Alright, I am warning wewe all that my take on “Both Sides Now” is filled with ties to my personal life. If wewe want to avoid this, I really don’t blame wewe and I advise wewe to stop kusoma now.
I have lurked around this site for many months now, commenting occasionally, but never actually uandishi anything lengthy. After this episode, I feel I have enough to say about the House/Cuddy dynamic to warrant an article.
I have been a “Huddy” shabiki since the first episode I saw of House about 4.5 years ago. I never really watched the onyesha regularly until early this season. Still, any episode I saw, I always appreciated the House and Cuddy interactions. As I have matured, I can better understand why I was sooooo drawn to this couple – I am in that relationship.
Are we as dysfunctional as those two characters? No, but we are close. Honestly, the only difference I see is that we are 20, not in our 40’s. We haven’t had enough time together to mess up our lives that much. But he is a selfish, egotistical jerk. I am well on my way to putting career over personal relationships. He is incredibly intelligent, but highly disconnected from those who try to relate to him. I am a bit of a control freak, and I could see myself giving Cuddy’s speech in “Humpty Dumpty” about always wanting to be a doctor. So much of how we interact is a power struggle. There have been times I wanted to kill him. And yet, I always return to our messed up dynamic. Any other relationship I’ve had has been boring. With him, it is always exciting and thrilling. Whereas House and Cuddy met in college and hooked up once, we met when we were 10 and tried dating when we were in middle school. One of my best friends, who I recently got addicted to the show, confirms this sentiment. We are a younger, real-life version of these two.
Having a tangible equivalent of these two has always made watching the onyesha that much zaidi enjoyable. I always thought House and Cuddy were highly entertaining, and I couldn’t wait for them to get together. I knew it would never be rainbows and sunshine and butterflies, but still I figured at some point they were bound to give it a shot.
After “Under My Skin,” I wasn’t as overjoyed as most of you. Don’t get me wrong, I loved all the Huddyness, but something felt off to me (Oh the irony as I look back now). It wasn’t the speed of the detox, au Cuddy just calling the babysitter at the drop of the hat. The former I assumed was for dramatic effect and the later, well, I understood. If my House equivalent alisema he needed me, I don’t think I could say no. I am usually quite strong and independent, but he will always be my weakness/downfall. What got me was the “sweetness” of their interactions. Of the many awesome things that House and Cuddy are, I would never have included sweet in that list. Yet, as I watched the episode again (and again, and again, lol) it really grew on me. I liked the direction things were going. Angst and passion are not enough to keep things going forever.
So, when “Both Sides Now” started, I was in a very positive mood. I liked seeing Happy!House. But then, all hell broke loose. The fact that House had hallucinated himself a happy situation was positively heartbreaking. But it left me with a bad taste in my mouth. I fear that Huddy will never be seriously addressed again.
House loves Cuddy. House wishes he could have a domestic life with Cuddy. And the whole overtone of the onyesha is “You can’t always get what wewe want.” House and Cuddy will never get a personal relationship because it is what they both want. I can’t see the writers ever giving us zaidi of what we had this season. They hooked up in a dream. That is all I can ever see us getting.
Now, I know that I am probably being an extreme Debbie Downer, but I really don’t see it going any other way. Not only does this disappoint me as a shabiki of the show, but if I am honest with myself, it hurts on a personal level as well. In my head, my own relationship is so similar to theirs, that I can’t help connecting their outcome to my outcome. He and I may both wish that things could be great between us, that we could have even a short period of happiness together, but really, it’s never going to happen. And as much as I protest that being with him would just make us both miserable and end in heartache for both of us, I still want to hold on to the illusion that maybe someday, we could get it right. This episode crushed that ndoto kwa inaonyesha that what we could have is just that – a fantasy.
Now, I know that two fictional characters really don’t dictate what happens in my personal life. But still, I feel/fear that they are very close to what we will be in 25 years. And after tonight, that fact just depresses me.
I fully intend to keep watching House. I still upendo Huddy and will continue to ship them. But after tonight’s episode, I feel that we will sympathize greatly with the Hamerons, finally understanding what it feels like when a ship is basically abandoned. I hope I am wrong, but I can’t shake my gut reaction. Huddy has changed forever, and with it, so has my own twisted outlook on my “relationship.” And that fact, well, it is really quite depressing.
If wewe made it to the end of my commentary, I am both shocked and grateful. Please comment/call me an idiot au find other, less cynical makala to read ;)
I have lurked around this site for many months now, commenting occasionally, but never actually uandishi anything lengthy. After this episode, I feel I have enough to say about the House/Cuddy dynamic to warrant an article.
I have been a “Huddy” shabiki since the first episode I saw of House about 4.5 years ago. I never really watched the onyesha regularly until early this season. Still, any episode I saw, I always appreciated the House and Cuddy interactions. As I have matured, I can better understand why I was sooooo drawn to this couple – I am in that relationship.
Are we as dysfunctional as those two characters? No, but we are close. Honestly, the only difference I see is that we are 20, not in our 40’s. We haven’t had enough time together to mess up our lives that much. But he is a selfish, egotistical jerk. I am well on my way to putting career over personal relationships. He is incredibly intelligent, but highly disconnected from those who try to relate to him. I am a bit of a control freak, and I could see myself giving Cuddy’s speech in “Humpty Dumpty” about always wanting to be a doctor. So much of how we interact is a power struggle. There have been times I wanted to kill him. And yet, I always return to our messed up dynamic. Any other relationship I’ve had has been boring. With him, it is always exciting and thrilling. Whereas House and Cuddy met in college and hooked up once, we met when we were 10 and tried dating when we were in middle school. One of my best friends, who I recently got addicted to the show, confirms this sentiment. We are a younger, real-life version of these two.
Having a tangible equivalent of these two has always made watching the onyesha that much zaidi enjoyable. I always thought House and Cuddy were highly entertaining, and I couldn’t wait for them to get together. I knew it would never be rainbows and sunshine and butterflies, but still I figured at some point they were bound to give it a shot.
After “Under My Skin,” I wasn’t as overjoyed as most of you. Don’t get me wrong, I loved all the Huddyness, but something felt off to me (Oh the irony as I look back now). It wasn’t the speed of the detox, au Cuddy just calling the babysitter at the drop of the hat. The former I assumed was for dramatic effect and the later, well, I understood. If my House equivalent alisema he needed me, I don’t think I could say no. I am usually quite strong and independent, but he will always be my weakness/downfall. What got me was the “sweetness” of their interactions. Of the many awesome things that House and Cuddy are, I would never have included sweet in that list. Yet, as I watched the episode again (and again, and again, lol) it really grew on me. I liked the direction things were going. Angst and passion are not enough to keep things going forever.
So, when “Both Sides Now” started, I was in a very positive mood. I liked seeing Happy!House. But then, all hell broke loose. The fact that House had hallucinated himself a happy situation was positively heartbreaking. But it left me with a bad taste in my mouth. I fear that Huddy will never be seriously addressed again.
House loves Cuddy. House wishes he could have a domestic life with Cuddy. And the whole overtone of the onyesha is “You can’t always get what wewe want.” House and Cuddy will never get a personal relationship because it is what they both want. I can’t see the writers ever giving us zaidi of what we had this season. They hooked up in a dream. That is all I can ever see us getting.
Now, I know that I am probably being an extreme Debbie Downer, but I really don’t see it going any other way. Not only does this disappoint me as a shabiki of the show, but if I am honest with myself, it hurts on a personal level as well. In my head, my own relationship is so similar to theirs, that I can’t help connecting their outcome to my outcome. He and I may both wish that things could be great between us, that we could have even a short period of happiness together, but really, it’s never going to happen. And as much as I protest that being with him would just make us both miserable and end in heartache for both of us, I still want to hold on to the illusion that maybe someday, we could get it right. This episode crushed that ndoto kwa inaonyesha that what we could have is just that – a fantasy.
Now, I know that two fictional characters really don’t dictate what happens in my personal life. But still, I feel/fear that they are very close to what we will be in 25 years. And after tonight, that fact just depresses me.
I fully intend to keep watching House. I still upendo Huddy and will continue to ship them. But after tonight’s episode, I feel that we will sympathize greatly with the Hamerons, finally understanding what it feels like when a ship is basically abandoned. I hope I am wrong, but I can’t shake my gut reaction. Huddy has changed forever, and with it, so has my own twisted outlook on my “relationship.” And that fact, well, it is really quite depressing.
If wewe made it to the end of my commentary, I am both shocked and grateful. Please comment/call me an idiot au find other, less cynical makala to read ;)
When does upendo become something we need, rather than something we want? upendo was seen as something special a long time ago. Now upendo is what we are expected to have with us everyday of our lives. upendo is common currency when wewe are a teenager, but turns to worthless pennies the older wewe get. Do we not care about the substance of what upendo was and not what it has been made into today kwa commercialisation from American sinema and televisheni commercials and soap operas? Only when we experience upendo for real, can we maoni and judge others who are in Love. upendo means something different to everyone. Not two people’s feeling of upendo is the same. Why do we generalize, rationalize and compartmentalize Love? upendo is and will continue to be an enigma. Only a handful of people will ever unlock it and witness its true beauty and essence. The essence we all crave.
Love.
Love.