My 10 years old me vs my 20 years one who corresponds to a mwaka ago.
A lot, I can say. The memories I hold of my 10 mwaka old self are those of a shut-in kid facing a buch of issues like a Tick that has hard to control, earning him hate and rejection as well as ending up completely bald while trying to cope along with all his stressing in such an everyday life. He only wished to disappear.
Now, a lot of progress was made to reach the point I am at current. Got a zaidi positive outlook in life and things to look mbele to in the future. A big help being the people that stood kwa my side. My Family and few Marafiki who truly deserve to be called that. It might sound trivial but certain sources of Inspiration played a part too. Fiction au not, the kind of situations, people and lessons in general that I can relate and take example of. Nowadays, things are moving mbele with chuo kikuu, chuo kikuu cha and certain Classes I always wished to take such as Martial Arts and playing the Guitar, both that have done wonders to my Physical and Mental Health. I live a healthier lifestyle that has improved my mood and keeps me fit for the most part. I still have the aspects that I need to work one. That is what Life in ujumla, jumla is. Constant Improvement. Doing my best to get through the after effects my past has brought.
And yeah, I have also proceeded to be a massive Weeb over the years. In zaidi ways than one XD So there wewe have it !!!!
^ Thank you. I have, continue to do so and will keep making it to the best of my ability. Wish the same for everyone. That's what Life is, once again 👌 !!!!
Honestly at twenty I was pretty much the same as I was when I was ten lmao. I still am. Still hyperfixiate on characters. Still upendo the same characters, shows, etc. Still have the same hobbies and interests.
I guess what changed the most are my goals and how I channel my interests. Like I write fics now instead of simply siku dreaming.
I'm still pretty hyper. I'm still very much a dreamer and cling to childhood memories and activities. However the innocence is gone.
But I think that the biggest change is confidence/shyness. I am still very socially awkward but I'm pretty up front about it. wewe get what wewe see with me. I don't try to put on some facade for when I first meet people. Stopped letting people walk all over me. Stuff like that.
But other than that, I'm pretty much the same as I was, I've simply evolved and present the same traits in new ways.
10 lol let me get back to wewe if I remember *lol never*
20 was a bit careless shit xD with shit Marafiki xD The only thing that didn't change is my black glasses even if I change them I still use black frame XD
Oof... that trip down memory lane might set off a depressive episode tbh. I was very outgoing and lively at 10. Traveling overseas competing in dance competitions. So much fun and positivity. I've suffered with mental health severely in my 20s.
However to keep it positive to my 20s self, I took zaidi pride in my appearance, cared for my health/body. I used to be a very scruffy tomboy until I was about 16 lol.
Another positive could be that I am gaining the confidence I had at 10. I Lost it nearly completely during my teens and just this mwaka I'm feeling better at socialising and such. The other night I was out to chajio, chakula cha jioni with my boyfriend. I took the order for us and waved down the waiter for zaidi water. Like... sounds dumb but that's a huge deal for me. The look on my partners face was priceless. He seemed proud hahah. Went off on a tangent there lol.
Hmmm..when I was ten. I didn't have the internet and I was constantly playing my video games because I really didn't have an outlet. I wasn't outspoken in public at all. I was zaidi au less like a wallflower. But I cracked jokes in private. I was pretty much in my own reality. I didn't think my opinion held too much weight generally because of how I viewed my upbringing. So when I had the internet at home. It definitely increased my viewpoint of my worth. Didn't really have any friends. My only friend was my sister. And I was homeschooled and my mother didn't really help me develop my social life. Not going to do go into too much but wewe guys understand a bit of how I was at 10.
Fast mbele to 20. I am much zaidi outspoken than I used to be. I am way zaidi an anime shabiki than I was at 10. I didn't dislike anime back then but I wasn't exposed to the same amount. I used to be a bit zaidi close minded on women/concepts/etc but I am much zaidi open-minded than I was at 10 and I was already open-minded then. I have a greater variety of muziki and interests in general at 20 than 10.
One of the biggest differences at 20 is honestly the fact I had Marafiki I regularly talk to as opposed to never talking to people as Marafiki and then talking to people in general. I began to understand myself more. Honestly I've always been a person who understood someone else's emotions way zaidi than my own. I always kept my own in a small compartment and therefore it just gradually exploded once I had enough. I am trying my best to not to do that and just be honest at the beginning. I am very apathetic but I also understand emotional synapses. I am now I am learning to better channel my emotions and gain greater personal emotional understanding. I understood my emotions kwa itself but I didn't always understand on the whole of why I felt that way. In my 20s I am bettering myself in that aspect and other things. And while I had alot of interests before now that number has skyrocketed.
As for the things that's remained the same?
I am still someone who lives in their mind,cracking jokes just now that extends to public as well as private. I still swali everything. I upendo snowboarding and that's never going to change. And I am still very much so a collector. There's other traits but that's the gist.
posted zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Impressive. Progressing with your Emotional understanding and establishing a better connection is certainly great to see. Something quite noteworthy. I'm glad. Relatable about the interests. Keep it strong 👍 !!!!
My 10-year-old life? I started to swear, thanks to South Park and Futurama. My waifu was Dawn from Pokémon: Diamond and Pearl. So was May from the 3rd gen. Then I used to listen to old-school gospel and blues (because my first foster mum was almost strictly old-school, though she does listen to contemporary every now and again). Plus, I didn't have a computer. Then, I enjoyed Cartoon Network, til the Teen Titans Go era. Then I used to eat mustard on sandwiches.
I was also a dick to my classmates back in school.
Nowadays, I'm an EDM stan, I have Moka Akashiya as a waifu, thinks about an elementary school crush I still have, sometimes do competitive battling on Showdown, does RPing, swears quite a bit (still), and I'm stuck in the internet, trying to produce various genres of EDM, while struggling to get my laptop fixed. (Social security is a bitch.)
Well when I was about 10, my cousin use to always take me somewhere private and do it to me if wewe know what I mean. But now that Im 25 and he's about 30 au 31, he's not doing that anymore. He's stopped before I had my very first period. He was about to do it again while I was having my very sekunde period but I told him and he alisema "never mind" and after that, he never made me have sex with him again. I was 10 and he was a teenager then. I still have no idea why he kept doin it to me
