No one is staring at you, I promised myself. No one is staring at you. No one is
staring at you.
But, because I couldn’t lie convincingly even to myself, I had to check.
As I sat waiting for one of the three traffic lights in town to turn green, I peeked
to the right—in her minivan, Mrs. Weber had turned her whole torso in my
direction. Her eyes bored into mine, and I flinched back, wondering why she
didn’t drop her gaze au look ashamed. It was still considered rude to stare at
people, wasn’t it? Didn’t that apply to me anymore?
Then I remembered that these windows were so darkly tinted that she probably
had no idea if it was even me in here, let alone that I’d caught her looking. I tried
to take some comfort in the fact that she wasn’t really staring at me, just the car.
My car. Sigh.
I glanced to the left and groaned. Two pedestrians were frozen on the sidewalk,
missing their chance to kuvuka, msalaba as they stared. Behind them, Mr. Marshall was
gawking through the plate-glass window of his little souvenir shop. At least he
didn’t have his nose pressed up against the glass. Yet.
The light turned green and, in my hurry to escape, I stomped on the gas pedal
without thinking—the normal way I would have punched it to get my ancient
Chevy truck moving.
Engine snarling like a hunting panther, the car jolted mbele so fast that my
body slammed into the black leather kiti, kiti cha and my stomach flattened against my
“Arg!” I gasped as I fumbled for the brake. Keeping my head, I merely tapped the
pedal. The car lurched to an absolute standstill anyway.
I couldn’t kubeba to look around at the reaction. If there had been any doubt as to
who was driving this car before, it was gone now. With the toe of my shoe, I
gently nudged the gas pedal down one half millimeter, and the car shot forward
I managed to reach my goal, the gas station. If I hadn’t been running on vapors, I
wouldn’t have come into town at all. I was going without a lot of things these
days, like Pop-Tarts and shoelaces, to avoid spending time in public.
Moving as if I were in a race, I got the hatch open, the cap, herufi kubwa off, the card scanned,
and the nozzle in the tank within seconds. Of course, there was nothing I could do
to make the numbers on the gauge pick up the pace. They ticked kwa sluggishly,
almost as if they were doing it just to annoy me.
It wasn’t bright out—a typical drizzly siku in Forks, Washington—but I still felt
like a spotlight was trained on me, drawing attention to the delicate ring on my
left hand. At times like this, sensing the eyes on my back, it felt as if the ring were
pulsing like a neon sign: Look at me, look at me.
It was stupid to be so self-conscious, and I knew that. Besides my dad and mom,
did it really matter what people were saying about my engagement? About my
new car? About my mysterious acceptance into an Ivy League college? About the
shiny black credit card that felt red-hot in my back pocket right now?
“Yeah, who cares what they think,” I muttered under my breath.
“Um, miss?” a man’s voice called.
I turned, and then wished I hadn’t.
Two men stood beside a fancy SUV with brand-new kayaks tied to the top.
Neither of them was looking at me; they both were staring at the car.
Personally, I didn’t get it. But then, I was just proud I could distinguish between
the symbols for Toyota, Ford, and Chevy. This car was glossy black, sleek, and
pretty, but it was still just a car to me.
“I’m sorry to bother you, but could wewe tell me what kind of car you’re driving?”
the tall one asked.
“Um, a Mercedes, right?”
“Yes,” the man alisema politely while his shorter friend rolled his eyes at my answer.
“I know. But I was wondering, is that… are wewe driving a Mercedes Guardian?”
The man alisema the name with reverence. I had a feeling this guy would get along
well with Edward Cullen, my… my fiancé (there really was no getting around that
truth with the wedding just days away). “They aren’t supposed to be available in
Europe yet,” the man went on, “let alone here.”
While his eyes traced the contours of my car—it didn’t look much different from
any other Mercedes sedan to me, but what did I know?—I briefly contemplated
my issues with words like fiancé, wedding, husband, etc.
I just couldn’t put it together in my head.
On the one hand, I had been raised to cringe at the very thought of poofy white
dresses and bouquets. But zaidi than that, I just couldn’t reconcile a staid,
respectable, dull concept like husband with my concept of Edward. It was like
casting an archangel as an accountant; I couldn’t visualize him in any
Like always, as soon as I started thinking about Edward I was caught up in a dizzy
spin of fantasies. The stranger had to clear his throat to get my attention; he was
still waiting for an answer about the car’s make and model.
“I don’t know,” I told him honestly.
“Do wewe mind if I take a picture with it?”
It took me a sekunde to process that. “Really? wewe want to take a picture with the
“Sure—nobody is going to believe me if I don’t get proof.”
“Um. Okay. Fine.”
I swiftly put away the nozzle and crept into the front kiti, kiti cha to hide while the
enthusiast dug a huge professional-looking camera out of his backpack. He and
his friend took turns posing kwa the hood, and then they went to take pictures at
the back end.
“I miss my truck,” I whimpered to myself.
Very, very convenient—too convenient—that my truck would wheeze its last
wheeze just weeks after Edward and I had agreed to our lopsided compromise,
one detail of which was that he be allowed to replace my truck when it passed on.
Edward swore it was only to be expected; my truck had lived a long, full life and
then muda wake umeisha of natural causes. According to him. And, of course, I had no way to
verify his story au to try to raise my truck from the dead on my own. My favorite
I stopped that thought cold, refusing to let it come to a conclusion. Instead, I
listened to the men’s voices outside, muted kwa the car walls.
“. . . went at it with a flamethrower in the online video. Didn’t even pucker the
“Of course not. wewe could roll a tank over this baby. Not much of a market for one
over here. Designed for Middle East diplomats, arms dealers, and drug lords
“Think she’s something?” the short one asked in a softer voice. I ducked my head,
“Huh,” the tall one said. “Maybe. Can’t imagine what you’d need missile-proof
glass and four thousand pounds of body armor for around here. Must be headed
somewhere zaidi hazardous.”
Body armor. Four thousand pounds of body armor. And missile-proof glass?
Nice. What had happened to good kikale, kale fashioned bulletproof?
Well, at least this made some sense—if wewe had a twisted sense of humor.
It wasn’t like I hadn’t expected Edward to take advantage of our deal, to weight it
on his side so that he could give so much zaidi than he would receive. I’d agreed
that he could replace my truck when it needed replacing, not expecting that
moment to come quite so soon, of course. When I’d been forced to admit that the
truck had become no zaidi than a still-life tribute to classic Chevys on my curb, I
knew his idea of a replacement was probably going to embarrass me. Make me
the focus of stares and whispers. I’d been right about that part. But even in my
darkest imaginings I had not foreseen that he would get me two cars.
The “before” car and the “after” car, he’d explained when I’d flipped out.
This was just the “before” car. He’d told me it was a loaner and promised that he
was returning it after the wedding. It all had made absolutely no sense to me.
Ha ha. Because I was so fragilely human, so accident-prone, so much a victim to
my own dangerous bad luck, apparently I needed a tank-resistant car to keep me
safe. Hilarious. I was sure he and his brothers had enjoyed the joke quite a bit
behind my back.
au maybe, just maybe, a small voice whispered in my head, it’s not a joke, silly.
Maybe he’s really that worried about you. This wouldn’t be the first time he’s
gone a little overboard trying to protect you.
I hadn’t seen the “after” car yet. It was hidden under a sheet in the deepest corner
of the Cullens’ garage. I knew most people would have peeked kwa now, but I really
didn’t want to know.
Probably no body armor on that car—because I wouldn’t need it after the
honeymoon. Virtual indestructibility was just one of the many perks I was
looking mbele to. The best parts about being a Cullen were not expensive cars
and impressive credit cards.
“Hey,” the tall man called, cupping his hands to the glass in an effort to peer in.
“We’re done now. Thanks a lot!”
“You’re welcome,” I called back, and then tensed as I started the engine and eased
the pedal—ever so gently—down. . . .
No matter how many times I drove down the familiar road home, I still couldn’t
make the rain-faded flyers fade into the background. Each one of them, stapled to
telephone poles and taped to mitaani, mtaa signs, was like a fresh slap in the face. A welldeserved
slap in the face. My mind was sucked back into the thought I’d
interrupted so immediately before. I couldn’t avoid it on this road. Not with
pictures of my inayopendelewa mechanic flashing past me at regular intervals.
My best friend. My Jacob.
The HAVE wewe SEEN THIS BOY? posters were not Jacob’s father’s idea. It had been
my father, Charlie, who’d printed up the flyers and spread them all over town.
And not just Forks, but Port Angeles and Sequim and Hoquiam and Aberdeen
and every other town in the Olympic Peninsula. He’d made sure that all the police
stations in the state of Washington had the same flyer hanging on the wall, too.
His own station had a whole corkboard dedicated to finding Jacob. A corkboard
that was mostly empty, much to his disappointment and frustration.
My dad was disappointed with zaidi than the lack of response. He was most
disappointed with Billy, Jacob’s father—and Charlie’s closest friend.
For Billy’s not being zaidi involved with the tafuta for his sixteen-year-old
“runaway.” For Billy’s refusing to put up the flyers in La Push, the reservation on
the coast that was Jacob’s home. For his seeming resigned to Jacob’s
disappearance, as if there was nothing he could do. For his saying, “Jacob’s
grown up now. He’ll come nyumbani if he wants to.”
And he was frustrated with me, for taking Billy’s side.
I wouldn’t put up posters, either. Because both Billy and I knew where Jacob was,
roughly speaking, and we also knew that no one had seen this boy.
The flyers put the usual big, fat lump in my throat, the usual stinging tears in my
eyes, and I was glad Edward was out hunting this Saturday. If Edward saw my
reaction, it would only make him feel terrible, too.
Of course, there were drawbacks to it being Saturday. As I turned slowly and
carefully onto my street, I could see my dad’s police cruiser in the driveway of our
home. He’d skipped fishing again today. Still sulking about the wedding.
So I wouldn’t be able to use the phone inside. But I had to call. . . .
I parked on the curb behind the Chevy sculpture and pulled the cell phone
Edward had aliyopewa me for emergencies out of the glove, glovu compartment. I dialed,
keeping my finger on the “end” button as the phone rang. Just in case.
“Hello?” Seth Clearwater answered, and I sighed in relief. I was way too chicken
to speak to his older sister, Leah. The phrase “bite my head off” was not entirely a
figure of speech when it came to Leah.
“Hey, Seth, it’s Bella.”
“Oh, hiya, Bella! How are you?”
Choked up. Desperate for reassurance. “Fine.”
“Calling for an update?”
“Not hardly. I’m no Alice—you’re just predictable,” he joked. Among the Quileute
pack down at La Push, only Seth was comfortable even mentioning the Cullens by
name, let alone joking about things like my nearly omniscient sister-in-law-to-be.
“I know I am.” I hesitated for a minute. “How is he?”
Seth sighed. “Same as ever. He won’t talk, though we know he hears us. He’s
trying not to think human, wewe know. Just going with his instincts.”
“Do wewe know where he is now?”
“Somewhere in northern Canada. I can’t tell wewe which province. He doesn’t pay
much attention to state lines.”
“Any hint that he might . . .”
“He’s not coming home, Bella. Sorry.”
I swallowed. “S’okay, Seth. I knew before I asked. I just can’t help wishing.”
“Yeah. We all feel the same way.”
“Thanks for putting up with me, Seth. I know the others must give wewe a hard
“They’re not your hugest fans,” he agreed cheerfully. “Kind of lame, I think. Jacob
made his choices, wewe made yours. Jake doesn’t like their attitude about it.
’Course, he isn’t super thrilled that you’re checking up on him, either.”
I gasped. “I thought he wasn’t talking to you?”
“He can’t hide everything from us, hard as he’s trying.”
So Jacob knew I was worried. I wasn’t sure how I felt about that. Well, at least he
knew I hadn’t skipped off into the sunset and forgotten him completely. He might
have imagined me capable of that.
“I guess I’ll see wewe at the… wedding,” I said, forcing the word out through my
“Yeah, me and my mom will be there. It was cool of wewe to ask us.”
I smiled at the enthusiasm in his voice. Though inviting the Clearwaters had been
Edward’s idea, I was glad he’d thought of it. Having Seth there would be nice—a
link, however tenuous, to my missing best man. “It wouldn’t be the same without
“Tell Edward I alisema hi, ’kay?”
I shook my head. The friendship that had sprung up between Edward and Seth
was something that still boggled my mind. It was proof, though, that things didn’t
have to be this way. That Wanyonya damu and mtu-bweha could get along just fine,
thank wewe very much, if they were of a mind to.
Not everybody liked this idea.
“Ah,” Seth said, his voice cracking up an octave. “Er, Leah’s home.”
The phone went dead. I left it on the kiti, kiti cha and prepared myself mentally to go
inside the house, where Charlie would be waiting.
My poor dad had so much to deal with right now. Jacob-the-runaway was just
one of the straws on his overburdened back. He was almost as worried about me,
his barely-a-legal-adult daughter who was about to become a Mrs. in just a few
I walked slowly through the light rain, remembering the night we’d told him. . . .
As the sound of Charlie’s cruiser announced his return, the ring suddenly
weighed a hundred pounds on my finger. I wanted to shove my left hand in a
pocket, au maybe sit on it, but Edward’s cool, firm grasp kept it front and center.
“Stop fidgeting, Bella. Please try to remember that you’re not confessing to a
“Easy for wewe to say.”
I listened to the ominous sound of my father’s boots clomping up the sidewalk.
The key rattled in the already open door. The sound reminded me of that part of
the horror movie when the victim realizes she’s forgotten to lock her deadbolt.
“Calm down, Bella,” Edward whispered, listening to the acceleration of my heart.
The door slammed against the wall, and I flinched like I’d been Tasered.
“Hey, Charlie,” Edward called, entirely relaxed.
“No!” I protested under my breath.
“What?” Edward whispered back.
“Wait till he hangs his gun up!”
Edward chuckled and ran his free hand through his tousled bronze hair.
Charlie came around the corner, still in his uniform, still armed, and tried not to
make a face when he spied us sitting together on the loveseat. Lately, he’d been
putting forth a lot of effort to like Edward more. Of course, this revelation was
sure to end that effort immediately.
“Hey, kids. What’s up?”
“We’d like to talk to you,” Edward said, so serene. “We have some good news.”
Charlie’s expression went from strained friendliness to black suspicion in a
“Good news?” Charlie growled, looking straight at me.
“Have a seat, Dad.”
He raised one eyebrow, stared at me for five seconds, then stomped to the
recliner and sat down on the very edge, his back ramrod straight.
“Don’t get worked up, Dad,” I alisema after a moment of loaded silence.
Edward grimaced, and I knew it was in objection to the word okay. He probably
would have used something zaidi like wonderful au perfect au glorious.
“Sure it is, Bella, sure it is. If everything is so great, then why are wewe sweating
“I’m not sweating,” I lied.
I leaned away from his fierce scowl, cringing into Edward, and instinctively wiped
the back of my right hand across my forehead to remove the evidence.
“You’re pregnant!” Charlie exploded. “You’re pregnant, aren’t you?”
Though the swali was clearly meant for me, he was glaring at Edward now,
and I could have sworn I saw his hand twitch toward the gun.
“No! Of course I’m not!” I wanted to elbow Edward in the ribs, but I knew that
songesha would only give me a bruise. I’d told Edward that people would
immediately jump to this conclusion! What other possible reason would sane
people have for getting married at eighteen? (His answer then had made me roll
my eyes. Love. Right.)
Charlie’s glower lightened a shade. It was usually pretty clear on my face when I
was telling the truth, and he believed me now. “Oh. Sorry.”
There was a long pause. After a moment, I realized everyone was waiting for me
to say something. I looked up at Edward, panic-stricken. There was no way I was
going to get the words out.
He smiled at me and then squared his shoulders and turned to my father.
“Charlie, I realize that I’ve gone about this out of order. Traditionally, I should
have asked wewe first. I mean no disrespect, but since Bella has already alisema yes
and I don’t want to diminish her choice in the matter, instead of asking wewe for
her hand, I’m asking wewe for your blessing. We’re getting married, Charlie. I love
her zaidi than anything in the world, zaidi than my own life, and—by some
miracle—she loves me that way, too. Will wewe give us your blessing?”
He sounded so sure, so calm. For just an instant, listening to the absolute
confidence in his voice, I experienced a rare moment of insight. I could see,
fleetingly, the way the world looked to him. For the length of one heartbeat, this
news made perfect sense.
And then I caught sight of the expression on Charlie’s face, his eyes now locked
on the ring.
I held my breath while his skin changed colors—fair to red, red to purple, purple
to blue. I started to get up—I’m not sure what I planned to do; maybe use the
Heimlich maneuver to make sure he wasn’t choking—but Edward squeezed my
hand and murmured “Give him a minute” so low that only I could hear.
The silence was much longer this time. Then, gradually, shade kwa shade, Charlie’s
color returned to normal. His lips pursed, and his eyebrows furrowed; I recognized his “deep in thought” expression. He studied the two of us for a long
moment, and I felt Edward relax at my side.
“Guess I’m not that surprised,” Charlie grumbled. “Knew I’d have to deal with
something like this soon enough.”
“You sure about this?” Charlie demanded, glaring at me.
“I’m one hundred percent sure about Edward,” I told him without missing a beat.
“Getting married, though? What’s the rush?” He eyed me suspiciously again.
The rush was due to the fact that I was getting closer to nineteen every stinking
day, while Edward stayed frozen in all his seventeen-year-old perfection, as he
had for over ninety years. Not that this fact necessitated marriage in my book,
but the wedding was required due to the delicate and Tangled compromise
Edward and I had made to finally get to this point, the brink of my
transformation from mortal to immortal.
These weren’t things I could explain to Charlie.
“We’re going away to Dartmouth together in the fall, Charlie,” Edward reminded
him. “I’d like to do that, well, the right way. It’s how I was raised.” He shrugged.
He wasn’t exaggerating; they’d been big on kikale, kale fashioned morals during World
Charlie’s mouth twisted to the side. Looking for an angle to argue from. But what
could he say? I’d prefer wewe live in sin first? He was a dad; his hands were tied.
“Knew this was coming,” he muttered to himself, frowning. Then, suddenly, his
face went perfectly smooth and blank.
“Dad?” I asked anxiously. I glanced at Edward, but I couldn’t read his face, either,
as he watched Charlie.
“Ha!” Charlie exploded. I jumped in my seat. “Ha, ha, ha!”
I stared incredulously as Charlie doubled over in laughter; his whole body shook
I looked at Edward for a translation, but Edward had his lips pressed tightly
together, like he was trying to hold back laughter himself.
“Okay, fine,” Charlie choked out. “Get married.” Another roll of laughter shook
through him. “But . . .”
“But what?” I demanded.
“But wewe have to tell your mom! I’m not saying one word to Renée! That’s all
yours!” He busted into loud guffaws.
I paused with my hand on the doorknob, smiling. Sure, at the time, Charlie’s
words had terrified me. The ultimate doom: telling Renée. Early marriage was
higher up on her blacklist than boiling live puppies.
Who could have foreseen her response? Not me. Certainly not Charlie. Maybe
Alice, but I hadn’t thought to ask her.
“Well, Bella,” Renée had alisema after I’d choked and stuttered out the impossible
words: Mom, I’m marrying Edward. “I’m a little miffed that wewe waited so long
to tell me. Plane tickets only get zaidi expensive. Oooh,” she’d fretted. “Do you
think Phil’s cast will be off kwa then? It will spoil the pictures if he’s not in a tux—”
“Back up a second, Mom.” I’d gasped. “What do wewe mean, waited so long? I just
got en-en . . .”—I’d been unable to force out the word engaged—“things settled,
wewe know, today.”
“Today? Really? That is a surprise. I assumed . . .”
“What did wewe assume? When did wewe assume?”
“Well, when wewe came to visit me in April, it looked like things were pretty much
sewn up, if wewe know what I mean. You’re not very hard to read, sweetie. But I
didn’t say anything because I knew it wouldn’t do any good. You’re exactly like
Charlie.” She’d sighed, resigned. “Once wewe make up your mind, there is no
reasoning with you. Of course, exactly like Charlie, wewe stick kwa your decisions,
And then she’d alisema the last thing that I’d ever expected to hear from my mother.
“You’re not making my mistakes, Bella. wewe sound like you’re scared silly, and
I’m guessing it’s because you’re afraid of me.” She’d giggled. “Of what I’m going
to think. And I know I’ve alisema a lot of things about marriage and stupidity—and
I’m not taking them back—but wewe need to realize that those things specifically
applied to me. You’re a completely different person than I am. wewe make your
own kinds of mistakes, and I’m sure you’ll have your share of regrets in life. But
commitment was never your problem, sweetie. wewe have a better chance of
making this work than most forty-year-olds I know.” Renée had laughed again.
“My little middle-aged child. Luckily, wewe seem to have f“You’re not… mad? wewe don’t think I’m making a humongous mistake?”
“Well, sure, I wish you’d wait a few zaidi years. I mean, do I look old enough to
be a mother-in-law to you? Don’t answer that. But this isn’t about me. This is
about you. Are wewe happy?”
“I don’t know. I’m having an out-of-body experience right now.”
Renée had chuckled. “Does he make wewe happy, Bella?”
“Are wewe ever going to want anyone else?”
“But aren’t wewe going to say that I sound exactly like every other infatuated
teenager since the dawn of time?”
“You’ve never been a teenager, sweetie. wewe know what’s best for you.”
For the last few weeks, Renée had unexpectedly immersed herself in wedding
plans. She’d spent hours every siku on the phone with Edward’s mother, Esme—
no worries about the in-laws getting along. Renée adored Esme, but then, I
doubted anyone could help responding that way to my lovable almost-mother-inlaw.
It let me right off the hook. Edward’s family and my family were taking care of
the nuptials together without my having to do au know au think too hard about
any of it.
Charlie was furious, of course, but the sweet part was that he wasn’t furious at
me. Renée was the traitor. He’d counted on her to play the heavy. What could he
do now, when his ultimate threat—telling Mom—had turned out to be utterly
empty? He had nothing, and he knew it. So he moped around the house,
muttering things about not being able to trust anyone in this world. . . .
“Dad?” I called as I pushed open the front door. “I’m home.”
“Hold on, Bells, stay right there.”
“Huh?” I asked, pausing automatically.
“Gimme a second. Ouch, wewe got me, Alice.”
“Sorry, Charlie,” Alice’s trilling voice responded. “How’s that?”
“I’m bleeding on it.”
“You’re fine. Didn’t break the skin—trust me.”
“What’s going on?” I demanded, hesitating in the doorway.
“Thirty seconds, please, Bella,” Alice told me. “Your patience will be rewarded.”
“Humph,” Charlie added.
I tapped my foot, counting each beat. Before I got to thirty, Alice said, “Okay,
Bella, come in!”
Moving with caution, I rounded the little corner into our living room.
“Oh,” I huffed. “Aw. Dad. Don’t wewe look—”
“Silly?” Charlie interrupted.
“I was thinking zaidi like debonair.”
Charlie blushed. Alice took his elbow and tugged him around into a slow spin to
showcase the pale gray tux.
“Now cut that out, Alice. I look like an idiot.”
“No one dressed kwa me ever looks like an idiot.”
“She’s right, Dad. wewe look fabulous! What’s the occasion?”
Alice rolled her eyes. “It’s the final check on the fit. For both of you.”
I peeled my gaze off the unusually elegant Charlie for the first time and saw the
dreaded white vazi bag laid carefully across the sofa.
“Go to your happy place, Bella. It won’t take long.”
I sucked in a deep breath and closed my eyes. Keeping them shut, I stumbled my
way up the stairs to my room. I stripped down to my underwear and held my
arms straight out.
“You’d think I was shoving bamboo splinters under your nails,” Alice muttered to
herself as she followed me in.
I paid no attention to her. I was in my happy place.
In my happy place, the whole wedding mess was over and done. Behind me.
Already repressed and forgotten.
We were alone, just Edward and me. The setting was fuzzy and constantly in
flux—it morphed from misty forest to cloud-covered city to arctic night—because
Edward was keeping the location of our honeymoon a secret to surprise me. But I
wasn’t especially concerned about the where part.
Edward and I were together, and I’d fulfilled my side of our compromise
perfectly. I’d married him. That was the big one. But I’d also accepted all his
outrageous gifts and was registered, however futilely, to attend Dartmouth
College in the fall. Now it was his turn.
Before he turned me into a vampire—his big compromise—he had one other
stipulation to make good on.
Edward had an obsessive sort of concern over the human things that I would be
giving up, the experiences he didn’t want me to miss. Most of them—like the
prom, for example—seemed silly to me. There was only one human experience I
worried about missing. Of course it would be the one he wished I would forget
Here was the thing, though. I knew a little about what I was going to be like when
I wasn’t human anymore. I’d seen newborn Wanyonya damu firsthand, and I’d heard all
my family-to-be’s stories about those wild early days. For several years, my
biggest personality trait was going to be thirsty. It would take some time before I
could be me again. And even when I was in control of myself, I would never feel
exactly the way I felt now.
Human… and passionately in love.
I wanted the complete experience before I traded in my warm, breakable,
pheromone-riddled body for something beautiful, strong… and unknown. I
wanted a real honeymoon with Edward. And, despite the danger he feared this
would put me in, he’d agreed to try.
I was only vaguely aware of Alice and the slip and slide of satin over my skin. I
didn’t care, for the moment, that the whole town was talking about me. I didn’t
think about the spectacle I would have to nyota in much too soon. I didn’t worry
about tripping on my train au giggling at the wrong moment au being too young
au the staring audience au even the empty kiti, kiti cha where my best friend should be.
I was with Edward in my happy place.ound another old soul.”..