Inspired kwa the song Outside Looking IN kwa Jordan Pruitt.
Most people ignored me because I wasn’t like the rest of them. Everyone was so outgoing and in fashion, but even though I knew the trends I was always ignored. I was on the outside of the group ever since that rumor spread like wildfire. I was now my own best friend. It was sad to think a person I used to call my best friend turned on me. I remember that siku like yesterday.
I was walking in the hall to my class when I overheard my five best Marafiki talking. They were talking about me and how I always brought them down in fights because I was always the first one to get hurt. I couldn’t help that my powers weren’t as strong and flashy as them. If that wasn’t bad enough, kwa four saa I was called all different names as tears splattered onto my notebook. I found out later that siku on social media sites the rumor that was spread. It started from my roommates, and now I ate my lunch in the bathroom all alone. I was alone from that point on.
The memory still stings because I told them all my secrets, and now everyone knew them. I wish I could just disappear au have everyone forget about it all. I sat in my room uandishi in my diary as everyone partied in the courtyard. I saw the tears stain each and every page I wrote on. Soon enough the words became smeared from where my tears hit the ink. I checked my phone where every message they sent to me I save so I could print them for later, so people could see the pain I went through. As I went on my profaili page, I blocked zaidi people I used to call my friends. At this point the only people who weren’t blocked were my family and Helia. Although the two of us broke up, he didn’t stoop to their low levels because he actually cared about my feelings. I placed my diary under my mattress, and headed to the bathroom.
In the bathroom, I took my pink lipstick and wrote on the mirror I’m sorry that I not the person wewe all want me to be, but I rather be on the outside looking in then talk about people the way the five of wewe do. I’m actually glad wewe aren’t my Marafiki anymore because maybe wewe were the ones holding me back from reaching my full potential. Sincerely, Flora.
I walked back to my room and placed my diary in my mfuko wa fedha, mfuko while getting a new journal out from my drawer. The journal was pink, floral and had a hot pink embroidered F on the front in cursive. I reached for a pen on my dawati before sitting down on my bed. I opened the journal and began to write. I wrote Dear Bloom, Layla, Musa, Stella and Tecna,
I’m pretty sure wewe all saw the note I wrote on the mirror. I thought wewe would go through my stuff, so I decided I would write wewe all a letter first. To begin with I cannot believe how much wewe all changed from when I first met wewe all. Back then I was glad I had best Marafiki like you, but now I’m glad I’m on the outside. wewe say I’ve been holding wewe back this whole time, but in reality the only person who can stop wewe from achieving your goals is yourself. Sorry I’m not all into fashion, technology, music, dance, shopping, and partying like wewe all, but I rather be myself and happy then fake a lifestyle just to have friends. Sure those rumors and lies hurt because they came from the people I had so many memories with and called my “best friends”, but remember wewe were the ones to end that not me. I may be overlooked and ostracized kwa the school from that rumor, but it’s only high school. Popularity and friendship won’t matter once we graduate so if I have to live in a world behind your backs to achieve my goals, sign me up. We still are roommates and have to pass each other that way, but feel free to say whatever wewe want about me because I’m happy with who I am and still am because I didn’t change who I was because I wanted popularity. Hope a dose of reality hits wewe soon.
[b]Author's note: I wrote this about a situation that happened during my freshmen mwaka of high school in about January, so not too long after I joined fanpop. Basically three people I've been Marafiki with since elementary school, turned on me. Honestly at first I didn't believe it when someone told me they were saying things about me behind my back, but the sekunde time is when I removed them from my life. They were toxic and everyone has people in their life that are toxic. Sure at first I was hurt, but when I told them they can say whatever they want about me because I honestly don't care about their opinions because it just shows their character, I felt so much better. So ya that's just a little insight to why I wrote this one shot.