Ok so yes this is gonna be a really sad chap ='( But it wwill get better ok. And yeah I know it doesn't make sense at all and it's a bit too dramati but after all i called a Fanfic . Reviews =Love. I'm getting disappointed...

"Hugh!" Lisa! Lisa's here, I feel so glad she's here. She runs inayofuata to me and takes my hand.

"Are wewe Ok? I was so worried, as soon as heard wewe were in the hospital I ran here and-" wewe are caressing my face, this feels weird. Besides my wife just left, I don' remember Lisa being so, let’s call it, sweet around me. I just nod. And songesha my head so wewe stop, I don't want Jo to enter and get this wrong.

"I know I blow our cover but I needed to see you. Hugh,are wewe listening to me?" I turn to see wewe and I see the swollen grey eyes.

"I am but I just don't understand. What are wewe talking about?" wewe look disappointed now. wewe finally let my hand and sit in the kitanda inayofuata to my legs.

"Hugh, are wewe uigizaji just because Jo is near? Like it's ok she knows." She knows? What does she knows? I shake my head.

"Hugh what's wrong? Was it because I wasn't here these last 3 days? wewe sent me way I didn't know how to contact wewe and when I called you, wewe wouldn't pick up." I stare at her weirdly and songesha to my left away from her.

She puts her hand in my cheek and my pulse begins to rush, then someone opens the door and I slap your hand. wewe look confused. It’s a nurse. She gives me some pills and then she leaves.

Your eyes are teary I can see.

“You still upendo Jo right?” Why is she asking this? Isn’t the answer obvious, she really wants the answer? Should I keep lying?

“Well yes she’s my wife after all.” That must have been a hard punch. wewe look down and stay silent. wewe sigh.

“I am such an idiot. How did I ever expect for us to become something? I’m sorry I shouldn’t- I hate you.” wewe sweep some tears. What have I done? Last week it was all fine we were shooting and I was your friend and everything was fine why the sudden drama?

“There have never been us.” I hope I could take the pain away but I don’t know what wewe are talking about and you’re so right there has never been us so why are wewe hurt? wewe stand up.

“I have to go” wewe say walking out of the room and so wewe are gone I want to stop wewe but I don’t really have an excuse.

“Me too.” I whisper, Jo told me tonight I was getting released and I will head to London. I guess if something had happened Jo would tell me.

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I must look pathetic, I’m curled up in a ball crying and sobbing, buried in zaidi than 10 tissue boxes and I can’t see because the tears won’t allow me.

I need your arms but I realize they won’t be here, ever. I sob more, I haven’t eaten in zaidi than 12 hours and I must be dehydrating from all the crying but I don’t care. I miss you, I can’t forget wewe but wewe had. No I was never even in your mind.

This pain will kill me I’m sure. It’s so hard to take it. I always have the same luck and I never learn. Why don’t wewe just learn for once Lisa? wewe won’t ever find true love. I must be awful. I remember your face and the wewe slapping my hand. I close my eyes in hope to fall asleep but tears won’t stop. Then there’s a knock, I fantasize it’s wewe when I open the door and wewe tell me “I upendo you” then you’ll say it was all a nightmare and I ill awake the inayofuata siku in your arms.

But it does not gonna happen. I don’t feel like seeing nobody but anyways I stand up. And I crumble to the ground and I stay there as I cry. wewe raise me up and hug me and then wewe cuddle me in your arms and put me to sleep.

I whisper I upendo wewe and wewe kiss my forehead. And I fall asleep.

But it’s just my mind again. I won’t be able to sleep not tonight, the tears just won’t allow.