That's me inside your head. Why did wewe just tell me all that? We don't even know each other. Maybe that's the point.I'll be seein ya.Nice hands. Nice legs.
I guess misery really does love company.
Lonely. I want to draw something that means something to someone! I want to draw blind faith, au a fading summer, au just a moment of clarity. And if I can't be great at it, then I don't want to ruin it. It's too important to me. They are not you. Could wewe take a look at these? wewe won't be disappointed.
You're art matters. It's what got me here.
wewe imewasilishwa my sketches to thud magazine. And they liked them didn't they? Maybe wewe are ready, but you're just scared. I guess I'm just a riddle wrapped in a mystery inside a bitch. au maybe just a tortured artist. Look, I don't need wewe defending me and my work. I don't need wewe analyzing it au interpreting me either. And in fact, I'm pretty sure I don't need wewe at all. Pretty sure? wewe know, I would gladly erase my dad if it would bring back your mom. I wish I could change it for you. I didn't come here for wewe tonight. Wow, wewe made me a mix? Does this mean we're dating? I've wanted this for so long. Me too. And now we can have it. I want to have everything with you. I want it all. I want us.
And now we can't have it. I'm sorry. For what? All sorts of things.
Lucas, I made a mistake. When wewe alisema wewe wanted to be with me, I got scared and I pushed wewe away, but the truth is, I want all the same things that wewe want, I do. And I want them with you. Tracks 8 and 11? Totally you.
It didn't mean anything. It didn't? Of course it did. I feel it in my heart. Don't you? Yes.
I have to be with you. I'm with you, wewe know that. I'll wait forever if I have to.
I was so afraid wewe weren't going to wake up. What? And miss out on being with you?
I upendo to watch wewe draw. I can't get wewe out of my head. I wish we could fast mbele these inayofuata six months so we could just be together. It's better this way, right? Yeah.
I know how you’re into this whole 80's metal thing, so I got wewe the first Tesla record. This is sweet. I got wewe a high five. Do wewe want it now au later? Now's good. wewe don't need to apologize, it's just for all the stuff that wewe and I have been through... where my head and my heart were at, I couldn't have gone and slept with some stranger. Look, I just want to apologize again for not being a better person lately. I'm trying. I don't know what else to say. It's not what wewe say, it's what wewe do.
When was the last time we even had a conversation about something real? I just thought wewe could use a friend. Yeah, I could use a friend, but wewe don't qualify as that anymore. Whatever wewe think, I really do care about you. You're a good friend. Well now, Bonnie and Clyde, I guess you're wondering why I called wewe here. kwa the way, remember when wewe accused me of being a crappy friend? Yeah, I'm really sorry. No, wewe were right. I don't ever want that to happen again, so if wewe need anything, I'm around.
wewe look like wewe need some chocolate. wewe gave me the best mixtape I have. Even all the bad songs ain't so bad. I just wish there was so much zaidi than that, about me and you. Looks like it's just wewe and me this summer.
Come on, let's get wewe home. I can't be there alone. Will wewe stay with me? I knew wewe couldn't go a whole summer without doing something. Whatever. wewe don't know me. I think I do.
It's always going to be there, isn't it? wewe and me. So the whole summer and I still can't get use to that hair of yours. What? wewe did yours last spring and mine actually looks good. Hey!
Sometimes all wewe need is one. There's that look again. What look? I don't have a look. You're one of the few people that's actually been honest with me through this whole thing. wewe should go. Yeah, we're both going. Painting while angry? That's original. Like cutting your hair. If I don't go, I never will and I need to. Will wewe go? Sure. A promise is a promise. Besides, wewe should be able to turn to me for help. I upendo being that guy for you. I guess I just needed help getting here. wewe never needed my help.
The stars are crying for what we could have had.
Are wewe drunk? Are wewe wearing eye shadow? Working through the pain? Kinda. Everything is going to be alright, right? Yeah, it is. Don't live your life alone. Let us in.
Don't leave me, please. I'm gonna go block the entrance. We'll just hide, alright? Listen to me, I'm not leaving you. Nothing will happen to you, I promise. You're always saving me. Somebody's got to. If I say I love wewe right now, will wewe hold it against me? Come here. If I don't get her out of here, she's going to die. wewe love me. Okay, that is so not fair. wewe probably want to kiss me again. Dude, shut up! If I told wewe I love you, would wewe hold it against me? Because I do. I know how wewe are. I'm the same way. I love you, wewe know that? I love wewe too. Hey, wewe look nice. And then there were two. Love is not love which alters when it alteration finds. It is an ever fixed mark that looks on tempests and is never shaken. Love alters not with time’s brief hours and weeks, but bears it out even to the edge of doom.
She's A Runner? Billy Squier. And I am very impressed that wewe have Billy Squier on your iTunes. Actually I think wewe gave that to me. When was the last time we just hung out? Um, just the two of us? Probably the siku we hid out in the maktaba and I got shot in the leg. wewe think about that much? Everyday. I wish I could take that siku back for your mom and Keith. Thanks for the sex. We all need a little help sometimes, someone to help us hear the muziki in the world. To remind us that it won't always be this way. That someone is out there, and that someone will find you.
Give me your hand. wewe know I use to watch you? When? Freshman year. Sophomore year. Both summers, actually. Stop it. What did wewe watch? You're legs mostly. wewe know, from up close they are a little chickeny. Shut up! But from where I was hiding, they were pretty awesome. I'm not sure that's a compliment. Oh it is, trust me. Look, on the contrary to what's written on your wall, people don't always leave. Last time I checked I'm still here. I would never cut wewe out of my life. I'm just trying to watch out for you. I know that and I thank you. wewe were right. I'm sorry I doubted you. Whoa! Is this your way of thanking me? It's okay, I'm here. I thought I'd try and paint the shadows away. It's who I am and wewe need to be who wewe are. Can I stay? Sure. Life comes rushing at wewe from out of the darkness, when it does... is there someone in your life wewe can count on? Someone who will watch over wewe when wewe stumble and fall? And in that moment, give wewe the strength to face your fears alone? I love you, Lucas. I love wewe too. wewe don't understand. I've been holding this in for a really long time. I just need wewe to know, I love you... I'm in love with you.
Nice shot. Nice legs. They're a little chickeny. Well, I'll be seein ya. Hey, Peyton. It's you. What? When all my dreams come true... the one I want inayofuata to me. It's you. It's you, Peyton.
wewe know my girlfriend Peyton, right? kwa the way, I forgot how much of a good kisser wewe are. Well, maybe wewe should come kwa later and I'll remind wewe for a few hours. I'd like that. This is good isn't it? Us. It's perfect.
You're always saving me. Please, let me find a way to save you. I have to go back. I never told Peyton I love her. I want to go back. Last time we kissed was so damn good I collapsed. The last time we kissed wewe had a moyo attack. And I didn't die. I couldn't die. Do wewe know why? Because I had to come back and look into those green eyes of yours and tell wewe I love you. No matter how long it takes I'll wait for you. I think we waited long enough.
Peyton, wewe look amazing. I can't wait till class is over so I can look at those green eyes and kiss your perfect lips. Happy looks good on you. Peyton is the best thing I have in my life. I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for her. Likewise. This is the best cookie I've ever had.
Pretty please with me on top. What do wewe want now? I want what wewe wanted. I want everything with you. I'd do anything for you.
I really love you. I love wewe too. I promise. Poof. Poof? Poof! You're destined for greatness and we both know that. No matter what happens to either one of us, wewe will always be in my heart. Just let me hold wewe for a couple zaidi minutes. That's what's going to fix me.
I'm going to love wewe forever.
Chapter three. Peyton Sawyer is destined for greatness. Actually she's already great, because Peyton Sawyer has a thing called integrity. And nothing and no one is ever going to change that.
How long has it been? Two years. No, it's been longer than that. Luke, I missed you.
So wewe couldn't change the world from Los Angeles. Change it here. I know wewe can do it and so do you. Do wewe remember what wewe alisema that night when wewe first entered the gym? Your art matters. It's what got me here. Yeah, it's like wewe touched my soul and a few days zamani I was ready to quit again, but wewe saved me with the words wewe wrote about me in your novel. So if your struggling uandishi the inayofuata one wewe should know that your art matters Lucas. It's what got me here.
We had a relationship. We can't pretend that we didn't. But before that we were really close friends. There's no reason we can't have that again, right? Right. Peyton, I love wewe and I want us to be together forever. Luke, wait okay. I know it's a bit sudden, but yesterday was a great day. And I'm sitting on the bus and I realize that none of my great days in my life matter without you. You're the one I want inayofuata to me when my dreams come true. You're the one I want inayofuata to me if they don't. As long as I have wewe nothing else matters. I am not saying no, I am saying not now. I want to marry wewe someday.
I went kwa my old house. There's a teenage girl living there now. She showed me my closet door and wewe know what that said? Lucas and Peyton, True upendo Always. Always Lucas, that's what we were supposed to have. Let me tell wewe how wewe get "always" Peyton... when a man asks wewe to marry him, wewe say yes. I never alisema no! I alisema that I loved wewe and that I did wanna marry wewe someday.
I moved on. Why haven't you? Cause I should have alisema yes. I was young, and I was scared, and I did not realize that kwa saying I wasn't ready it would mean that we would never be together again. Had I known that, I would have alisema yes. I miss wewe every day. And I have told everyone here that I didn't come back for you, but I did. Of course I did. I still love wewe Lucas. wewe still love me, don't you?
Suddenly it was as if the roar of the crowd, and the cheers of my team mates were all sounding from a thousand miles away, and what remained in that bizarre muffled silence was only Peyton, the girl whose art and passion and beauty had changed my life. In that moment, my triumph was not a state championship, but simple clarity. The realization that we'd always been meant for each other and every instinct to the contrary had simply been a denial of the following truth; I was now and always would be in love with Peyton Sawyer. Look me in the eye and tell me that, that kiss did not feel exactly the same as it felt three years ago.
I was reminded today in a roundabout way that the most perfect act of upendo is sacrifice. It's what Keith did for Karen... burying his feelings for her for all those years so he could be a good friend. I love wewe Lucas. I think I have since the first moment we locked eyes and it is going to suck, but if what wewe want is for me to let go, then I'm gonna do it. Be happy Luke. I want that with all my heart.
It was zaidi than just a comet because of what it brought to his life; direction, beauty, meaning. There are many who couldn't understand, and sometimes he walked among them. But even in his darkest hours, he knew in his heart that someday it would return to him, and his world would be whole again... and his belief in God and love and art would be reawakened in his heart.
I come in here and I sit in silence and hear the echoes of who we used to be, and so I wish for patience, and grace, and the strength to just let him be happy. Mostly, I pray for the strength to not make his life worse because of what I want. That's the toughest part, letting go, wewe know? That's the part of grace that just really sucks. Make a wish, place it in your heart. Anything wewe want, everything wewe want. Do wewe have it? Good. Now believe it can come true. wewe never know where the inayofuata miracle will come from, the inayofuata smile, the inayofuata wish come true. But if wewe believe that it's right around the corner and wewe open your heart and mind to the possibility of it, to the certainty of it... wewe just may get the thing you're wishing for.
I don't blame you, Peyton. I hate you. Peyton Sawyer will become Peyton Scott.
The siku wewe start thinking that upendo is overrated is the siku that you're wrong. I don't hate you. I remember the first time I ever saw you; all skinny arms and Tangled mess of hair. It was hard letting wewe go, Peyton. It was hard losing wewe and it was hard seeing wewe again. It's still really hard. I know. While I'm asleep I have this dream where we're back in that hotel room in LA and wewe propose to me; and every single time I say yes. It's just a dream right? It's my dream. To all those Lost souls who have forgotten to believe in the immensity of love.
Our Mixtape.♫
(thanks to ritergrl (S!<3), Laurencia7, yourartmatters!)
1. Maybe Tomorrow - Sterephonics
2. Mixtape - Butch Walker
3. wewe Found Me - Kelly Clarkson
4. She's No wewe - Jessie McCartney
5. Absolutely (Story Of A Girl) - Nine Days
6. upendo Will Come Through - Travis
7. We Might As Well be Strangers - Keane
8. Hanging kwa a Moment - Lifehouse
9. wewe and Me - Lifehouse
10. Why Can't I - Liz Phair
11. Forgive and Forget - The Get Up Kids
12. This is the Last Time - Keane
13. Comfortable - John Mayer
14. Back to wewe - John Mayer
15. Shimmer - Fuel
16. A Moment Like This - Kelly Clarkson
17. Fall To Pieces - Avril Lavigne
18. Whatever it Takes - The Faders
19. Fix wewe - Coldplay
20. On moto - Switchfoot
21. If You're Not The One - Daniel Bedingfield
22. I Want to Save wewe - Something Corporate
23. Complicated - Carolyn Dawn Johnson
24. Come On - Ben Jelen
25. Lonely September - The Plain White T's
26. Ever The Same - Rob Thomas
27. Alway On Your Side - Sheryl jogoo and Sting
28. Don't Forget About Us - Mariah Carey
29: The Mix-Tape - Jack's Mannequin
30: Halo - Haley James Scott aka Bethany Joy Galeotti
31. Nothing Else Matters - Metallica
32. Never Tear Us Apart - INXS
33. With au Without wewe - U2
34. Layla - Eric Clapton
35. kengele Bottom Blues - Eric Clapton
36. She Loves wewe - The Beatles
37. Angel - Aerosmith
38. Don't Wanna Miss a Thing - Aerosmith
39. Ten Years Gone - Led Zeppelin
40. upendo Song - The Cure
41. Coming to terms
42. Everything we had - The academy is
43. Feel This - Haley James Scott
