Dear Michael, our dearest Michael, I'm sorry for the way I am. I'm sorry for being so negative. I don't try to be this was, to be frank. I'm doing this because I mean it. I really mean it. I hope you're not disappointed au displeased of me. Believe me, I really don't try to be mean. It's either because of my Asperger syndrome I have (which I consider an illness even though it's not) au that the devil is trying to take over my me. But deep in my soul and moyo I'm NOT evil au cold hearted and I don't want anybody especially wewe thinking that I am cause that's not right. It's just that the fact that you're gone is making so tense ever sense. I'm just in pain right now. Depression and loneliness and emptiness and nothingness inside me and I got nobody to help me out. Michael, I know you're not going to like what I'm about to say and that goes to whomever is kusoma this too. I am much much zaidi than sorry about the siku I tried to cu... Well,you know what. I did it for two reasons: 1. I felt like I needed it. I needed something to express how I feel. 2. I wanted to take the pain for whomever is suffering in this world. But no worries. Even though I'm still so lonely and so sad, I'm not an emo anymore. What I did to myself is what emos do to themselves and it's completely wrong ( and painful. Literally).You taught us a lot, Michael. What upendo and kindness is all about, how to smile even though I'm sad, I can go on 24/7. I feel like I took all what wewe taught for granted. I even feel like I sinned. If I did I really didn't mean to. I wish there was some way I can make it up to you. But what? I'm thinking about joining the ASPCA thing but I don't know how like wewe do. wewe see, I upendo planet earth too. Just like wewe do. I want to help but I need help myself but who would be willing to help me? I feel useless. wewe are the most popular, successful, and nicest and wonderful man that ever set foot on the planet and me...I'm just a sketch artist, a pianist and a beginners contortionist. Michael, even though this world is a mess, wewe still didn't give up on it. wewe had whatever it took to make the world a better place. And wewe nkow what, I say wewe did make it a better place but without wewe now, what do we do? See what I mean? The fact that you're not here anymore is beating me and beating me so hard and I can't fight back....like I alisema before: even though this world is a mess, wewe still had the courage to change that and make us happy and I have faith in wewe for that along with Christ. Thank you, Michael. And once again, I'm so so very sorry. Please forgive me!!!!! :'(