I felt an arm stretch across my shoulders. I sighed and turned away from the touch. My face dropped into my hands and I clenched my teeth. If I didn't have this stupid attraction to Vince, nothing would've gone wrong! This is all my fault. I never want to hurt Rachel like this again. Emotionally, the most malicious way to hurt a person. I cried, pinkish tears welled down my face. I squinted as I craned my neck to look at the sparkling sun.
Soon the tears dried and I bit my lip, a habit I'd picked up fom my mother.
"This is so wrong.." I murmered to myself.
"How so?" He questioned numbly.
"You.. Me.. We can't." I answered bluntly but in chunks.
"But I th--" His voice trailed off as he looked to the sky for answers. His eyes became wide with dissapointment. He pursed his lips then opened his mouth to say something but paused. He closed his eyes tightly then zaidi smoothly. Pain flushed across his perfect features.
"You like a different guy.." He mused sufferably.
"Vince" I alisema his name sternly. My brows pulled together, the truth was yes.. I did have someone else I loved. But, I couldn't stop myself from being attracted to this guy. He just seemed so perfect. Not that the guy I liked wasn't perfect.. but. wewe know what I'm saying right?
"Yes?" He alisema quietly making it sound as if I'd hurt his feelings. I felt sympathetic, wanting to comfort him and hold him, yet I barely knew him. How strange. I pondered my own unusual way of thinking and acting.
"I thought wewe liked Rachel.. and I can tell that what we did hurt her.. I don't want Rachel to be hurt, Vince." My voice as strong but inside was a plead. A small spark of hope that he might be able to understand me at all. My dhahabu eyes pierced his with intense pain. I wanted so badly for him to get what I was saying. If he alisema something like 'Rachel? What? NOO!' My moyo would break and my fury would over take my rational mind. And I'd-- Well, let's not go into detail on that.
"I.. uhh, oh.." His nose wrinkled in shame.
"Okay.. um, can wewe promise to forgive me if I tell wewe the truth?"
"That depends on what the truth is." I alisema contented with my demand.
He reached an arm behind his head as if he had an itch on his neck. He took a deep breath and then exhaled slowly.
"I know this is going to sound really bad but I.. was.. uhm, using Rachel to.. uh get to .. you." He grimaced at the end of his sentence as if I'd hit him. He turned his head away in shame and then tilted his head up slowly.
"I.. I'm sorry, Renesmee." He alisema quietly. He turned to leave. But, I grabed his arm and mentally whispered
`I'm sorry too. But, I really don't think we can.. be together like that..`
On accident I transfered an image of Jacob smiling happily through the thought. He gasped as he saw Jacob. I dropped my head down in shame at the thought of me being attracted to Vince.
"I gotta go.." I ametoa maoni slowly. I pushed myself down the boulder and started to walk off. I felt a burst of adrenaline rush through my veins. I wanted to get as far away from Vince as possible. I felt bloodied tears pour down my flushed cheeks. I wanted to see Jacob. I wanted him to hold me and tell me this was all a dream.
I felt my foot get caught on a root I tried to get loose but I was exhausted emotionally so I let my body fall. I laid on the ground and closed my eyes waiting for something.. anything to happen.
I heard someone calling my name loudly and shaking me gently. My vision was blurred with tears. I'd cried through my sleep. Ugh.. great. I tried to wipe away the tears. I felt like I was cradled in coals. Spikes of heat danced across my skin.
"Renesmee.. Renesmee, Can wewe hear me? C'mon Renesmee." A husky voice repeated my name over and over. I blinked hard. The tears evaporated as I opened my eyes. I could see Jacob closing his eyes and rocking me gently in his arms.
I gasped loudly and then pulled myself up around his head. Hugging him very tightly I whispered in his ear
"Please tell me yesterday was a dream.."
"Renesmee!" Jacob gasped. He hugged me back, softer though, he was warm. I wanted to just lay in his gentle arms forever.
My eyes were filled with longing. Me and Jacob were really good friends. We spent almost every sekunde of the siku together.. well mostly Rachel, him, and I. But, things were changing. I wanted him zaidi than a friend now.
A sting of bravery shook my body. I quickly pulled my head from around his neck and I looked at his eyes. I tilted my head and pressed my cream lips to his. I pulled my hands up to his head then intwined my fingers in his short black hair. He fell on his back and wraped his arms around my waist. I know we were good friends, but I'd always felt a strange pull towards him. A strange gravity circled him and I was being pulled in. I gently pulled away and inhaled deeply and quick. I swiftly rolled off him and to the side. He leaned over and pressed his soft lips into mine. But, this time it wasn't a gentle kiss. It was a pleading one. I crushed my lips on his, he parted his mouth as I did. My tongue gently glided across his thin lip. He quickly pulled away. I pulled air to my lungs. I leaned into him again, but he held a finger to my mouth as if to quiet me.
"Ness.. Have wewe heard the term imprinting before?"
I shook my head slowly.
"Well, it only happens to mtu-bweha au shapeshifters au whatever- like me. Imprinting it's like upendo at first sight. wewe see the person and, well.. it's like all gravity goes from the Earth to her. And, When wewe were born, Nessie, that happened to me. All I wanted for wewe was happiness. But, When I told your mom, she got mad at me. Really mad." He sighed loudly.
"But, uhm.. you've gotton older and even though I live forever and such.. I have normal teenage boy problems. You're a beautiful person inside and out Renesmee. If wewe give me the oppertunity.. I'll try my best to keep wewe happy. I've loved wewe ever since wewe came into the world. I'd still upendo wewe even if wewe didn't feel the same."
I started to cry.. warm wet tears found crevices in my skin and made their way down my marble cheek. His arm stretched around my back. He pulled me gently across the grassy ground and into him. Sparks of heat flowed from his body and cradled me in warmth. I was greatfull to have someone like him upendo me. I loved him too, so much, but I didn't know how to tell him. I felt his big hands pull my chin up. His eyes locked with mine and immediatly the tears dried.
"You okay?" He whispered gently. His words were a swali but to me they seemed like a comforting sentence. I could only think of three words.
"I upendo you." I felt my eyes close. I tried to bury my head into his hard chest. I gasped then took my chances and said
"I upendo you, Jacob Black. I always have and always will. wewe are my sun, my air, my fire, and water. wewe are my life, I upendo you.. so much."
He gasped but before he could take another breath I craned my neck so I could place my lips on his. It was no big kiss but it was enough to make him realize everything.
"Let's get back home. Your mother and father have been wondering where wewe were. The news about the vampire guy should spike their interest some."
We walked home, hand in hand, at a normal human speed. I really was the luckiest person in the world. Hopefully things get straightened out between me and Rachel. I have a good feeling they will.
Soon the tears dried and I bit my lip, a habit I'd picked up fom my mother.
"This is so wrong.." I murmered to myself.
"How so?" He questioned numbly.
"You.. Me.. We can't." I answered bluntly but in chunks.
"But I th--" His voice trailed off as he looked to the sky for answers. His eyes became wide with dissapointment. He pursed his lips then opened his mouth to say something but paused. He closed his eyes tightly then zaidi smoothly. Pain flushed across his perfect features.
"You like a different guy.." He mused sufferably.
"Vince" I alisema his name sternly. My brows pulled together, the truth was yes.. I did have someone else I loved. But, I couldn't stop myself from being attracted to this guy. He just seemed so perfect. Not that the guy I liked wasn't perfect.. but. wewe know what I'm saying right?
"Yes?" He alisema quietly making it sound as if I'd hurt his feelings. I felt sympathetic, wanting to comfort him and hold him, yet I barely knew him. How strange. I pondered my own unusual way of thinking and acting.
"I thought wewe liked Rachel.. and I can tell that what we did hurt her.. I don't want Rachel to be hurt, Vince." My voice as strong but inside was a plead. A small spark of hope that he might be able to understand me at all. My dhahabu eyes pierced his with intense pain. I wanted so badly for him to get what I was saying. If he alisema something like 'Rachel? What? NOO!' My moyo would break and my fury would over take my rational mind. And I'd-- Well, let's not go into detail on that.
"I.. uhh, oh.." His nose wrinkled in shame.
"Okay.. um, can wewe promise to forgive me if I tell wewe the truth?"
"That depends on what the truth is." I alisema contented with my demand.
He reached an arm behind his head as if he had an itch on his neck. He took a deep breath and then exhaled slowly.
"I know this is going to sound really bad but I.. was.. uhm, using Rachel to.. uh get to .. you." He grimaced at the end of his sentence as if I'd hit him. He turned his head away in shame and then tilted his head up slowly.
"I.. I'm sorry, Renesmee." He alisema quietly. He turned to leave. But, I grabed his arm and mentally whispered
`I'm sorry too. But, I really don't think we can.. be together like that..`
On accident I transfered an image of Jacob smiling happily through the thought. He gasped as he saw Jacob. I dropped my head down in shame at the thought of me being attracted to Vince.
"I gotta go.." I ametoa maoni slowly. I pushed myself down the boulder and started to walk off. I felt a burst of adrenaline rush through my veins. I wanted to get as far away from Vince as possible. I felt bloodied tears pour down my flushed cheeks. I wanted to see Jacob. I wanted him to hold me and tell me this was all a dream.
I felt my foot get caught on a root I tried to get loose but I was exhausted emotionally so I let my body fall. I laid on the ground and closed my eyes waiting for something.. anything to happen.
I heard someone calling my name loudly and shaking me gently. My vision was blurred with tears. I'd cried through my sleep. Ugh.. great. I tried to wipe away the tears. I felt like I was cradled in coals. Spikes of heat danced across my skin.
"Renesmee.. Renesmee, Can wewe hear me? C'mon Renesmee." A husky voice repeated my name over and over. I blinked hard. The tears evaporated as I opened my eyes. I could see Jacob closing his eyes and rocking me gently in his arms.
I gasped loudly and then pulled myself up around his head. Hugging him very tightly I whispered in his ear
"Please tell me yesterday was a dream.."
"Renesmee!" Jacob gasped. He hugged me back, softer though, he was warm. I wanted to just lay in his gentle arms forever.
My eyes were filled with longing. Me and Jacob were really good friends. We spent almost every sekunde of the siku together.. well mostly Rachel, him, and I. But, things were changing. I wanted him zaidi than a friend now.
A sting of bravery shook my body. I quickly pulled my head from around his neck and I looked at his eyes. I tilted my head and pressed my cream lips to his. I pulled my hands up to his head then intwined my fingers in his short black hair. He fell on his back and wraped his arms around my waist. I know we were good friends, but I'd always felt a strange pull towards him. A strange gravity circled him and I was being pulled in. I gently pulled away and inhaled deeply and quick. I swiftly rolled off him and to the side. He leaned over and pressed his soft lips into mine. But, this time it wasn't a gentle kiss. It was a pleading one. I crushed my lips on his, he parted his mouth as I did. My tongue gently glided across his thin lip. He quickly pulled away. I pulled air to my lungs. I leaned into him again, but he held a finger to my mouth as if to quiet me.
"Ness.. Have wewe heard the term imprinting before?"
I shook my head slowly.
"Well, it only happens to mtu-bweha au shapeshifters au whatever- like me. Imprinting it's like upendo at first sight. wewe see the person and, well.. it's like all gravity goes from the Earth to her. And, When wewe were born, Nessie, that happened to me. All I wanted for wewe was happiness. But, When I told your mom, she got mad at me. Really mad." He sighed loudly.
"But, uhm.. you've gotton older and even though I live forever and such.. I have normal teenage boy problems. You're a beautiful person inside and out Renesmee. If wewe give me the oppertunity.. I'll try my best to keep wewe happy. I've loved wewe ever since wewe came into the world. I'd still upendo wewe even if wewe didn't feel the same."
I started to cry.. warm wet tears found crevices in my skin and made their way down my marble cheek. His arm stretched around my back. He pulled me gently across the grassy ground and into him. Sparks of heat flowed from his body and cradled me in warmth. I was greatfull to have someone like him upendo me. I loved him too, so much, but I didn't know how to tell him. I felt his big hands pull my chin up. His eyes locked with mine and immediatly the tears dried.
"You okay?" He whispered gently. His words were a swali but to me they seemed like a comforting sentence. I could only think of three words.
"I upendo you." I felt my eyes close. I tried to bury my head into his hard chest. I gasped then took my chances and said
"I upendo you, Jacob Black. I always have and always will. wewe are my sun, my air, my fire, and water. wewe are my life, I upendo you.. so much."
He gasped but before he could take another breath I craned my neck so I could place my lips on his. It was no big kiss but it was enough to make him realize everything.
"Let's get back home. Your mother and father have been wondering where wewe were. The news about the vampire guy should spike their interest some."
We walked home, hand in hand, at a normal human speed. I really was the luckiest person in the world. Hopefully things get straightened out between me and Rachel. I have a good feeling they will.