wewe are my beloved... Gin.
Always ever my beloved Gin. Many days have been spent without you, since we cannot meet, because wewe do not exist much...
Why do wewe run away from such a place as this?
wewe liked this place, didn't you?
I heard it from your own lips. wewe like and upendo this place...
wewe born here and lived in here. There were other things to like here, right?
Why?

I do not know Gin, explanation fails again.
How many times were spent so missing you...
The worst is... with the days, which increase and flow,
I have felt Lost without wewe and like I lose wewe more, repeatedly each day...

I am surely full of pain and sadness...
Will wewe stay for me, then… kwa my side a little longer…just a little longer...
I want to be with wewe as often as I can.
I want to be beside you. I can prove to wewe that I will not run away-from wewe au from the Soul Society! Can you?


I just need to say these words.
There is no other person that can change your position in my heart, Gin...
One thing, I can't stop myself from thinking of is you...
I upendo you... and want to upendo wewe zaidi again...

I am missing wewe and losing wewe as often as I think about you...
Do not get gone for my eyes...

Every time I think of losing you, wewe fading, forgetting, my hearts feel s like it exited... and that is so much hurt.
That is some big pain for me...

However, every time I think of your eyes, your face, your personality...
your gentle smile... I think I can hold those pains off for a few zaidi minutes...

Gin, just want to ask some maswali of you.
If I do this for you, whatever I do, would wewe do the same thing for me?
Would wewe sacrifice for me –even your sacrifice your life?
Moreover, will wewe save me when I need your help?

Would wewe do those things for me?
I do not know.

I do not even know if I will ever meet wewe again- in the Soul Society au elsewhere, but I hope I can meet wewe there.
Honestly, I do not know anymore... meeting wewe wherever, anywhere and I cannot kubeba to think about that...
I just can cry and zaidi and zaidi within I cry waiting you... just waiting for wewe to come back to me-to come back.
I am afraid, Gin, of losing zaidi of my heart...
I am afraid I cannot take the pain...

Why?
Why must this happen to me?
I do not know. I do not know.
I am losing my mind sometimes. Never mind.
I can only wait... even if I do not want to.
Waiting on someone...
Someone that I trust can be my soul mate...
Gin...
Ichimaru Gin...