okay this takes place RIGHT after Courtney was eliminated

Courtney's P.O.V

'how could he vote me off?' i asked my self in thought. I dug around in my mfuko wa fedha, mfuko and pulled out the wooden skull he gave me from season 1 and started to cry. I really dont know why i cryed but i missed him and to think he voted me off..... Its just to much to take in within one night. I stopped crying when the limo door opened.
"Hello Courtney, welcome to" Chris alisema till i cut him off.
"Yea yea where ever it is we go, i dont wanna know that name of this fuckin place. Whats my room number?"
"Ohhh someone is irritable this evening" Chris alisema in a mocking tone.
"DONT FUCKIN TEST ME JUST TELL ME THE DAMN ROOM NUMBER AND GIVE ME THE KEY TO IT!!!!" i screamed at him. I was so pissed. Chris looked a bit scared. He dug in his pocket, held out a key and alisema "Room 24." I angerily took the key and went to my room. As soon as i opened the door i threw my stuff on the floor. I laid on my stomach on the bed, head in the mto and cryed. I loved Duncan and this is how he repays me? kwa voting me off? I sat up and alisema to myself "What did i do wrong? I should suffer!" I got up and went to the jikoni tears still running down my face. On my way i passed kwa a confused cody and geoff. They tried asking whats wrong but i just walked faster. I took a kisu and cut my wrists while saying/soft yelling
"I deserve this! I dont know what i did wrong but i shouldn't be here! I should be dead!" I put the kisu to my wrist and was about to cut again when Gwen and Bridgette came in. They gasped as i cut. Blood on my hands and on the kisu and on my wrist. They ran to me and took away the knife.
"Courtney what are wewe doing?!?!?" Bridgette almost yelled with concern in her voice.
"What does it look like? Im getting what i deserve." I alisema calmly looking at all the blood on my hands.
"What are wewe talking about?!?!" Gwen asked worriedly.
"He hates me." I said.
"Who?" asked Bridgette?
"Duncan... I upendo him and he doesnt upendo me back. I hate myself. I did something wrong and im punishing my self... I dont want to live without him, and since im to chicken to kill myself...im just going to suffer.."
"Courtney this is no way to treat yourself! wewe cant just do this!" Gwen said.
"You dont understand me!" I yelled. I took the kisu and ran back to my room with Bridgette and Gwen following. I got to my room and locked the door. They were banging at the door. I sat in the corner and countined to cut my self. As soon as i didn't have room left on my right wrist i went to my left. After i was done I cryed my self to sleep.