Dear The-One-I’m-Glad-I-Never-Kept
I smile now, not like before. It seems like after wewe had hurt me, I got over wewe pretty quick, I guess I never really loved wewe and wewe were a waste of my time, and when wewe left I think part of me was relieved, I wasted my time crying, I guess I was blind.
That smile there, on my face, he put it there. Remember those three months wewe had put me down, made me cry, and I was still stupid enough to stay? He re-wrote that in two, he replaced my permanent frown, with a smile.
Do wewe remember that siku I was crying, and I had went to wewe with support? Today I still wish I hadn’t, wewe had laughed and told me not to be such a baby, that I was being silly. And remember how later that night, when we had had our first fight, and wewe had called me a good for nothing ugly bitch, kahaba who was a waste of time and space, and I was only good for making excellent sandwiches? Remember how I had ran away crying? It was him, my friend, I ran to, who had wiped my tears away with his shati sleeve and told me everything was going to be okay, and asked me what had happened. When I told him he was shocked, and told me that I was zaidi amazing then I could ever know, and wewe were a fucking idiot, and to never believe anything different anyone else told me.
Remember how wewe had aliyopewa me your sweater, and I had been so happy? I realize now, that two hours before one of your Marafiki were hitting on me when wewe had walked in, and got all tense, and wewe were claiming your territory, wewe might as well have pissed on me. I realize now that the sweater didn’t feel of warmth and care, but cold, hard, possessiveness. Today he gave me his sweater because I had shivered, and he didn’t want me to catch a cold, when I zipped it up to my chin and settled into it, he laughed and alisema “Baby wewe look great in my sweater.”
Remember the pressure wewe had aliyopewa me for sex, and every time I alisema no, you’d flip? Remember how it left me a little screwed in the head? When I had told him I was uncomfortable with where his hand was, kwa accident, he blushed madly, and we had gotten into THE conversation all young adults in a mature relationship have. Then I told him that I wasn’t ready for sex, and I wouldn’t be soon, not at fifteen, he had grinned, and laughed, and told me that things were going to songesha at whatever pace I felt comfortable with.
Remember when your Marafiki jokingly told wewe that wewe were whipped and my bitch, and wewe had gone ape-shit and argued with him? Some of his Marafiki joked about the same thing, and he had put his arm around me kissed my hair, and alisema “Yeah I guess I am, but I’m her happy bitch”.
Remember how I had rested my head against your shoulder and wewe had pushed it away saying “Cuddling is for wimps.” I fell asleep and he slipped his arm around me and let me use his chest as a pillow.
Remember when I was nervous for that test, and wewe alisema grow-up? Recently I had been preparing a speech, and I was incredibly nervous to present it, as I was standing in front of the class, sputtering out my words as fast as I could, my eye caught his, and he mouthed “I upendo you, you’re doing great.”
Remember that siku I had come to school wearing sweats, and a Skillet Tee-Shirt, with no make-up, and my hair a mess because my alarm didn’t go off? Remember how wewe had looked at me disgusted and alisema “You’re seriously not dressed like that?” Today the same thing happened and he smiled and welcomed me into the conversation he was having with his friends, put his arm around me, and when he got a spare moment whispered softly in my ear “You look stunning today.”
And vice-versa, remember that dress that I wore and wewe had looked at me and alisema “Damn my girls a hottie!” and spent the entire night trying to slip your hand up my skirt, and after I had rejected all your advances, wewe started dancing with every girl there? I wore that same dress to a school hosted winter tamasha with him, and he had looked at me funny and alisema “Babe, you’re beautiful, but aren’t wewe going to be cold?” and handed me his coat.
I guess the difference between wewe and him, is that I think he cares, and I guess wewe never did.
upendo from The-One-You-Will-Wish-You-Had-Never-Let-Go
p.s I still wish wewe the best, and I hope wewe grow-up soon. But the way I feel about him, isn’t going to change anytime soon, and the way I hate wewe is never going to change. So don’t bother thinking I want wewe back.
I smile now, not like before. It seems like after wewe had hurt me, I got over wewe pretty quick, I guess I never really loved wewe and wewe were a waste of my time, and when wewe left I think part of me was relieved, I wasted my time crying, I guess I was blind.
That smile there, on my face, he put it there. Remember those three months wewe had put me down, made me cry, and I was still stupid enough to stay? He re-wrote that in two, he replaced my permanent frown, with a smile.
Do wewe remember that siku I was crying, and I had went to wewe with support? Today I still wish I hadn’t, wewe had laughed and told me not to be such a baby, that I was being silly. And remember how later that night, when we had had our first fight, and wewe had called me a good for nothing ugly bitch, kahaba who was a waste of time and space, and I was only good for making excellent sandwiches? Remember how I had ran away crying? It was him, my friend, I ran to, who had wiped my tears away with his shati sleeve and told me everything was going to be okay, and asked me what had happened. When I told him he was shocked, and told me that I was zaidi amazing then I could ever know, and wewe were a fucking idiot, and to never believe anything different anyone else told me.
Remember how wewe had aliyopewa me your sweater, and I had been so happy? I realize now, that two hours before one of your Marafiki were hitting on me when wewe had walked in, and got all tense, and wewe were claiming your territory, wewe might as well have pissed on me. I realize now that the sweater didn’t feel of warmth and care, but cold, hard, possessiveness. Today he gave me his sweater because I had shivered, and he didn’t want me to catch a cold, when I zipped it up to my chin and settled into it, he laughed and alisema “Baby wewe look great in my sweater.”
Remember the pressure wewe had aliyopewa me for sex, and every time I alisema no, you’d flip? Remember how it left me a little screwed in the head? When I had told him I was uncomfortable with where his hand was, kwa accident, he blushed madly, and we had gotten into THE conversation all young adults in a mature relationship have. Then I told him that I wasn’t ready for sex, and I wouldn’t be soon, not at fifteen, he had grinned, and laughed, and told me that things were going to songesha at whatever pace I felt comfortable with.
Remember when your Marafiki jokingly told wewe that wewe were whipped and my bitch, and wewe had gone ape-shit and argued with him? Some of his Marafiki joked about the same thing, and he had put his arm around me kissed my hair, and alisema “Yeah I guess I am, but I’m her happy bitch”.
Remember how I had rested my head against your shoulder and wewe had pushed it away saying “Cuddling is for wimps.” I fell asleep and he slipped his arm around me and let me use his chest as a pillow.
Remember when I was nervous for that test, and wewe alisema grow-up? Recently I had been preparing a speech, and I was incredibly nervous to present it, as I was standing in front of the class, sputtering out my words as fast as I could, my eye caught his, and he mouthed “I upendo you, you’re doing great.”
Remember that siku I had come to school wearing sweats, and a Skillet Tee-Shirt, with no make-up, and my hair a mess because my alarm didn’t go off? Remember how wewe had looked at me disgusted and alisema “You’re seriously not dressed like that?” Today the same thing happened and he smiled and welcomed me into the conversation he was having with his friends, put his arm around me, and when he got a spare moment whispered softly in my ear “You look stunning today.”
And vice-versa, remember that dress that I wore and wewe had looked at me and alisema “Damn my girls a hottie!” and spent the entire night trying to slip your hand up my skirt, and after I had rejected all your advances, wewe started dancing with every girl there? I wore that same dress to a school hosted winter tamasha with him, and he had looked at me funny and alisema “Babe, you’re beautiful, but aren’t wewe going to be cold?” and handed me his coat.
I guess the difference between wewe and him, is that I think he cares, and I guess wewe never did.
upendo from The-One-You-Will-Wish-You-Had-Never-Let-Go
p.s I still wish wewe the best, and I hope wewe grow-up soon. But the way I feel about him, isn’t going to change anytime soon, and the way I hate wewe is never going to change. So don’t bother thinking I want wewe back.
blood fills the faces of my fantasies
no mercy,you're trying to put me down
i can see clearly as you're taking a swing at me
come and i'll push wewe to the ground
what are wewe doing? what do wewe think this is doing to me?
you're taking all my faith
what are wewe leaving me now?!
i will make wewe suffer just like wewe made me suffer
i will watch wewe screaming and begging for forgiveness
all my hate can not be bound
i will not be bound kwa your darkest demons
so try to take my life and put me to the ground
i will follow wewe and torture wewe and i'll watch wewe screaming
look at the bloody faces smiling at you,taking wewe down and making wewe drown
i wanna kill wewe the same way wewe killed me
leaving me thoughtless
wewe can try to tell me that i'm worthless
but wewe can not break me down
gonna take wewe down because nothing in this world is going to save me
no mercy,you're trying to put me down
i can see clearly as you're taking a swing at me
come and i'll push wewe to the ground
what are wewe doing? what do wewe think this is doing to me?
you're taking all my faith
what are wewe leaving me now?!
i will make wewe suffer just like wewe made me suffer
i will watch wewe screaming and begging for forgiveness
all my hate can not be bound
i will not be bound kwa your darkest demons
so try to take my life and put me to the ground
i will follow wewe and torture wewe and i'll watch wewe screaming
look at the bloody faces smiling at you,taking wewe down and making wewe drown
i wanna kill wewe the same way wewe killed me
leaving me thoughtless
wewe can try to tell me that i'm worthless
but wewe can not break me down
gonna take wewe down because nothing in this world is going to save me
The siku of love,
Is here again,
This is tough,
From end to end,
A joyus occasion,
Is our salvation,
Without you,
I would be empty,
No one kwa my side,
No one to embrace me when I'm tired,
Stuck within a baracading window,
Wishing oh so much,
That wewe would show,
Just another day,
Where I would have to sit here and say,
Alone again,
Always alone,
Behind these eyes are tears of love,
wewe are my one true,
Thank wewe honey,
For being with me,
I upendo wewe so,
Please,
Never ever leave me
kwa ScottishChic, dedicated to all whom I upendo x
Is here again,
This is tough,
From end to end,
A joyus occasion,
Is our salvation,
Without you,
I would be empty,
No one kwa my side,
No one to embrace me when I'm tired,
Stuck within a baracading window,
Wishing oh so much,
That wewe would show,
Just another day,
Where I would have to sit here and say,
Alone again,
Always alone,
Behind these eyes are tears of love,
wewe are my one true,
Thank wewe honey,
For being with me,
I upendo wewe so,
Please,
Never ever leave me
kwa ScottishChic, dedicated to all whom I upendo x
Hello my name is Cristina Xtri ,i am 15 years old and i upendo every singer's songs because SONG IS MY LIFE and also if singers wasn't even here exist then there would be no songs and i wouldn't even listen to song but now singers are here my life in on a ROCK AND ROLL!!!! WELL want to say something i upendo every singer's songs well they are GREAT for me it is my LIFE!!
SINGERS THAT I KNOW :Katy Perry, Taylor Swift, Nicki Minaj,Justin Bieber, Rihanna, Ariana Grande, Selena Gomez,Jennifer Lopez, well i just upendo every singers !!
Well i wish all the singer a big GOOD LUCK!!!! and also i upendo every songs well they are great!! hujambo all the singers make zaidi song for me please want to see zaidi !!! well just upendo every singer!!, well my inayopendelewa song is WORK kwa Rihanna and what is yours?
SINGERS THAT I KNOW :Katy Perry, Taylor Swift, Nicki Minaj,Justin Bieber, Rihanna, Ariana Grande, Selena Gomez,Jennifer Lopez, well i just upendo every singers !!
Well i wish all the singer a big GOOD LUCK!!!! and also i upendo every songs well they are great!! hujambo all the singers make zaidi song for me please want to see zaidi !!! well just upendo every singer!!, well my inayopendelewa song is WORK kwa Rihanna and what is yours?