i quickly felt asleep when we arrive nyumbani
i was in the woods
i was wearing my inayopendelewa dress it was a white cotton dress i wasn't wearing any shoes and my hair was free the sun make it look like it had red in it and the wind make it songesha ......
this was my happy place
then i saw that edward was standing kwa a mti in the shadows
i run towards him and he open his arms
i jump and hug him tightly he hugg me kwa the waist also tighlty and sigh happily
"i upendo wewe edward" i alisema he smile brightly at me
he songesha clser until our lips touch when our lips touch i suddenly felt uncomfortable his lips felt hard and harsh i pull away confuse this kiss reminded me of..
when i look at edwards face i realize it wasn't edward anymore it was james i yelled in horror but he continue to kiss me
i wake up gasping and cover in sweat
it was just a dream ... i told myself
but i was too scare to sleep and dream of james kiss well attack again so i hop out of my kitanda to open my window it was still night probably 2 am
i walk out to my balcony and decieded that i would go to the garden ...but then i realize my mother would find out i was in the garden if my night kanzu, gown got filled with dirt i sigh
wait i could used my white cotton dress i used this morning it was already dirty i happily change
then i walk quietly down the stairs to the garden
i went to my inayopendelewa spot at the garden it was the part of the white roses and in the middle of it there was a beautiful fountain
i sat on the edge of the kisima, chemchemi and play with the water
i heard some bushes songesha i look at them scare
"who is there" my voice shook i was terrify what if it was james au my mother ...
i heard i chucled i would recongnized that chucled everywhere
i felt silly but i alisema "edward?"
edward step out of the bushes he look a little bit embarased as when i little kid is caught doing something he isn't suppose to do
i laugh at his face
he stay there and i run and hugg him
"i miss you" i alisema happily
edward laugh and alisema "me too Bella zaidi than wewe imagine"
i look down embarassed i really just known edward what 1 siku zamani and i was already uigizaji and felling like this.... this wasn't like me but
i look at edwards eyes he took my hand and pull me the kisima, chemchemi i sat besied him
"Bella i have to confess something to wewe ..." he alisema and then his forehead wrinkle
"well i have 3 things to confess to wewe but 1 thing i can't never tell wewe because i upendo wewe too much and if i tell wewe , wewe would ran away from me and am too selfish to allowed that am sorry of that Bella but wewe could run away from me now "
he talk really fast i concentrate to get it all
he sigh heavily and took both my hands in his
"it all started....."