for the sins that are carved
deep in the consciousness.
The walls will bleed again.
Broken glass in the yard,
broken family for a long time.
The war is coming,
anger is rising,
thoughts that were silenced
kwa the peace
will scream again.
The walls will bleed again.
That smell in the air
are these sins of past,
never washed,
never forgotten.
The walls will bleed again.
Sky will be opened,
red and dim,
for the tears that burn
and torture your soul,
for the things
that could never be
forgotten,
the things that hurt.
The walls will bleed again.
The heartbreak
The tears
The fears
Why did wewe have to leave?
Why?
As I ask, wiping tears onto my sleeve.
The pain that this puts me to
I feel like I'm aging
But I'm still youthful and lively
Yet I feel old and dead
The stress
Everyone stopping kwa to see us
I stay in my room crying into a cloth
While inaonyesha early signs of sloth.
Death is waiting
Death is coming
My throat feels closed and blocked
My eyes burn and itch
As I feel like a doll missing a stitch
Please don't leave
Please don't go
wewe are so important to me
Like the main actor to a show
I can't let wewe go
As wewe descend to a better place
I keep wewe in my memories and moyo just in case
I need to let wewe go
But my moyo still breaks
As the part of me is breaking me
I always knew wewe were a part of me
My completion
My love
My friend
Goodbye
I will see wewe soon in the end.
Mother Nature
Loving
Cruel
Yet is neither black au white.
Is life just good?
Is it just evil?
No
It is both
Nature is both.
It gives us growth
Beauty
Grace
A Sanctuary to escape
Yet
It can be dull
Lifeless
Painful
Destructive
Anything.
We as humans
Are also like this
moto is the same.
It keeps us warm
Yet can burn down an entire forest.
Should we hate this?
Should we upendo this?
Maybe, maybe not
But at least appreciate this
Because nature gives us youth and beauty
But can take it away so quickly
So take one step at a time
Very carefully
Enjoy each living moment of what time is left.
Loving
Cruel
Yet is neither black au white.
Is life just good?
Is it just evil?
No
It is both
Nature is both.
It gives us growth
Beauty
Grace
A Sanctuary to escape
Yet
It can be dull
Lifeless
Painful
Destructive
Anything.
We as humans
Are also like this
moto is the same.
It keeps us warm
Yet can burn down an entire forest.
Should we hate this?
Should we upendo this?
Maybe, maybe not
But at least appreciate this
Because nature gives us youth and beauty
But can take it away so quickly
So take one step at a time
Very carefully
Enjoy each living moment of what time is left.
So I Can Hide my Tears..
Don't let me Fall,Wind
Take me higher,,and Higher..
I don't wanna Fall
I don't wanna touch the Ground
As I walk n everything's Ok
But then I saw U
i've been missing u more,,,and more
Miss ur warmth,,
hugs me inside,,
But u don't
just a glance with 'hello,,,?'
what's wrong?
Did I doing wrong?
it is not just like u pushed me down,,,
ur ignorance crashed me,,,
How can I be this weakness?
how can U make me speechless
So dare wewe be my weakness...
give me back my blooms,,,
laid me back to the high..
give my only desires...
just a smile can take a high..
just an ignore crashed me off
Forget me not ..
I can't face it,,
stay with me...
I’m sorry for what I did,
I’m sorry for what I have done,
I’m sorry for everything,
I’m sorry I was born,
I’m sorry I exist,
I’m sorry I ever wanted to even try,
I’m sorry that I do what I do,
I’m sorry,
I’m sorry,
Please just forgive me.
I never wanted to be this,
I never wanted to even be me,
I just cant be here anymore,
I dont want this to be,
I didnt want this to happen,
but i cant stand this!
I am so sorry
I'm sorry for not being good enough,
I'm sorry for my mistakes,
I'm sorry for hurting you,
I'm sorry I'm alive,
I'm sorry for everything.
I’m sorry for what I have done,
I’m sorry for everything,
I’m sorry I was born,
I’m sorry I exist,
I’m sorry I ever wanted to even try,
I’m sorry that I do what I do,
I’m sorry,
I’m sorry,
Please just forgive me.
I never wanted to be this,
I never wanted to even be me,
I just cant be here anymore,
I dont want this to be,
I didnt want this to happen,
but i cant stand this!
I am so sorry
I'm sorry for not being good enough,
I'm sorry for my mistakes,
I'm sorry for hurting you,
I'm sorry I'm alive,
I'm sorry for everything.
I listen to the trickle of blood,
I listen but don’t feel,
I listen to my cry,
I listen to my screams,
I listen to the slams,
I listen to the blows.
I listen to my moyo as it slows,
I listen to the door slam,
I listen to the sirens,
I listen to the beeps,
I listen to the sigh,
I listen to my moyo pick up,
I listen to find that this will never end.
I listen to the cry of my voice,
I see the mans face,
I taste the blood,
I sense that there is someone,
Someone I don’t know,
That someone tried to stop this,
That someone had failed.
I listen to my Marafiki cry,
I listen for the final scream,
I open my eyes to see,
That someone was inayofuata to me.
That someone had come for me,
That someone came to save me,
That some one I will always love,
That someone is,
You.
I listen but don’t feel,
I listen to my cry,
I listen to my screams,
I listen to the slams,
I listen to the blows.
I listen to my moyo as it slows,
I listen to the door slam,
I listen to the sirens,
I listen to the beeps,
I listen to the sigh,
I listen to my moyo pick up,
I listen to find that this will never end.
I listen to the cry of my voice,
I see the mans face,
I taste the blood,
I sense that there is someone,
Someone I don’t know,
That someone tried to stop this,
That someone had failed.
I listen to my Marafiki cry,
I listen for the final scream,
I open my eyes to see,
That someone was inayofuata to me.
That someone had come for me,
That someone came to save me,
That some one I will always love,
That someone is,
You.
We shall have beds full of subtle perfumes,
Divans as deep as graves, and on the shelves
Will be strange flowers that blossomed for us
Under zaidi beautiful heavens.
Using their dying flames emulously,
Our two hearts will be two immense torches
Which will reflect their double light
In our two souls, those twin mirrors.
Some evening made of rose and of mystical blue
A single flash will pass between us
Like a long sob, charged with farewells;
And later an Angel, setting the doors ajar,
Faithful and joyous, will come to revive
The tarnished mirrors, the extinguished flames.
I'm in a living hell
Seeing wewe in upendo with someone
else
And I know
I have to let wewe go
Even if wewe aren't time
It's my time......
My time to let wewe go
To stop loving you
zaidi then it should be
Falling zaidi in upendo with you
Then I thought I would have
Because every second
Every min
Every hour
Every day
Every week
Every month
Every year
I fall zaidi in upendo with you
No stop, we've been through this before
Be strong and songesha on
Yeah.... I guess I have to.....
{If its upendo he'll come back to you
I have to deal with it..
Seeing wewe in upendo with someone
else
And I know
I have to let wewe go
Even if wewe aren't time
It's my time......
My time to let wewe go
To stop loving you
zaidi then it should be
Falling zaidi in upendo with you
Then I thought I would have
Because every second
Every min
Every hour
Every day
Every week
Every month
Every year
I fall zaidi in upendo with you
No stop, we've been through this before
Be strong and songesha on
Yeah.... I guess I have to.....
{If its upendo he'll come back to you
I have to deal with it..
Crying,
Blackmailing.
This won't work
On me, anyway.
I don't
Respond
To the things
That other teenagers
Would.
I am not
Scared of you,
wewe know.
I have a soul,
A voice,
A heart, and
I can fight wewe back.
I don't care if I
Am small, I am
Much older
Than you
Why tease
Little kids? Do you
Like being
Cruel,
Halfhearted
Coldhearted?
wewe are insensitive,
wewe only care
About you,
Yourself,
and who?
Life is
Hard enough,
Without you
Poking your nose in,
Uprooting old things
I said.
Get lost.
I won't care.
songesha to South Africa.
It won't
Bother me.
Change your name,
Even better.
I will always remember wewe as
The monster under my
Bed,
The horror waiting for me
On the bus.
Thanks, dude.
Made my life that much harder.
As if I needed trouble now.
Blackmailing.
This won't work
On me, anyway.
I don't
Respond
To the things
That other teenagers
Would.
I am not
Scared of you,
wewe know.
I have a soul,
A voice,
A heart, and
I can fight wewe back.
I don't care if I
Am small, I am
Much older
Than you
Why tease
Little kids? Do you
Like being
Cruel,
Halfhearted
Coldhearted?
wewe are insensitive,
wewe only care
About you,
Yourself,
and who?
Life is
Hard enough,
Without you
Poking your nose in,
Uprooting old things
I said.
Get lost.
I won't care.
songesha to South Africa.
It won't
Bother me.
Change your name,
Even better.
I will always remember wewe as
The monster under my
Bed,
The horror waiting for me
On the bus.
Thanks, dude.
Made my life that much harder.
As if I needed trouble now.
Everyone sees a certain special light in them.
I don't.
Sometimes I wonder if there
is something wrong with me.
People tell me to stop feeling down.
They worry I send a negative vibe
instead of a positive one.
I can't help it.
I am what I am...
People ask if I'm ok.
They think just because I feel
down there's something wrong.
Others just judge saying
I'm always like that.
No one knows the real me.
On the outside I onyesha my emotion
on the inside: Darkness.
Sometimes my soul feels
like it's slowly dieing, on the brink of death.
The thing about me is,
I won't pretend everything is ok when
I know it's not.
Life will knock people down.
I'm the prepared type.
Sure, I might seem the
type to draw dark
things while other girls are into
girly hearts and bright colours.
This is who I am.
I see darkness.. While others see light..
I don't.
Sometimes I wonder if there
is something wrong with me.
People tell me to stop feeling down.
They worry I send a negative vibe
instead of a positive one.
I can't help it.
I am what I am...
People ask if I'm ok.
They think just because I feel
down there's something wrong.
Others just judge saying
I'm always like that.
No one knows the real me.
On the outside I onyesha my emotion
on the inside: Darkness.
Sometimes my soul feels
like it's slowly dieing, on the brink of death.
The thing about me is,
I won't pretend everything is ok when
I know it's not.
Life will knock people down.
I'm the prepared type.
Sure, I might seem the
type to draw dark
things while other girls are into
girly hearts and bright colours.
This is who I am.
I see darkness.. While others see light..
Dear prince,
I`m tired of living in this unusual life
My diary
Took me to an old distain memory
when I become your wife
I don`t know why ?!!
Every good memory has became whiter then white
Except the siku I saw wewe
You`re right
Special memories always colored with special liquids
But which kind of inks should I use to erase my past
I tried everything
Harm
Hate
Even pain!
But this distain memory seems to be
My number one aim
I decided to listen to my wise moyo
But suddenly
I was falling apart
It gave me a magical ink
All I have to do is only to spring
one , two , three drops au four
and everything started to be like old time before