We sat there in silence,i was looking at my stomack thinking.It hurts him for me to be in pain,any sort of pain.Mentaly and phyisicaly,and it hurt even zaidi when he knew the pain i was feeling was because of him.That if i never met him i wouldnt have to be going through it,and him knowing that he could have done something to stop it but this time he cant stop whats coming.And he hated that if he didnt do this to me i wouldnt have to suffer.
"Dont blame yourself edward just dont"i whispered to him.
"How can i not blame myself,bella?.I did this to you,and wewe have to suffer for my mistake i am going to be causeing wewe pain that wewe deserve.You didnt ask for this,i have taken everything away from you...everything"he alisema like he was in pain and whispering certen parts.
"You havent taken things away from me,maybe postponed then but not taken.I can go to collage when i blood thirsty part of being a new born passes.I am having a child so youre not takeing that away,i do have a future because i have a family to be with in the future and to watch Renesmee grow up"i alisema to him seeing him smile at parts.
"But wewe will never be able to have another.......um.........man in your life as in a husband"he alisema not being able to say it right.
"I know but i dont want another man in my life i already have all of them in my life"i alisema knowing that he would understand that i was saying this about him inaonyesha him i have not aliyopewa up on us,i saw him smile.
We sat there for another while talking about what being a vampire will be like for me and how long it will take me to get over wanting to kill everything that has a heartbeat.
"Im sorry"he whispered.
"Dont be sorry"i alisema back to him.
"How could i not be sorry?,i have taken everything away from you.I have taken youre life away,you will not be able to grow old au go to collage with everyone else.And i have taken your chance to be..um..with another man because wewe will want to kill them"he shouted but then turned into a whisper towards the end.
"You havent taken anything away from me,you have aliyopewa me this house wewe have aliyopewa me Renesmee and i can go to collage when i get over wanting to drink everyones blood.And i dont want another man they all are idots,i have all the men in my life that i need and all that Renesmee will need so wewe can just stop saying sorry because there is nothing to be sorry about!"i shouted at him he looked shocked but happy aswell.
We sat there in silence thinking about what had just happened,then i started thinking about the house and how i had a swimming pool outside my kitanda room then i heard Renesmee:
"I want to go in it"i smiled and so did edward,i am able to hear her but it is like she has no voice.I cant remember it like i can remember edwards voice his is like velvet and sexy the voice that can make your knees go soft,there is not sound to it wewe just hear it but she will have a voice she will have a lovely voice.
"Well are wewe going to go swimming?"edward asked me
"I dont have a swimming suit"i alisema to him happy that i dont have one.But then the house phone rang,edward smiled and answered the phone.
"Hello Alice.....yes.....ok.......i thought wewe might say that.....alright thank you"he alisema then hung up.
"Alice alisema there is a swim suit in the bottom right draw on the left ukuta in youre closet"he alisema with a smug smile.
"Evil little pixie"i hissed and edward laughed out loud.
"What are wewe laughing at wewe have to get in too"i alisema to him while getting up.
"I dont mind it will be fun"he alisema while lifting me into his arms like wewe would hold a bride.
"Do wewe really have to do this?"i asked him.
"Yes i do dont want wewe getting hurt on the stairs do we"he alisema to me while running into my room then into my closet.
"You mind getting it for me i cant bend down"i alisema to him as he set me on my feet.
"Not a problem"he alisema then gave me the swimming suit.
"Thanks"i alisema to him as he walked out the closet.
"You need any help?"he asked my mouth fell open did he just siku that.
"No i can do it myself "i alisema to him and he left smiling.
I got changed and walked out the sliding double doors and over to the steps.I stood on the steps with the water covering my feet,i noticed that edward wasnt in yet.Then suddenly edward was standing beside me.
"Gosh scare me much"i alisema while trying to get my breathing back to normal.
"Sorry"he alisema smiling a dazzeling smile.
Then i noticed he was only wearing swimming shorts,he was beautiful from head to toe every inch of him was perfection.I could see the muscels in his arms and the ones on his stomack,he even had a six pack if that is possible for a vampire.He looked so strong and ...sexy,his skin looked velvet and smooth but strong and white.Then i looked up at his face,his perfect features all straight and alined.Then i looked into his eyes,and i got Lost his golden eyes would make anyone get lost,they were a liquid dhahabu he wasnt hungry.Then a little bit of light shone throught the clouds and onto edward,his skin started shining and he looked even zaidi beautiful if that is possible and it knocked the breth out of me.I was feeling alot of emotinons shy,love,lust and i was embarrased because he could feel them too.He started smiling at me like i was funny that made me turn bright red.
"I look like a hippo"i alisema to him he laughed.
"No wewe dont wewe dont know how many women wish they looked like wewe beinging pregnant i mean because some women cant have children,you look beautiful"he alisema and i knew when he alisema some women cant have children he ment Esme,Rosalie and Alice.Then i heard his thoughts.
"And she looks sexy"i gasped.
"Edward Cullen such inaproprite thoughts about a pregnant women"i alisema to him pretending to be shocked he smiled and said:
"You cant blame me...anyway im the one that got wewe pregnant"sounding smug then he njiwa in the pool and started swimming.My mouth was hanging open im shocked did he really just say that?
I shoke my head then got in the pool,i didnt swim i just floated on my back with my ears under the water.It was nice just floating it was peacrful,calm and relaxing,then edward came up from the water right beside me.I gasped and turned around to i was in a standing postition and kicking my legs to i could stay afloat.
"Its nice here very relaxing"i alisema to him
"I think that is why they put this here"he alisema smiling.
"Arent wewe going to swim?"he asked.
"No i think i am just going to float since my stomack is like a floating ball it helps"i alisema laughing a bit he laughed too.
"1 minute"he alisema then went under the water.
But he didnt swim away,he was under the water in front of me.Then i realized when he turned me to the side he was looking at my stomack then he came back up.
"I see what wewe mean your quite big"he alisema while running his fingures through his hair.
"Oh thanks thats real nice"i alisema being sarcastic.
"Thats not what i ment,i mean she is big and wewe still have two months to go"he alisema to me.
"I know it looks like i am 9 months,i dont know if i can get any bigger"i alisema while putting my hands on my stomack.
"I'm going to get out now i going to have a shower"i alisema while going to the steps i got out and walked to the double doors.
"You dont have to get out wewe can stay in if wewe want"i alisema to him,he looked like he was in a different world his mind was else where.
"Thanks"he alisema snapping back to reality.
I walked into my ensuite and turned the kuoga on then got undressed and got in it.It was lovely one of the best showers ever i spent a while in there so edward is probebly finished swimming kwa now.I got out and rapped a towel around me and walked into my bedroom,edward was lening against the double doors that led into the pool.
"Sorry the water in the other bathrooms isnt working mind if i use your shower?"he asked,i was shocked edward was in my room standing infront of me and i only had a towel rapped around me.
"Ya sure go ahead"i alisema he smiled.
"Thanks"he alisema then walked pass me and into my bathroom.
I walked into my closet and got dressed,i put on my pajamas a pair of shorts and a big t-shirt.Then i went down stairs and into the jikoni and started making myself some dinner.I was half way done when edward came in and walked over to me.
"I could have done that for you"he alisema looking at me cooking my dinner.
"Its okay im almost done anyway"i alisema back to him.
"I'll make it for wewe tomorrow"he promised and went into the front room,after a dakika i heard the t.v. being turned on.When i was finished cooking my chajio, chakula cha jioni i went into the front room and sat on the sofa and started eating.Then i noticed that edward was staring at me:
"I know this doesnt look nice to wewe but it does to me,and stop staring at me its rude"i alisema to him and he laughed and started watcing tv and i carried on eating.
When i was finiashed i cleaned my plate and went and layed on the sofa,i felt really tired.I started watching the film Edward was watching but i couldnt keep my eyes open and i fell asleep after a couple of minutes.I dont know how long after i fell asleep i could feel i was being lifted up from the sofa and being carried.Edward was bringing me to my bedroom,he layed me into my kitanda and pulled the covers over me.
"Thank you"i whispered half asleep.
"My pleasure"i heard him say then i fell asleep again.
I soon fell asleep and started dreaming,it was me Edward and a little baby a girl im guessing it was Renesmee.Me and edward were sitting around the baby who was laying down on a very nice looking blanket.Me and Edward were tickleing her and she was giggling,we looked like a real family.Then Edward looked at me,then i noticed i was a vampire then edward and i kissed a passionate and loving kiss.We then looked at each other with such upendo it was amazing,i just hope that one siku maybe this dream will become a reality.
Sorry it took so long my laptop is dying and it turns off so i have to start what i was uandishi all over again.But its here now so please tell me what wewe think.
"Dont blame yourself edward just dont"i whispered to him.
"How can i not blame myself,bella?.I did this to you,and wewe have to suffer for my mistake i am going to be causeing wewe pain that wewe deserve.You didnt ask for this,i have taken everything away from you...everything"he alisema like he was in pain and whispering certen parts.
"You havent taken things away from me,maybe postponed then but not taken.I can go to collage when i blood thirsty part of being a new born passes.I am having a child so youre not takeing that away,i do have a future because i have a family to be with in the future and to watch Renesmee grow up"i alisema to him seeing him smile at parts.
"But wewe will never be able to have another.......um.........man in your life as in a husband"he alisema not being able to say it right.
"I know but i dont want another man in my life i already have all of them in my life"i alisema knowing that he would understand that i was saying this about him inaonyesha him i have not aliyopewa up on us,i saw him smile.
We sat there for another while talking about what being a vampire will be like for me and how long it will take me to get over wanting to kill everything that has a heartbeat.
"Im sorry"he whispered.
"Dont be sorry"i alisema back to him.
"How could i not be sorry?,i have taken everything away from you.I have taken youre life away,you will not be able to grow old au go to collage with everyone else.And i have taken your chance to be..um..with another man because wewe will want to kill them"he shouted but then turned into a whisper towards the end.
"You havent taken anything away from me,you have aliyopewa me this house wewe have aliyopewa me Renesmee and i can go to collage when i get over wanting to drink everyones blood.And i dont want another man they all are idots,i have all the men in my life that i need and all that Renesmee will need so wewe can just stop saying sorry because there is nothing to be sorry about!"i shouted at him he looked shocked but happy aswell.
We sat there in silence thinking about what had just happened,then i started thinking about the house and how i had a swimming pool outside my kitanda room then i heard Renesmee:
"I want to go in it"i smiled and so did edward,i am able to hear her but it is like she has no voice.I cant remember it like i can remember edwards voice his is like velvet and sexy the voice that can make your knees go soft,there is not sound to it wewe just hear it but she will have a voice she will have a lovely voice.
"Well are wewe going to go swimming?"edward asked me
"I dont have a swimming suit"i alisema to him happy that i dont have one.But then the house phone rang,edward smiled and answered the phone.
"Hello Alice.....yes.....ok.......i thought wewe might say that.....alright thank you"he alisema then hung up.
"Alice alisema there is a swim suit in the bottom right draw on the left ukuta in youre closet"he alisema with a smug smile.
"Evil little pixie"i hissed and edward laughed out loud.
"What are wewe laughing at wewe have to get in too"i alisema to him while getting up.
"I dont mind it will be fun"he alisema while lifting me into his arms like wewe would hold a bride.
"Do wewe really have to do this?"i asked him.
"Yes i do dont want wewe getting hurt on the stairs do we"he alisema to me while running into my room then into my closet.
"You mind getting it for me i cant bend down"i alisema to him as he set me on my feet.
"Not a problem"he alisema then gave me the swimming suit.
"Thanks"i alisema to him as he walked out the closet.
"You need any help?"he asked my mouth fell open did he just siku that.
"No i can do it myself "i alisema to him and he left smiling.
I got changed and walked out the sliding double doors and over to the steps.I stood on the steps with the water covering my feet,i noticed that edward wasnt in yet.Then suddenly edward was standing beside me.
"Gosh scare me much"i alisema while trying to get my breathing back to normal.
"Sorry"he alisema smiling a dazzeling smile.
Then i noticed he was only wearing swimming shorts,he was beautiful from head to toe every inch of him was perfection.I could see the muscels in his arms and the ones on his stomack,he even had a six pack if that is possible for a vampire.He looked so strong and ...sexy,his skin looked velvet and smooth but strong and white.Then i looked up at his face,his perfect features all straight and alined.Then i looked into his eyes,and i got Lost his golden eyes would make anyone get lost,they were a liquid dhahabu he wasnt hungry.Then a little bit of light shone throught the clouds and onto edward,his skin started shining and he looked even zaidi beautiful if that is possible and it knocked the breth out of me.I was feeling alot of emotinons shy,love,lust and i was embarrased because he could feel them too.He started smiling at me like i was funny that made me turn bright red.
"I look like a hippo"i alisema to him he laughed.
"No wewe dont wewe dont know how many women wish they looked like wewe beinging pregnant i mean because some women cant have children,you look beautiful"he alisema and i knew when he alisema some women cant have children he ment Esme,Rosalie and Alice.Then i heard his thoughts.
"And she looks sexy"i gasped.
"Edward Cullen such inaproprite thoughts about a pregnant women"i alisema to him pretending to be shocked he smiled and said:
"You cant blame me...anyway im the one that got wewe pregnant"sounding smug then he njiwa in the pool and started swimming.My mouth was hanging open im shocked did he really just say that?
I shoke my head then got in the pool,i didnt swim i just floated on my back with my ears under the water.It was nice just floating it was peacrful,calm and relaxing,then edward came up from the water right beside me.I gasped and turned around to i was in a standing postition and kicking my legs to i could stay afloat.
"Its nice here very relaxing"i alisema to him
"I think that is why they put this here"he alisema smiling.
"Arent wewe going to swim?"he asked.
"No i think i am just going to float since my stomack is like a floating ball it helps"i alisema laughing a bit he laughed too.
"1 minute"he alisema then went under the water.
But he didnt swim away,he was under the water in front of me.Then i realized when he turned me to the side he was looking at my stomack then he came back up.
"I see what wewe mean your quite big"he alisema while running his fingures through his hair.
"Oh thanks thats real nice"i alisema being sarcastic.
"Thats not what i ment,i mean she is big and wewe still have two months to go"he alisema to me.
"I know it looks like i am 9 months,i dont know if i can get any bigger"i alisema while putting my hands on my stomack.
"I'm going to get out now i going to have a shower"i alisema while going to the steps i got out and walked to the double doors.
"You dont have to get out wewe can stay in if wewe want"i alisema to him,he looked like he was in a different world his mind was else where.
"Thanks"he alisema snapping back to reality.
I walked into my ensuite and turned the kuoga on then got undressed and got in it.It was lovely one of the best showers ever i spent a while in there so edward is probebly finished swimming kwa now.I got out and rapped a towel around me and walked into my bedroom,edward was lening against the double doors that led into the pool.
"Sorry the water in the other bathrooms isnt working mind if i use your shower?"he asked,i was shocked edward was in my room standing infront of me and i only had a towel rapped around me.
"Ya sure go ahead"i alisema he smiled.
"Thanks"he alisema then walked pass me and into my bathroom.
I walked into my closet and got dressed,i put on my pajamas a pair of shorts and a big t-shirt.Then i went down stairs and into the jikoni and started making myself some dinner.I was half way done when edward came in and walked over to me.
"I could have done that for you"he alisema looking at me cooking my dinner.
"Its okay im almost done anyway"i alisema back to him.
"I'll make it for wewe tomorrow"he promised and went into the front room,after a dakika i heard the t.v. being turned on.When i was finished cooking my chajio, chakula cha jioni i went into the front room and sat on the sofa and started eating.Then i noticed that edward was staring at me:
"I know this doesnt look nice to wewe but it does to me,and stop staring at me its rude"i alisema to him and he laughed and started watcing tv and i carried on eating.
When i was finiashed i cleaned my plate and went and layed on the sofa,i felt really tired.I started watching the film Edward was watching but i couldnt keep my eyes open and i fell asleep after a couple of minutes.I dont know how long after i fell asleep i could feel i was being lifted up from the sofa and being carried.Edward was bringing me to my bedroom,he layed me into my kitanda and pulled the covers over me.
"Thank you"i whispered half asleep.
"My pleasure"i heard him say then i fell asleep again.
I soon fell asleep and started dreaming,it was me Edward and a little baby a girl im guessing it was Renesmee.Me and edward were sitting around the baby who was laying down on a very nice looking blanket.Me and Edward were tickleing her and she was giggling,we looked like a real family.Then Edward looked at me,then i noticed i was a vampire then edward and i kissed a passionate and loving kiss.We then looked at each other with such upendo it was amazing,i just hope that one siku maybe this dream will become a reality.
Sorry it took so long my laptop is dying and it turns off so i have to start what i was uandishi all over again.But its here now so please tell me what wewe think.