hujambo Guys, It's me , Ellen.
And here, this is where I feel like I am family.
I feel like I don't ever belong. But when I'm with wewe guys, It's like I'm... Welcome.
I think I am hideous but my Marafiki say otherwise.
I may be the one that tries to cheer everyone up at school but I have my own problems too.
I am going through a really tough time right know and it is a struggle to be OKAY. I am sorry about complaining about my problems like this but it just makes me feel better to tell wewe guys. I need to tell wewe guys something very important. I may not be the most depressed person but i sure as hell am not the strongest. I am weak and I will acknowledge that but I cannot take in all of the pain and suffering that is going on in your life. I am weak like that. I am incredibly sorry if I offended you. EVER. But i did not come here to point fingers. I came here to say THANK YOU. Thank wewe all for putting up with my weirdness (Mallory and Alli) and my complaints, and my stories. Thank wewe for being there at my hardest points in time, Thank wewe for shedding a tear for me. Thank wewe for being my sister au brother when I needed it most. Thank wewe for being my guardian Angel regardless of what i have done. Thank wewe for staying kwa my side. Thank wewe for making me laugh, for making me cry. Thank wewe for letting me be me and thank wewe for welcoming me. Thank wewe for taking me in when it was raining outside. Thank wewe for pulling me out of black hole of worries, sadness and depression. Thank wewe for standing up for me like an older sibling. But most of all. THANK wewe FOR BEING MY DREAM FAMILY. I upendo you. And Thank you...
Especially Alli, Sydney, Mallory, Annie, SG, and Daniel. I upendo wewe guys and I don't know what i would do without wewe in my life.
Sincerly,
A heartfelt Writer. Ellen Love~
And here, this is where I feel like I am family.
I feel like I don't ever belong. But when I'm with wewe guys, It's like I'm... Welcome.
I think I am hideous but my Marafiki say otherwise.
I may be the one that tries to cheer everyone up at school but I have my own problems too.
I am going through a really tough time right know and it is a struggle to be OKAY. I am sorry about complaining about my problems like this but it just makes me feel better to tell wewe guys. I need to tell wewe guys something very important. I may not be the most depressed person but i sure as hell am not the strongest. I am weak and I will acknowledge that but I cannot take in all of the pain and suffering that is going on in your life. I am weak like that. I am incredibly sorry if I offended you. EVER. But i did not come here to point fingers. I came here to say THANK YOU. Thank wewe all for putting up with my weirdness (Mallory and Alli) and my complaints, and my stories. Thank wewe for being there at my hardest points in time, Thank wewe for shedding a tear for me. Thank wewe for being my sister au brother when I needed it most. Thank wewe for being my guardian Angel regardless of what i have done. Thank wewe for staying kwa my side. Thank wewe for making me laugh, for making me cry. Thank wewe for letting me be me and thank wewe for welcoming me. Thank wewe for taking me in when it was raining outside. Thank wewe for pulling me out of black hole of worries, sadness and depression. Thank wewe for standing up for me like an older sibling. But most of all. THANK wewe FOR BEING MY DREAM FAMILY. I upendo you. And Thank you...
Especially Alli, Sydney, Mallory, Annie, SG, and Daniel. I upendo wewe guys and I don't know what i would do without wewe in my life.
Sincerly,
A heartfelt Writer. Ellen Love~
Dear Self
What if wewe don’t wake up tomorrow?
What if this is your last siku on this earth?
What if that two dakika conversation wewe had with your mother two hours ago, was the last time wewe ever spoke to her?
What if wewe never ever would hear him laugh, see his smile au talk to him ever again?
What if wewe later this night take your last breath?
What then?
Would wewe be proud of the life wewe have lived?
Will wewe regret something that wewe did au did not say?
Would wewe be proud of how people would remember you?
Would wewe regret not taking zaidi chances, au not telling him what wewe really feel for him?
I see a world of darkness and my hands are shaking..
My legs are numb..
My eyes heavy..
My moyo racing..
Blacking out..
Will pills in my hands..
Hoping that they'll end the pain and I'll sleep forever..
Maybe this will be my last goodbye..
My final breath..
What if wewe don’t wake up tomorrow?
What if this is your last siku on this earth?
What if that two dakika conversation wewe had with your mother two hours ago, was the last time wewe ever spoke to her?
What if wewe never ever would hear him laugh, see his smile au talk to him ever again?
What if wewe later this night take your last breath?
What then?
Would wewe be proud of the life wewe have lived?
Will wewe regret something that wewe did au did not say?
Would wewe be proud of how people would remember you?
Would wewe regret not taking zaidi chances, au not telling him what wewe really feel for him?
I see a world of darkness and my hands are shaking..
My legs are numb..
My eyes heavy..
My moyo racing..
Blacking out..
Will pills in my hands..
Hoping that they'll end the pain and I'll sleep forever..
Maybe this will be my last goodbye..
My final breath..
