I'm love
I'm desire
I'm pain
I'm denial.
Call me whatever you
want me to be.
Call me!
That's all wewe see.
I'm pale
I'm tired
I'm love
I'm desire.
My kiss is so deep.
Can wewe feel my soul
talking?
My kiss is so soft.
Can wewe feel me?
Will wewe dream me?
I give my upendo to you.
I haven't chosen that,
it's just how it meant
to be.
I hide my tears from you,
i lock my the pain inside of me.
That's the place
i wish wewe never find.
That's my soul,
sorrow and desire.
I give wewe all wewe want,
i choose the sweetest words
for you.
My touch leads you
to the highest
power of imagination,
just to onyesha you,
just to have you.
I'm desire
I'm pain
I'm denial.
Call me whatever you
want me to be.
Call me!
That's all wewe see.
I'm pale
I'm tired
I'm love
I'm desire.
My kiss is so deep.
Can wewe feel my soul
talking?
My kiss is so soft.
Can wewe feel me?
Will wewe dream me?
I give my upendo to you.
I haven't chosen that,
it's just how it meant
to be.
I hide my tears from you,
i lock my the pain inside of me.
That's the place
i wish wewe never find.
That's my soul,
sorrow and desire.
I give wewe all wewe want,
i choose the sweetest words
for you.
My touch leads you
to the highest
power of imagination,
just to onyesha you,
just to have you.
Although both trapped and tied.
both confused.
used.
abused.
Your laying with me,
out in the dark,
Stars still blinding
sirens still chiming.
At least we are together
but why can't wewe see
why your really here
right beside me.
your adding to the problem
but yet wewe heal.
your like a drug
that makes me feel
like the pain is gone.
I need you
want wewe
upendo wewe
A word to strong
for wewe to bare
so wewe act if
wewe don't even care.
But deep inside
Inside your heart
wewe know I was yours
right from the start.
Although the pain that is causes
to have to wait
for wewe to realize
your certain fate.
It's well worth it
in the end
when your spending eternity with me
hand in hand
now standing on last siku of mwaka
i look back and see smiles and tears
somedays it was new too
somedays our mailboxes were filled with greetings
greetings of arrival of 01/01/2011
siku kwa siku we got used to
night kwa night we got close
so many starts so many ends
so many left so many got friends
learnt so much taught so much
learnt to smile learnt to give
learnt to die learnt to live
with loads of hugs and kisses
bye bye 2011
inayofuata time we'll say
"damn our moyo still misses
THE 2011"
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.they wanted a longer makala :P
i look back and see smiles and tears
somedays it was new too
somedays our mailboxes were filled with greetings
greetings of arrival of 01/01/2011
siku kwa siku we got used to
night kwa night we got close
so many starts so many ends
so many left so many got friends
learnt so much taught so much
learnt to smile learnt to give
learnt to die learnt to live
with loads of hugs and kisses
bye bye 2011
inayofuata time we'll say
"damn our moyo still misses
THE 2011"
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.they wanted a longer makala :P
are memories that still breathe.
Can wewe feel my sorrow?
Scourge this body
sodden kwa sweat
and never been washed away.
Can wewe imagine the pain?
Trapped and tied for this place,
that's your fate,
wewe will never run away.
Can I just fade away?
wewe have fought before.
Will wewe keep fighting now?
This dawn is always the same,
siku full of difficulties,
sweaty shati and empty eyes,
shaking hand that holds
this cigarette,
mind that wander in
yellow field.
Can wewe forgive your life now?
The line 'love is a fallacy' isn't justified,
it is evidence of a coward's voice.
But when upendo is understood, pain is nullified
it all fades away as we smile and rejoice.
Know that dhahabu has no value to the soul
that it cannot just simply fill and empty hole.
upendo cannot be sold; neither can it be bought
but the truth that upendo can hold, can only be caught.
I would not compare upendo to a rose
the comparative pairing is what I find far too bold.
upendo is meant to be kept exclusive and beautiful,
not to be shown off which isn't meaningful.
The feeling flows freely as water.
It's our necessity and a hope-giving trait.
'Tis beautiful, desirable, there absolutely is no other,
'Tis a strong surge of current that overpowers all hate.
it is evidence of a coward's voice.
But when upendo is understood, pain is nullified
it all fades away as we smile and rejoice.
Know that dhahabu has no value to the soul
that it cannot just simply fill and empty hole.
upendo cannot be sold; neither can it be bought
but the truth that upendo can hold, can only be caught.
I would not compare upendo to a rose
the comparative pairing is what I find far too bold.
upendo is meant to be kept exclusive and beautiful,
not to be shown off which isn't meaningful.
The feeling flows freely as water.
It's our necessity and a hope-giving trait.
'Tis beautiful, desirable, there absolutely is no other,
'Tis a strong surge of current that overpowers all hate.
and wewe will see.
Open your soul to those
who will listen,
they'll onyesha wewe the bright side,
the side wewe have forgotten.
Trust just this once
and wewe will see.
The sea of your Lost memories
shall return again
if wewe make a right choice,
the choice that changes everything.
Trust just this once
and wewe will see.
How many people wewe want to save?
Who do wewe want to follow you
in this journey we call living?
Try,
trust just this once
and wewe will see.
All those dark thoughts
that have been imprisoned
in your mind
could be silenced by
the light
wewe see cloudy
and it all seems unattainable
and impossible.
Although,
the real truth is in your heart,
wewe just have to decide
what wewe want to believe.
The smallest reason
to be alive again,
one single reason to smile
along with freedom.
~ Feel it and be free... ~
Hold me, don´t ever let me go. Even if the world crashes in, bury me under your love. Even if the spring never comes, don´t let me feel the cold. Hold me when the night is so cruel. au when the scars of siku mark my skin. If wewe won´t let me go, I won´t release you. Two lovers, shielding each other from the storm. That´s who we´re going to be. Never change, never think. Let the actions flow into your hands, don´t stop. Keep going, keep your head up to the light. At the end of the journey, we will be home, the wounds forgotten and healed.
I hate you
But I just can’t seem to break you
Do I want wewe here?
Do I want wewe gone?
Everyone says your such a tease
But not to me
Are wewe real?
Are wewe fake?
Do I need to be
With this drama queen
wewe spout lies
No truth to be found
Why am I still
Trying to see the good in you?
Is it worth it?
Should I listen to them?
They tell me to go
Before I’m a victim
Of wewe mighty undoing
I won’t fall
I’ve made a promise
Can I keep it?
Will I leave?
Will I remain?
Promises
Sins
They all appear
The same
Lies
Sentences
Preach the
Difference
I’m listening to you
I can’t break you
I’m falling now
No one to catch me
Do I leave now
That I’ve fallen
Are wewe worth my time?
Am I worth this pain?
God, help me choose
For this is not my decision
Any longer
I’ve put my faith in my despair
Now onyesha me the answer
Tell me what to do
Do I stay
au do I leave you?
But I just can’t seem to break you
Do I want wewe here?
Do I want wewe gone?
Everyone says your such a tease
But not to me
Are wewe real?
Are wewe fake?
Do I need to be
With this drama queen
wewe spout lies
No truth to be found
Why am I still
Trying to see the good in you?
Is it worth it?
Should I listen to them?
They tell me to go
Before I’m a victim
Of wewe mighty undoing
I won’t fall
I’ve made a promise
Can I keep it?
Will I leave?
Will I remain?
Promises
Sins
They all appear
The same
Lies
Sentences
Preach the
Difference
I’m listening to you
I can’t break you
I’m falling now
No one to catch me
Do I leave now
That I’ve fallen
Are wewe worth my time?
Am I worth this pain?
God, help me choose
For this is not my decision
Any longer
I’ve put my faith in my despair
Now onyesha me the answer
Tell me what to do
Do I stay
au do I leave you?
Anger
Nothing but anger
I should have listened to Mama
She knew best
I didn't listen to her
Yes Mama, they all laughed at me.
The blood.
Everyone jeering and cheering
Just like in the locker room
The pig's blood on the dress I made.
The laughter.
Their ear splitting and cruel laughter.
I start to cry
Tommy yells at them, telling them to stop.
The bucket falls down and he lays there unconsious.
The lights turn red.
Still laughter.
They tried going out the door
I trapped them all inside with only my mind.
The hose unwrapped from the emergency glass.
I turn up the water pressure.
They all scream.
Electrical wiring
The fires
I did it
The town I grew up in
Damaged and destroyed.
All from my mind.
I go home
I go inside.
And I wake up
In a pile of stones from the sky.
All from my mind.
This destruction I caused.
They laugh at me no more.
Nothing but anger
I should have listened to Mama
She knew best
I didn't listen to her
Yes Mama, they all laughed at me.
The blood.
Everyone jeering and cheering
Just like in the locker room
The pig's blood on the dress I made.
The laughter.
Their ear splitting and cruel laughter.
I start to cry
Tommy yells at them, telling them to stop.
The bucket falls down and he lays there unconsious.
The lights turn red.
Still laughter.
They tried going out the door
I trapped them all inside with only my mind.
The hose unwrapped from the emergency glass.
I turn up the water pressure.
They all scream.
Electrical wiring
The fires
I did it
The town I grew up in
Damaged and destroyed.
All from my mind.
I go home
I go inside.
And I wake up
In a pile of stones from the sky.
All from my mind.
This destruction I caused.
They laugh at me no more.
Clouds of happiness have covered my sky,i was thinking its a gift of god,i wish i could fly.Rain of upendo showered all the night,i found each siku so bright, i felt kind a sweet touch of flowers, i plucked each bud in the garden of wishes,i filled my bucket and sang the happy song ,i was walking,thinking about my upendo and life.on my way i met a single flower,i glanced at it,and i thought to pluck this one.but it looked so sad!i asked ,why are u so sad?he answered me i was just like you,i had wishes just like wewe have,i was in upendo with rain,clouds and garden of wishes.clouds have gone,rain of upendo never came again to my garden,and my wishes left me alone!,now i admit that i have nothing to love,i smiled and take him in my hands and alisema dont cry !every thing will be fine, why do not wewe upendo your self,it will give wewe life,love your sky,spread your fragrance, make your own garden of wishes,clouds of happiness will soon come to wewe and bring your rain of love......................
Why should I wonder?
Why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.
Do wewe understand?
Do wewe get it?
Do wewe even care?
Do wewe understand bit kwa bit?
Why should I wonder?
Why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.
Well I'm asking,
I'm pleading on my knees,
I'm begging to you,
Why should I believin' thee?
Why should I wonder?
Why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.
Ya, some friend I have,
Some Marafiki I got,
Some Marafiki care,
And wewe were the friend, I never thought,
Why should I wonder?
why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.
Why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.
Do wewe understand?
Do wewe get it?
Do wewe even care?
Do wewe understand bit kwa bit?
Why should I wonder?
Why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.
Well I'm asking,
I'm pleading on my knees,
I'm begging to you,
Why should I believin' thee?
Why should I wonder?
Why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.
Ya, some friend I have,
Some Marafiki I got,
Some Marafiki care,
And wewe were the friend, I never thought,
Why should I wonder?
why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.
Death of upendo arrives...
The Earth shakes
Lightning strikes
The living cry
Lands break open
Flames of the forsaken arise
All life will die
Will wewe be there?
Would death be too much to bare?
Shadows creep closer
As the sun runs away
Demons come alive
The weak and lonely are not spared
Will wewe be there?
Would death be too much to bare?
Loyalty will be tested
The failed will be condemned
As loveless souls are thrown into a pit
In darkness of eternity
Will wewe be there?
Would death be too much to bare?
Death will come to all
Pure hearts, pure souls
Followers of the Goddess of Love
Will see a peaceful end
But will wewe be there for me?
Would our death be too much to bare?
Our upendo shall be tested
But I'll be there...
The Earth shakes
Lightning strikes
The living cry
Lands break open
Flames of the forsaken arise
All life will die
Will wewe be there?
Would death be too much to bare?
Shadows creep closer
As the sun runs away
Demons come alive
The weak and lonely are not spared
Will wewe be there?
Would death be too much to bare?
Loyalty will be tested
The failed will be condemned
As loveless souls are thrown into a pit
In darkness of eternity
Will wewe be there?
Would death be too much to bare?
Death will come to all
Pure hearts, pure souls
Followers of the Goddess of Love
Will see a peaceful end
But will wewe be there for me?
Would our death be too much to bare?
Our upendo shall be tested
But I'll be there...
“Unheeded warnings pushed me to the ground,
They pushed harder and harder till they knocked me down.
Only left with the desire to rise,
Into those lovely empyreal skies.
My wrongdoings, my feelings of hate,
Caused me to carry this troublesome weight.
To make things right is not always the goal,
I will be free when I earn someone’s soul.
I must win one heart,
Somehow, someway,
au after ten years I won’t live one zaidi day.
My dire situation, with my trust and my fear,
I must find just one person, one person to hold dear.
The skies are calling,
I’m wanting to fly.
My wings are broken, frozen stiff and bare.
But I must find someone,
Somehow, somewhere,
To help with the search, to help with my goal,
I must capture,
An untainted new soul.”
(c) Waverly L. Harris
They pushed harder and harder till they knocked me down.
Only left with the desire to rise,
Into those lovely empyreal skies.
My wrongdoings, my feelings of hate,
Caused me to carry this troublesome weight.
To make things right is not always the goal,
I will be free when I earn someone’s soul.
I must win one heart,
Somehow, someway,
au after ten years I won’t live one zaidi day.
My dire situation, with my trust and my fear,
I must find just one person, one person to hold dear.
The skies are calling,
I’m wanting to fly.
My wings are broken, frozen stiff and bare.
But I must find someone,
Somehow, somewhere,
To help with the search, to help with my goal,
I must capture,
An untainted new soul.”
(c) Waverly L. Harris
how we met each other.
I knew from the first contact
that we are different from the others.
You, so unusual and sweet,
with magic in words,
wewe left me dreams.
But dreams are afraid of
reality.
Afraid of the storm
and restlessness.
The reasons are always
different, and yet the same.
Everyone wants to dream,
fearing that reality may
destroy that moment of peace,
bringing pain and empty memories,
words that have gone with breeze.
Although wewe make your peace
with reality,
wewe still dream the same dream,
while the pain smolder in you.
Everything changes,
everything fades away with time,
but wewe still dream the same dream.
The reasons are always
different, and yet the same.
In the end, wewe realize
that everything is just a dream,
everything has its end.
And while the pain smolder in you
and everything fades slowly,
wewe still dream the same dream,
wewe still dream.