Left Alone
Raising her hands she alisema “Just shut the hell up! I have listened enough to your bullshit! Why can’t wewe just listen to your parents once?” her voice was so loud that even neighbours could listen it, it wasn’t a new thing for Musa, she was used to it. “I am not a kid anymore mom, why don’t wewe get it? I upendo muziki and I can’t leave it and what’s the problem in it? I am doing and always did whatever hell wewe asked me, actually wewe never asked, wewe ordered me to do.” With big shocked eyes her mom was staring her, she was about to say something when Musa cut her and continued “You will never know the value of me, I wish wewe could just understand me and accept me the way I am” she was weeping and her eyes were red, she was sad but was mad at her life on the same time.
“Oh! Just stop the drama now and go to your room, I am not gonna trap kwa seeing your crocodiles tears. wewe have become such an spoilt child and all thanks to wewe (she pointed towards Musa’s father). This man made wewe such an jerk (his father didn’t alisema a word cause he knew if he would then situation could be worse, so he kept quiet and saw whatever was happening)” she wasn’t getting au say she don’t wanted to understand au listen to her.
Musa went to her room, she opened her diary which she named “Flutter”, it was of green color with white floral ubunifu on it.
January 1, 2011
Dear Flutter,
I wasn’t in mood to write down in wewe that’s why I left wewe alone (actually myself) for a few days and I am really sorry for that. Maybe it’s stupid of me that sometimes I forget that I got no one with whom I can share my feelings with, it’s wewe who’s always there for me and always listen to me. As Anne Frank alisema “Papers are zaidi patient than People” and I find it 1OO% true it should be considered a fact I guess.
Today I don’t wanna write anything about her, it’s a waste of time because she is not going to change and always thinking of what she do to me makes me zaidi and zaidi upset. I am simply gonna tell wewe about my school (which is not less than hell to me) and I feel nothing not even a single thing is good in my life except of you,music and my internet Marafiki (their words seems zaidi sensitive towards me than my real Marafiki who actually don’t deserve to be called my friends)
As usual I went to school, and as usual no one came to talk to me until we enter our class after prayer. And as usual the person who came to talk to me wasn’t actually talking she wanted my help so that she could complete her homework before the last siku of submission.
I feel zaidi of a worker than a student, nobody comes to talk to me until they need me, and I refuse to them these days, I am no longer a sweet helper now and they got a shock from that. They’ll need to find someone else now I guess. A girl came to me for the same purpose and I refused her too, “What the hell do wewe think of yourself? Why on earth wewe aren’t helping me” she yield as if I was her personal slave for her whole student life. “Excuse me wewe dwarfy (She was kinda small and my anger was on wingu 9, so I alisema meanly) what the hell wewe think of me? I am not your assistant and if wewe don’t want me to kick your punda than back off! (She was speechless after the way I replied her back). “How...h-....you weren’t like this, wewe are not Musa!” she screamed and left”
I really was changed and who wouldn’t after getting what she never expected in her worst nightmare. I somehow made a friend who always had some conditions with her, sometimes I felt like I am working with a shampoo company girl who always says “conditions apply)” but I had no choice I needed someone so that I won’t feel ‘alone’ but the fact was even though she was with me yet I felt isolated and sad, I am focusing on my studies only cause I don’t have anything else, mom wants me to act like a pure girl, what she exactly wants from me is to learn cooking, behave like a girl. But wewe know me flutter right? I can’t giggle all the time, neither cooking has anything to do in my life, I hate it honestly, but she’s right (I gotta accept it) on this cause I should learn that, I had a little but I hate it I can’t do anything in that.
I had crush on a guy since last 3 years but I didn’t dared to tell and I think I did good, I liked him because he was sweet and helpful to everyone, the main reason was he was honest, he’s changed now, I know at this age everyone change it’ s puberty dude, we can’t do anything. But I don’t like this new Riven, he’s rather mean and selfish. He don’t care even if his words hurt anyone, he’s not the same kind hearted guy I used to know. But it’s the sekunde reason why I am not feeling guilty that I didn’t proposed him the main reason is that he proposed a girl from the inayofuata section, she is not that pretty, she’s okay (I am not saying this because I am jealous okay?) She’s less pretty than me, though no one will ever accept this fact as they haven’t seen the “pretty me “which comes only on especially occasions, they have seen “tomboy Musa” and I don’t onyesha anyone “the pretty me” side till they are really important to me.
The craziest and thing why I feel pity on Riven is he choose a girl who didn’t got “brains” and I mean it, she don’t even know who’s president of our country. Isn’t that a shame?
My Life sucks without internet, wewe and music, honestly it does. I didn’t visited my fandom today due to my busy schedule but I will tomorrow and I will tell wewe about it tomorrow.
Till then take care.
With loads of love
Musa
Raising her hands she alisema “Just shut the hell up! I have listened enough to your bullshit! Why can’t wewe just listen to your parents once?” her voice was so loud that even neighbours could listen it, it wasn’t a new thing for Musa, she was used to it. “I am not a kid anymore mom, why don’t wewe get it? I upendo muziki and I can’t leave it and what’s the problem in it? I am doing and always did whatever hell wewe asked me, actually wewe never asked, wewe ordered me to do.” With big shocked eyes her mom was staring her, she was about to say something when Musa cut her and continued “You will never know the value of me, I wish wewe could just understand me and accept me the way I am” she was weeping and her eyes were red, she was sad but was mad at her life on the same time.
“Oh! Just stop the drama now and go to your room, I am not gonna trap kwa seeing your crocodiles tears. wewe have become such an spoilt child and all thanks to wewe (she pointed towards Musa’s father). This man made wewe such an jerk (his father didn’t alisema a word cause he knew if he would then situation could be worse, so he kept quiet and saw whatever was happening)” she wasn’t getting au say she don’t wanted to understand au listen to her.
Musa went to her room, she opened her diary which she named “Flutter”, it was of green color with white floral ubunifu on it.
January 1, 2011
Dear Flutter,
I wasn’t in mood to write down in wewe that’s why I left wewe alone (actually myself) for a few days and I am really sorry for that. Maybe it’s stupid of me that sometimes I forget that I got no one with whom I can share my feelings with, it’s wewe who’s always there for me and always listen to me. As Anne Frank alisema “Papers are zaidi patient than People” and I find it 1OO% true it should be considered a fact I guess.
Today I don’t wanna write anything about her, it’s a waste of time because she is not going to change and always thinking of what she do to me makes me zaidi and zaidi upset. I am simply gonna tell wewe about my school (which is not less than hell to me) and I feel nothing not even a single thing is good in my life except of you,music and my internet Marafiki (their words seems zaidi sensitive towards me than my real Marafiki who actually don’t deserve to be called my friends)
As usual I went to school, and as usual no one came to talk to me until we enter our class after prayer. And as usual the person who came to talk to me wasn’t actually talking she wanted my help so that she could complete her homework before the last siku of submission.
I feel zaidi of a worker than a student, nobody comes to talk to me until they need me, and I refuse to them these days, I am no longer a sweet helper now and they got a shock from that. They’ll need to find someone else now I guess. A girl came to me for the same purpose and I refused her too, “What the hell do wewe think of yourself? Why on earth wewe aren’t helping me” she yield as if I was her personal slave for her whole student life. “Excuse me wewe dwarfy (She was kinda small and my anger was on wingu 9, so I alisema meanly) what the hell wewe think of me? I am not your assistant and if wewe don’t want me to kick your punda than back off! (She was speechless after the way I replied her back). “How...h-....you weren’t like this, wewe are not Musa!” she screamed and left”
I really was changed and who wouldn’t after getting what she never expected in her worst nightmare. I somehow made a friend who always had some conditions with her, sometimes I felt like I am working with a shampoo company girl who always says “conditions apply)” but I had no choice I needed someone so that I won’t feel ‘alone’ but the fact was even though she was with me yet I felt isolated and sad, I am focusing on my studies only cause I don’t have anything else, mom wants me to act like a pure girl, what she exactly wants from me is to learn cooking, behave like a girl. But wewe know me flutter right? I can’t giggle all the time, neither cooking has anything to do in my life, I hate it honestly, but she’s right (I gotta accept it) on this cause I should learn that, I had a little but I hate it I can’t do anything in that.
I had crush on a guy since last 3 years but I didn’t dared to tell and I think I did good, I liked him because he was sweet and helpful to everyone, the main reason was he was honest, he’s changed now, I know at this age everyone change it’ s puberty dude, we can’t do anything. But I don’t like this new Riven, he’s rather mean and selfish. He don’t care even if his words hurt anyone, he’s not the same kind hearted guy I used to know. But it’s the sekunde reason why I am not feeling guilty that I didn’t proposed him the main reason is that he proposed a girl from the inayofuata section, she is not that pretty, she’s okay (I am not saying this because I am jealous okay?) She’s less pretty than me, though no one will ever accept this fact as they haven’t seen the “pretty me “which comes only on especially occasions, they have seen “tomboy Musa” and I don’t onyesha anyone “the pretty me” side till they are really important to me.
The craziest and thing why I feel pity on Riven is he choose a girl who didn’t got “brains” and I mean it, she don’t even know who’s president of our country. Isn’t that a shame?
My Life sucks without internet, wewe and music, honestly it does. I didn’t visited my fandom today due to my busy schedule but I will tomorrow and I will tell wewe about it tomorrow.
Till then take care.
With loads of love
Musa
The school mwaka of Alfea just got started,and Fira and Aria walked past the line where Griselda is making attendance lists.
"Where do wewe think you're going?"an angry Griselda grumbled.
"At the first line,because we are enrolled first at Alfea."Fira said.
Griselda alisema to them follow the bunch of girls walking to the first line.As they walked,Aria accidentally tossed her luggage that made Fira stumbled.That caused laughter,and since Fira is a sensitive girl,shouted back an angry groan that let out a shape of a bird made of moto out from herself.
The laughter burned out,as they had seen a giant firebird flew across the sky,shrieking shrill sounds that attracted Ms. Faragonda's attention to calm it down with a thunderbolt magic.
The thunderbolt made the firebird shriek even zaidi that it let out orbs of moto which destroyed every building.But Fira,Aria,and 5 other girls transformed to fight the firebird Fira made.
"Where do wewe think you're going?"an angry Griselda grumbled.
"At the first line,because we are enrolled first at Alfea."Fira said.
Griselda alisema to them follow the bunch of girls walking to the first line.As they walked,Aria accidentally tossed her luggage that made Fira stumbled.That caused laughter,and since Fira is a sensitive girl,shouted back an angry groan that let out a shape of a bird made of moto out from herself.
The laughter burned out,as they had seen a giant firebird flew across the sky,shrieking shrill sounds that attracted Ms. Faragonda's attention to calm it down with a thunderbolt magic.
The thunderbolt made the firebird shriek even zaidi that it let out orbs of moto which destroyed every building.But Fira,Aria,and 5 other girls transformed to fight the firebird Fira made.