am really just a permanently exhausted and tired bun.

I just want a good night to sleep and all.

.... did I not have a weekend to rest au something? I dont really remember 5 days back XD ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
GDragon612 ametoa maoni…
take care of ya riku =( and try to sleep if ya can , want to see ya healthy zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
^ This, pretty much. Make sure wewe rest whenever wewe are able to. Still hyped for #RelaxedRikubun at some point !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
2ntyoneplts alisema …
hujambo this probably sounds really weird but I upendo wewe guys. Feel free to ignore this if wewe want. Most people either feel very uncomfortable au just don’t understand.
Stay Alive |-/ ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Its cool dood XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
nightiee ametoa maoni…
wewe too zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Most people could feel uncomfortable but I doubt that they wouldn't understand. Your feelings are much appreciated. Right back at wewe !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
So in my school we have this thing called a Senior Exit Project required to let us graduate and all where we have to present a powerpoint to a panel of teachers about our plans and all

I dont get why everyone is freaking out, trying to memorize it, and some barely passing it.

I did little to no preparation other than setting up the power point and just kwa talking about what I did for my Job Shadow and why I wanna do what I wanna do, I got a perfect score on the mock ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Relax. Talk genuinely and tell them what wewe feel and mean. Its not that hard. I get the shy introverts struggling with it, but even some of the large known extroverts are stressing out zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
2ntyoneplts ametoa maoni…
Good job. I bet you’re glad that’s over thou! |-/ zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Honestly if I watched Madoka Magica again I feel Id relate to Kyoko zaidi than I did the first time ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog ametoa maoni…
I could see wewe relating a LIL bit to Mai from Ghost Hunt zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Kyoko has always been one of the Characters that interested me the most in this Series. I am pretty curious about which Character I could mostly relate myself when I finally continue and go even further with this anime !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Yeah honestly though, I am such an extrovert.

Now that Im not a ball of anxiety, depression, angst, and massive distrust, I find that a lot of my goals surround people and having them around me and being a speaker and stuff.

Im not even an ambivert. Im a strict extrovert XD Just a highly selective one at that. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
link zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
2ntyoneplts ametoa maoni…
Wow 5hats pretty cool zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
2ntyoneplts ametoa maoni…
❤️ zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog alisema …
Alright Im back. And with an emote of my own. -x- ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
2ntyoneplts ametoa maoni…
Lol zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Good to know. Welcome back !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
GDragon612 ametoa maoni…
welcome back wanta! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
sunny
TheLefteris24 alisema …
Attention everyone! ''Rikubun'' has been added to the orodha of Nicknames available for Riku. I would like to make this Official. Fluffy Rikubun will certainly be referred to as such from now on.

KANPAI !!!! ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
2ntyoneplts ametoa maoni…
Got it :^; zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
2ntyoneplts ametoa maoni…
Uh what was that I just did?! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
^ Are wewe talking about the Emoji wewe made? It certainly seems unusual. A Typo, I guess? zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
2ntyoneplts ametoa maoni…
Yup. Lol zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
2ntyoneplts alisema …
<3 thanks for the hope ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Keep the hope alive. <3 zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Preach 🙏 !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
nightiee ametoa maoni…
Keep the jembe, hoe alive zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
2ntyoneplts ametoa maoni…
Oh Satan! XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
I always wanna write but dont have the energy and/or the creative flow XD ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Gosh Im tired XD Im still good and all tho guys. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Sorry about all the trauma talk out here lately XD I usually like to keep things fun and all, but Ive been too busy to be full on obsessed with anything, and dealing with trauma has been one of my largest focuses and goals these days XD

I dont any of wewe mind but I wanted to put that out there. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
GDragon612 ametoa maoni…
don`t say sorry riku we understand it totally zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
^ !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
BlindBandit92 ametoa maoni…
riku it's your club. You're entitled to do anything wewe want. It's a blog of sorts. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
XD I know. I just wanted to put it out there zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
sunny
TheLefteris24 alisema …
Also......

HAIL HYDRA !!!! ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
GDragon612 ametoa maoni…
xD leftie zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
XD !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
sunny
TheLefteris24 alisema …
#PidgeonLivesMatterToo !!!! ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
#PigeonLivesMatterToo zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
^ Preach !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
So I asked my therapist out of curiosity and all, and I do have PTSD apparently. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
I see. It makes a lot of sense when thinking about it !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog alisema …
Just gotta keep urging Riku to shoot someone in broad daylight. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Aye zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Riku: The Highly Selective Extrovert. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
I actually saw that while scrolling Tumblr and I think that description fits me VERY well XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Better than Ambivert tbh XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
WOW MY DAD JUST DID THE MOST CARING THING I EVER HEARD HIM DO IN ALL MY CHILDHOOD

HE OFFERED TO GO ON A WALK WITH MY MOM TO GET HER OUT OF THE HOUSE WHEN SHES DISTRESSED COS OF MY SISTER ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
omg

My mom and dad are watching a horror onyesha about where parents go crazy and try to kill their children and my dads like "Its like your husband" ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
At least we now know hes aware zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
I... Kinda have my concerns about your father watching Horror Shows... zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
^Eh... hes a child zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
What I planned on doing:
-Get all the last Z Crystals in Pokemon
-Write another piece to my stories
-Write RPs
-Relax
-Play Hitman and other Steam
-Take today off to relax and have fun as I rejected activities to do so

What I got done:
-Six scholarships
-Researched and planned out zaidi of my college stuff
-Got my Health homework done
-Researched bila mpangilio stuff
-Finished two essays for an application
-Finished everything I can do right now for Davis ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
I had a super productive day, but Im not satisfied since I barely got anything at all I planned today done XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
I did one post to the RP and like... Kinda took some Flight Rising time but thats not really there either? XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
UC Davis: For a chance at a $1000-4000 scholarship, write an essay on your leadership experiences and how it affected wewe and will continue to help wewe in the future

Me: *flips through 900 things I could talk about cos leadership has played a major role in my life and Im super thankful for it and very passionate over it* ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Dude, Id write a 14 page essay on Leadership for free bitch, kahaba zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Like I literally might even be dead if I never found myself in a leadership position some how. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
PLUS IF THEY ACCEPT ME THEY WILL BRING ME IN FOR AN INTERVIEW AND I LIKE THAT KIND OF STUFF ESPECIALLY IF ITS ON THE TOPIC OF LEADERSHIP zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Personally, I dont really believe too much in not chasing what I want. Its part of the reason I cant sit and relax too much, but if I determine I want something, I weigh out how badly Im willing to want it, then charge full on ahead.

I make excuses from time to time, but if I cant get something done in the long run, its often capable to blame myself for not taking action. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
At least partially blame myself that is. There is a level of rationality to how much one can and cannot control zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Honestly, I personally wonder where I stand on the trauma scale. I know I probably fit under the "traumatized" title, but I dont really know if I actually fit one of the trauma disorders. Its something Ill probably ask my therapist au psychiatrist about at some point. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
I'm probably a lot better now. Had a really bad moment related to shitty stuff of the past and all but direclty after a lot of the depression and massive amounts of anxiety withdrew for the most part. Ive been shakey when I wake up for the past few days, but I think Im good so for anyone worried au concerned, I should be fine.

Thank wewe so much to everyone who watched out for me and helped. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Some part of the whole fiasco with Wanta 'triggered' something I think and it kind of let zaidi of my really bad mental state thats usually disappears when Im online carried in zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Im back to normal I think. And now that I see a massive unprocessed wound, Ill probably take goals to addressing it in my inayofuata therapy session and individually on my own. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
It is certainly good to know about the progress that has been made and will continue to do so. For the both of you, I hope. Always here when needed, Riku. We upendo wewe too !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
We officially have a baby bird. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
NOICE! A NEW MEMBER IN THE FLOCK! CONGRATULATIONS, FANPOP'S LOCAL BIRDKEEPER !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
We might have two zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
GDragon612 ametoa maoni…
congrats riku our birdmum =D *throws confetti and open a bottle of chamapaigne*, for the non alcoholics juisi xD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
#StartingTheHitmanSeriesFromTheLastGame ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Honestly though.

Akashi I am officially going to call my inayopendelewa character from now on. He super deserves it. He absolutely does deserve it. Outside of loving the character, he has always been consistently a significant figure in helping me process and work through issues, helping me make the right decision, calming down, self reflecting, etc.

And fun fact, his video can calm down one of my poor mental states so quickly and successfully ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
That I have this thing on my phone called "Emergency Akashi" since I could be in a really bad mental state and if I recognize it, Akashi video can almost always return that bad mental state to AT LEAST a neutral au calm and managable mental state zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Even if his character sucked ass, the fact one fictional item could have helped me so much through my mental health journey and all, it alone is deserving of it zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Yeah Im doing better now but honestly, I still need to take time to chill. Who knows I might wake up and have another bad time au something. I cant be sure but Imma take it somewhat easy. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
I apologize if it takes me a bit to get back to being my old energetic and peppy self I like to be on here and usually am.

The hivi karibuni events through me into a bad loop and pool that might take a while to fully get out of.

Im alright though. I just don't feel in the right place to have the energy and exorbitant positivity I usually do. Its not anything Wanta did au anything Im pretty sure.

Thank wewe to everyone that has been putting effort into this situation and helping me out. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Zeppie ametoa maoni…
Take all the time wewe need. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
It is understandable really. Take your time, Riku !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Feeling better ish rn zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
A little zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Figuring out which Akashi ikoni to use when wewe have so many is hard. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Literally every time I want to display a new ikoni showcasing vipendwa of mine. It takes a while !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
For me I have to like the ikoni and have that feeling like my mood at the moment likes the ikoni either cos it represent it au because it soothes au it just feels fitting at the time zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Its liking it and then finding one that I feel is kinda nice at the moment and like the look of how it looks when I post zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Same here XD Relatabilty is a major factor when I am going to display an Icon. It makes things all the zaidi harder honestly with such a variety !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
I can always rely on Akashi and KnB to neutralize shitty mental health crap. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
bila mpangilio Anxiety: "I want to die."

Me: How about no wewe over-dramatic sensitive edgelord? Take your damn punda medicine ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
I don't have time this morning to read through the uh... five au six messages since on early start days I always wake up for just barely enough time to work through my regular routine.

But I see there is a lot of misunderstanding the in meaning and intent of the words.

And also, I figured with how often Ive talked about my issues with relationships with other people before addressing it with them to wewe specifically, that wewe knew the difference between mine and Zeppie's stance ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
I dont believe in going directly to the friend if the situation is serious au important enough. Doing that is how wewe make bad, emotional, and irrational ideas off of current feelings. For major and very important issues, it is best to go to other people for advice and a sekunde opinion. Ive always lived kwa that and only kept my avoidance of following it for Zeppie in specific since she gets majorly hurt kwa it otherwise. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
I wanted to say that one for everyone who reads this. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
BlindBandit92 ametoa maoni…
Honestly I might be out of turn. But if something is really important. I wouldn't make an exception. It might seems like I would be a dick au something. But I rather be a dick than let a problem fester with no easy way au solving it. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog ametoa maoni…
Feel free to say your peace as much as wewe like, Blind. Riku apparently won't talk to me about it for another saa so...*shrug* zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog alisema …
Everyone gets all upset when things that aren't directly related to the story in Pokemon games are not post game. I loved jiunge Avenue from Black 2 and White 2. I loved where they placed it and found it entirely relevant and helpful ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
wewe know, one of the shittiest things about mental health, especially as a kid and teenager, is that it steals away your childhood.

A lot of people have good memories of their high school life, they remember the fun with their friends, they remember all the fun risks and activities they did...

But when it comes to mental health, wewe just kind of have all those times stolen.

I personally realize... As a senior, I'm far too late to regather them

But Ill cherish what I have. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Ill be happy that I have it right now and not let what I have left go to waste because of what I already Lost zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
I do wish I could have my childhood back, heck I wish I could REMEMBER my childhood again, but theres no point in crying over spilt milk. Past is past, its time to accept it and songesha on. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
I owe people in my highschool zaidi credit and appreciation than I give them since I've spent most of my time around them being a reserved, angsty, emotionally-scared child.

Like one of my Marafiki from 7th grade... never really opened up at all to him. Apparently I was a huge inspiration and role model for him. We talked a lot but it was really one sided

au the trumpet brother of mine I'm not dating. He dealt with so much of my stupid jokes and I upendo him. Hes family. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Those two really helped me out even if it was no where near direct. Honestly, they both opened their doors to me if I ever needed to escape my house even though they dont even know the tiniest tip of the iceberg of how horrible my house can and could get zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Ill be honest. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
For the first time, Ill say it. I will miss them. I will be sad. But its not bad. Its kind of nice. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Geesh. Lucy - The Eternity She Wished For is a super sad story

#FeelsBad

#Sad ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
College: Has your dad been physically present in California for at least three years-

Me: Not emotionally present but sure I guess hes been physically present ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
"And squaring numbers are just like women, if they are under thirteen just.. do them in your head" ~ Bo Burnham ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Thats actually going to be my klabu new quote zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
True, I suppose !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
My body is so damn worn out XD

Going to the fitness center for like 45 dakika is always good for when the brain is being stupid. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
#Relatable !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
It is great to know Riku. Exercise will do wewe pretty good !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Heres to never having heard your dad ever say the word "love" "care" au "proud" to wewe in a positive way over the seventeen almost eighteen years of being alive.

Heres to him instead liking to get violent and yelling when anyone even remotely asks for him to say something remotely similar to it

Heres to him getting your therapist to give up after thirty dakika of being asked to compliment you. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
At the very least I get "good jobs" here and there for doing good things regarding his money and my money. Its something. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
TFW wewe get hit kwa a sudden wave of mild depression and anxiety and are about to post about it

Then realize wewe forgot to take your anxiety medication this breakfast and thats probably part of it. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Honestly, I dont think I can watch the new season of Supernatural au really much of any of it until I deal with my issues entirely.

It brings back bad flashes of really bad coping mechanisms and mental states I used to way too heavily relate to back when I practically binge watched it.

Sam and Dean are strong members of my relatable character list, but theres a reason for it. Some of those nukuu hit way too close to nyumbani and their dynamic feels too personal. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Like anyone else get that 'flash' feeling in their head when something reminds them of something unpleasant au tempts to bring wewe back into a awali bad mental state? Like wewe dont actually fall back to it, but wewe feel the pull for a sekunde in your head and its kinda uncomfortable but not immensely so? zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Like a mini panic of a warning? zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
XD this is just a swali for anyone XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
@Me a mwaka zamani saying "Am I the only one that wonders when my signature would randomly become something fancy? Like adults seem to always have one (parents and all) and some of my classmates have one then theres me thats all like "What is cursive?"

Yes, it did happen. I dont know when but it did ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Honestly going through my ukuta for an makala is interesting cos firstly, this ikoni makes all the posts super hilarious and secondly, because Im really realizing how horrifically depressed I was.

Even zaidi shocking since I actually tried not to post it on here too much and to keep it subtle.

Honestly super concerned for my past self ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Me: Okay I literally wasted an saa of my time doing the most stupid and wasteful things. Before I can feel comfortable doing osmething slightly unproductive but also not stupid and wasteful, I have to do something fully productive. *groan* Ugh fine ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Flights Rising is literally the largest waste of my time but I still do it so much XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog ametoa maoni…
That's me with whatever bila mpangilio app has my interest for the mwezi XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Honestly, I have a weird relationship with change. I hate change coming into my life up until it hits me and there is no return. Cos once I jump straight into it au get run over kwa whatever change came my way, I just kind of go 100% into it and embrace it to the point I upendo it.

Im someone really happy and comfortable with my natural normal schedule, but Im also someone who likes to take change as an opportunity to massively fix things. So its just interesting. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Im officially committed to UC Davis XD

God I have to many massively long trips coming up in the future ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
That is great to know. Wish wewe all the best Riku. Have a good progress most of all !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog alisema …
Pokemon knew what they were doing when they let wewe name your rival. Honestly it's the most cathartic release. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
IM FINALLY nyumbani AFTER A 15 saa ROUND TRIP OF DRIVING OVER A LIKE 35 TRIP OVERALL.

IM FINALLY NOT SITTING

...

and Im back at my computer. :) Nice. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Maybe even 16 hours idk XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Welcome back XD !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Honestly, being a "leader" is a great feeling and isnt something Id really ever want to give up. I always upendo having a team that I can work with and helping them / maximizing their potentials and getting work done and all.

Plus the respect and ability to influence another person's life positively is always nice. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Watching a PS4 gamer try PC Gaming for the first time is hilarious. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Currently off in Davis checking out UC Davis today and tomorrow. Took like... an eight saa drive to get here but Im here. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
link

Please do take and enjoy.

Wanta and I put a lot of work into it XD ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
I certainly did enjoyed it. Well done, to both of wewe !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog alisema …
Riku confirmed that Professor Oak is a Totem Pokemon in Pokemon Ultra Sun and Ultra Moon and can be unlocked with a sticker. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
There is something really wonderful about learning about yourself in all ways possible. Looking deep inside yourself and finding all the good, bad, weaknesses, and strengths and accepting them. Its really wonderful to be honest.

I never loved myself zaidi than when I started doing this.

It hurts like Lucifer's wrath on steroids at first, but the longer and longer wewe do it... the zaidi magical and wonderful and secure and confident wewe feel. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
It is certainly wonderful recognizing that. As I alisema before, pretty admirable !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Seeing wewe making those positive remarks alone feels pretty satisfying to me as well :') !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
God Im tired XD ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Being tired honestly isnt good for my mental state Im guessing. Go wonder XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Im alright tho. Its just amusing the amount of intrusive thoughts Ive been playing baseball with zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
#StrikeAllThoseHomeruns zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Relatable XD !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog alisema …
Riku is oppressing me! ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog alisema …
Never name your Pokemon after mental issues.

Duskull used Foresight.

Codependance was identified.

Me: "...." ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
:v zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Honestly, if I got into Harry Potter, Id probably fall in upendo with Snape. The issue however is that Harry Potter is everywhere. After nyota Wars and Kylo, I fear having two maarufu series holding characters I upendo ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
BlindBandit92 ametoa maoni…
wewe would upendo Snape. Snape would be hands down your favorite. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
He currently is from the little, tiny bit I know from the series XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
^^ I agree about Snape as well. He certainly is your kind of Character XD !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Jeesh. Yuki Kajura is an amazing composer. Pandora Hearts OST, Fate OST, Madoka Magica OST, Sword Art Online OST, Tsubasa Chronicles OST.

Those are all some of my inayopendelewa works geesh.

*knows zaidi anime osts than animes* ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
I have listened to some of them and I agree that there are quite a few amazing Tracks. Pretty interested to check out the rest !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
BlindBandit92 ametoa maoni…
You've listened to the fate ost even though wewe haven't really seen the anime? lol zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
wewe continue to sin, Riku. Not that I cannot understand that but still lol !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
I decided and I am committing to it.

I am going to process through my trauma and try to see if I can clear the fog on my memories and bring back, experience, remember, and accept what happened for everything it is.

Its not going to be fun, but I want to be able to pull myself back together before I leave off to college.

Honestly the hard part is though I only get really bad over my trauma when its abruptly brought up. I dont really get connected to it much on command ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
The thing about trauma though, especially at a young age, is that it steals away a lot of yourself and a lot of your ability to be an entire person. wewe forget a lot. wewe loose your history and your past. wewe loose your childhood. wewe loose your sense of identity. wewe become a grandly incomplete person zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
I really cant be me at my full potential until I work through it fully so as much as I hate it, I want to do the most with my life. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
That is quite an admirable way to look at things, Riku. Making peace with the past is a major step towards one's Improvement. I too believe wewe can do it. There is no doubt about that !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Honestly one of the things i appreciate the most in Marafiki and people close to me are people who have experienced stuggle and can manage and handle it well.

I really appreciate and like that since they usually do good with advice and keeping me under control when Im at my worst. c: ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
I often, especially in thr past, need people who can handle and keep things in a good perspective while keeping me from doing anything stupid off of stress au anything zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Cos I can lack self control at times and have too many demons on my shoulder. Its kinda why I like Lefteris a lot. Hes my "positive echo chamber". Hes full of nice health lines to encourage positive growth. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
I am all about encouraging one's Growth XD It helps when I feel myself strongly relating with alisema person. I am always here for you, Riku ^_^ !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
DUDE. POKEMON GENERATIONS LOOKS SICK.

THEY A ADDRESSED POKEMON BLACK 2 AND WHITE 2 SCENE SO NICE.

IMMA WATCH IT. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog alisema …
Wantadog's depressing introspective about Love.

upendo is nice when wewe think of it like "Oh two people who were meant for each other" but sadly the case is that when they say true upendo is one in a million, they mean it. 90% of relationships are not true love. 90% of marriages are not true love. 90% of true upendo CASES are NOT true love. Odds are no one here has even seen "true love" in action. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog ametoa maoni…
"Love is not equal" zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog ametoa maoni…
I won't dismiss someone else's relationship, but my statement on the main post holds true. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
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^ I'll have to agree with it !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
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Three cheers for depressing yourself kwa asking for the impossible ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
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Also, Im a really strong advocate for taking medication for mental health issues, especially when it starts to get too extreme.

Taking medication for anxiety, no matter how much actually thinking about taking it gave me zaidi anxiety, was probably one of the best decisions of my life

It lowered how bad my anxiety got to a manageable level. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Personally before I got it, I got the horrible feeling like I was going to kill my real self off. It felt like a half assed indirect suicide. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
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I actually got super suicidal over it I think. But it really helped in the long run. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
I mean I was already suicidal during that time, thats why my therapist was like "You really need to see a psychiatrist and get medication", but it made it worse zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
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Ive been on medication for like.... ten months I think now. Its been helpful without a doubt zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
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Its interesting how Psychosis and Dissociation are commonly seen talked about in the same areas. They are strictly different, but I can see where a lot of the similarities come in play.

Psychosis is a break away from reality, dissociation is a cut off from reality. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Baujel is such a wonderful character zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
The only issue I have to be honest with uandishi his character is that I kwa no means depict him kwa his actual age XD There is no way a kid would act this way at his age XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
But sh.. this isnt a formal uandishi peace. I dont have to be that realistic. Its just hobby uandishi and its a side story to depict things. Maybe Im uandishi it how he remembers it so it comes out as zaidi mature since people have trouble fully making themselves as immature as they were when they think back to their past experiences :v zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
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tfw wewe have symptoms of a large portion of mental health issues but write a character whose main issue is the ONE wewe dont so wewe gotta research :v ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
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Okay I decided. I will upendo Lusamine begrudgingly ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Riku: I hate you... But I upendo you... But I hate wewe !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Accurate zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
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But for people that struggle to realize the difference between "OCD" ins a colloquial sense and OCD in a literal diagnosis sense, the single phrase of "If I dont do _____, then ________ will happen / ____ might happen" paired with genuine anxiety if the latter statement occurs to the point it locks wewe into doing the first statement. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita