Maybe wewe are young
Maybe wewe are old
Maybe wewe are deaf
Maybe wewe are dumb(not having the ability to speak.
Maybe wewe think people are over caring
Maybe wewe think people dont care enough
Maybe wewe feel brokenhearted
Maybe wewe are the one that gave the broken heart
Maybe wewe feel left out of everything
Maybe wewe want to just get away from it all

I can look inside of wewe and see how wewe feel and wewe can not look insde of me.
But one thing I do know is that these ten maybe's are ten reasons why wewe au I can make a difference, and why MAYBE can make a difference to.

this goes out to wewe my old best friend,
i thought i'd never loose wewe until the end,
but i'm giving up today, this is the last time i say hey,
i miss the old days when we had something to do,
but i'm guessing wewe don't now, do you,
it's time to say goodbye,
maybe run away and die,
i still miss wewe a lot,
but i now it's time to let go.

it's hard to tell wewe how much i upendo you,
i guess i have always been there just to help you,
i wish the future was zaidi like the past,
but then the future would never last,
i wish now was just the same,
but it seems to wewe i'm just a name,
it's not the end of the world and it's nothing new,
it's just the same old shytt we always knew,
but we can try to change and take a chance,
before this becomes our final dance.

i am depressed,
i am not acting,
you're not impressed,
but it has sent me packing,
i have Lost my mind,
i have gone crazy,
it's wewe i try to find,
but now i have just gone lazy,
i seem to disappear,
i escaped reality,
i coward away in fear,
to escape your lethal ways,
i walk away,
not in front of you,
wewe ruin my day,
and others too,
wewe push me around,
wewe think wewe are so cool,
i stubble and fall down,
"dude, wewe are such a tool".

can we go back to the way we were,
after all we went through,
wewe are not the same as i thought wewe were,
so why do i still think of you,
because you're beautiful,
wewe are perfect,
your life was full so i left it,
it broke my heart,
but i suffered through,
and i still stand strong because i upendo you

Imagine two different persons,
and yet, the same.


The person who's living
life for others
will stay.
That's the person who
has no life,
the person who
needed to devote
all these years to someone
who lives in memories,
to someone who
cares for all these past days
they have lived together.


The person who's dying
along with all these memories
is sitting in the dark.
That person remembers.
That person had a dream once.
That person see no light,
tho the other one used to be
the light of all these days
they shared together.


That person was me.

Behind the door
of your destiny
are dreams
that still shine
in the haze
of your memories.


These dreams
are so distant
and invisible,
though your eyes
still stare into them.


Everything is so foggy
like your thoughts.
wewe sit alone
trying to reach that
small piece of happiness,
trying to find
a purpose of life.


Dreams, that still
live in you
are smothered by
the cruel reality.
But, they still live
inside,
feeding the memories,
reviving the soul.


Dreams,
even if they are
condemned to oblivion,
live within your heart,
in hope,
in remembrance,
shining in
the haze of
your memories.

wewe don’t even know me
wewe don’t even know me,
Yet wewe judge me anyway.
wewe don’t even know me,
But yet wewe say hateful things.
The words that come out of wewe mouth are deadly.
They grind my soul in to dust.
Those words were meant to step on me,
Keep me in the dust
They were meant to keep me from being happy,
Well it didn’t work.
wewe Fool! Don’t wewe see that you’re not hurting me!
That you’re not going to get me down?
wewe don’t even know me, but wewe want to see me hurt!
wewe ARROGENT JERKS!
wewe don’t even know me but wewe hate me so.
wewe don’t even know me so JUST LEAVE ME ALONE.

I remember that girl.
She used to be stealing cookies.
She used to be so full of happiness.
But then, some thing happened that changed her life.
Its something that can't be reversed.
That girl was shattered.

What happened to that girl was so sad.
It was that bad.

One of her Marafiki was her inayopendelewa person in the world.
She never was seperated from her friends.
They were like family to her
Until one day,
It was hard to say
But she was seperated from them.

She was so hurt
She didn't deserve it.
That's when she decided something that wasn't supposed to happen.
She was tortureing herself.
Everyday,
She saw people that looked like her friends.
She began to cry,
Inside, she was dying
Slowly.
It was hard to songesha on
She couldn't go on
It was all wrong


How do I know about this? Well, that girl in the story is me.Victoria.

onyesha the world and all its people
All the wonders upendo can bring
Give us strength and understanding
Give us all one song to sing!

Let the muziki play
Play it loud and make it clear
It's time to stand up to a new world
That is now so near

From the bottom to the top
To the leaders of the land
We all have one heart
Everyone of us must lend a hand!

And let there be joy in the world
And let there be no sorrow
And let there be peace on earth
For all the worlds we've got to see

That love, oh love, what a blessed thing
Say it loud, make it clear today!

All the walls are falling down
No zaidi children off to war
If we tafuta in our hearts
All the suffering will be no more

And let there be joy in the world
And let there be no sorrow
And let there be peace on earth
For all God's children
Let them see!

jj9/1998

In a world of his
she unloads his gun

She and he waits for this
he releases his love

In blue and green orbs
she gives him zaidi and more

A million miles away
A million years girl

In a black woven chest
he digs his nails deep

She trusts in him for what he does
live in a house in the suburbs

He kisses the pain with blood and light
sleeping it off in the morning

A million miles away
A million years girl

In her world of his
she unloads his gun

In a world of his
she covers the sun

A million miles away
A million years
A million years girl

My sweetness, how your soul has been hurting.

My angel, how long have wewe been waiting?

My world, slowly crumbling to nothingness.

My loves, how long until we meet?

This pain in my chest is swelling.

I wish it would give in.

My patience, like a thread.

I wish would snap.

Our hearts, beating, I can't hear.

I wish would deafen me.

All your attempts, I could never feel.

I wish would cave in on me.

All voices.

Never to be tasted.

Never to be invited.

Never to be told.

All there is, is loneliness.

Aching in my bones.

Forever more, trying to grasp a cold wind

And make it warm.

Forget the memories

Good and bad

Put away the hope

That flew away

In your own soaked dust

Freeze in solitude

Break under pressure

Fracture and waste away

Get stomped on under the heaviness

Decorate the millions of pieces

Like you're solid

Hide behind a sunken chest

Wither away in the stillness

When no laughter is heard in your chamber

No warmth is encased

When upendo is no longer protecting

Wash away in the seas of icy tears

Be suffocated when the air is no longer there

Just stop

Just stop beating

TM