I geniunly believed I am modest and have a low self-esteem, but then I asked a few familly and Marafiki to tell me what they honestly believe and they told me I always act as if I am smarter than everyone, and I denied it and I alisema I am not smarter than everyone, and some kept saying I do believe it deeply, and thinking about it, I think that's the case, and I am just lying to myself and create a drama in my mind where I am shy and feel inferior :/