You’ve been back in South Dakota for about a month, wewe start school today. None of your Marafiki know you’re back yet. You’ve just been hiding out in your room. The first 3 weeks were terrible, crying yourself to sleep, stomach aches, throwing up, head aches, hardly any sleep, depression and many other things. The past week you’ve trying to pull yourself together, just for school and your friends. You’ve also been keeping it a secret form your parents that wewe are pregnant, which would explain the throwing up in the mornings. Your terrified to tell your parents that your pregnant, terrified on how to handle it when they find out, terrified to have the baby, to take care of the baby, your just a kid yourself. Also the baby will probably grow up not knowing its father. Even know Marshall alisema he would come find you, but he probably wont just because that’s how things work in life. wewe still miss Marshall so much, and your somewhat glad your having a baby with him, and your going to keep it because its apart of Marshall. Your in the bathroom making yourself look ‘pretty’ even know wewe don’t really give a shit. Your Mom walks in with that stupid grin on her face, wewe stare at her annoyed.
“You ok?” she asks. wewe nod your head a slightly smile. “Still miss Marshall don’t you?” she asks. Hearing his name makes wewe wanna cry. wewe sigh and just stare at her. “Look, honey, its for the best,” she says.
“I know what you’re trying to do Mom but I don’t think me being this miserable is very healthy for me,” wewe explain hoping she would onyesha some sympathy for how you’re feeling.
“You’ll get over it, there’s plenty of guys out there,” she say as if that’s supposed to make wewe feel better, even know its not going too, knowing that your having a baby with him. Just looking at that baby is going to make wewe feel pain everyday seeing Marshall inside of him au her.
“Whatever Mom, Im ready to go, so can we just drop the whole Marshall subject and go?” wewe ask her leaving the bathroom grabbing your bag off the hallway floor.
“Yeah,” she says sort of sad but zaidi like shes annoyed with you.
The whole car ride to school wewe don’t say a word to your Mother, she don’t talk either, wewe think that she got the idea that wewe were annoyed with her. wewe walk in the room and the first person wewe see is you’re best friend, Annie, who wewe haven’t talked to for about one year. Shes standing with her back towards you. wewe walk up to her and tap her on the shoulder, she jumps and turns around.
“Lily!!” she yells hugging wewe immediately, wewe hug her back.
“Hey! How have wewe been,” wewe ask putting on a happy act, you’re happy to see her but the thing about Marshall is still making wewe wanna cry….
“What are wewe doing back here? I thought wewe were staying in Detroit forever.” she asks.
“Naw, things got…uhh bad with Nick so we had to songesha back here,” wewe say.
“What he do?” she asks.
“Stupid shit,” wewe say summing up the best wewe can so wewe don’t have to explain what he did to that poor hobo. Your bother went completely insane once wewe got back to South Dakota so they put wewe him in a psycho ward. Hes been there ever sense wewe moved and wewe haven’t even talked to him.
“Oh, I see,” she says. “Nice dog tag, some guy give that to wewe au something?” she asks pointing to the dog tag around your neck. wewe nod, she lifts it up and stares at it. “Marshall Bruce Mathers III,” she reads, she drops it down. “So was that your boyfriend au something?” she asks.
“Yeah, was…we broke up when we moved,” wewe say sadly.
“Aww, did wewe really like him?” she asks, wewe nod. “Was he cute?” she asks. wewe smile and nod, wewe pull out a picture of wewe and him, hes hugging wewe from behind your hands resting on his, your fingers are laced, and your heads are pressed together its taken outside there’s still snow on the ground and your standing under a mti kwa your house, your mother took that picture. “Aww he is cute,” she says staring at the picture. “You two look cute together,” she says. “You miss him?” she asks handing the picture back to you.
“Yes,” wewe say looking at the picture, wewe flip it over, on the back it says Marshall Mathers and Lily Jones spring of 1987. wewe put the picha back into your folder and sit down inayofuata to Annie.
MARSHALLS POV>>>
The past mwezi you’ve been thinking about Lily and wewe have also tried uandishi some raps about her, but its just to damn depressing for you, wewe cant write anything. Ronnie thinks your crazy and so does everyone else. It’s the first mwaka of ninth grade. wewe miss Lily so much your trying to get over her but its been hard, all wewe have is pictures, wewe keep them in a shoe box under your bed. And wewe tell yourself everyday that someday wewe are going to find Lily no matter what it takes, you’re going to find her…
LILY’S POV>>
Its lunch time, school has gone ok, and all your Marafiki keeping asking wewe why you’re back. wewe kept telling them that wewe would let them know during lunch time so wewe wont have to repeat yourself 6 times. Your walking to the lunch meza, jedwali with one of your Marafiki Chelsea. Everyone else is already at the table, wewe sit down inayofuata to Mary and Chelsea. “So are wewe gonna tell us why wewe moved back here?” Chelsea pipes up after about 5 dakika of silence.
“Damn, it so sounds like wewe guys are disappointed that I came back,” wewe say.
“No, we just wanna know what Nick did that was so bad,” Chev says. wewe sigh…
“Well he got into drugs, and shit then he killed a hobo,” wewe say. They all stare at wewe like your kidding. “Im serious!” wewe sort of yell.
“He killed someone! Sweet!” Chev cheers, he likes violence. A teacher walking kwa stops and stares at wewe guys. “A movie,” Chev says quickly.
“Ahh,” he says nodding, she walks away. wewe sigh.
“Nice one,” wewe say and toss a piece of carrot at Chev, it hits him on the forehead and falls to his lap. He glares at you, and wewe giggle. He shakes his head.
“Stop flirting at the table,” Kathy says.
“What the fuck!?” wewe yell at her. “We’re not flirting for cryin out loud!” wewe yell.
“Seems like it,” Kathy says laughing.
“I don’t like Lily like that thank you,” Chev says then takes a drink of milk.
“So…. Do wewe like boys?” Chelsea says laughing.
“Sick no!” Chev yells and throws the carrot at Chelsea. wewe laugh.
“You guys should stop before we get yelled at,” Annie says annoyed.
“Aww is someone upset?” Chev says staring at her.
“No,” she says with a smile then throws a Skittle at Chev. wewe shake your head.
“Ok, I really think we should stop,” wewe say. They all stop laughing and stare at you. “Thank you,” wewe say.
“Hey, Annie told me wewe had a boyfriend back in Detroit, and she alisema wewe showed her a picture can I see it!?” Jessie says being all jumpy and in your face about it. wewe stare at her for a few seconds, once she realizes your being serious she stops smiling and looks at wewe seriously. “Well?” she says after a while. wewe reach into your bag and pull out a green folder, wewe pull out the picture wewe showed to Annie this morning and hand it to Jessie, she grabs it quickly.
“Don’t bend it!” wewe scream at her.
“Ohh calm down, I wont,” Jessie says staring at the picture of wewe and Marshall. “Whats his name?” Jessie asks, as he hands the picture to Kathy.
“Marshall,” wewe say trying not to get sad.
“Hes hot!” Kathy says. wewe glare at her. “Not that I would wanna tarehe him au anything,” she adds. The picture goes around the whole table, Chev looks kind of angry when hes looking at it, he hands it back to wewe after about a second.
After school wewe walk nyumbani with Annie, she lives a few houses from you….
“I think Chev likes you,” she says randomly. wewe stop walking and stare at her.
“Uhh?” wewe ask.
“Well did wewe see how he acted around you, and how he looked mad about the picture of Marshall,” she says. “I think hes jealous,” she says.
“So?” wewe say.
“Do wewe like him?” she asks.
“I.. no, I just got out of a relationship that Im not over yet,” wewe say. “ I really liked Marshall,” wewe say. wewe place your hand on your stomach randomly.
“Do wewe have something wewe have to tell me?” she asks.
“No?” wewe say zaidi as a swali rather than a straight answer.
“You do don’t you, wewe have a secret,” she says with a smile. “Tell me I wont tell anybody I promise, if I do wewe can hate me forever and wewe don’t ever have to talk to me again,” she says, wewe know her saying this she wont tell anybody, she never has told anybody anything before that wewe have told her not too… but you’re still afraid to tell her… “Well…?” she asks. wewe stop on the side walk kwa a old abandoned house and stare at her….wondering if wewe should tell her that your going to have Marshalls baby au not tell her…
“You ok?” she asks. wewe nod your head a slightly smile. “Still miss Marshall don’t you?” she asks. Hearing his name makes wewe wanna cry. wewe sigh and just stare at her. “Look, honey, its for the best,” she says.
“I know what you’re trying to do Mom but I don’t think me being this miserable is very healthy for me,” wewe explain hoping she would onyesha some sympathy for how you’re feeling.
“You’ll get over it, there’s plenty of guys out there,” she say as if that’s supposed to make wewe feel better, even know its not going too, knowing that your having a baby with him. Just looking at that baby is going to make wewe feel pain everyday seeing Marshall inside of him au her.
“Whatever Mom, Im ready to go, so can we just drop the whole Marshall subject and go?” wewe ask her leaving the bathroom grabbing your bag off the hallway floor.
“Yeah,” she says sort of sad but zaidi like shes annoyed with you.
The whole car ride to school wewe don’t say a word to your Mother, she don’t talk either, wewe think that she got the idea that wewe were annoyed with her. wewe walk in the room and the first person wewe see is you’re best friend, Annie, who wewe haven’t talked to for about one year. Shes standing with her back towards you. wewe walk up to her and tap her on the shoulder, she jumps and turns around.
“Lily!!” she yells hugging wewe immediately, wewe hug her back.
“Hey! How have wewe been,” wewe ask putting on a happy act, you’re happy to see her but the thing about Marshall is still making wewe wanna cry….
“What are wewe doing back here? I thought wewe were staying in Detroit forever.” she asks.
“Naw, things got…uhh bad with Nick so we had to songesha back here,” wewe say.
“What he do?” she asks.
“Stupid shit,” wewe say summing up the best wewe can so wewe don’t have to explain what he did to that poor hobo. Your bother went completely insane once wewe got back to South Dakota so they put wewe him in a psycho ward. Hes been there ever sense wewe moved and wewe haven’t even talked to him.
“Oh, I see,” she says. “Nice dog tag, some guy give that to wewe au something?” she asks pointing to the dog tag around your neck. wewe nod, she lifts it up and stares at it. “Marshall Bruce Mathers III,” she reads, she drops it down. “So was that your boyfriend au something?” she asks.
“Yeah, was…we broke up when we moved,” wewe say sadly.
“Aww, did wewe really like him?” she asks, wewe nod. “Was he cute?” she asks. wewe smile and nod, wewe pull out a picture of wewe and him, hes hugging wewe from behind your hands resting on his, your fingers are laced, and your heads are pressed together its taken outside there’s still snow on the ground and your standing under a mti kwa your house, your mother took that picture. “Aww he is cute,” she says staring at the picture. “You two look cute together,” she says. “You miss him?” she asks handing the picture back to you.
“Yes,” wewe say looking at the picture, wewe flip it over, on the back it says Marshall Mathers and Lily Jones spring of 1987. wewe put the picha back into your folder and sit down inayofuata to Annie.
MARSHALLS POV>>>
The past mwezi you’ve been thinking about Lily and wewe have also tried uandishi some raps about her, but its just to damn depressing for you, wewe cant write anything. Ronnie thinks your crazy and so does everyone else. It’s the first mwaka of ninth grade. wewe miss Lily so much your trying to get over her but its been hard, all wewe have is pictures, wewe keep them in a shoe box under your bed. And wewe tell yourself everyday that someday wewe are going to find Lily no matter what it takes, you’re going to find her…
LILY’S POV>>
Its lunch time, school has gone ok, and all your Marafiki keeping asking wewe why you’re back. wewe kept telling them that wewe would let them know during lunch time so wewe wont have to repeat yourself 6 times. Your walking to the lunch meza, jedwali with one of your Marafiki Chelsea. Everyone else is already at the table, wewe sit down inayofuata to Mary and Chelsea. “So are wewe gonna tell us why wewe moved back here?” Chelsea pipes up after about 5 dakika of silence.
“Damn, it so sounds like wewe guys are disappointed that I came back,” wewe say.
“No, we just wanna know what Nick did that was so bad,” Chev says. wewe sigh…
“Well he got into drugs, and shit then he killed a hobo,” wewe say. They all stare at wewe like your kidding. “Im serious!” wewe sort of yell.
“He killed someone! Sweet!” Chev cheers, he likes violence. A teacher walking kwa stops and stares at wewe guys. “A movie,” Chev says quickly.
“Ahh,” he says nodding, she walks away. wewe sigh.
“Nice one,” wewe say and toss a piece of carrot at Chev, it hits him on the forehead and falls to his lap. He glares at you, and wewe giggle. He shakes his head.
“Stop flirting at the table,” Kathy says.
“What the fuck!?” wewe yell at her. “We’re not flirting for cryin out loud!” wewe yell.
“Seems like it,” Kathy says laughing.
“I don’t like Lily like that thank you,” Chev says then takes a drink of milk.
“So…. Do wewe like boys?” Chelsea says laughing.
“Sick no!” Chev yells and throws the carrot at Chelsea. wewe laugh.
“You guys should stop before we get yelled at,” Annie says annoyed.
“Aww is someone upset?” Chev says staring at her.
“No,” she says with a smile then throws a Skittle at Chev. wewe shake your head.
“Ok, I really think we should stop,” wewe say. They all stop laughing and stare at you. “Thank you,” wewe say.
“Hey, Annie told me wewe had a boyfriend back in Detroit, and she alisema wewe showed her a picture can I see it!?” Jessie says being all jumpy and in your face about it. wewe stare at her for a few seconds, once she realizes your being serious she stops smiling and looks at wewe seriously. “Well?” she says after a while. wewe reach into your bag and pull out a green folder, wewe pull out the picture wewe showed to Annie this morning and hand it to Jessie, she grabs it quickly.
“Don’t bend it!” wewe scream at her.
“Ohh calm down, I wont,” Jessie says staring at the picture of wewe and Marshall. “Whats his name?” Jessie asks, as he hands the picture to Kathy.
“Marshall,” wewe say trying not to get sad.
“Hes hot!” Kathy says. wewe glare at her. “Not that I would wanna tarehe him au anything,” she adds. The picture goes around the whole table, Chev looks kind of angry when hes looking at it, he hands it back to wewe after about a second.
After school wewe walk nyumbani with Annie, she lives a few houses from you….
“I think Chev likes you,” she says randomly. wewe stop walking and stare at her.
“Uhh?” wewe ask.
“Well did wewe see how he acted around you, and how he looked mad about the picture of Marshall,” she says. “I think hes jealous,” she says.
“So?” wewe say.
“Do wewe like him?” she asks.
“I.. no, I just got out of a relationship that Im not over yet,” wewe say. “ I really liked Marshall,” wewe say. wewe place your hand on your stomach randomly.
“Do wewe have something wewe have to tell me?” she asks.
“No?” wewe say zaidi as a swali rather than a straight answer.
“You do don’t you, wewe have a secret,” she says with a smile. “Tell me I wont tell anybody I promise, if I do wewe can hate me forever and wewe don’t ever have to talk to me again,” she says, wewe know her saying this she wont tell anybody, she never has told anybody anything before that wewe have told her not too… but you’re still afraid to tell her… “Well…?” she asks. wewe stop on the side walk kwa a old abandoned house and stare at her….wondering if wewe should tell her that your going to have Marshalls baby au not tell her…