I'm so tired f being depressed. I didn't know why it started at first. In Ninth grade I started having this constant feeling inside and I didn't know what it was but, now I do. I have since 10th grade started. Life is so hard when you've been diagnosed with seve deepression and wewe already knew wewe have it. It's hard when people accuse wewe of doing au being something your not. It's hard when people judge wewe silently from afar au straight to your face. I don't cut bullshit like this though. When petty jerks give yoou ahard time just ignore them, I've learned that. I was bullied for 7 and a half years straight and it was BAD. And, now I'm insecure and give myself a hard time. I'm constantly beating myself up about my art, my body, my face, my hair, my grades, my idiocy, and just everything. I'm trying to get better I really am and if anything muziki helps me escape from reality. That's why I constantly have earbuds in my ears au wearing headphones. I can connect to the muziki that I lisen to like 'When she cries' au 'Welcome to my life'. The orodha is endless but, the thing is that so is my pain. No matter how hard I try it always come back. I can go a week and a half without being depressed and then it comes crashing back in like an unwanted guest. Forgive me for ranting but, I need to get this off my ches. I'm so glad that I can finally cry and release all the pain. I've been bottling it up for too long. The Marafiki surrounding me either do au don't know about this. Some know I'm depressed some don't. But, either way only one comforts me and I don't see her often. My great-grandmother thinks I do it for attention and my mom has too many problems of her own so, I don't bother her about it.The thing is, is that I just need to get this out. My chest can't take it anymore and neither can I myself in whole. It feels nice to get it all out. Like, the fact that i used to be anorexic as well... twice that is I was in 7th grade for a short while and then I also was in sekunde semester of 10th grade. My best friend tried to make me at and my other Marafiki were concerned as well. At least the ones that knew. My other best friend still doesn't know I was. Anyways, there are somethings that I am ashamed of. I'm just so gld to get this off my chest and for anyone else suffering with depression au any other disorders au problems, stay strong. wewe ARE WORTH SO MUCH MORE. Don't let anyone get to wewe including yourself. Be brave. Be strong. And remember to keep on living. wewe are woth it and NOBODY deserves to go through the shit I have. Bullying, abuse, threats, none of that. Also, if wewe have severe anxiety disorder like me au are just stressed in general. Keep staying strong and don't give into the stress. If your insecure like me look in the mirror and look at yourself flaws and all and say "This is me and I upendo myself." even if wewe don't think so because, trust me when I say "You are perfect just the way wewe are." If wewe are gay, bi, trans au anything else like that and wewe still haven't come out. Stay strong and know wewe are PERFECT just the way wewe are. wewe are a human being just like everyone else and, no matter how much hate people give wewe embrace yourself and be proud of who wewe are. I am bi and I am proud. Also, for the bi people who are being told "Your either gay au straight. wewe can't like both." Don't listen to that bullshit. They don't know how wewe feel. Don't let them get to you. To the gay people who are being told,"You chose this and your going to burn in hell." Don't listen to them. For ANYONE going through this au any other bullshit. Remember wewe are better than the ones judging wewe and that wewe are BEAUTIFUL and PERFECT just the way wewe are. I hope that I helped someone kwa saying that and I've realized that I WILL BE OKAY after this dark tunnel in life that I'm going through. I just want it to all be over soon. The pain that is. I'm tired of hating myself and feeling so alone. But, I'll make it and so will you.

Stay true to who wewe are. Peace out <3<3<3