Preseny day
How did wewe control yourself Jasper asked. I looked at my son who struggled with this part of being a vampire and alisema It took all my control. I don’t know why maybe because in some way we were soul mates and I loved her with everything I had. It came close many times. I don’t know how wewe and Edward did it but yall have so much self control Emmett said. I looked at my usually humorous son and all I saw was wonder and wishful thinking. Esme was standing beside me now and whispered in my ear ‘I upendo you’. Esme loved me with every understanding and passion that she could. I upendo wewe always i told her. Our eyes locked and we were in our own little world. She knows this still hurts me and she stands kwa me while I speak of my first love. She ceases to amaze me. Did wewe stay to meet Diana Rosalie asked.
I hunted deer in a near kwa meadow after I ventured into famailer territory. My father’s farm.Their still were familiar faces their but their was a different vibe about it. I didn’t see my father .A good thing I don’t think I could have handled meeting him that particular moment. I was fixing to cut into Diana’s family farm when I saw my mom’s rose garden. It was beautiful as always though a little unkept. The longer I stood there sadness crept in. if my moyo was able to stop it would have because there in the center on the garden was a wooden cross.
Rebecca Cullen –mother,wife, and friend,
1635-1664
It was then when my body was shaking that I realized I was crying. It was the first tears I shed as a vampire. I cried until I could take no more. My mother died just a mwaka after my disappearance. What it most have cost her to lose her only son. My hatred for my father grew. Not only had he cost me my life with Diana but he cost my mother her life and me a mother. I broke out of the past as I heard my daughters crying. Carlisle wewe must have been moyo broken Bella cried. Im sorry Rosalie and Alice alisema in a low voice. I was but I had to get back to Diana before she could think the worse. So I gathered myself and my thoughts and headed toward to the orchard. Diana was seated under the mti kwa the pond we called ours. She must have been waiting because she broke into a grim smile when she saw me. I was beginning to think none of this was real.That wewe were still gone she whispered. Its very real and its still a nightmare though it seems like a good one I told her as I took her in my arms. A good Nightmare? My Nightmare ended last night when wewe snuck through my window Dinah said. I had come back to convince wewe to songesha on. That it was ok to songesha on and upendo someone else I whispered into her hair. Their wasn’t a hole lot of convincing last night was there? au just not the convincing wewe had in mind Dinah alisema with a look of embarresment. She hid deeper into my chest and I had to stop from losing control.
How did wewe control yourself Jasper asked. I looked at my son who struggled with this part of being a vampire and alisema It took all my control. I don’t know why maybe because in some way we were soul mates and I loved her with everything I had. It came close many times. I don’t know how wewe and Edward did it but yall have so much self control Emmett said. I looked at my usually humorous son and all I saw was wonder and wishful thinking. Esme was standing beside me now and whispered in my ear ‘I upendo you’. Esme loved me with every understanding and passion that she could. I upendo wewe always i told her. Our eyes locked and we were in our own little world. She knows this still hurts me and she stands kwa me while I speak of my first love. She ceases to amaze me. Did wewe stay to meet Diana Rosalie asked.
I hunted deer in a near kwa meadow after I ventured into famailer territory. My father’s farm.Their still were familiar faces their but their was a different vibe about it. I didn’t see my father .A good thing I don’t think I could have handled meeting him that particular moment. I was fixing to cut into Diana’s family farm when I saw my mom’s rose garden. It was beautiful as always though a little unkept. The longer I stood there sadness crept in. if my moyo was able to stop it would have because there in the center on the garden was a wooden cross.
Rebecca Cullen –mother,wife, and friend,
1635-1664
It was then when my body was shaking that I realized I was crying. It was the first tears I shed as a vampire. I cried until I could take no more. My mother died just a mwaka after my disappearance. What it most have cost her to lose her only son. My hatred for my father grew. Not only had he cost me my life with Diana but he cost my mother her life and me a mother. I broke out of the past as I heard my daughters crying. Carlisle wewe must have been moyo broken Bella cried. Im sorry Rosalie and Alice alisema in a low voice. I was but I had to get back to Diana before she could think the worse. So I gathered myself and my thoughts and headed toward to the orchard. Diana was seated under the mti kwa the pond we called ours. She must have been waiting because she broke into a grim smile when she saw me. I was beginning to think none of this was real.That wewe were still gone she whispered. Its very real and its still a nightmare though it seems like a good one I told her as I took her in my arms. A good Nightmare? My Nightmare ended last night when wewe snuck through my window Dinah said. I had come back to convince wewe to songesha on. That it was ok to songesha on and upendo someone else I whispered into her hair. Their wasn’t a hole lot of convincing last night was there? au just not the convincing wewe had in mind Dinah alisema with a look of embarresment. She hid deeper into my chest and I had to stop from losing control.
My eyes were opened when I first saw you,you made my moyo skip a beat,I heard nothing but yours...your heart,Never have felt the way I feel about wewe in a century,I want wewe around me,but I'm in a dilema...you need to know
Chorus: Oh Bella,Oh Bella it's hard to resist,every songesha wewe make,every step wewe take,every word wewe say,every breath wewe take makes my moyo ache,Oh Bella,Oh Bella it's hard to resist
I couldn't stop thinking about you,so oh,oh I revealed who I was,i could not hide, they say that's what happens when "two hearts collide" and I didn't believe until I experienced it,Does not change the fact that oh Bella wewe need to hear
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But now looking since wewe are mine,I guess wewe could say we are doing fine but Im still reserved ,you think Im obsurd for saying I have to be careful but the fact still remains...
(Chorus)
Chorus: Oh Bella,Oh Bella it's hard to resist,every songesha wewe make,every step wewe take,every word wewe say,every breath wewe take makes my moyo ache,Oh Bella,Oh Bella it's hard to resist
I couldn't stop thinking about you,so oh,oh I revealed who I was,i could not hide, they say that's what happens when "two hearts collide" and I didn't believe until I experienced it,Does not change the fact that oh Bella wewe need to hear
(Chorus)
But now looking since wewe are mine,I guess wewe could say we are doing fine but Im still reserved ,you think Im obsurd for saying I have to be careful but the fact still remains...
(Chorus)
Should never think
What’s in your heart
What’s in our home
And so I won’t
And you’ll learn to hate me
Still call me baby
Oh, love
So call me kwa my name
And save your soul
Save your soul
Before you’re too far gone
Before nothing can be done
Try to decide when
She’ll lie in the end
Ain’t got no fight in me
In this whole damn world
Tell wewe to hold off
Choose to hold on
It’s one thing that I’ve known
Once I put my kanzu, koti on
Coming out in this all wrong, ooh
She’s standing outside holding me
Saying oh please
I’m in love
I’m in love
Girl save your soul, ooh
Save your soul
Before you’re too far gone
And before nothing can be done
‘Cause without me
wewe got it all
So hold on
Without me wewe got it all
Hold on
Without me wewe got it all
Without me wewe got it all
So hold on
Without me wewe got it all
So hold on
Without me wewe got it all
So hold on
What’s in your heart
What’s in our home
And so I won’t
And you’ll learn to hate me
Still call me baby
Oh, love
So call me kwa my name
And save your soul
Save your soul
Before you’re too far gone
Before nothing can be done
Try to decide when
She’ll lie in the end
Ain’t got no fight in me
In this whole damn world
Tell wewe to hold off
Choose to hold on
It’s one thing that I’ve known
Once I put my kanzu, koti on
Coming out in this all wrong, ooh
She’s standing outside holding me
Saying oh please
I’m in love
I’m in love
Girl save your soul, ooh
Save your soul
Before you’re too far gone
And before nothing can be done
‘Cause without me
wewe got it all
So hold on
Without me wewe got it all
Hold on
Without me wewe got it all
Without me wewe got it all
So hold on
Without me wewe got it all
So hold on
Without me wewe got it all
So hold on
i have been with Edward for 2 years and i don't feel like our relationship is going anywhere, all we do now is have sex and that's mainly it. we were better of Marafiki than boyfriend and gorlfriend i mean before we got together we used to talk, hang out and everything. i miss it.
but resantly Edwrad has been distint i mean he comes knocking for me at 1 0 clock in the morning asking me do i want to go out. i can tell if he does that one zaidi time Charlie is going to hit him, so for his benefit he better not do that again.
why do people change?
it's really bugging me. i see him all the time flirting with other girls, but if he caught me flirting with an another guy he would go mad and get all jealous.
why does he care? i mean if he can flirt with other girl's i'm sure i can flirt with other guys.
he is really starting to get on my nerves.
Do i upendo him?
Should i dump him?
i guess i'll find out soon enough. This is his last chance.
Bella's pov
Charlie had been prety bad for weeks but i just put it down to it being the winter man flu, until carlisle told me...
"Bella dont freak out but Charlie ain't good." Edward told me before i spoke to Carlisle, probible to worn me to keep my emotions locked up since i was only a mwaka old, my power still cept me bizzy.
Renesmee came walking not skipping
towords me witch was diffrent for her, so something must have been up with Charlie.
"Mum just do as dad says... wewe need your strength to keep calm for Charlies sake no one elses."
"can somebody just tell me what is going on already, you've been telling me to keep calm for Charlies sake but i'm starting to freak out because i don't have a clue what is wrong with him."
"Mum breath, calm down." Renesmee tried to calm me but the longer it toke for sombody to tell me what was wrong with my dad, I was getting wears.
Charlie had been prety bad for weeks but i just put it down to it being the winter man flu, until carlisle told me...
"Bella dont freak out but Charlie ain't good." Edward told me before i spoke to Carlisle, probible to worn me to keep my emotions locked up since i was only a mwaka old, my power still cept me bizzy.
Renesmee came walking not skipping
towords me witch was diffrent for her, so something must have been up with Charlie.
"Mum just do as dad says... wewe need your strength to keep calm for Charlies sake no one elses."
"can somebody just tell me what is going on already, you've been telling me to keep calm for Charlies sake but i'm starting to freak out because i don't have a clue what is wrong with him."
"Mum breath, calm down." Renesmee tried to calm me but the longer it toke for sombody to tell me what was wrong with my dad, I was getting wears.