"yes, i know i haven't spoken to wewe in a long time
i guess i Lost hope that you'll ever help me...
but now, all i ask is for you
i know, i realize that...i haven't always believed in you, but i never doubted. i always prayed. trust me. i wouldn't lie about that.
But wewe never answered.
i was hurt. i thought wewe could understand being hated, but i guess to many upendo wewe for wewe to know true sadness.
Please help me, i've been hurt one to many
i've tried to fit in, i really did.
no let me in. No one truly cared.
all i felt was anger and mistrust
i couldn't feel anymore, i couldn't onyesha emotion, i was,well, heartless. i tried though.
I'm sorry for that siku in kindergarten, when i sat on the swing, waiting for wewe and wewe never came, i'm sorry i cried in self-pity. that was selfish to think i own you.
but you, wewe never helped me, even when i apologized. wewe never set someone's eyes to see the world as i do, only they see their way.
after i prayed the first time in years...you.....took away my only true friend.
i was left alone.
then wewe sent JJ.
i guess i should say...thank wewe for trying to help me
i promise to pray to you, one zaidi time,
before letting go."