She sits there alone in a dark corner..a razor in one hand..a picture in the other. Alone with her thoughts, her mind is racing and she just wants to quiet the storm..such a permanent decision..never to return. She pulls the razor to her wrist and tells herself that soon the pain will cease to exist. This will all disappear for the end is very near. Thoughts of her family slowly kuvuka, msalaba her mind..what will they do when they find her lifeless laying on the floor..never to take a breath anymore. She couldn't put them through that pain so she tucks the razor away and sadly turns to face yet another day.

I look into your eyes
and all that I see
gazing right back
is a reflection of me.

What lurks inside
your soul so deep
there are happy times
memories too keep.

I could stare for hours
perhaps even days
into your spirit
and its mysterious ways.

Searching inside
for what I wish to view
I doubt that I'l find
a soul that is pure and true.

The cleanest of hearts
no anger au hate
that is guided through life
kwa destiny and fate.

An innocent mind
that imagines no sin
no greed au envy
the state god made it in.

I can honestly say
what I expect to find
is an emotional mess
beginning to unwind.

Within the heart
I find anger and hate
destroying this life
at an incredible rate.

Within the mind
there is envy and greed
plans are plotted
for temptation to feed.

I look into my eyes
and all that I see
gazing right back
is the soul that is me.

Sinking into the midst of forever,
floating dreams disappearing on sight ...
Your whispering voice filling my thoughts,
my soul's puzzle completed kwa your upendo ...

Brown eyes alive with a thousand promises,
a perfect smile that leaves me breathless ...
Laughter that could make anyone feel better,
your mere touch leaving me without words ...

Sitting on the edge of my aching heart,
controlling these actions of mine ...
Enchanting the mirror gaze wewe give,
my resistance crumbles before this temptation ...

These feelings so deep and real inside,
hurting inside because I continue to hide ...
Your moyo beat echoing in my ears,
so far away and yet so near tonight ...

Hiding my acid tears when I think of you,
silently wishing that wewe were here ...
Tonight I miss wewe zaidi than ever my dear,
know that I upendo wewe now and forever ...

Falling, I'm fading away
I'm gonna hit the bottom, soon, without delay
Nothing there to stop me au break my fall
All I can do is stand here, await the worst, try to stall
Spiraling downward, I can't bring myself to stand
When I know I'll fall again with no apparent place to land
siku after day, insult after insult, numbness fails, and I feel dead inside
I want to give up, I want to give in, now knowing that I've tried
I try to fight to save myself, but I'm weary, lost, and alone
I'm victim to these voices, whose intent was always known
Looking back upon these days I'll know I never stood a chance
How could I destroy what was invisible at first glance?
How can I defeat what no one else can help me fight?
I am helpless, disappearing, losing focus, losing sight
I'm Lost in this battle, this one person war
knowing that I'm losing and can't take anymore

when The Voices are raised and i am pined in a corner... Can u hear me Know ... The Crimson River is released and is Dripping down my Body .... Can u hear me now ... As i Fall to my knees in the Emotional Pain u feel ..... Can u hear me now .... The Darkness Closes in on
me ...can u here me now .... The Pool Of Crimson Blood serenades me and ur standing there with the kisu ... Can u hear me now ... Now that im Dead and Still alone in the world ... I hope u can still hear me and the scream i left u with ... i leave u now ....im alone and thats not gonna change

I cannot help but to see Red skies
Once an unknown threat, bright blue and happy
Now Crimson anger hate and pity
A Scarlet wingu darkening the contentment of my heart

I cannot see through the Bloodstained mist
The fog is heavy and all consuming
My moyo once happy thriving and loved
Now bleeding battered and broken

Red sky unforeseen
Making it all the zaidi difficult to accept
My tears stain Red tracks on my face
As my moyo laments upendo lost

It is a uchungu, chungu feeling, one I should forget
But the Red sky taunts me
and I cannot disregard my emotions
Red sky will never be forgiven

It won't matter when I'm gone
Because wewe won't care
wewe don't care about me
wewe never did

I'll dig myself a grave
And think of wewe as I fall to it's depths
If I can't have your love
I'll kill my upendo for you

Let it die with all my pain
The pain of loving you
Someone that doesn't share
All the upendo I have

The kisu of pain has pierced my heart
And I hope my upendo pours out with the blood
I'll cut out the problem
And watch its upendo dissipate with every fading beat

wewe won't care when I'm gone
But I'll still do this for you
I still upendo wewe and it hurts
I don't want to upendo wewe anymore

I'll kill my upendo so I'll feel no pain
And wewe will have a burden lifted
No longer will I bother you
My upendo shall die with me tonight

As long as I'm here my upendo still lives
So I dig my grave tonight
And think of wewe as I fall to it's depths
So that my upendo does not escape

My upendo shall fall to hell with me
As wewe so will it to
Goodbye my love
Rest in peace