I lie awake driving myself crazy thinking of you. I made a mistake when I let wewe go. I drive myself crazy, wanting wewe the way that I do.

You've still been avoiding Randy as much as possible, yet yearning for him zaidi as days pass by. It's been a mwezi since wewe and Randy haven't alisema a single word to each other.

**Randy's POV**

I'm such a mess! Look at me! Tossing and turning in my bed. It's been 5 hours since I've tried to go to sleep. **gets up and goes to the living room, watching TV** Ugh all these stupid soap operas. Isn't there anything good on? ...man...I was such a fool. How good was...

After a few weeks pass, you've been getting much sicker. wewe can feel it and wewe can see it. Whenever wewe look in the mirror, wewe see a pale face, small dark circles, and white lips. Your rosy cheeks have turned to paleness and nothing but paleness. You've been feeling much weaker and you've been sucking at mpira wa kikapu lately. Your coach notices and he talks with wewe about it.

Coach: So Jamie. How is it?
Jamie: ...you should know coach...I'm losing it.
Coach: What can wewe do Jamie? wewe need to rest. wewe can't play.
Jamie: What? But...but I upendo playing. I can't just stop.
Coach: Then at least you...

Chapter 11: Baby Boom

Jamie was nine months; Landon was working at a drug store and going to school.

One siku Jamie walked to her father 's house.

Jamie knocked on the door and Camilla opened the door.

"Hello Mrs. Carter" alisema Camilla

"Hello Camilla wewe look nice today" alisema Jamie

"Thank you, your dad have been waiting for, please come in," alisema Camilla

"Thank you" alisema Jamie entering the house.

Jamie looked around the house some things changed and some things remained the same.

Jamie looked at the jikoni there was Hegbert making supu for lunch.

Jamie moved and she stands there watching her father...

Chapter 9: Breathe

Landon was running through the halls to see his father.

Landon didn't stop and he made it in the room, and there was Jamie holding to Worth's hand.

Landon looked at Jamie and Jamie's eyes are tearful.

"He's strong," alisema Jamie

"I know he is," alisema Landon

The peacemaker was going up and down.

Jamie looked at it and then she stands up and looked at Landon.

She kissed Landon.

"When he wakes wewe talk to him kay" alisema Jamie

"Kay" alisema Landon

Jamie left,

Landon stayed in the room and he looked at his father.

Landon pulled up a chair inayofuata to his father side.

Landon was just looking at him...

Landon saw his son walking to the car he looked visibly annoyed. A young blonde girl was talking to him she carried a bible her hair in a gppony, pony tail she wore jeans and and hoodie. She reminded him of... Jamie. He sighed as his son sat down in the car. Kevin was 15 and spending this week with him and the inayofuata with his mom. Anna he had met her in Collage they hadn't worked. ''That Jessie Annoys me sooo much'' he ranted.

''How so?'' Landon asked.

''She so perfect shes so nice, Luke called her a bitch, kahaba today and she just promised to pray for him''. He stopped to take a breath. ''And that bible God''....

Chapter 14: upendo and Happiness

Jamie was getting changed to her black dress. She was putting on a little blush and she was putting on lip gloss. Hegbert comes in.

"Hey Jamie" alisema Hegbert

"Hey dad" alisema Jamie

"What's new with you?" asked Hegbert

"Oh nothing, Sunday Landon and I are coming for church, Britney sleeping over a Marafiki house," alisema Jamie

"Can't wait to see wewe guys there," alisema Hegbert

"Okay Britney should be in her room," alisema Jamie

"Thanks sweetie" alisema Hegbert

Landon came walking in the house and he saw Britney watching t.v.

Britney run up to Landon and she hugged him.

"Hey Brit how was...

***Randy's POV***

Randy sees wewe go to the bathroom alone, wanting to wash your face. He held his tears back well, not letting one single drop fall when being with you.

Randy: I'm gonna go out to get some air.

Randy walks out of the hospital and sits on the stairs. His held back tears fall to the ground like a smooth river flowing. He covers his hand to his mouth, trying to not make any noises. The picha of wewe crying your moyo out, shouting that wewe wanted to live, comes to his mind...

***your POV***

You see Randy sitting there, moving his shoulders up and down as if he were crying.

Jamie: Randy....

Heaven
It had been 3 hours from the Jamie and Landon wedding. She was so beautiful in that dress. Landon looked breathlessly as she came down the aisle. She smiled at Landon and never wanted to be without him ever again.
"I somberly swear to take Jamie Elizabeth Sullivan to be my lawfully wedding wife" Landon said. "I somberly swear to take Landon Rollins Carter to be my lawfully wedding husband" Jamie said. "I pronounce wewe husband and wife" Hegbert said.
After the wedding
They had a big reception with so many people. The cake was huge. All Landon's Marafiki were there. Jamie was happy that she...

Randy goes in your room when the doctor alisema it was ok. He sees wewe sleeping and he can smell the bleach from cleaning up your blood. He grabs a chair and sits inayofuata to you. He holds your hand and feels it cold. He warms them up for wewe kwa breathing on them. Randy starts tearing up again and his tear drops fall on your hand. He quickly wipes them off your hand...

You wake up to see Randy asleep on the chair inayofuata to your bed. wewe look around and wewe realize your in a hospital. wewe can't remember anything that happened to wewe before except the dizziness wewe felt back at Randy's house. wewe smile...

I upendo you, I only need you. Everytime I look at you, my words change. It feels like the sun is shining down on me, giving me the warm feeling that wewe are my one and only last love.

The whole day, wewe and Randy hang out together with his brothers and Angie. wewe guys just all hang and chill together wherevers..

**at night**

You tuck in Angie again and wewe hear a knock on your door. It's Randy again.

Jamie: *smile* Oh it's wewe again.
Randy: *smile* Can I?
Jamie: Sure.

Randy plops onto your kitanda and gets under your covers. wewe follow right after and wewe kiss him lightly.

Jamie: Ugh tomorrow's school.
Randy:...

****

Winter vacation is finally over and wewe guys all go back to school...

Shawn: hujambo Taylor. wewe think we can talk?
Randy: Uh sure.

Shawn and Randy go to the back of the school and they just stand there...

Shawn: Ok. I wanna be truthful and I wanna be as simple as possible too. wewe should let go of Jamie.
Randy: ...*kinda laughs* What?
Shawn: wewe should let go of Jamie. I mean wewe haven't even broke it with Lauren.
Randy: Oh...I totally forgot about her.
Shawn: See. Your just playing them.
Randy: Shawn, buddy, I know wewe like Jamie a lot but she's mine. I like her and she likes me. Lauren is just...unrequited...

Is my upendo really that bad? Everyone is happy when they're in love, but I'm here crying. Why am I hurting so much? I would leave anything for this upendo to happen...

You and Lauren head to the back of the school and she gives wewe a dirty look. wewe get a bad feeling and she pushes wewe and says:

Lauren: Are wewe a f**ing whore?!
Jamie: ...
Lauren: First wewe like him, then wewe break up with him, and now you're with him again?! Are wewe trying to play him?!
Jamie: ...
Lauren: Are you?!
Jamie: The only reason I left him was because of you. wewe alisema wewe were suicidal...
Lauren: Randy Taylor is mine! Got it?!...

In the middle of the night again, wewe wake up feeling a sharp twisting pain in your stomach. wewe twitch and wewe quickly yet gently songesha Randy's hands off your waist. wewe leave the kitanda and wewe run to the bathroom and wewe head to the toilet. wewe just start throwing up and throwing up into the toilet, closing your eyes but feeling the acidic burn in your throat. When your done throwing up, wewe look and wewe see blood in the toilet.

Jamie: Oh god...

**next morning**

You go back to your kitanda and wewe plop onto the bed, not being able to fall asleep. wewe look up at the ceiling, just staring into the...

Randy: Y-yah sure. Come in.

Randy lets Shawn in the house and Brad sees him. Brad's face turns to >:0 and he says:

Brad: I'm glad your here Shawn cuz now I need to give wewe what wewe deserve.

Brad is about to ngumi, punch Shawn but his dad sees this and shouts:

Tim: hujambo hujambo hey!! What the hell is wrong with wewe Brad?
Brad: Dad...you don't even know what he did to Jamie.
Tim: What did he do huh?
Shawn: I tried to rape her sir.
Tim: I'm sorry I didn't catch that.
Shawn: I tried to rape her...sir.
Tim: ...you know what how DARE wewe try to pull something like that to a poor, sick girl and-

While saying that, the...

Even though wewe might never be kwa my side again, I will never forget you. wewe won't understand how happy I was with you. When those memories come kwa me, I will be thankful.

Randy: I want to Jamie really...but I can't let you. I don't wanna get hurt kwa wewe again.
Jamie: ...
Randy: And besides...what about Shawn? And what about Lauren? wewe always cared for them zaidi than wewe did for me au for you.
Jamie: ...
Randy: I'm sorry Jamie...
Jamie: Then at least drop me off at my house. That's the least wewe could do...right?
Randy: Of course.

You grab Angie and wewe sit in the back kiti, kiti cha of Randy's car with Angie...

Jamie: H-huh?
Randy: I like wewe Jamie. Not just as a friend but zaidi than that.
Jamie: ...I...
Randy: I know your going through a really tough time. I mean your grandma just died, wewe just broke up with your boyfriend, and...and your health.
Jamie: ...what?
Randy: I know...about your leukemia.
Jamie: ...
Randy: But Jamie...I want to help you. I don't want wewe to go through this alone.
Jamie: Randy...I want wewe to leave.
Randy: Wh-what?
Jamie: I want wewe to leave.
Randy: B-but-
Jamie: Randy...*tears* leave...
Randy: ...

Randy gets up and walks out your door. wewe hear him get in his car but something pulls...

Why won't wewe understand my heart? Even if it's not me, can't it just be me? I've never had this want for anyone before. Can't it be me? Can't it be me in this life time, au can it be me in the inayofuata life time? Even if wewe promised today is the end, I won't be afraid...

Randy parks in your driveway inayofuata to Shawn's car and wewe see Shawn squatting down at your porch. He sees wewe and Randy and wewe get out of the car with Randy. wewe quickly get Angie and wewe walk inayofuata to Randy, in case Shawn might do something to him. Shawn walks up to wewe and he starts yelling.

Shawn: Where the hell were you?!?!?...

**October**

So a whole mwezi passed kwa and wewe and the whole group have gotten closer, esp. Randy. wewe and Shawn have started to barely hang out outside of school and wewe spend the rest of your time either studying, sleeping, eating, au hanging out with both Angie and Randy.

**Friday**

Randy: So what do wewe wanna do this weekend Jamie?
Jamie: Um I don't know. My grandma wants me to go to church with her but I'm not all that spiritual.
Randy: Oh. Well what days wewe going?
Jamie: Saturday night and Sunday for a regular service.
Randy: Oh. Well we can hang out at your church then so wewe won't be bored....

As time goes kwa you'll be able to forget everything...

You've been getting closer with the group while getting farther from Shawn. wewe don't even bother hanging out with him when wewe see him around school. wewe just walk with Randy and the rest of the group (you and Randy have every single class together and 6th period too). wewe and Randy have been getting pretty close and wewe guys can crack jokes to each other now. In 6th period, wewe go to your coach and wewe give him the note from the doctor. wewe look at the coach's expression while kusoma it and he looks like 0,0...

Coach: Sullivan...
Jamie:...

**basketball:6th period**

You and the varsity team are all practicing drills and today for some reason, wewe feel really out of breathe and dehydrated. On your water break, wewe gulp down your whole water bottle but wewe still feel dehydrated. wewe feel dizzy and wewe fall on your knees.

Coach: Sullivan!! Get your behind over here!!

You try to get up but wewe can't. wewe just fall right back down to your knees and the assistant coach goes to you, Tommy.

Tommy: What's wrong Jamie?
Jamie: I feel dizzy.
Tommy: Why don't wewe sit down. Do wewe need water?
Jamie: Y-yah...

Tommy gets wewe cold water and wewe gulp it...