Chapter 8 : I had several options to continue the story and I had to make a choice. I hope it is the good one that I made and that you'll enjoy this new (short) chapter :)
Cuddy has almost packed all their things. She’s looking for an apartment in Apton via internet, but it’s not easy. There are very few offers and many demands. Maybe she could ask Doctor Malcolm.
-Doctor Malcolm? Here is Doctor Cuddy.
-Hi, Doctor Cuddy. May I help you? au do wewe have any swali about the hospital?
-Heu, yes. I have some maswali about the functioning of the hospital, but nothing urgent, it can wait for my arrival to Apton. No, my swali is personal and practical nature, I’d like to know if wewe could indicate me a realtor because it seems difficult to find an apartment, so …
-I know, a lot of new colleagues have the same problem as you. I inquire and I call wewe back.
-Thank you.
-Mommy! When are we going?
-Rachel, I’ve already told you, we have to stay here 8 zaidi days and then we go.
-No! I want to go now! I want House! I want House!
- Rachel, please, be a good girl. … Do wewe want to play with Mommy before we eat?
-Oh yes! We play “Feed the monkey”, says the little girl and goes to hold the game.
Cuddy is always surprised that Rachel asks for House every day, she didn’t realize how much her daughter needs House. And she dreads Rachel's reaction if she’s wrong. She is 90% sure that House is behind all this, but … if not? After all she would so much like it’s the explanation for this job offer that she maybe convinced herself of it. Like each time she had hard time in the past with the work au with her private life, she needs him right now, and maybe zaidi than ever… Of course he has done horrible things to her, crazy and dangerous things, but… she loves him, she can’t help it! She broke up with him but she regrets it, she wishes she didn’t. She knew he was a drug addict, she knew he was scared to get deeply involved in a relationship with someone, she knows him so well and nevertheless she has expected something from him she perfectly knew he couldn’t do. All this crappy situation is mostly her fault, not his, and she feels guilty. She should have known how it will unfold, she should have known she couldn’t deal with this, neither he. He tried to warn her, but she was so happy in his arms, so in upendo with him, she had waited this moment since zaidi than 20 years! She really thought she could do it, she really thought he could change for her. And he tried, she can’t deny it, he really tried to change for her, to be the man she dreamed of, but this man wasn’t him, this man wasn’t the one she loves. She knows it now, but it’s maybe too late. Will he forgive her? Will he accept to begin a new relationship with her? Will he be able to take the risk to be hurt a sekunde time? To get emotionally involved with her and with Rachel? … And I? Will I be able to live with him, to accept him for what he really is and not to put “impossible standards” on him like I did last time? I want it, I desperately need him, I upendo him, but will it be enough? Will we be able to be happy together, to upendo each other without hurting each other like we did? Can we be a family? I hope so… I need him in my life… And he should be a nice guy otherwise Rachel wouldn’t care so much for him. Children feel when people are good for them au not, don’t they? Be that as it may, I have to think about a good explanation if I don’t want her to be too much disappointed in case he will not be there. Maybe I shouldn’t have lied to her. However, it’s too late now.
-Doctor House! Malcolm calls through the hall.
House is about to go home, but this guy may have important information, and he has promised to behave like an adult, so …
-Doctor Malcolm, do wewe need something? he says and smiles.
-Maybe. Doctor Cuddy just called me, she needs an apartment, but it’s very difficult to find one, a lot of construction sites started and some will soon be ended but while waiting for, it’s very difficult to find a place to live, then...
-Oh, I see… but what can I do? I’m neither a magician, nor a construction worker… I do sometimes DIY but it’s not my specialty, majibu House ironically.
-No, of course not… But if I understood well, wewe and Doctor Cuddy were …
-We were …?
-Well, wewe know what I mean. I called some colleagues to get some information about Doctor Cuddy before I proposed her the job of director… and …
-And …? repeats House who finds Malcolm’s embarrassment funny.
-And … well, I heard that wewe and Doctor Cuddy were … together, he whispers on a confidential tone.
-Yes, you’re right, we were, says House sadly.
-I’m sorry, I didn’t want to hurt you, I …
-Don’t worry, it’s ok. So what do wewe want to tell me? I still don’t understand how I can help her to find an apartment.
-Well, I called a friend of mine who’s a realtor, he has three apartments to rent, but I don’t know Doctor Cuddy personally and I thought that … maybe wewe could … go and visit the apartments and choose one for her.
-Well, I don’t know if I can… I have a lot of work here and…
-That’s not a problem, I can give wewe one siku off to go to visit the apartments…
- Ok, I’ll do it!
-Hm, there’s a little problem…, adds Malcolm. My friend didn’t tell me if they’re free au if she’ll have to wait for a few days to move.
As House says nothing and waits for him to continue, Malcolm speaks again: In this case, I thought wewe could maybe accommodate her for a while…
-No, no, I can’t. The break up was quite awful and we were not on good terms when I left, majibu House in a low voice. And besides I…
- Oh! I forgot! wewe told me wewe have a wife, I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have asked you…
-And furthermore, my best friend comes inayofuata week to visit me, so I have no place, I’m sorry. wewe can tell her to go to the hotel …
-I’m not sure it’ll be correct to welcome her like this. I think it would be better if I ask Doctor MacEnzie.
-Who’s this?
-Our head of Pediatric. He’s very kind and has a big house.
-So why did wewe ask me? exclaims House, jealous. He hadn’t thought about this.
-Because I didn’t want wewe to be surprised and I thought that maybe… After all, wewe recommended her to me.
-Yeah, thank you. But I’m sure I’ll find her an apartment, so please, don’t ask him immediately. I inform you, says House and leaves.
House sits in his kitanda since one hour, the TV is on but he doesn’t watch it, he’s Lost in his thought. If Cuddy can’t find an apartment, if she accepts to live in the house of this MacEnzie…, even if it’s just for a week… House has seen this guy, he’s quite young and handsome, and apparently he’s single! Which isn’t a good thing for House. Who knows what can happen? Cuddy is fragile, she probably still doesn’t recover from their break up and needs certainly to be comforted, and if this guy is interested and tries to seduce her… House isn’t sure of Cuddy’s reaction… Of course, he trusts her, he knows she still loves him but… the last time he saw her, she was with a guy… now he knows that it was Julia’s idea, but… House feels angry and jealous. He’s still so in upendo with her, he needs her, he craves for her… and the simple idea to think she’ll be in the same house as a man drives him crazy. He has to find a solution and quickly. After a while a smile appears on his lips, he gets a plan. And Wilson will help him.
Cuddy has almost packed all their things. She’s looking for an apartment in Apton via internet, but it’s not easy. There are very few offers and many demands. Maybe she could ask Doctor Malcolm.
-Doctor Malcolm? Here is Doctor Cuddy.
-Hi, Doctor Cuddy. May I help you? au do wewe have any swali about the hospital?
-Heu, yes. I have some maswali about the functioning of the hospital, but nothing urgent, it can wait for my arrival to Apton. No, my swali is personal and practical nature, I’d like to know if wewe could indicate me a realtor because it seems difficult to find an apartment, so …
-I know, a lot of new colleagues have the same problem as you. I inquire and I call wewe back.
-Thank you.
-Mommy! When are we going?
-Rachel, I’ve already told you, we have to stay here 8 zaidi days and then we go.
-No! I want to go now! I want House! I want House!
- Rachel, please, be a good girl. … Do wewe want to play with Mommy before we eat?
-Oh yes! We play “Feed the monkey”, says the little girl and goes to hold the game.
Cuddy is always surprised that Rachel asks for House every day, she didn’t realize how much her daughter needs House. And she dreads Rachel's reaction if she’s wrong. She is 90% sure that House is behind all this, but … if not? After all she would so much like it’s the explanation for this job offer that she maybe convinced herself of it. Like each time she had hard time in the past with the work au with her private life, she needs him right now, and maybe zaidi than ever… Of course he has done horrible things to her, crazy and dangerous things, but… she loves him, she can’t help it! She broke up with him but she regrets it, she wishes she didn’t. She knew he was a drug addict, she knew he was scared to get deeply involved in a relationship with someone, she knows him so well and nevertheless she has expected something from him she perfectly knew he couldn’t do. All this crappy situation is mostly her fault, not his, and she feels guilty. She should have known how it will unfold, she should have known she couldn’t deal with this, neither he. He tried to warn her, but she was so happy in his arms, so in upendo with him, she had waited this moment since zaidi than 20 years! She really thought she could do it, she really thought he could change for her. And he tried, she can’t deny it, he really tried to change for her, to be the man she dreamed of, but this man wasn’t him, this man wasn’t the one she loves. She knows it now, but it’s maybe too late. Will he forgive her? Will he accept to begin a new relationship with her? Will he be able to take the risk to be hurt a sekunde time? To get emotionally involved with her and with Rachel? … And I? Will I be able to live with him, to accept him for what he really is and not to put “impossible standards” on him like I did last time? I want it, I desperately need him, I upendo him, but will it be enough? Will we be able to be happy together, to upendo each other without hurting each other like we did? Can we be a family? I hope so… I need him in my life… And he should be a nice guy otherwise Rachel wouldn’t care so much for him. Children feel when people are good for them au not, don’t they? Be that as it may, I have to think about a good explanation if I don’t want her to be too much disappointed in case he will not be there. Maybe I shouldn’t have lied to her. However, it’s too late now.
-Doctor House! Malcolm calls through the hall.
House is about to go home, but this guy may have important information, and he has promised to behave like an adult, so …
-Doctor Malcolm, do wewe need something? he says and smiles.
-Maybe. Doctor Cuddy just called me, she needs an apartment, but it’s very difficult to find one, a lot of construction sites started and some will soon be ended but while waiting for, it’s very difficult to find a place to live, then...
-Oh, I see… but what can I do? I’m neither a magician, nor a construction worker… I do sometimes DIY but it’s not my specialty, majibu House ironically.
-No, of course not… But if I understood well, wewe and Doctor Cuddy were …
-We were …?
-Well, wewe know what I mean. I called some colleagues to get some information about Doctor Cuddy before I proposed her the job of director… and …
-And …? repeats House who finds Malcolm’s embarrassment funny.
-And … well, I heard that wewe and Doctor Cuddy were … together, he whispers on a confidential tone.
-Yes, you’re right, we were, says House sadly.
-I’m sorry, I didn’t want to hurt you, I …
-Don’t worry, it’s ok. So what do wewe want to tell me? I still don’t understand how I can help her to find an apartment.
-Well, I called a friend of mine who’s a realtor, he has three apartments to rent, but I don’t know Doctor Cuddy personally and I thought that … maybe wewe could … go and visit the apartments and choose one for her.
-Well, I don’t know if I can… I have a lot of work here and…
-That’s not a problem, I can give wewe one siku off to go to visit the apartments…
- Ok, I’ll do it!
-Hm, there’s a little problem…, adds Malcolm. My friend didn’t tell me if they’re free au if she’ll have to wait for a few days to move.
As House says nothing and waits for him to continue, Malcolm speaks again: In this case, I thought wewe could maybe accommodate her for a while…
-No, no, I can’t. The break up was quite awful and we were not on good terms when I left, majibu House in a low voice. And besides I…
- Oh! I forgot! wewe told me wewe have a wife, I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have asked you…
-And furthermore, my best friend comes inayofuata week to visit me, so I have no place, I’m sorry. wewe can tell her to go to the hotel …
-I’m not sure it’ll be correct to welcome her like this. I think it would be better if I ask Doctor MacEnzie.
-Who’s this?
-Our head of Pediatric. He’s very kind and has a big house.
-So why did wewe ask me? exclaims House, jealous. He hadn’t thought about this.
-Because I didn’t want wewe to be surprised and I thought that maybe… After all, wewe recommended her to me.
-Yeah, thank you. But I’m sure I’ll find her an apartment, so please, don’t ask him immediately. I inform you, says House and leaves.
House sits in his kitanda since one hour, the TV is on but he doesn’t watch it, he’s Lost in his thought. If Cuddy can’t find an apartment, if she accepts to live in the house of this MacEnzie…, even if it’s just for a week… House has seen this guy, he’s quite young and handsome, and apparently he’s single! Which isn’t a good thing for House. Who knows what can happen? Cuddy is fragile, she probably still doesn’t recover from their break up and needs certainly to be comforted, and if this guy is interested and tries to seduce her… House isn’t sure of Cuddy’s reaction… Of course, he trusts her, he knows she still loves him but… the last time he saw her, she was with a guy… now he knows that it was Julia’s idea, but… House feels angry and jealous. He’s still so in upendo with her, he needs her, he craves for her… and the simple idea to think she’ll be in the same house as a man drives him crazy. He has to find a solution and quickly. After a while a smile appears on his lips, he gets a plan. And Wilson will help him.
When does upendo become something we need, rather than something we want? upendo was seen as something special a long time ago. Now upendo is what we are expected to have with us everyday of our lives. upendo is common currency when wewe are a teenager, but turns to worthless pennies the older wewe get. Do we not care about the substance of what upendo was and not what it has been made into today kwa commercialisation from American sinema and televisheni commercials and soap operas? Only when we experience upendo for real, can we maoni and judge others who are in Love. upendo means something different to everyone. Not two people’s feeling of upendo is the same. Why do we generalize, rationalize and compartmentalize Love? upendo is and will continue to be an enigma. Only a handful of people will ever unlock it and witness its true beauty and essence. The essence we all crave.
Love.
Love.