i sit and watch the blood drip down
all the reminders of the past
the past is the past
but what will the future bring?

zaidi pain to come
life's full of pain
no way to hide from it
no escaping it

but what good will this do?
just watching the blood
wewe feel like
nobody understands wewe anymore

your trying to find yourself
in this world of confusion
the pain the world brings
has no end

wewe look at your wrists one last time
wewe think of the pain you've felt
wewe wipe the blood away
and tell yourself, no more

wewe stop the bleeding
stop it for good
wewe think to yourself
'what good did this do?'

*this is just a poem i wrote while i was bored and i know its not good but...oh well(: *

This was my poem, I wrote it and it was not directed to anyone, I swear, it was just a bad day.


If I died tomorrow,
Would wewe care?
Would wewe miss the way I smile?
au the smell of my hair?
If I died tomorrow,
Would wewe really miss me?
Would wewe miss times we walked?
au every time wewe kissed me?
If I died tomorrow,
Would wewe be to blame?
Would wewe come to the funeral?
And hang you're head in shame?
If I died tomorrow,
Is there anything you'd want to say?
Maybe that wewe upendo me?
And want me to stay?

I kno Im not the best poet in the world. I'm not even really a poet at all. I like to write stories zaidi than anything. Please let me know what wewe think of my work. I'll probably post some lyrics that I have ritten later on. If wewe like the poem then please also suggest some titles for it.





Everywhere I look
Is nothing but darkness
I tafuta and tafuta for a light
None to be found until
Pain shot through my body
Then I saw
Everyone who was true to me
Everyone who walked out
In my time of need
Everyone worries
So I don't onyesha
How much pain
I'm truely in

so as of right know 9:46 PM 4/13/12 my grandma took every thing....... being who i am and what i am a person is normel but to my grandma every one (EVEN HER SON) is a thing that has no use on earth she tell s me i can't do what i upendo my true upendo art away what would wewe do if evey thing from wewe (FOR ME ART)was taken (I WANT TO DIE WHEN I LOOK AT HER BYE THE WAY)please help me srry this is not a makala but zaidi of a cry for help
-love rainbowq12-

p.s i am a very sad person i hate my life and every thing else i feel beacuse of my grandma i have no reson to live she takes all my resons away why i wonder do wewe know why cause i do not and a need a reson i feel
-bye-

Your Lies
Funny when things never change
Even when wewe say they will
But while your off screwing her
My life is standing still

wewe tell me that wewe upendo me
When I go to leave
wewe tell me I'm your only one
And I let myself believe

I know that wewe are using me
But you'll never let me go
I know that wewe don't upendo me
I know I'm just for show

I don't know If I can stand
To see wewe upendo another girl
wewe know that wewe broke my moyo
wewe know that your my world

But while your standing kwa my side
I'll believe your lies forever
Cause everything seems so perfect
When we are together

Does your life feel like a black hole
Trying to suck all the happiness out of you
wewe want to crawl in the darkness
and hide there and die

People say your weird,strange,
and dont fit in.
But wewe dont care because
your life sucks right now.

Some people cut themselfs
and some people cuse alot.
People do different things
because of it.

I feel like dieing,cutting,and
jumping of bridges.
I want to be alone a lot and
I dont want to eat.

I dont have a life
because i dont understand it .
I wanna cry all the time
And i have no idea why.

Except that I dont get life


writen kwa me:tdicxdforever

What is this pain that my moyo can not hold?
Why is my moyo feeling so cold?
Is it because it has been stabbed with a knife?
Could it be the end of my life?

Is it simply that my moyo is breaking?
Was it not the overdose I had taken?
Can't anyone help me get back on my feet again?
Can't anyone talk to me and be my new friend?

Did my lover do this to me?
Was it because he felt he had to leave?
Why did he go and just leave me a letter?
Can my life get any better?

Will I not be alive for long?
Was taking the overdose and cutting myself wrong?
Can anyone else see the bright light?
Am I the only one that doesn't feel right?

Is it not long before I die now?
Will I be going (heaven) up au (hell) down?
Will the blood ever stop leaking?
Will this be the last time you'll hear me speaking?

Everyday around quarter past three,
wewe burst into the bathroom searching for me,
I get hidden kwa your mother while wewe are away,
hidden, unused for most of the day,
I feel your anger as your hand grips me tight,
I'm the one & only thing that helps wewe sleep at night,
I live to put scars upon your wrist,
I leave my mark I'm proud of this,
I watch as the beautiful red blood pattern drips,
and runs off the ends of your fingertips,
what possesses humans to act like this,
to scream, cry & cut their wrists,
but for now my job is clear
the reason that I was brought here
to relieve the pain
to sit kwa the window and watch the rain,
up until around quarter past three
when wewe burst into the bathroom searching for me...

as i sit at on the kitanda looking out the Window looking up @ the sky as The Rain pitter patters Down. i cri i keep my head down and i dont bother....i dont care not any more. i stoped caring a long time zamani When u left me....alone....2 die. The cuts on my Wrist Wispers Every lie u Told me. every Tear That Falls Sreams Horrifing Screams. Every siku i stand alone. but Y. im waiting 4 u 2 com bakk. im wating 4 u 2 upendo me. 2 hold me. like once did Never ago. im moyo is always being stabed With 2,000 butcher Knifes. i no longer Think, i know longer Feel. i just cri, cri all siku n all nite. i just cut, cut 4 the lies u Told me. i just c blood every, im no longer waiting 4 u, im waiting 2 die. ull never com ull hold me ull never upendo Ull never CARE!!! never WILL!!
i dont need u 2 tell me im beutiaful...i dont need any 1
-Cries_bloodlova

Addie and Adam were going to a party.At the party Adam danced with Addie and got her drinks of matunda ngumi, punch and pop.After the dance Adam took Addie home.Adam asked Addie if he could sing addie a song.Addie alisema yes wewe can.Adam sang upendo Drunk kwa boy like girls.Adam hugged and kissed her and alisema good night to her.Addie alisema bye Adam good night upendo you.The inayofuata siku Adam took Addie to school.Adam does not go to school.He is in collage.Adam kissed Addie bye and alisema i have a good siku at school and i will put wewe up after school.Addie alisema ok bye Adam upendo wewe bye.After school Adam give Addie a ring.Addie alisema what is this ring for.Adam alisema we are getting married.Addie alisema ok.

Your'e all i ever think about
But yet wewe let me go
I gave wewe my heart
And wewe didn't say no
Your upendo seemed true to me
But oh.. was i wrong

Your upendo faded
As well as your voice
I was alone
and i had no choice

Time passed
We talked again
wewe gave me a lousy excuse
I took wewe back
But there was no use

wewe hurt my moyo again
Tore it out of my chest
I can't stand the pain
It won't let me rest

There is a blade in my heart
It went all the way through
It reminds me of my love
The upendo i shouldn't still have for you

Now I'm curious 'cos I wanna know,
why does some people not wanna be an emo?
We always get called 'emo' and it makes us content,
we actually take it as a compliment.

'Cos we emos are cool in our own way,
we upendo being emo night and day.
We listen to songs with actual meaning,
and we don't like Mariah Carey au do cleaning.

We ignore strangers who tend to stare,
'cos they're stupid and we don't care.
We don't pretend to be something we're not,
we're sooo cool and totally hot.

If we're angry then we cuss,
we swear at people who dis us.
One last thing that we're missing,
we are very good at kissing!