wewe don’t even know me
wewe don’t even know me,
Yet wewe judge me anyway.
wewe don’t even know me,
But yet wewe say hateful things.
The words that come out of wewe mouth are deadly.
They grind my soul in to dust.
Those words were meant to step on me,
Keep me in the dust
They were meant to keep me from being happy,
Well it didn’t work.
wewe Fool! Don’t wewe see that you’re not hurting me!
That you’re not going to get me down?
wewe don’t even know me, but wewe want to see me hurt!
wewe ARROGENT JERKS!
wewe don’t even know me but wewe hate me so.
wewe don’t even know me so JUST LEAVE ME ALONE.
wewe don’t even know me,
Yet wewe judge me anyway.
wewe don’t even know me,
But yet wewe say hateful things.
The words that come out of wewe mouth are deadly.
They grind my soul in to dust.
Those words were meant to step on me,
Keep me in the dust
They were meant to keep me from being happy,
Well it didn’t work.
wewe Fool! Don’t wewe see that you’re not hurting me!
That you’re not going to get me down?
wewe don’t even know me, but wewe want to see me hurt!
wewe ARROGENT JERKS!
wewe don’t even know me but wewe hate me so.
wewe don’t even know me so JUST LEAVE ME ALONE.
Here comes the pain that's in my heart,
Here comes the goodbye,
Here comes the silence I'll hear from you,
It never being the same as it was yesterday
I'm sorry it had to be this way, I wish it didn't
But in the end I had to decide,
Please forgive me
Here comes the upendo that is Lost between us
Here comes the change
Here comes the tears that will fall down
I'm sorry it had to be this way, I wish it didn't
But in the end I had to decide,
Please forgive me
Here comes the last time I'll ever see your face
Here comes the sleepless nights
Here comes me wishing things would be the same
Please forgive me
Here comes the goodbye,
Here comes the silence I'll hear from you,
It never being the same as it was yesterday
I'm sorry it had to be this way, I wish it didn't
But in the end I had to decide,
Please forgive me
Here comes the upendo that is Lost between us
Here comes the change
Here comes the tears that will fall down
I'm sorry it had to be this way, I wish it didn't
But in the end I had to decide,
Please forgive me
Here comes the last time I'll ever see your face
Here comes the sleepless nights
Here comes me wishing things would be the same
Please forgive me
Whenever I see a playground, it's August of 2003,
And I'm playing around, doing what I do best.
But that is not my story.
My story is struggling to make friends,
Being rejected, and often bullied.
I was the peculiar one, the nerd, the ugly duckling,
The stray dog that nobody wanted, and the klutz.
I begged and begged to be home-schooled.
But my attempts at begging were rebuffed.
One girl had taken it too far,
Pushing me beyond the limit, crossing the line.
"I've had enough," I finally said. "I'm sick of this!"
So, I pushed her into the closet door,
But I didn't hurt her. I would never do that. It's wrong.
Guess who got in trouble. Me. Facts were learned,
And all bullying stopped for the year.
Now, I'm not longer aloof au insecure.
I have friends, and I've come out of my shell.
And I'm playing around, doing what I do best.
But that is not my story.
My story is struggling to make friends,
Being rejected, and often bullied.
I was the peculiar one, the nerd, the ugly duckling,
The stray dog that nobody wanted, and the klutz.
I begged and begged to be home-schooled.
But my attempts at begging were rebuffed.
One girl had taken it too far,
Pushing me beyond the limit, crossing the line.
"I've had enough," I finally said. "I'm sick of this!"
So, I pushed her into the closet door,
But I didn't hurt her. I would never do that. It's wrong.
Guess who got in trouble. Me. Facts were learned,
And all bullying stopped for the year.
Now, I'm not longer aloof au insecure.
I have friends, and I've come out of my shell.
On our darkest of night
Blessed are we
When we hit Her morning light
Blessed are we
As wind whispers our names
Blessed are we
As we learn through our mistakes
Through time after time
We learn our love
Time after time
As She is sent from above
Blessed are we
As we live our lives
Blessed are we
Our tears are clear as the sky
Blessed are we
When we are done
Blessed are we
When we are bright as the Moon and the Sun
She watches us
To make sure we're safe
From the dangers unfolding
As the sun sets
wewe hold a mask of betrayal,
as your summer air scented body feels as if it might fall, you've reminded yourself again and again that you're no zaidi than another face to me.
wewe hold roses in your clenched hands,
wewe told me each petal is for every lie of mine wewe forgave, and now our lovely mess of trust is beginning to fade.
Promised me you'd build yourself a grave, in the middle of Autumn where we first met and never thought you'd get to say good-bye.
The night welcomes wewe into arms wewe call innocent, it wants wewe to follow it down to the sea, the night in which wewe used to hide from.
I want to scream 'I'm sorry'
I can't say anything,
nights before, I let your roses die.
The look of betrayal that lingers upon your face, underneath the upendo that's obvious in your eyes,
'I'm okay' wewe say,
and just like that, the night took you.
as your summer air scented body feels as if it might fall, you've reminded yourself again and again that you're no zaidi than another face to me.
wewe hold roses in your clenched hands,
wewe told me each petal is for every lie of mine wewe forgave, and now our lovely mess of trust is beginning to fade.
Promised me you'd build yourself a grave, in the middle of Autumn where we first met and never thought you'd get to say good-bye.
The night welcomes wewe into arms wewe call innocent, it wants wewe to follow it down to the sea, the night in which wewe used to hide from.
I want to scream 'I'm sorry'
I can't say anything,
nights before, I let your roses die.
The look of betrayal that lingers upon your face, underneath the upendo that's obvious in your eyes,
'I'm okay' wewe say,
and just like that, the night took you.
Alone i sit,
reminiscing about the past,
stuck in the present and
wondering what the future has in store for me!
i have been on this road before, many times,
all alone and none to care for,
but now things are different, things have changed;
walking the line between sanity and insanity,
carefully balancing this little existence of life,
fear, pain, happiness, frustration, anger, dreams, upendo and worry,
all hidden beneath these sleepless eyes;
scrambling through this barbed wire (of life),
searching for a light in the darkness,
screaming and fighting, weighed down
kwa life’s many complications and expectations;
as the night approaches, the storm has passed, for now,
i try to sleep, i try to rest, as i lay quietly,
while my dreams nurse me back to health,
to fight another day;
so into the long night’s dream, I trudge along,
with no one else in sight,
looking for stars in the dark,
as i hold on to fight another day;
reminiscing about the past,
stuck in the present and
wondering what the future has in store for me!
i have been on this road before, many times,
all alone and none to care for,
but now things are different, things have changed;
walking the line between sanity and insanity,
carefully balancing this little existence of life,
fear, pain, happiness, frustration, anger, dreams, upendo and worry,
all hidden beneath these sleepless eyes;
scrambling through this barbed wire (of life),
searching for a light in the darkness,
screaming and fighting, weighed down
kwa life’s many complications and expectations;
as the night approaches, the storm has passed, for now,
i try to sleep, i try to rest, as i lay quietly,
while my dreams nurse me back to health,
to fight another day;
so into the long night’s dream, I trudge along,
with no one else in sight,
looking for stars in the dark,
as i hold on to fight another day;
Can Words Describe
Can words describe the beautiful individual wewe are
Can it really put altogether what wewe really are,
for wewe are special
It is easy to see that God spent extra time with you
My moyo is enlighten just kwa knowing that wewe are in salama hands,
that I need not worry, nor draw any concern
I pray that in time we'd be good friends, but if not so, then
not so
I pray for the opposite, for the thought of being friends
is something worth fighting for
And no words can't describe the type of person wewe are, and
that's okay, cause it is better to onyesha it anyway
By
Autumn Agnew
Can words describe the beautiful individual wewe are
Can it really put altogether what wewe really are,
for wewe are special
It is easy to see that God spent extra time with you
My moyo is enlighten just kwa knowing that wewe are in salama hands,
that I need not worry, nor draw any concern
I pray that in time we'd be good friends, but if not so, then
not so
I pray for the opposite, for the thought of being friends
is something worth fighting for
And no words can't describe the type of person wewe are, and
that's okay, cause it is better to onyesha it anyway
By
Autumn Agnew
The moon rises as my soul falls
Into a sea of nothingness
Bleak and barren I stay there waiting for
For a upendo that will never come
My life is now an infinite loop of sorrow and hurt
Now that you're gone
The crickets serenade a song of sad romance
The story of my life
As I walk along the road less taken
The road of depression
And moyo shattering tragedies
That bring the little joy I have
To an untimely end
When I need it most upendo cannot be found
And I am alone left to wander the realms of my mind
Without a hand to lead me out of the darkness
Onto the light and into a peace of mind
And a fully mended moyo
Full of some hope
But I am but a wallflower
Blending in with the walls as I watch people go into
The blinding light of pure happiness
Into a sea of nothingness
Bleak and barren I stay there waiting for
For a upendo that will never come
My life is now an infinite loop of sorrow and hurt
Now that you're gone
The crickets serenade a song of sad romance
The story of my life
As I walk along the road less taken
The road of depression
And moyo shattering tragedies
That bring the little joy I have
To an untimely end
When I need it most upendo cannot be found
And I am alone left to wander the realms of my mind
Without a hand to lead me out of the darkness
Onto the light and into a peace of mind
And a fully mended moyo
Full of some hope
But I am but a wallflower
Blending in with the walls as I watch people go into
The blinding light of pure happiness
How do wewe feel mad
Sad
Happy glad
I know what your thinking that this poem is whack
But my mind is empty like a black hole
All my ideas are gone like someone aliiba
Them away for them never to return
This Lost of inspiration makes me want to shout
Something is wrong like a sad kid without a pout
Why can't I write something creative
Somebody help me somebody find them
Find my ideas they're precious to me like a rare jem
Please writers block come another siku
Maybe I need to clear my head and get some air
Find people I can share
My horrible uchungu, chungu writers block
Sad
Happy glad
I know what your thinking that this poem is whack
But my mind is empty like a black hole
All my ideas are gone like someone aliiba
Them away for them never to return
This Lost of inspiration makes me want to shout
Something is wrong like a sad kid without a pout
Why can't I write something creative
Somebody help me somebody find them
Find my ideas they're precious to me like a rare jem
Please writers block come another siku
Maybe I need to clear my head and get some air
Find people I can share
My horrible uchungu, chungu writers block
The line 'love is a fallacy' isn't justified,
it is evidence of a coward's voice.
But when upendo is understood, pain is nullified
it all fades away as we smile and rejoice.
Know that dhahabu has no value to the soul
that it cannot just simply fill and empty hole.
upendo cannot be sold; neither can it be bought
but the truth that upendo can hold, can only be caught.
I would not compare upendo to a rose
the comparative pairing is what I find far too bold.
upendo is meant to be kept exclusive and beautiful,
not to be shown off which isn't meaningful.
The feeling flows freely as water.
It's our necessity and a hope-giving trait.
It's beautiful, desirable, there absolutely is no other,
'Tis a strong surge of current that overpowers all hate.
it is evidence of a coward's voice.
But when upendo is understood, pain is nullified
it all fades away as we smile and rejoice.
Know that dhahabu has no value to the soul
that it cannot just simply fill and empty hole.
upendo cannot be sold; neither can it be bought
but the truth that upendo can hold, can only be caught.
I would not compare upendo to a rose
the comparative pairing is what I find far too bold.
upendo is meant to be kept exclusive and beautiful,
not to be shown off which isn't meaningful.
The feeling flows freely as water.
It's our necessity and a hope-giving trait.
It's beautiful, desirable, there absolutely is no other,
'Tis a strong surge of current that overpowers all hate.
When wewe left for your flight
I was here left alone
in the dark unwelcoming home
missing
how wewe would talk, walk, and do silly things.
I stride down the hall.
playing with my
rubber ball. what else is there
to do? but then i remembered
wewe alisema “See wewe soon”
my stomach turned to butterflies
I flew across my chair
awaiting your very arrival
there was nothing i couldn’t bear.
without a care
I called leaving ten million messages at the most.
waiting waiting
till wewe would come home
I was here left alone
in the dark unwelcoming home
missing
how wewe would talk, walk, and do silly things.
I stride down the hall.
playing with my
rubber ball. what else is there
to do? but then i remembered
wewe alisema “See wewe soon”
my stomach turned to butterflies
I flew across my chair
awaiting your very arrival
there was nothing i couldn’t bear.
without a care
I called leaving ten million messages at the most.
waiting waiting
till wewe would come home
As if I've been
Rewarded for the
Deeds I've never done;
I took this sorrow
To shine
When nights are too dark,
When moon is not there;
Oh, to shine
In my cryin' eyes,
To shine
On my sleepy face
This
Transparent tear;
And while the whole world
Is sleeping,
This lonely tear
Will stay
At the corner
Of my weakness,
Away at sea
Where my sun goes down.
~ I know, it's a little short, however I found some time to write this poem.
I actually needed it, I upendo to share emotions and thoughts on paper. ~
Poetry and words are eternal!
Fancy?
Me?
I don’t think so.
I got hole-filled
baggy, paint-stained pants
I got manners
I really do
But I don’t do fancy,
I’m tellin’ you
I play video games
watchin’ TV
Fancy, me?
No wewe see.
I eat pork chops
on the couch.
When I’m excited
I stand and shout
I yawn and stretch
at 6 o clock
Fancy? Me?
wewe will be shocked
I eat klondikes
with my hands
I whip my hair
every blonde strand
Fancy? Me?
Uh, uh! No way!
I play and sweat
on sunny days
Fancy? Me?
No wewe see
I’m just me.
kwa peacebaby7
Me?
I don’t think so.
I got hole-filled
baggy, paint-stained pants
I got manners
I really do
But I don’t do fancy,
I’m tellin’ you
I play video games
watchin’ TV
Fancy, me?
No wewe see.
I eat pork chops
on the couch.
When I’m excited
I stand and shout
I yawn and stretch
at 6 o clock
Fancy? Me?
wewe will be shocked
I eat klondikes
with my hands
I whip my hair
every blonde strand
Fancy? Me?
Uh, uh! No way!
I play and sweat
on sunny days
Fancy? Me?
No wewe see
I’m just me.
kwa peacebaby7
Unraveling, Twisting, Seeping
Diving
Swimming through the crimsom blood
In Mortem
Stealing,Running, Hiding
Ending painful, Ending Stiff
In Mortem
Hiding, Silence, Not a breath
Stalking it's prey, Death
In Mortem
Found, yet completely lost
Loved, Losing what was found
In Mortem
Breathing, Fainting, Dying
blueberry blood waiting to turn cherry
In Mortem
Slipping quietly
Fading, Faster, into the light
In Mortem
I'd offer wewe my hand,
But you'd pull me down!
Here, take it anyway,
You're worth it
In Mortem
Killing me,
Please don't leave me
wewe and I, we must go
Goodbye world
In Mortem
Diving
Swimming through the crimsom blood
In Mortem
Stealing,Running, Hiding
Ending painful, Ending Stiff
In Mortem
Hiding, Silence, Not a breath
Stalking it's prey, Death
In Mortem
Found, yet completely lost
Loved, Losing what was found
In Mortem
Breathing, Fainting, Dying
blueberry blood waiting to turn cherry
In Mortem
Slipping quietly
Fading, Faster, into the light
In Mortem
I'd offer wewe my hand,
But you'd pull me down!
Here, take it anyway,
You're worth it
In Mortem
Killing me,
Please don't leave me
wewe and I, we must go
Goodbye world
In Mortem
Fake?
Real?
What are you?
Are wewe a friend that stays forever?
Will wewe help me with life's problems?
Will wewe tease me?
Are wewe going to point out my flaws?
I don't know wewe anymore.
I thought wewe were real
Truly, really real
No.
I was wrong
So
So wrong.
I crash into my kitanda of comfort
Crying myself into solitude
Yet I bite back at your horrid barking
For it can never destroy me
Ignorant fool
wewe ignore me
Yet wewe pretend everything is okay
Why?
Because wewe are just as two faced as Harvey Dent
Why did I trust you?
wewe hurt me, so now the harm that wewe gave me
Will come back to haunt you, times three
Remember this:
"Do unto others, as wewe do unto them."
Real?
What are you?
Are wewe a friend that stays forever?
Will wewe help me with life's problems?
Will wewe tease me?
Are wewe going to point out my flaws?
I don't know wewe anymore.
I thought wewe were real
Truly, really real
No.
I was wrong
So
So wrong.
I crash into my kitanda of comfort
Crying myself into solitude
Yet I bite back at your horrid barking
For it can never destroy me
Ignorant fool
wewe ignore me
Yet wewe pretend everything is okay
Why?
Because wewe are just as two faced as Harvey Dent
Why did I trust you?
wewe hurt me, so now the harm that wewe gave me
Will come back to haunt you, times three
Remember this:
"Do unto others, as wewe do unto them."
you've never made me feel so low
never broken me down so much
never made me feel so dead
yet still long for your touch
you've bullied me and beaten me
watched me as I've trembled
but still held the reins so tight
leaving wewe would seem unbearable
now you're the one who's leaving
and I feel like I'm falling apart
people think I'm crazy
because you're breaing my heart
looking at my future
I don't know what to do
my moyo won't ever heal
unless I'm back with you
maybe one siku I'll get over you
maybe I'll songesha on
but I'm never gonna know
the emotional damage wewe have done
never broken me down so much
never made me feel so dead
yet still long for your touch
you've bullied me and beaten me
watched me as I've trembled
but still held the reins so tight
leaving wewe would seem unbearable
now you're the one who's leaving
and I feel like I'm falling apart
people think I'm crazy
because you're breaing my heart
looking at my future
I don't know what to do
my moyo won't ever heal
unless I'm back with you
maybe one siku I'll get over you
maybe I'll songesha on
but I'm never gonna know
the emotional damage wewe have done
