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Riku114 alisema …
A lot of me working on Impulse Control and managing compulsions is going "Do we actualky need to do this as much as we physically feel we do? No? Then dont do it. 'Just this last time' is never true and wewe know it so start now. Go do something else and learn to sit with the discomfort. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Revolving looking up Danganronpa stuff and plucking, Ive actually managed to redirect and prevent myself from breaking to it and its actually been a pretty successful process to go through. Its had a like 100% success rate on a smalk impulse thing like Danganronpa but Im trying to apply it to Trich a bit zaidi to see. The time I did it with Trich I dodnt pluck for like... five dakika zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
It personally might work and I might test it with some of my other compulsions zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Its also considered a type of Exposure Therapy I suppose? zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Story time

My boyfriend was being stupid and making stupid (yet hilarious) jokes while I was eating grapes and I just looked down at him cos he was in my lap and started trying to shove grapes in his mouth against his will to shut him and his bad (still hilarious) jokes up and all XD and he was like "NOOOO NOOOO NOOOO RAPEEEEE"

And I was like "NO ITS GRAPE" all seriously

Then there was a moment of silence before he lightly hit my head cos it was a stupid pun XD XD XD ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Seems like a pretty good one to me XD !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Also pretty sure wingu will survive cos 2 hours later hes back to living life like normal and tweeting at me when I checked up on him in the middle of the night XD ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
That is certainly great to know !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
tafuta up the danganronpa characters in v3 wewe wanna see picha

Me: No I dont wanna risk spoilers

do it au else I will...

Chest: *tenses up*

Me: *sweating profusely* Well I mean... since wewe are trying to use physical things to force my impulses.... I guess I have to tell wewe to FUCK OFF. I am working on my impulse control. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
But yeah Im getting better at it. Ive been able to resist to the urge to look up V3 characters for the most part XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Not even for the most part zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
I think entirely actually zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
That makes me proud !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
wewe know I actually thought my mom was being a bit of a lazy bad owner when she alisema she would probably just flour it, but now that I'm thinking of it, she probably genuinely doesnt get the procedure to it.

Cause when I was doing it I have her hold him down so I can focus on pulling the feather, but she asked me how to hold him and restrain him and I was like "On his back, then stretch the wing out and hold it there with your fingers au other hand" ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Cos I thought it was common knowledge and/or instinctual for someone who had birds as long as her, but I think the procedure, as simple as I find it to be, probably seems a lot zaidi complicated to someone who doesnt pretty much help out at the Wild Animal equivalent to the ER. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Lucy: *singing after I cover them up*

Me: *checks on them* Ugh go to sleep. wewe have an elderly wounded bird there.

Lucy: Oh hi mom

Cloud: *looks over at me as if nothing just happened* Oh hi Riku

Me: >.> Well wewe suddenly look all fine. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Just saved Cloud's life for the sekunde time this month. This time it was REALLY bad though. He either fell off his branch when sleeping au got scared and jumped but he broke three blood feathers in his wings - two of which were primary feathers - and Lost two flight feathers without breakign them

The bottom of the cage, had blood everywhere and when I took him out I got blood all across my forearm and hand ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Hes lucky (and I am too) that he has a future bird vet as an owner cos I respond really quickly and am good at handling it. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
My mom even admitted if it was her she would have just floured the wing and hoped for the best over the night zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Ill update wewe all tomorrow if I remember if he survived. He seems happy and relaxed now so I think I got all of it and it stopped bleeding zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Man... Imma miss my boyfriend when I go off to college. Without him who will make the stupid unnecessary over done jokes and being ujumla, jumla a cute stupid jackass? Who will take the jokes I set up and make the stupid joke I was intending to be said? WHO WILL BE MY PARTNER IN CRIME FOR MAKING THE WORLD CRINGE AT JOKES THAT ARE SO BAD THEY ARE GREAT?!?!?! ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Btw when it comes to him "Jackass" is a compliment and kinda akin to "smartass" XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
But seriously Imma set up so many jokes irl out of habit and no one is going to take them and Ill be sitting there sad. Like we never planned it au organized it but we run this duo of me pretty much making a lot of set up jokes for stupid commentary au puns au whatever XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Honestly this is all so silly. When wewe think about it. Kinda childish at it too.

I should stop playing around and just fully leave it behind. Its a waste of my time and energy. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
*When wewe think about it, kinda zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Good riddance zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Honestly, if I wasn't so aware its not what I want and its temporary, my parents would literally make me want to kill myself. The way they act just get me into a "I just hate it all. Fuck it its not worth trying." moodset and if I didnt have a natural flowing "Its only temporary and youll be out of the house soon and able to live your life", Id get into major depressive modes and probably borderline suicidal so often because of them ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
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Oh yeah huh, I just remembered I was literally triggered kwa a really small happy thing at my boyfriends house earlier today and pretty much distracted myself out of it so I wouldnt fall into a panic attack au anything XD

Seriously tho. I dont think I can say I dont have PTSD at least to a degree no matter how much my brain wants to tell me I dont XD I literally got triggered kwa my boyfriend's dad hugging and being affectionate to the toddler theyve been nanny-ing for two years ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Like at first such a small thing was like "wait what the fuck" and then from there it just hit like a train and was not fun but Im like... the best at dissociation and distracting myself and kinda brought myself back as I hurridly forced myself to NOT think about it no matter what anytime it started coming into my head zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Like yikes I barely remember it but yikes zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
HA IM NOT A FRESHMEAT IN COLLEGE TECHNICALLY. MY AP SCORES HAVE ME LISTED AS A SOPHOMORE FITE ME ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Mmm... Fresh blood !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Me: If she really manages to do get us as roommates, I am going to get her flowers, no question.

Roommate: SAME. If she manages to help us out of the 500 other students trying to get help, we have to do something

Me: I mean... do wewe think... we could get the band??? I mean its my always go to as a bando, but we are freshmen and lack connections so would we able to pull that off so early?

Us: Screw it. We will do it. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Update: Still struggling to understand psychosis to the level I wish to. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
I honestly upendo my roommate tbh ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
I mean the one that will be my roommate - not my current ones XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Me: I need to get back to learning / figuring out 3D Modeling at some point

Boyfriend: wewe do realize wewe dont need to have EVERY skill and EVERY hobby in existence right? ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
It is kinda funny when you're making that post with that specific ikoni !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
^ .... okay that is true XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
I give like at least 50% of credit / blame to my extreme burst in drive to Kevin Laue.

Cos seriously I wasnt so gunho about it until he spoke at my school on a siku I was really kinda depressed and his speech brought forth my first firm goal and plan for the ideology of "Passing the Torch" that I have still to today

And just like the goal and planning and actively reaching for that was so satisfactory that I just branched it out into so many other things ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
I need to watch his documentary at some point. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Within all my memory issues and everything, I will have him have a permanent name in my book of my life. He lit my torch as Im sure he has many others. Hes a truely remarkable man. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Honestly part of the reason Im as driven as I am is I strongly appreciate action over words. wewe can SAY wewe will graduate. wewe can SAY wewe will eat better. wewe can SAY wewe wont be a dick. wewe can SAY wewe will eat only one zaidi chip. wewe can SAY wewe will listen and help. wewe can SAY wewe wont force someone to do something.

Its a whole other thing about actually doing it. I respect people who actually do rather than just talking au just planning. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
That plus wewe really never get anywhere if wewe just talk and make promises to others and yourself if wewe arent willing to actually take active action to follow through zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Oh and birds duh zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Personally I wont say my drive is necessarily 100% good and I wont say I am not sometimes scared of how extreme it can be, but Im also not gonna say I dont think its good for me. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Pretty much Munakata is honestly a pretty good representation of me put under a lot of responsibility and pressure, put in a dire action-calling situation, with an ego put on juu of it.

I think the main issue thats in his hands is he believes hes is the ONE and ONLY Hope.

But nah Munakata is almost creepily like me. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Me: *making predictions on Danganronpa V3 characters* "Well she has the ahegao that all the main protagonists hav- .... backtrack. I am pretty sure ahegao is not the antennae but that hentai mind break thing. That would be an extremely different thing and image. One second"

Me: "Ah Ahoge. That sounds right." ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Also RIP Jet Black's account ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Oh boiii... We'll be seeing him in a new Account a few days from now at least, I guess !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
BlindBandit92 ametoa maoni…
Not surprised. Dude can't figure out which jina la mtumiaji he wants lol zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
JetBlack__ ametoa maoni…
^ I need to stop XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Me: hujambo can I get some help, I was put in a triple with people that give me extreme anxiety cos of my GAD and PTSD and I could use some advice how to get out

barua pepe I get in Response: Triple dorms arent bad! Heres why they arent bad!

Me: .... thanks.... i guess...? ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
I swear my stress level will be at a constant like... two notches higher than it usually is until I get verified that I am at least in a better room placement au even better if Im in a room with my roommate.

Like its not horrible but Imma be constantly having that bugging me in the back of my head.

If I didnt get better at handling my anxiety it would be killing me, but since Im better at it, its not THAT bad. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
I literally wish I could put "Literally just give me and my roommate a kinda nice cardboard box and we will both be happy" zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
link zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
THAT COULD BE US DAVIS BUT wewe ARE IN THE WAY zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
"Welp [redacted] is gonna die. Shes been too supportive and too likable."

*[redacted] isnt killed*

"Welp i didnt call it I gue-"

*[redacted] died another way*

"RING RING MOTHERFUCKER. I CALLED IT" ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
The Death Flag had been raised. Its vibes were too strong !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Me: Yo Lefteris what episode are we on? 7 au 8?

Lefteris: About to see 8. .... WAIT 9 DAMN IT RIKU

Me: :v shhh my memory is crap. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
wait shit I forgot to put Lefteris' exclamation marks. Its not accurate :V zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Wait if we were gonna see 8 why didnt we bring ducks- //shot// zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Lmao. ^ We are going to bring the ducks once they get through the Games !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
wewe know, earlier I was at Walmart getting like... college stuff and there was this health machine thing to see your age in health and I always take those just mostly out of tradition and all XD

And for the first time in a long time the maswali like "How often this mwezi have wewe been depressed" au "felt like things were going horribly wrong" au "felt wewe couldnt keep up / manage your stress" and stuff like that to which I was able to say "rarely" au "none at all" ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Well I doubt none at all cos Im a mental health mess and I do tend to have it at least a bit and all, but like man... zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Ever since I started being most dedicated to myself and my health above all else - academics, achievement, and other people - my life has been wonderful. Never thought it was possible before to be completely honest zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
That's certainly good to know. The progress wewe have made and will continue to do so is always great to see !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
[its so weird my dad keeps complimenting me over my skill with money and future planning]

[im not used to compliments from him]
ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
WHY DO I LIKE LOOKING FOR JOBS FOR MY BOYFRIEND

WHY DO I LIKE MANAGING AND PLANNING FINANCES

WHY DO I LIKE DOING ADULT-Y STUFF

ITS NOT NATURAL ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
My boyfriend maoni a lot on how Im honestly a bit of a schmoozer. And like... Im not entirely denying it. I upendo getting along with the people in charge, but its just because I like to be involved in leadership stuff if Im not the leader and because people who lead tend to be the type of people I get along with the best.

Its not like I am doing it for the benefits alone, its just the natural way I am. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
If Im not the leader au admin, I like to be the moderator au help them like a moderator. Helps keep things in order since I know its hard even for them, and it helps them understand and work with me if they know me zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Thus why I tend to be similar to the 'teachers pet' and 'favorite regular' at places. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
I was honestly a sociopath au something a few years ago. So glad I woke myself up from that zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Debating what game to play now that I finished Pandora...

I really wanna start Zero Escape: Zero Time Dilemma, but Imma start Danganronpa V3 in probably like... a mwezi au less and I dont think I should tire myself of that Genre

Hakuoki is too long to start with Danganronpa coming up and Psycho Pass I need to watch the anime first. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
So then I have Root Double, Her Smile Beyond the Twilight, Mayajasmine, Eden, and Blood Code. Could always go back and do zaidi of Sickness au give Men of Yoshiwara another torturous go au do zaidi of Pastry Lovers but.... eh zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
I think Ill go with Her Smile Beyond the Twilight zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Since wewe loved Danganronpa, I'm pretty sure wewe are really going to like Zero Escape as well. They share quite a few similarities between them. Totally recommend it !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
And so we begin my transition into college where college will be my main focus and integrating and adjusting will be the main focus until the end of the first quarter around like... December au whatever XD

Gotta get all I need for college together
Gotta get my roommate stuff settled out
Gotta go to band camp
Gotta adjust my relationship for long distance
Gotta get used to the campus and classes
Gotta make good friends
Gotta figure out communal bathroom life
etc etc ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Fuck it XD Since my brain is up for an anxiety attack cos of this, Imma just drop the conversation and head straight to the people in charge of student housing with the issue.

Rather than waiting au sitting on it and contemplating, Imma just get information right from the source. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Riku's all fun, nice, charismatic, and someone people like to be around, but that is only until something that is perceived as a threat enters the situation. Then its cold, questioning, sometime crude and harsh, and ujumla, jumla distant and distrustful until alisema perceived threat is either gone au satiated.

Then its also a matter of if my logical side says "Yes, it is a threat" "Not sure if it is au isnt" au "Stfu wewe are stupid. Its not a threat" ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Those three determine how much of a filter is on the cold swap and how hard I stick to / try to get out of my defensive mode XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
.... is my brain literally considering going on an anxiety attack over this??? Stfu brain XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
It wants to hide behind "comfortable roommate" XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Me: Ugh thats an annoying way. Ah well, lets work with it. And be nice in case we do end up with the-

Brain: ITS A THREAT. ITS AN ATTACK. HISS. HISS. DEFENSIVE. DONT TRUST. DONT TRUST. DEFENSE DEFENSE

Me: ...

Me: .... Lets be nice and be charismati-

Brain: THREAT. DONT TALK. IGNORE. AVOID. DEFENSIVE. DEFENSIVE. DONT LIKE. DONT LIKE.

Me: Its okay not to like it but we still need a good first impression. Also its not an actual threa-

Brain: THREEEEAAAAATTTT

Me: ... >.> okay ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Literally though XD I hate how they approached me so much XD It puts me in such a corner and I dont like feeling like Im in a corner. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Im in such a defensive mode right now zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
My brain with its trust issues, extreme vulnerability issues, and shit is irrationally kusoma it as a personal attack and threat XD Its so stupid XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
AH FUCK MAN.

Im fine with it when its on here and all but unexpected, unsolicited approaches to me related to things and people I have to deal with irl spook the fuck out of me and put me on guard so damn quickly

I like to watch, analyze, and select for at least a few dakika before interacting

Strangers suddenly trying to be my friend without me having anything to look after before hand and even zaidi so when I wasnt expecting it is just ugh. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
I got put into a Triple dorm apparently with two people I dont know and they approached me before I even knew assignments were out using my personal phone number >.> zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Requests to switch are apparently common and apparently decently handled most of the time but yikes. 0/10 poor way to start an interaction with me :v Two people I dont know ganging up on me and tlaking like they already know each other :v zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
ESPECIALLY if Im not the one that brought it together zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Me: Man Im tired. Long drive and too tired to explain stuff

Also Me: Imma research jobs for the inayofuata two hours to make my boyfriend's life easier.

Also Me After That: Now to start planning my college finances

Me: This is fun and relaxing. *not sarcastic* ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Also dude, I got my oldest sister to agree to buy me a $32 Cockatiel kuunganisha so Lucy will be slowly trained to be a bird I can go on walks from. Its a bit of a stretch tho since I know hes a hardcore agoraphobic rn XD

If I cant get him comfortable with going out on my shoulder kwa the time CMHS' band camp starts, then Ill jsut bring Smokey to my old children since she used to go out with me WITHOUT a kuunganisha and didnt fly off ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Good old times with Smokey when she was younger and less flock-orientated and zaidi of a companion bird XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
She had zaidi energy and could handle going out better cos she was younger and I didnt have to worry much at all of her flying away XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
IM nyumbani HALLELUJAH.

The trip was A LOT of fun. Something of the most fun and relaxing vacations Ive had in a while, and thats coming from me, someone who tends to hate and, zaidi accurately put, fear vacations XD

Plus I got Pandora Hearts completed since I downloaded it before hand and wow that was a great ending XD Made my mood even better for that night that I slept

Plus spending four nights and three full days (five partial) with my boyfriend and his family is always awesome ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Welcome back, Riku. Glad to know about your progress and that wewe had a good time !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
GDragon612 ametoa maoni…
annyeong Riku, thats good to know that wewe are doing great!!! And I am happy wewe had alot of fun and sleep zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
GDragon612 ametoa maoni…
and wewe enjoyed ya trip with fam and playing hehe<3 zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
This drive back is literally the worst :v Its normally a 6-8 saa drive and I think its now nearly a 12 saa one due to traffic ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Rikus on her way back nyumbani bb ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Have a salama return, Riku. Hope wewe enjoyed yourself to the fullest !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
2ntyoneplts alisema …
Hi its been a while. Im just here to quickly say a big thanks for everything youve done. Carry on. So this is goodbye from me dude. Im leaving. So ya take care. Stay Alive <3 ||-// ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Youre welcome <3 Im glad I could help. Feel free to come kwa whenever. This club, my inbox, and the Mental Health foramu is always there with open arms for wewe zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Off camping for a while. Prolly wont be on mich for the inayofuata few days ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Have fun, Riku. Get the most out of it !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
JetBlack_ ametoa maoni…
Have fun :D be salama 🏕 zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Thanks XD upendo yall zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
I relate to Nagito drooling over Izuru Kamukura there. Like wowza.

I think Nagito and Munakata summarize my personality pretty well. Then wewe could put either Toko au Izuru in to add extra touches. au both. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Same for me with the last two although a little bit zaidi than extra touches. Anyway, both it is. They synchronize pretty well XD !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
[forgot she had like four hours of on and off panic attacks today until Zeppie asked her about it cos she saw the post]

"The Glory of My Memory" XD ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
But yeah, I felt like I can talk about my boyfriend a tad bit zaidi since some of wewe have been curious about it a bit and Ive been rather restrained on the topic until lately.

Itll die down a bit once this whole "Opening the door about the relationship to the public" phase fades through, but until then, the door to know about my relationship zaidi is open XD ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Cos hes a big part of my life and theres a lot to say about him after being together for nearly a year. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Just a like... two months off. October 20th is the anniversary, which I only remember because the half years is 420 and I'm a child like that. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Its kinda creepy but mostly awesome. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Panic Attacks ; All siku ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Shoutout to Lucy and my boyfriend for most of the siku support zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
JetBlack_ alisema …
Guys
since I'm really bored right now I'll post some questions__ Enjoy ^^ ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Yass zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Much appreciated, Comrade. Your maswali are always a treat XD !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
JetBlack_ ametoa maoni…
Np :D zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
I am so sleeping in tomorrow

...

inb4 I wake up an saa earlier than usual naturally ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
To a degree, pain, suffering, depression, and struggle is pleasant. Its a comfortable usual. Its the normal. Its an actual emotion.

When compared to the nothingness I used to have, au the struggle and even greater pain and all that comes with trying to get better, in a way, pain and suffering are the zaidi pleasant and enjoyable of the two.

In that way, I very much can understand not wanting to get better and personally am not the type to say those that dont want to recover are fake ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
((Even though I might slip it through my mouth in the rage of the people that think mental health is a cool trend and self diagnose unrealistically and make jokes of mental health issues)) zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Despair, in a way, is comfortable. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
But thats just a tangent off of the awali post XD Its not directly related but like.. a tangent of a thought that came up when I was thinking of the last post XD So like a tangent of a tangent zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Also STRONGLY related to Izuru Kamakura at a point in my life. Not AS much anymore cause Ive recovered from shit a good deal and found a lot of great things but like... I totally get it man XD ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Shocking to say, I dont ENTIRELY hate older Monaca au at least... Post Nagito Monaca. I still have major gripes with her in DRAE but her character seems a little LESS 24/7 extremely ear grating and like she was created to piss me off.

Thank wewe Nagito for fixing her up a little bit. I can always rely on you. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Ah honestly, itll be such a relief when September comes around and I can go off to Davis. A lot of my toxic environments vanish pretty well au minimize greatly and Ill actually be able to be me fully in my life. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
AHH. I DID PROGRESSSS

IM SO HAPPY IM NOT KIDDING YOU. I KEPT IT OFF THE CLUB BECAUSE I SOUND SO JADED AND SHIT AT TIME BUT MAN WAS I REALLY LOOSING FAITH BEFORE THIS.

LIKE I WAS FULLY UNDERSTANDING THAT IT WOULDNT GO AWAY UNTIL I Lost ALL THINGS HOLDING ME BACK AND ALL TRAUMA WAS PROCESSED BEFORE I EVEN GOT SOMETHING LIKE THIS

AND ITS BACK

I FORGOT THAT TRICH USED TO BE A HUGE DEAL FOR ME ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
COS I SHUT OUT HOW BADLY IT FELT TO FAIL AND REALIZED I COULDNT HELP IT AND ACCEPTED IT FOR MY OWN SANITY zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
This is certainly worthy of sharing, Riku. One's improvement is never a small matter. wewe still hold room for so much more. Be glad for every step wewe take along that path. Once again, I'm really happy for wewe !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
BlindBandit92 ametoa maoni…
^ zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
GUYS IM LIKE MAKING PROGRESS ON MY TRICHOTILLOMANIA FOR THE FIRST TIME IN AGES I THINK ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
INSTEAD OF MAGICALLY FINDING MY HAND PLUCKING HAIR, I HAVE THREE TIMES TODAY FOUND MY HAND MAGICALLY PLAYING WITH MY STIM TOYS zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
I SAY THREE dakika COS IM SLEEPING SOON zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
IF I CAN STOP SCREAMING zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
On other notes, super hyped for DCI finals tomorrow with my boyfriend XD

Ill finally be free to watch all of them XD Hopes for SCV winning ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Since the private message was rejected, I am highly uncomfortable and not okay with Wanta continue his level of participation in this club and I would really like if people on here would help me in getting that respected since he refuses.

If Im being honest, if I cant feel comfortable in my own club which is like my home, Ill likely leave fanpop all together since seeing someone I have bad blood so frequently within a place I call nyumbani is really not good for me. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog ametoa maoni…
I literally refused nothing btw zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Just an update. I broke the friendship with Wanta off. If any yall really want any specifics I might say in PM but for the most part its mostly just an update that I feel yall would wanna know ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog ametoa maoni…
As my input on this. It had nothing to do with my earlier thing where I blanked my profaili and icon. That was an unrelated financial issue. In addition this was a mutual decision Riku and I both came to. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
TFW wewe are managing three really important focus demanding conversations at once and after doing so for like... half an saa au more, wewe literally start throwing out memories of what was going on in conversations.

I need to cool my brain for a bit XD It cant keep up ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
I'm also wondering if I should post like... exactly 20 picha so my life time dhahabu is 12,345 cos I like shit like that ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Question: Do wewe bite your nails?

Me: *googling: Are humans supposed to have nails?* Its been so long I dont remember ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Also arching on the awali topic a bit, I genuinely think the world is beautiful. Its shitty and unfair, but despite it, its still a beautiful place with so many opportunities to go through.

Its part of why I am driven. I have a limited pass into being part of it, and I want to do as much as I can in the time I have. I want the knowledge it offers. I want the games it gives. I want the art it permits. I want the upendo it has to give. I want it all, and I cant get it, but I sure will try. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Those that follow my rambles on here a lot will probably remember when I would be like "Its odd, but its almost like a religion at this point that the world is beautiful. I can't see it, but I saw it once and have held onto the belief that its there for so long" and honestly... I think I got out of it. When I was depressed - like really really depressed and suicidal - that beauty was really hard to see. It was pretty much impossible and really hard to even imagine, but I do remember that one time I had among all the bad where I could see it, and stuck with it zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Now Im here and Im so glad I made it here. The struggle is worth it. To undertake extreme pain, discomfort, and worsening suffering to help clear the dirty that darkened and hid the beauty of the world from me, its all worth it. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
I still cant say I 100% feel the world is salama and that the world is perfect, but for the latter, its natural and just reasonable and for the former, its a work in progress. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Amen to that !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
I honestly platonically upendo my roommate already XD Like... I think I will genuinely be able to have a strong genuine friendship with her, and it baffles me to actually have someone other than my boyfriend near me that actually likes me and that I will be able to hang out with.

I used to be a huge person for arguing that online Marafiki are just as real as irl Marafiki (and dont get me wrong, they are), but theres something so special and great about being able to actually be inayofuata to them ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
To regularly hear them, be kwa them, laugh with them, and in the end actually be able to have physical affection like hugs. Like... maybe its my affection depraved self, but just being able to hug someone and to trust them and all... Its like a level of experiencing in the friendship that is hard to get online unless maybe if wewe are frequently voice chatting and probably video chatting. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog ametoa maoni…
Eh zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
I can understand those feelings. They are only natural. I'm really glad to see wewe continue making progress and express yourself !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Be: *sprayed birds cos they liked it*

Me: *done* *sprays self twice*

Mom: Oh I can spray wewe if wewe go outside

Me: What? No! Stop treating me like a bird

Mom: *sprays me*

Me: hujambo NO *subconsciously moving closer to make it easier*

Me: *sends up full on letting her spray me cos it feels nice*

Me: ... Im a literal bird ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
*Me not Be zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog alisema …
Walmart: You’re not busy enough. We’re increasing how many orders wewe get per day”

Me: Yaaaaaay.... ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Phew. After about 2 weeks of working on a hand made birthday present for my boyfriend, I am FINALLY entirely done. Probably banked in like... six saa into the smaller parts and like... an saa au two into crafting the entire thing, like an saa shopping for parts, about $15 into buying parts, and I super glued my fingers together so like...

I think that last one shows how much effort I put into it. Super glue is horrible XD

8-9 total like.. focused hours XD ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
If I hear "You sound like youve been sexually abused" from my mom one zaidi time, may it be relatively innocent au not, may she back out of it au not, Imma go ballistic.

Im pretty sure this time was mostly cos shes been watching too much Law and Order SVU and I was genuinely in a really over excessive narrow visioned hatred making it remind her of scenes she saw on there and probably being a regular maoni so I didnt let it get to me too much after telling her how much I hate that line. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
But yeah she used to say it a lot ever since those dumb punda group therapists mentioned it after they saw me tear into them for forcing me to talk in front of my mom when they alisema they wouldnt force me if I wasnt comfortable zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog alisema …
Has everyone not yet figured out that I've isolated and taken the facial characteristics of every Danganronpa character in case I ever wanted to put them on things like frankenstein? ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
.... wewe have too much time on your hands zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
That's certainl intriguing... zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog alisema …
Putting Chiaki's eyes on things is too much fun. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog alisema …
I'm mad. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog ametoa maoni…
*pout* zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
^ ''Welcome to our crazy world of madness'' !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
GDragon612 ametoa maoni…
yupp welcome we sit all in the same mashua ^^ zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
So Imma prolly try to do a normal Sims game with no cheating au anything. I randomized two characters. We have an artist for a dad with some other bila mpangilio traits and a jembe, hoe of a mom. The child will end up being the character I actually try to raise up properly. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
So my goal as parents is to make a not best standing for the kid starting to add to the challenge. Dad is the money maker with his artist career and the moms gonna be a cheating jembe, hoe XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
So the dads gonna be the one forced to actually be responsible for the kid and money for the most part XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Lets see how this goes zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Centuries have passed since I last played a Sims Game XD Seeing this, made me intrigued in it once again lol !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog alisema …
Come on, Hajime. onyesha us your cool side. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Hajime has always been pretty cool !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Honestly, the zaidi wewe deal with mental health, trauma, and a really shittily wired mind, the zaidi wewe develop a tolerance for really lame and boring trolling that wewe cant escape tbh.

Cos like... its like a super annoying troll that knows all the things that can bother wewe and is really good at dressing up like something whose opinion actually matters and whispers (and sometimes shouts) the same things that they know could bother you

And wewe just sit there like... ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
link zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
0:10 zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
[this ukuta post was forgotten the sekunde Riku came to write it so this is here kwa proxy] ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
So in the end, my goal is to have either an African Grey au Cockatoo from a rescue, my two Cockatiels, and a pigeon XD

Depending on how things go, I might get a Cockatoo and African Grey au maybe some other bird, but thats the plan for birds.

No one can tell me otherwise.

Id also like to have a bird room. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
One of the most amusing moments someone caught me doing is that one time when I was watching cockatoo video on my phone and it did one of those cute happy neck bounces, and then in response cos it made me happy and I found it cute, I did one as well XD

My boyfriend who was inayofuata to me just looked over and judged me XD ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Ill get to rating people tomorrow cos Im tired XD Long siku since my boyfriends cat got euthanized ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Sorry to know about that. What I alisema before about your Bird, wingu applies in here as well. Hope his Cat lived a contented life. Its memories will remain !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
GDragon612 ametoa maoni…
sleep well Riku hun<3 zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog alisema …
I can't describe it in words, but very often I find the wording choice used in Pandora Hearts to be something I kinda don't like...

Well..not that I don't like it but zaidi that it feels off to me. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog ametoa maoni…
"But is it what wewe alisema true" zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog ametoa maoni…
That's an example. Pretty sure it's just minor issues with the translation I'm reading. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Oh yeah I noticed that too. Im pretty sure its translation errors and all, but they are minor so I kinda ignore it XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Wow I actually found an anime that intrigues me.... I might actually watch it while Wantas working despite kusoma Pandora Hearts and watching Danganronpa ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
FUCK ITS ONGOING zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
I HATE LIFE XD I WONT BE INTERESTED kwa THE TIME ITS DONE zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Which one are wewe talking about? zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Happy Sugar Life zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
My dad is literally stupid and so ignorant AND arrogant. Like he constantly makes the most outlandish and/or obviously wrong statements / beliefs to explain why he is right, then comes up with outlandish arguments and proof that in themselves are completely wrong and when wewe prove him wrong he just ignores you.

He pulls so much bullshit out of his ass, but its like he doesnt even know it and is certain he is right. He believes FACTUALLY wrong things and gets annoyed when thats pointed out. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog ametoa maoni…
He sounds like my 10 mwaka old little sister zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
I think wingu is getting better btw. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
That's certainly great to know !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
GDragon612 ametoa maoni…
thats good <3 zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog alisema …
I felt brave so I browsed something from V3.

I think I'll relate to Maki Harukawa if the pattern from awali Danganronpa stuff holds true. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
^ I'm curious about that pattern. What exactly is it that gave wewe that idea? zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog ametoa maoni…
Mikan zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
^ As I have told wewe before, I am pretty sure that Ouma is going to end up being your inayopendelewa in the new Cast. As for the Relatability, we'll see XD !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
ALSO. I FORGOT TO MENTION THIS BUT I WAS kusoma manga WITH LUCY AND HE RANDOMLY WALKED OFF OF ME, POOPED, THEN WALKED BACK ON.

HE MADE AN ACTIVE EFFORT NOT TO POOP ON ME ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog alisema …
💩 > Monaca ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Im just fawning over Vincent Nightray.

Its been a while since I fawned and its kinda nice XD A lot of my vipendwa have been REALLY strong ones that get overwhelmingly obsessive and this one is just like ":3 I upendo Vincent. Look at my Vincent. Hes my favorite. I upendo Vincent." ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Id collect picha but just collecting GIFs were risky enough of spoilers. At least Im like 60% done now. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
My Vincent zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
*10:30 PM*

Bird: *starts imba randomly*

Me: *from her desk* hujambo wewe ARE SLEEPING

Birds: *not a single peep for the inayofuata hour*

BTW their 'bed time' is at 9 PM XD ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
This bila mpangilio test Im taking on morality says Im strongly for "rational utilitarianism" ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Between a score of 1-5, I got a below average 2.5 on empathy and a barely above average disgust XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Lucy likes to sit on my butt ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Also I upendo Vincent too much ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Better now. Honestly though, hes a piece of crap. Not vindicitvie au aggressive au anything, but he is literally a piece of crap incapable of functioning as a human being himself and relies on his wife for everything, but at the same time treats the thing that he relies on like trash.

My mom isnt innocent either, but she god damn is the better of two evils. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
https://tinyurl.com/yb4wf7sz ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
^Mood zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog ametoa maoni…
I'm sick rn so feel free to torture me all ya want. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Cos its not good for me to fester on my hatred for him au anything. Cos I know it can get out of hand zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
My dad makes me wish I was dead sometimes to be honest. Not like... suicide but like... really why the fuck was I born with this piece of shit as a father? What kind of responsible parent brings life into this piece of crap? ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
And its not really in a depressed way. Its zaidi so in an annoyed way. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Its less questioning it but zaidi so factually stating that I shouldnt have been. Its not a bad thing about me, its just a fact. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
^ Well, here's where I disagree. I'm glad about your Existence and wouldn't have it any other way. wewe still have a lot to live for !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Me: *does appointments once every week like MOST people with mental health have* *get bitched at and insulted until I give in and tell my therapist to go up to two weeks which I know is too long*

My Dad: *has back pain* *goes to chiropractor two times a week - same price as therapist* *thats okay* ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
inb4 Sims 5!

To obtain house building, please buy the "Construction" expansion pack for $60
To obtain personality traits, please buy the "Persona" expansion packs for $60
To obtain different types of windows, please buy the "Should have been in the game" stuff pack for $20

Old news and shit but EA can go to hell XD ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog ametoa maoni…
We're still gonna play Sims 3 zaidi tho and see wewe dive around dumpsters right? zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
My leg hair is long. I should shave it at some point when Im not too lazy ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
IM SO FUCKING TENSE.

I NEED something to do. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Ive done NOTHING particulalry productive au worth anything for an saa and its painful :v Just stupid video that arent even funny and stupid bingos zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Its only been an HOUR. This is what I mean kwa the fact I cant relax and do nothing. It kills me. zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
#Relatable !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Boredom makes me so uncomfortable, tense, anxious, and often causes me to start getting depressed.

Like ugh. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Im like literally probably able to like crush a diamond in my hand with how tense I get zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
cause Im not d o i n g a n y t h i n g zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Same. Could never really stand boredom myself !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Has anyone ever had the feeling like their entire sense of stable identity and knowledge on one self shatters?

Its such an uncomfortable feeling and can probably send me into an internal panic if I dont catch myself within like... 5 sekunde of the feeling initiating.

My mind passed the old "Wow, wewe almost dont have any signs of trauma. Must of been a lie wewe told yourself au an act wewe put on" thought through and ALMOST there for a sekunde Lost it ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
Honestly Ive gotten a lot better at dealing with that stuff though XD I catch myself really quickly so its been.... a while since I fell for that - au well that one line at least. I fell for it like... a few weeks zamani (? it feels like a mwezi zamani but that cant be right) with my memory shit XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
I have to wonder... at one point does processing the past and working through things change into torture and simply zaidi harm reminding myself of bad memories.

Cos its one of those very thin line I have to find with my mental health. At what point is it unnecessary distress and at what point is it healthy recognition?

Much like it took me a while to figure out if uandishi my mental health journal was helping zaidi than it was causing me to get obsessed au not. ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
TheLefteris24 ametoa maoni…
Processing the past is an important step towards Improvement. Then again, wewe don't achieve any of your Life Goals in a day. Think of it like every other situation. Things require time. Work on yourself but don't overdo it. You'll learn to distinguish that line as long as wewe keep it up !!!! zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 alisema …
Guys...

My digital hoarding is finally costing me money XD

I found a really good computer that has pretty much everything I want

Cept its like... a fourth of the memory Im used to cos it uses an SSD rather than an HHD XD

I cant part with my obsessive collections. I cant XD ilitumwa zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
So Imma buy a 1 TB HHD and install it into the new computer if I can convince my dad to get me this one I found XD zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
wantadog ametoa maoni…
These days any computer that doesnt have both will fall far under the mark in terms of quality zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita
Riku114 ametoa maoni…
^Thanks for the info guys XD I already knew those things but much appreciated zaidi ya mwaka mmoja uliopita