ok im very sorry , for THE LONG WAIT, but ive been working flat out and i jsut hadnt been in the moosd, but im pumped and woah! i hope to do two chapters today but ill see how i go.
ok a recap. Bella is about to perform on stage.
This was it, the moment ive been practicing for. to get his attention again. I remember him saying that he diddnt want me, but this was my chance to prove to him how much i wanted him.
I searched over and over like a father looking for this remote as the super ball has ten dakika of the game. To find the perfect song and that all the lyrics just fit.
And due to my ridcioulsy incaptablity to be creative i failed at creating a song myself.
I knew what i was supposed to do, getting up on the stage and imba it out. But they are right when they say that some things are easiler alisema then done...
I was shaking in my dress, that i was surpirsed that the microphone didnt start echoing my pants.
Edward this is for you. i upendo you.
my moyo burned and cringed, but the wound reflamed. The wound he blew in my chest when he left.
Wrapping my arm around my turso, i looked up into the crowd, a part me searching for him.
I also beleived that i could spot him in a crowd of a million, and now i diddnt think so.
The crowd began to grow silent, in my awkwardness. Perfect nothing better then a tough crowd on your first gig.
I felt my moyo began beating so fast that it could replace the drummer.
wewe toke my hand, and showed me how, wewe promised you'd be around, ah thats right."
i put my whole soul into the last chorous.
If someone alisema three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and ngumi, punch them out
?Cause they're all wrong
And that last kiss I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes it harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep your memory
wewe visit me in my sleep
My darling, who knew?
My darling, who knew?
My darling I miss wewe
My darling, who knew?"
Edward point of veiw.
She was there, standing in front of me, as picture clear , but not i'd remembered her. She was different. Something was missing.
i never planned, as much as i wanted to, to see her again.
I promised her that it would be as if i never existed, but i forgot to ask her , to act the same. I always knew that if i saw her again, i wouldn't have the strenght to deny my moyo anylonger. She always made me weak, it was if as she made me human. That i felt human.
Seeing her now, on the Tv, had proved myself wrong, it hurt so zaidi then that.
I hurt so see her stronger then me, maybe she felt better without me in her life. I had only hope that she weeped for me. i was caught in two worlds.
One world evolving around her, living a happy human life, without me, where she surronds herself in happiness, with a family with brown eyes like hers, and not in danger.
And another, where i wished that she pained for me too. That Loves me as much i still upendo her.
I've never admitted to be selfish.
Every lyric she sung form her perfected voice was anther bullet to my heart.
She sung of love. A message to her lover, a past lover.
A past lover i dreamed to be me.
* * * *
"Good morning students of Alaska north state high, This is your principal Mrs. Finch, may all Seniors ripoti to gym"
The notice interuppted but saved the boring letecture of the Civil war, which I've learnted may times.
Jasper sitting beside me, figiting.He hate history, considering this class today. Jasper had fought in the Civil War before his New birth. It hurt him to remember.
i gave him a slight nudge, to imformed him back to intercom notice.
Oh right, yeah gym, what do wewe think we have done this time? " Jasper replied, through his thoughts. It was as clear as though he had ectaully alisema them aloud.
"Hey Edward, what do thinks going on" Alice skipped to my side, clinging onto my free arm.
"Hey darling, how was history" Alice alisema worringly over to jasper.
If only he could use those mood manipluation skills on himself"
As we crowed and squished together in the tiny instant foldchair inbiuld the stairs of the gym. Feeling my throat burn from the proxmity to the girl in my bio chemistry class. I don care to take in names anymore.
All my grademates sitting with confusing stirring amoung their faces.
A door opened the northwest. It was principal Finch, in her ugly floral skirt, upindo and bold red kobe, kasa neck again. i could sense Alice have a heartattack.
Prinipal finch, chiriku was amoung her late Forties and from evidence i dont beleive she has discovered mid-life crisis. However her face now begining its collection of wrinkles due to the stress apun kwa a couple of human boys behind me.
"NOW, Seniors, as your gradation is coming up, i thought i might bring wewe a surprise to celebrate"
This my familys 52nd time to graduted. we gave up on celebrating mwaka ago.
A few cheers and whistles were shouted around te room.
"allright , mtulivu, clam dowm calm down, right, for your surprise, well.. i thought a touch of muziki would be nice. So i had to liberty to invited the new MTV senation Bella swan to sing a couple of her hits for you."
Cullens at Alaska North State high