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I interrupted her then. Not only was this starting to get on my nerves but she was ruining Bella’s birthday. And I specifically asked her to be gentle with Bella and not push too hard. That was exactly what she was doing. “Relax, Alice. If Bella wants to watch a movie, then she can. It’s her birthday.” “So there” Bella added, a little too smug. She probably thought I was going to let her miss the party. Even though Alice was taking this whole birthday thing too far, I did understand what she meant about Bella not missing anything. I, too, didn’t want her missing anything. “I’ll bring her over around seven. That will give wewe zaidi time to set up.” I told Alice. Alice laughed. Pleased that she was getting her way. ‘She’ll upendo it Edward. Don’t worry’ Alice thought to me before she spoke. “Sounds good. See wewe tonight Bella! It’ll be fun, you’ll see.” Alice kissed Bella on the cheek and then headed off to class before Bella could say anything else. Bella turned to look at me with a pleading expression. “Edward, please-“she started. I put my finger to her lips to silence her protest.
“Let’s discuss it later. We’re going to be late for class.” I told her as I led her to our first class. I was able to get the administrators to rearrange my class schedule so that we had almost every class together. All of Bella’s admirers didn’t like that too much. Especially Mike Newton. He would just smile at Bella now to make her think that he had accepted our relationship. I knew better. He still secretly wished that I would fall off a cliff so that he could comfort Bella in her time of need. He even changed his looks that mimicked my own. Of course he couldn’t pull it off, but I guess he gets points for the effort. We had to die to be beautiful, beautiful to humans anyway………wait, that doesn’t sound like a bad idea. If he wants to look like me, maybe I could kill him………… Bella seemed to relax as the siku progressed. I told Alice not to mention her birthday again so she didn’t. I’m pretty sure Bella was thinking of ways to try to get out of the party. I would tell Alice later to drive the Volvo home. I would ride with Bella to keep her from trying to escape. Not that she could, but I’m sure she would try anyway. Rosalie, Jasper, and Emmett were pretending to be off at college, so that left just Alice and I stuck in high school. We were pretending to be seniors this year. Now we sat at Bella’s meza, jedwali with all of her friends. They sat at the opposite end of course, but that didn’t bother us. We were used to humans being repelled kwa us. I still didn’t understand why Bella wasn’t afraid to be so close to us. It was like she had no fight au flight reflexes. No instinct in her body warning of the danger. I wouldn’t complain though. As long as she didn’t mind being close to me, I was happy. School went kwa quickly. I walked Bella to her truck and held the passenger door open for her. She folded her arms and didn’t move. Of course, she would be difficult. “It’s my birthday, don’t I get to drive?” she asked. “I’m pretending it’s not your birthday, just as wewe wished.” “If it’s not my birthday, then I don’t have to go to your house tonight…….”
“All right……. Happy birthday,” I said. I shut the passenger door and walked past her to open the driver’s side. “Shh” she whispered and got into the truck. While she drove, I decided to throw a hint about her needing a new radio. I knew that Rosalie, Emmett and Jasper got her a new radio for her truck. She needed one. She needed a whole new car, but I guess I would have to settle for the radio. At lease she can’t take the radio back. Once it’s installed. And Alice will make sure to have Emmett install it first so that she can’t take it back. “Your radio has horrible reception,” I told her, shaking my head while I was searching through the stations. She frowned. I knew she hated it when I picked on her truck. “You want a nice stereo? Drive your own car“
It took everything in me to keep from laughing. She alisema that with a sharp tone, which only meant that she was nervous. Probably about the party. She always worried about the wrong things. I know how to make her forget her worries, though. We were in front of Charlie’s house now and I reached over to touch her face. I pressed the tips of my fingers softly against her temples, her cheekbones, and her jaw line. Always keeping in mind how fragile she was. I could never make a mistake with her. “You should be in a good mood, today of all days,” I whispered to her.
“And what if I don’t want to be in a good mood?” It was working already because her breathing was uneven. Which in turn did strange things to me… “Too bad.” I alisema and leaned in to kiss her. I loved kissing Bella. Her lips were always so warm and soft. My mouth lingered on hers. I hated to stop but it was always necessary. I was always as eager as she was to continue the kiss but she always made my self-control worse kwa getting a little too carried away. She wrapped her arms around my neck and threw zaidi of herself into the kiss, as she always did. I wanted to keep going as much as she did. And keep going still……. But I couldn’t. I couldn’t lose control. And so I always had to be the one to stop. I let go of her face and unlocked her arms from around my neck. “Be good, please.” I whispered against her cheek. I kissed her one zaidi time and then, forced myself, to pull away. Her moyo sounded like it was about to pound out of her chest. If my moyo could beat, it would undoubtedly be beating out of my chest too. “Do wewe think I’ll ever get better at this? That my moyo my someday stop trying to jump out of my chest whenever wewe touch me?” she wondered.
“I really hope not” I told her. I loved when her moyo fluttered like that. The sound of her moyo was the most significant sound in my world. I couldn’t kubeba not hearing it. I’ve been doing everything in my power to make sure it keeps beating! She just rolled her eyes at me. “Let’s go watch the Capulet and Montague’s hack each other up, all right?”
“Your wish, my command.” I went and laid across her kitanda while she started the movie. After she fast-forwarded through the opening credits, she sat on the edge of the sofa in front of me. She should’ve known I wasn’t having that. I wrapped my arms around her waist and pulled her against my chest. I pulled the blanket off of the back of the kitanda to wrap, upangaji pamoja her in it while she laid against my chest. I wanted her as close as she could get to me but I didn’t want her to freeze against my cold skin...
“You know, I’ve never had much patience with Romeo,” I told her while the movie started. He was a very complicated character.
“What’s wrong with Romeo” she asked. She sounded a little offended. She loved the classics. “Well, first of all, he’s in upendo with Rosaline-don’t wewe think it makes him seem a little fickle? And then, a few dakika after their wedding, he kills Juliet’s cousin. That’s not very brilliant. Mistake after mistake. Could he have destroyed his own happiness any zaidi thoroughly?” I alisema to her. I really didn’t see the draw to the story. I never understood why it became so popular. So epic. Bella sighed.
“Do wewe want me to watch this alone?” she said. “No...” I told her. “I’ll mostly be watching you, anyway. Will wewe cry?” I asked her while I traced pattern on her arms. “Probably, if I’m paying attention” she said. “I won’t distract wewe then.” I told her and kissed her hair. As we watched the movie, I whispered some of Romeo’s lines in Bella’s ears. I had to admit, although I didn’t understand Romeo, he really did have some great lines. I thought Bella was joking when she alisema that she would cry, so when she did, it made me smile. I never understood it when women cried over something they saw on a movie au on television. They know it’s not real. But they cry anyway. And Bella has seen this movie countless times, and it still makes her cry. “I’ll admit, I do sort of envy him here” I alisema to her, wiping her tears with a lock of her hair. “She’s very pretty” Bella said. Did she really think that I would envy him the girl? Especially when she was sitting right here in my arms.
“I don’t envy him the girl-just the ease of the suicide” I told her. And then I teased her, “You humans have it so easy! All wewe have to do is throw down a vile of plant extracts….” It surprised me when she gasped, “What?”
“It’s something I had to think about once, and I knew from Carlisle’s experience that it wouldn’t be simple. I’m not even sure how many ways Carlisle tried to kill himself in the beginning….. After he realized what he’d become….” My voice had become serious and I didn’t even realize it. I didn’t want to upset her. I tried to make my voice light again, “And he’s clearly in excellent health.”
She twisted around in my arms with a frown on her face, “What are wewe talking about? “She demanded. She was angry. “What do wewe mean; this is something wewe had to think about once?”
“Last spring, when wewe were…..nearly killed….” It was hard, even now, with her salama and alive in my arms, to think about when I almost Lost her last spring. At the hands of another vampire. That was one of the worst experiences in my life. Not knowing whether Bella would be alive when I got to her. I took a deep breath and tried to regain my tone. “Of course I was trying to focus on finding wewe alive, but part of my mind was making contingency plans. Like I said, it’s not as easy for me as it is for a human.” I could tell she was remembering what happened too. She started to trace the place on her wrist where James had bitten her. It made me angry again as I remembered how close he had gotten. Bella shook her head, trying to make the memory disappear, I guessed, and asked “Contingency plans?
“Well, I wasn’t going to live without you.” Did she think I would just songesha on with my life without her? What a ridiculous idea! I continued, “But I wasn’t sure how to do it- I knew Emmett and Jasper would never help……” they would stop me if they even knew what I was thinking of doing. “So I was thinking maybe I would go to Italy and do something to provoke the Volturi.” They would surely find some way to get the job done if I caused any kind of trouble. In that instance, she was furious, outraged, “What is a Volturi?” she demanded. “The Volturi are a family. A very old, very powerful family of our kind. They are the closest thing our world has to a royal family, I suppose. Carlisle lived with them briefly in his early years, in Italy, before he settled in America-do wewe remember the story?” I asked. I had told her this the first time she came to my house to meet my family.
“Of course I remember.” “Anyway, wewe don’t irritate the Volturi, not unless wewe want to dieor whatever it is that we do.”
Her face turned from anger to horror as she took my face in her hands and held it tight, well as tight as she could,
“You must never, ever think of anything like that again. No matter what might ever happen to me, wewe are not allowed to hurt yourself!” she said, with her kitten like anger. “I’ll never put wewe in danger again, so it’s a moot point.”
“Put me in danger!” she yelled. Always so forgiving. She never thought I did anything wrong. She was too good for me. But I knew, without a doubt, that it was my fault. “I thought we’d established that all the bad luck is my fault? How dare wewe even think like that?”
“What would wewe do, if the situation were reversed?” I asked her. “That’s not the same thing” Her response made me laugh. I didn’t see the difference. She continued when I didn’t say anything. “What if something did happen to you? Would wewe want me to go off myself?” she asked. The thought of anything happening to Bella, even if I was already dead, was still painful. “I guess I see your point……a little. But what would I do without you?” I asked her. It seems like I didn’t even have a life until I met Bella. Going back to a time without her was unbearable to even think about, let alone have to live it.
“Whatever wewe were doing before I came along and complicated your existence.” She alisema as if it were that simple. I sighed “You make that sound so easy.”
“It should be. I’m not really that interesting.” She said. There is no way that she would ever see herself clearly. She is, kwa far, the most interesting person I have ever met. And it takes a lot to capture my interest. I was about to explain that to her, but I decided against it. “Moot point” I said. And then I heard Charlie’s cruiser coming down the street. I sat up and shifted Bella to the side so that we weren’t touching anymore. It drove Charlie mad when he saw us touching. I needed to borrow Bella for the evening and I didn’t want to give him a reason to say no. “Charlie?” Bella guessed. I smiled to answer her question. After a moment, we both heard the sound of Charlie’s cruiser pull into the driveway. As we did, Bella took my hand into hers. She was determined to make her dad deal with our relationship whether he wanted to au not. Even though I didn’t like her starting anything with her dad, especially over me, it made me feel good when she grabbed my hand. Like she was proud to have me at her side. Charlie walked in with pizza. He glanced at our hands for a mgawanyiko, baidisha second, Bella didn’t catch him. ‘What does she see in this guy? I don’t care what any of them say, I still hold him responsible for what happened last spring’ Charlie thought. “Hey kids,” he alisema grinning, only to Bella.