January 1, 2013,
I was just getting back to Neverland after filming the pilot episode of "my stepbrother is a secret agent" and I'm excited because this new job has way better work hours than my muziki career does. I'm not saying that I'm giving up on muziki but, I do need a break from it for a while and surprisingly my manager Frank took the news very well.
It was just a little after 10 o'clock in the morning when I walked through the front door and Kyle was in the jikoni making pancakes. I walked up behind him and kissed his neck as he alisema "I can already tell that I'm going to like having wewe nyumbani so early every day!" Carter ran into the room and pretty much jumped into my arms with excitement.
I helped Kyle set the meza, jedwali and all of us sat down to eat breakfast. Kyle alisema as he helped Carter cut his pancakes "we have to start thinking about when we're going to tell your family about our engagement. They haven't even seen Neverland since we moved in. I think everyone's long overdue for a visit; don't you?" I alisema "Prince, Blanket, and Paris yes… My other family members not so much! They always cause problems when it is definitely not necessary!" He alisema "just think about it because wewe can't keep them away forever babe!" I alisema "I know that; I just think we should invite them over tomorrow and get all this over with! I'm perfectly fine with having my siblings come over here anytime they want to; even if they wanted to sleep over! I would upendo that!"
January 2, 2013,
Kyle had just walked in carrying four boxes of pizza in his arms when my family members pulled into the driveway. I rolled my eyes and alisema sarcastically "oh joy; this is going to be fun!" I opened up the door and was surprised to see that it was only my aunt Latoya and of my siblings. I alisema as I hugged each of them "I'm a little surprised that grandma didn't at least come!" Aunt Latoya alisema "she couldn't deal with coming here and remembering how happy your dad was when he was living here." I alisema sympathetically "I understand; there's plenty of time for her to visit us!"
As we sat down at the table, I reached for a piece of pizza and Paris noticed my engagement ring. She looked at my aunt and asked "is that a promise ring AJ? Please tell me that's just a promise ring!" I alisema "it's not a promise ring Paris; it's an engagement ring!" Paris alisema almost seeming to be in denial "engagement ring as in engaged to be married?" I alisema "yes; that would be why it's called an engagement ring!" My aunt’s eyes widened as she stared at me with a stunned look on her face. She alisema "engagement ring; really Kyle? Are wewe sure you're ready for such a big commitment at 19 years old?" Kyle responded "if it was any other girl, I wouldn't have proposed so quickly; but I'm truly in upendo with AJ and always will be!" Aunt Latoya asked "you know that Carter's part of the deal if wewe marry AJ right?"
We moved into the living room and Kyle continued the conversation kwa saying "of course I do!" I alisema "Carter calls him daddy and says that he is his daddy!" Aunt Latoya laughed and asked "yeah; but how much of the dirty work that goes along with parenting are wewe doing Kyle?" I alisema "I don't know who told wewe that the two of us aren't good parents! I'm assuming from my uncles… Don't believe everything that they say because they blow everything out of proportion!" She alisema "they told me that Carter still drinks out of a baby bottle and wears diapers!" I alisema "they haven't seen him in months! They don't know what they're talking about! We may be teenage parents; but I think we're doing a pretty good job at it! He doesn't drink from a bottle anymore!" She asked "well; what about the diaper situation?" I alisema "they are completely gone for your information! I would think that wewe out of all people wouldn't believe everything that comes out of some of the family's mouths!" She alisema "it's not that I believed them; it's just that you're just a teenager who doesn't really know anything about parenting."
I furrowed my eyebrows because I was quite offended kwa what my aunt had just alisema and alisema "just because I'm a teenager doesn't mean that I can't figure it out!" She alisema "I didn't mean for that to sound rude." I alisema wanting to let it go "it did sound rude; but that's alright!" Prince asked as he looked at me "you do realize that most of the family is going to flip out about this whole wewe and Kyle getting married thing; right?" I alisema "that's alright; they always complain about something that I do au don't do. I'm used to kwa now!" Paris alisema "I have a feeling that some of them won't come to the wedding just because they want to annoy wewe AJ." I alisema "I really don't care anymore! I've seen firsthand how two-faced they can be and I don't really want to associate with them! I can see why dad kept us a salama distance away from them!" Kyle alisema "all I care about is that I get married to AJ! It doesn't matter what it takes! I know that she is the one for me and other people's opinions don't matter!"
January 3, 2013,
It was barely 7 in the morning when Kyle and I were woken up kwa this loud banging noise coming from outside. Kyle rubbed his eyes and asked "what the hell is that noise babe?" I forced myself out of kitanda and looked out the window. I alisema "YOU'VE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME!!!" Kyle asked "what is it?" I bit my bottom lip in anger as I alisema "my uncles are outside ramming their fucking car into the front gate!" Kyle looked out the window and shook his head in disbelief as I put my slippers on. Kyle asked "where are wewe going?" I asked "where do wewe think I'm going? I'm going to find out what the hell their problem is!" He alisema "I don't think that's a good idea AJ! Maybe I should just call the cops!" I alisema "the cops aren't going to get through to them; they never do! I'm going down there to deal with this myself!" He alisema "then I'm going with wewe to back wewe up!" I quickly looked into Carter's bedroom and noticed that he was still sleeping.
Kyle and I walked up to the front gate outside in our pajamas. Once they saw us coming, my uncles got out of the car and Marlon alisema "you guys better not get married! We totally disapprove of all of this!" Jermaine asked "what are wewe two thinking? wewe guys are only a couple of stupid teenagers!" I alisema "first of all, what the hell are wewe doing ramming into the gate like that? sekunde of all, wewe guys don't really have a lot of room to talk! Each of wewe doesn’t know how to respect a woman!" Randy alisema "yes we do and we know a whole lot zaidi about upendo than wewe do!" I alisema "really? Last time I checked all of wewe have either several failed marriages au a marriage in shambles!" Jackie alisema "if wewe and Kyle go through with this wedding, all of us will be there to protest!" Kyle laughed and alisema "you really think we care about your approval; newsflash we don't!"
I looked at the damage that had been afflicted on the gate and alisema "you guys are going to be paying for this!" Tito alisema "you make millions and millions of dollars; pay for it yourself!" I alisema "if I don't receive a check in the mail from wewe within the inayofuata week, I will be pressing charges for property damage and attempted trespassing!" Jackie alisema "I don't believe you'll actually go through with it; but whatever helps wewe sleep at night!"
They all got back into the car and drove off in the other direction. I looked at Kyle in complete disbelief and asked "are they really that immature?" Kyle alisema "apparently!" I alisema "I know how my dad was with confrontation of any kind and he must've been terrified of my uncles!!! They don't scare me at all and I was being dead serious when I alisema that I'm going to press charges on them if they don’t give me the money to repair the gate! Dad probably would've let them get away with it just to keep the peace; but I'm not like that and they'll learn their lesson quickly! I don't know how many times I have to say au do something until they realize not to mess with me! I'm so sick of the ridiculousness they cause! They are grown men and need to start uigizaji like it because I'm getting fed up with their crap!"
February 11, 2013,
I was sitting in the living room watching TV with Carter while Kyle did some maintenance work on my truck when I got a phone call from Prince. I answered it and asked "what's up? I miss wewe guys!" He alisema "you know my 16th birthday is coming up and I don't really have anything planned. Blanket was thinking of what he would want to do for his 11th birthday and he brought up the idea of hanging out at Neverland to have a sleepover together." I alisema "it's funny that wewe bring that up because I was just talking to Kyle the other siku about having a sleepover with the three of you!" Prince asked "so does that mean Blanket, Paris, and I can sleepover at Neverland?" I alisema "of course; but instead of just staying one night since tomorrow's Friday, wewe guys should just stay for the whole weekend!" I could hear Paris in the background asking "is AJ going to let us stay the night at Neverland? I haven't been there since 2005 and I've been dying to go over there since I found out she owns the ranch!" Prince alisema "the entire weekend is even better! We'll be there around 4 o'clock tomorrow! Thank wewe so much AJ!" I alisema "you don't need to thank me Prince! I miss wewe guys and can't wait to see you! Carter needs help with something; so I have to get off the phone now. I'll see the three of wewe tomorrow." He alisema "okay AJ; we upendo wewe and can't wait to spend the whole weekend at the ranch!"
February 12, 2013,
Kyle had just gotten back from picking up the Chinese chakula we ordered and we were waiting for my siblings to get here; so we could start the weekend long sleep over at Neverland. I opened the front gate from a keypad inside the house as a car pulled up in front of the entrance to the ranch and dropped them off. As I welcomed Blanket, Paris, and Prince inside, I noticed Paris had dramatically changed her appearance from the last time I had seen her. She died her hair black and had it cut in a punk rock style. I stared at her in silence for a few sekunde trying to come up with the right words to say and I alisema "it's a little surprising to see this new side of wewe that I didn't know existed; but I like it!" She thanked me and we all sat down at the meza, jedwali to start eating.
I asked "how are things going for wewe guys over at grandma's?" Blanket alisema "it was really fun in the beginning; but now she's hardly ever around anymore!" I asked "what do wewe mean?" Paris alisema "ever since our uncles and Janet kidnapped her over the summer, they've been watching her like a hawk! I'm assuming wewe saw the video of me and Aunt Janet arguing in the driveway at Havenhurst! She took my phone away when I tried to reach out for help when we hadn't heard from grandma in a few days! I was really worried about her; Prince and I both were!" Prince alisema "I was going to call wewe AJ; but there's not much wewe can do from halfway around the world!" I alisema "you still could've called me! I told wewe that if wewe ever needed anything that I would be there for you; no matter what!" Paris alisema "I am so sick of all this drama! The biggest reason we wanted to come over here was to get away from the rest of the family!" I alisema "I know how wewe feel because they had been harassing Kyle and me ever since they found out about the two of us planning to get married! They leave nasty notes in the mailbox and try to scare us with their threats." Prince alisema "it's probably only going to get worse after wewe two get married! All they do when they come over to our house is complain about wewe and Kyle! It's really starting to make me mad!" I asked "why; what do they say about me and Kyle?" Prince alisema "they say that you're really immature and that Kyle doesn't know the real side of who wewe are AJ!" Kyle alisema "they don't even know what they're talking about! I can guarantee wewe that I know zaidi about AJ then all of them combined!" I alisema "they only see what they want to see! They bring out the anger in me! Very few people can make me that mad!" Paris alisema "after wewe pressed charges on them for damage to the front gate and attempted trespassing, they flipped out! It was only a $500 fine au they could have fought wewe in court over it! I couldn't believe they actually thought about taking it to court instead of paying 500 bucks! It would've only been $100 each for them to pay the fine equally! I don't understand why they would want to make a big deal out of nothing!" I alisema "it's because they just want to get as much money as they can from me! That's the only motive they have and that's all they care about!" Kyle alisema "I really hope that wewe guys try to stay away from them as much is possible because they are up to no good!" I alisema "alright; enough with all this drama; let's have some fun!"
I started to onyesha them around the house and Prince noticed the grand kinanda sitting in the corner of the living room. He asked "is that the same kinanda that was here when we all lived here?" I alisema "yes; it is!" He ran his fingers across the keys and alisema "I remember that all of us would sit on the floor while dad played us some songs a little while before we went to bed." I alisema "yeah; and wewe and I would argue over who would sit on his lap! I've kind of forgotten all the songs that daddy taught me when I was little." Blanket alisema "I wish I wasn't three years old when we moved out of here because I don't really remember anything dad did with us here." I alisema "that's alright Blanket; I bet wewe still have a lot of fun memories with daddy in the other places we lived in together!" He alisema "I still have some memories; but I'm forgetting most of them because I was only seven when he died!" I alisema after thinking about it for a few dakika "follow me wewe guys; I have an idea!"
Blanket, Prince, Paris, Carter, Kyle, and I all walked down from the main house to the personal movie theater that was on the ranch. Kyle and I haven't set foot inside it since we moved to the ranch and this seemed like the perfect excuse too! We walked inside and saw the concession stand that the few staff members I hired a couple of weeks zamani had stalked full of candy. The popcorn machine was already running and the buttery smell filled the air around us. Blanket asked "this was really our own movie theater AJ? I alisema "yeah; it's pretty cool!" Paris asked "why did wewe want to bring us to the movie theater?" I opened a nearby door and we walked into the screening room. Kyle sat down with Carter on his lap and helped him open up a package of sour, wamekula gummy worms.
10 dakika later, I came in carrying a huge stack of videotapes and Blanket asked "what are wewe doing AJ?" I alisema "you'll see in a minute" as I popped a videotape into the VHS machine that was installed in the wall. I sat down in the chair inayofuata to Prince and a nyumbani video started playing.
*In the nyumbani video, dated at the bottom of the screen February 18, 2001*
Dad, Prince, and I were all sitting on the couch. I asked "daddy; why do wewe have to leave tomorrow?" He responded as he looked down at me "you know I have to work AJ. I wish I could stay every single day; but I do have to leave every once in a while to make money." Prince alisema "I'm going to miss wewe too much daddy! I don't want wewe to leave!" Dad alisema "I know apple head; but I have to! You're going to have fun here with Grace; I promise!" I alisema "you always say that we'll have fun while you're gone; but we never do! It's so much zaidi fun when you're nyumbani daddy au when wewe take us with wewe on your trips!" He alisema "I know AJ; but I can't always take wewe with me; especially because there are three of wewe now and I can't leave Prince and Paris behind!" I alisema "I know; I'm just going to miss wewe tucking me into kitanda every night and playing hide and seek!" He alisema "I'm only going to be gone for three days and then I'll be back!" I asked "you're still going to help me get ready for kitanda tonight; right? He alisema "I always do!"
The video cuts off for a few sekunde and then continues onto onyesha dad lying inayofuata to me in my bed. I asked "am I going to be able to see wewe tomorrow morning before wewe leave?" He alisema "I don't think so sweetheart because I'm leaving really early in the morning!" I asked "daddy; can I ask wewe something?" He alisema "of course wewe can!" I asked "what's it like to be in love?" He had a surprised look on his face that such a big swali could come from a six-year-old. He pondered it back and forth in his mind for a few dakika before saying "it depends on what kind of upendo you're asking about." I asked "what kinds of upendo are there?" He alisema "well; there's upendo like what I have for wewe and your brother and sister. Like the way a mommy au daddy loves their children. Then there's puppy love." I alisema "I know what wewe mean; like when a boy dog and a girl dog upendo each other!" He chuckled and alisema "no; that's not what puppy upendo is! puppy upendo is when two young people think they might upendo each other." I alisema "oh; are there any zaidi kinds of love?" He alisema "there is one more." I asked "what's it called?" He responded after waiting a few sekunde "true love." I asked "how do wewe know the difference between true upendo and regular love?" He alisema "trust me; when the time comes you'll know the difference! You'll just be able to tell! Why are wewe asking me all these maswali about love?" I alisema "I don't know; I was just wondering." He alisema after lightly pecking my lips "oh okay; just as long as wewe don't go out and fall in upendo with any boys anytime soon! Your daddy's little girl and if it were up to me wewe wouldn't tarehe any boys until wewe turned 50 years old!"
*Video ends*
I definitely understand what true upendo is supposed to feel like now because I'm truly in upendo with Kyle. It's funny how dad just knew that someday I would figure this whole being in upendo thing out! I put another videotape in the VHS and pressed play.
*In the video dated at the bottom of the screen March 1, 1999*
Dad looks directly into the camera and says "hello world; I just want to onyesha wewe what I have to deal with on a daily basis." He points the camera in my direction and asks "do wewe know why you're in timeout this time AJ? I alisema "I don't care! Shut up; wewe stupid daddy!" He sternly alisema "stop that right now! wewe don't tell me to shut up au call me stupid; that's not nice at all!" I started taking off one of my shoes and pretended like I was going to throw it at him. He alisema "don't even think about it AJ!" I laughed as I threw my left shoe directly into the camera lens and just barely missing his face. He asked "why would wewe do that AJ?" I stuck my tongue out at him and alisema "because wewe told me not to; that's why!" He sighed with frustration and alisema "it doesn't matter how many times I put wewe in the corner; it always turns into a battle! Do I need to go over there and hold wewe on my lap until wewe calm down?" I alisema "I AM CALMED DOWN!!!" He alisema "no you're not and what did I tell wewe about yelling in this house? Do we yell here?" I alisema "NO!!!" He calmly asked "then why are wewe still yelling at me Alanna?" I alisema "BECAUSE wewe WON'T LET ME OUT OF TIMEOUT!!!" He alisema "you yelling at me won't get wewe any closer to being out of Timeout! wewe know that yelling at me isn't going to bother me AJ."
I started crying and he alisema "that's not going to work anymore either!" I alisema "you're a mean daddy!" He alisema "that's not a nice thing to say to me. Do wewe realize that if wewe just calm down wewe would already be out of the corner?" I alisema "JUST SHUT UP DADDY!!!" He alisema "stop telling me to shut up Alanna Michael Jackson! I hope you're not in timeout for three hours straight like wewe were earlier."
*Video ends*
Prince alisema "I can't believe wewe use to talk to dad like that!" Paris alisema "yeah I know AJ; and then wewe threw your shoe at daddy's head!" I alisema "I used to be really out of control; but since I had Carter I have calmed down a lot! I've only gotten into a few fights since then and try my best to avoid situations where I would have to fight. Before, I would go looking for someone to start a fight with; just so I could prove that I was stronger than them! I hate to say it but, I think the fact that dad isn't physically here anymore has caused me to grow up a lot just because he isn't there to protect me from a bad situation that I put myself in anymore!"
February 13, 2013,
We were all sitting around the meza, jedwali eating the birthday cake I bought for Prince and I alisema "so little brother; I saw the picture of the police officer uandishi wewe a ticket for the way wewe parked one of the cars!" He laughed and alisema "cut me some slack AJ; this whole driving thing is new to me!" I alisema "I know; I just like messing with you!" He asked "I still have to finish a few zaidi hours of driving with an adult in the car before I can go for my official driving test and I was wondering if wewe would ride around with me in the car today?" I alisema "sure; Kyle will wewe stay here with my brother and sister and Carter while I go with Prince?" He alisema "that's fine babe; I don't know what all of us are going to do; but we'll have fun!" Carter alisema "daddy; can we go swimming in the pool?" Paris alisema "that sounds like fun!" I alisema "alright; wewe guys have fun! Prince and I will be back in a few hours."
Prince climbed into the driver’s kiti, kiti cha in my truck and I sat inayofuata to him in the passenger's seat. I alisema "you better not crash my truck because you'll never hear me forgive you!" Prince looked at me horrified and I alisema “I’m joking! There's no pressure!" He took a sigh of relief and started the truck. As we drove many roads in Santa Barbara, we started to make small talk. Prince asked "so how do wewe like being an adult?" I alisema "it doesn't really feel any different to me because ever since grandma kicked me out of her house Kyle and I have pretty much been doing everything on our own. It's definitely weird paying bills and signing documents; but I like having the responsibility. I don't have to depend on other people anymore to make sure that things get done!" He alisema "grandma really misses wewe and started to regret making wewe leave. I think she realizes now that wewe live at Neverland with Kyle and Carter that wewe will never songesha back into her house! I think she knows that dad would have been disappointed in both her and wewe for letting it get to the point where wewe need to be on your own pretty much at 17 years old. Dad would never let wewe go out on your own at that age; let alone take Carter with you! Grandma felt really badly for that and worried about wewe for days on end until Aunt Latoya called her and told her that the three of wewe were staying with her." I alisema "I was never really mad at grandma for kicking me out. Sure, I was mad in the moment; but that's part of my oppositional defiance disorder. I know I deserved to be kicked out of the house because she did warn me about anything going on between Kyle and I. Honestly, I felt really stupid about it afterwards! I wasn't really worried about myself; I was zaidi worried about Carter!" Prince alisema "I was really mad at uncle Jermaine for threatening to bring drake to the pound if wewe didn't come to pick him up! I actually ended up getting into an argument with him about it! I'm not usually the type to challenge the adults; but that was totally uncalled for!" I alisema "I'm completely fine with wewe guys stepping out into the spotlight a little bit; I just don't want it to get in the way of your education because that's what's most important right now! I saw Paris on the Ellen onyesha and heard that you're conducting an interview for entertainment tonight!" Prince alisema "Blanket isn't really handling not having wewe living with us that well! Even though he is 11, he cries for wewe almost every night when he's in his room kwa himself! I go in there and asking what's wrong; but all he'll tell me is that he misses daddy even zaidi now that he doesn't see wewe every day!" I alisema "well; anytime wewe guys want to come see me and hang out is fine with me! I get off of work from filming the Nickelodeon onyesha around noon most days." He alisema "once I get my license we'll visit wewe a lot more! I don't really like asking people to drive us over to your house because all they do is complain about you!" I alisema "don't pay any attention to them Prince; they aren't worth it!" He alisema "it's almost like they forget that you’re my older sister and they criticize wewe right in front of us! They don't even care about our opinions and the worst part is that they don't even really know us! They may think they do; but they don't!" I alisema "let them talk bad about me all they want because I don't care and I never will! The only people whose opinion matters to me are Kyle, my siblings, Carter, and dad!"
We pulled back into the driveway at Neverland and got out of the truck. Prince and I walked out to the backyard where the swimming pool is. I sat down on the edge of the pool and let my feet hang over the side into the water. Blanket, Kyle, Paris, and Carter noticed us and I chuckled at how cute Carter looked swimming around with his little Spiderman lifejacket on! Kyle lifted Blanket up and tossed him halfway across the pool. Blanket alisema as he resurfaced to the juu of the water "you should come in AJ!" Carter alisema "yeah mommy; wewe should come in!" I alisema "I think I'm okay up here for now." Kyle asked "Carter; do wewe want me to make mommy get in the pool?" Carter alisema "yeah daddy; but how are wewe going to do that?" He alisema "you'll see" as he looked at me with a mischievous gleam in his eyes. He climbed out of the pool and slowly walked up to me as I laughed. I alisema "you wouldn't dare!" He chuckled and alisema "oh; but I would!" I walked backwards and alisema as I put my arms up to block him from grabbed me "I have a pair of $200 jeans on; don't!" I bumped into Prince as I continuously walked backwards and he playfully pushed me towards Kyle. As Kyle picked me up, I shouted "no, no, no!" I started laughing uncontrollably and grabbed onto Prince's shati as I alisema "if I'm going in then you're going in with me!"
I pulled Prince just barely inside the pool before Kyle tossed me with all his might across to the deep end. I came up for air and alisema "you are so dead Kyle!" I climbed out of the pool and went over to where Paris was sitting drying off of the towel. Paris asked "you really are in upendo with Kyle; aren't you?" I alisema "of course I am! I wouldn't have taken the engagement ring if I wasn't!" She alisema "I can honestly say that I've never seen wewe so happy in my life! Kyle is such a great guy and any guy who would father a child that isn't biologically his is amazing to me!" I alisema "yeah; I know and that's what I wish other people would see!" She alisema "while wewe were gone with Prince I finally got to see what wewe were talking about! He got Carter dressed to go swimming, made sure that he ate enough of his lunch, and he even helped Carter wipe his nose when he sneezed everywhere earlier! He is the only guy I know besides dad that wouldn't hesitate to clean up boogers!" I alisema "I know; it almost makes the want to cry because that should be Damien! Trust me, I couldn't care less if I ever saw Damien again; but at least Carter has Kyle! It's sad to think that the only father that he's ever known isn't even his father! I just don't want him to know about Damien yet because I don't want him to get his hopes up that Damien will be there! Kyle already does everything that any good daddy would do! I couldn't ask for a better fiancé if I picked him out myself! He watches Carter all siku for me while I'm out living my dream! He picks up chakula for me and brings it to me at work! He gives Carter a bath four nights a week because we agreed to mgawanyiko, baidisha that evenly! He cleans up everything and anything that Carter does au plays with; including things that most fathers wouldn't even go near au want anything to do with! I just upendo Kyle so much; it's the kind of upendo that wewe can't even describe!" Paris alisema "I think if daddy was here he would totally approve of wewe getting married to Kyle; even if wewe guys are only a couple of teenagers!" I asked" just out of curiosity; what if instead of Kyle and me getting married it was Damien? What do wewe think dad would say?" She alisema "dad would have a total freak out! He hated Damien for all the pain that he caused you! I'm so glad that wewe realized that Damien wasn't good for wewe au Carter! I agree with wewe on Kyle; I think he's the perfect guy for wewe and Carter!"
February 14, 2013,
I had just gotten nyumbani from work, after an extra-long siku and was just happy to be able to relax. It was 9 o'clock at night when I walked through the front door of the house and all the lights were off. I turned them on and walked upstairs. I glanced over in Carter's room and noticed that he was asleep. I walked into his room and turned the TV off after kissing the juu of his head which was still wet from taking a bath earlier. I shut the door as I left the room and went down to our bedroom.
I turned on the light and saw Kyle sitting on the edge of the kitanda with rose petals surrounding him. He alisema "happy Valentine's siku babe! I know wewe don't really like romantic holidays like this; but I wanted to do something special!" I kissed his lips as I sat down inayofuata to him on the bed. I went to grab the box of condoms that was sitting on juu of the dresser and he alisema "you know AJ; we don't really need to use those!" I asked with a confused look on my face "why; I thought this whole romantic thing was to get me in the mood and it's working! wewe didn't really have to do all this to make me want to!" He alisema "that's not what I meant! Obviously I want to have sex with wewe because it's Valentine's siku and I upendo you! What I meant was that we don't need to use the condoms!" I alisema "but; if we don't use them there is chance that wewe could get me pregnant!" He alisema "that's the whole point AJ; I want to have a baby with you!" I alisema "whoa; slow down Kyle! We aren't even married yet!" He alisema "so; let's go get married at the courthouse in a couple days!" I asked "what's gotten into you? Why do wewe want to do all this so suddenly?" He alisema "your uncles came kwa the ranch again this morning and spray-painted the sign outside. I say that wewe and I just go get married as soon as possible. We can still have the big wedding in a few zaidi years; but this way everyone will know that we were serious when we alisema that we were getting married and maybe they'll leave us alone!" I alisema "actually, that doesn't sound like such a bad idea after all! Instead of doing the whole thing with a priest, we should just save all of that for the big wedding. wewe and I can just go down to the courthouse for now and sign a marriage license that states that we are legally married just so my uncles can't try to sabotage anything anymore!" He alisema "sounds good to me; just as long as the family knows that we will eventually have a huge ceremony like a normal wedding when we have zaidi time!" I alisema "the people that matter will understand where we're coming from! I would never leave them out of the real marriage! This is just the paperwork that says that were married; not an important wedding! I would never leave any of them out of that!"
February 17, 2013,
We just left the courthouse after signing our marriage license, and we are headed over to my grandmother's house to tell everyone. We pulled into the driveway and I asked "are wewe ready for this… Husband?" Kyle laughed and alisema "you're so cheesy! Yes I'm ready for this… Wife!" I held Carter's hand as he walked inside and the entire family was waiting for us. Uncle Randy alisema "I heard wewe have an announcement to make.” I alisema as I took a deep breath "Kyle and I got married."
Just like I thought they would, they immediately erupted into a barrage of screaming and protest. Uncle Jermaine asked "what do wewe mean wewe guys got married? I thought wewe were going to have a wedding!" I alisema "we are; just not right now because I'm too busy with work to plan a wedding! We just went down to the courthouse and signed our marriage license; that's all! We are saving all the special stuff for the big wedding ceremony in a couple of years!" Grandma smiled and alisema "I really don't understand why your uncles are being so immature about this! I'm happy for wewe and Kyle!" Jackie asked as he raised his voice at my grandmother "how can wewe be happy for them? This is the stupidest thing they have done! Michael would be flipping out right now if he was here!" Kyle alisema softly "actually; AJ and I went to a psychic to get Michael's approval on the marriage and he was okay with it!" Uncle Tito alisema "all that psychic stuff is fake and wewe are just using that as an excuse!" Paris alisema at the juu of her lungs trying to overpower the screaming that was going on in the room "EVERYBODY JUST BE QUIET! WHY CAN'T wewe JUST BE HAPPY FOR AJ? EVERYTHING CAN'T ALWAYS BE ABOUT wewe GUYS!" She ran upstairs and I ran after her.
I followed Paris into her bedroom and shut the door behind me. She had tears in her eyes and her mascara was running down her face. I looked at her sympathetically and alisema "it's alright Paris! I don't give a shit about what they think!" I alisema down on the kitanda inayofuata to her and put my arm around her as she alisema "I hate it when our uncles come over here! It's always so stressful because all they want to do is start drama! I don't know why they like to pick on wewe so much; I don't get it! What did wewe ever do to them to deserve that?" I alisema "it's not about what I did to them; it's about what I have! They are just jealous of my success and I guarantee wewe that if I passed each of them $1000 that they would totally be with us being married! All they care about is money Paris! That's all they'll ever care about!" She alisema "I'm so excited that wewe and Kyle are married! I know that dad would be excited too! It's funny because dad would always joke around when we were little about wewe and Kyle getting married someday!" I laughed and alisema "it's pretty ironic that me and Kyle are actually married now!"
May, 7, 2013,
Kyle and I are slowly settling into married life and it's actually pretty easy to use to! We were upstairs getting ready for kitanda and Kyle was in the bathroom that is in our bedroom brushing his teeth. I looked in from the spot where I was laying in bed. He laid down on the kitanda and I alisema "now that we're married; I've been thinking about this whole baby thing and I think we should go ahead and start trying to get pregnant." He alisema in an excited tone "finally; let's start now!"
June 13, 2013,
There is a knock on the front door of Neverland and I went up to answer it. It was my grandmother with my siblings. I invited them inside and we went into the living room where Carter was watching TV with Kyle. They all sat down on the kitanda with us and my grandmother alisema "I just want to apologize to wewe for the way that your uncles acted when wewe announced everything with the marriage license." I alisema "you don't need to apologize to me grandma; I know that you're scared of them and that they intimidate you!" She alisema "I upendo you, Kyle, and Carter! I don't have a problem at all with wewe to getting married with a marriage license for now and then the ceremony later! I can completely see that wewe two are in love!"
Carter interrupted the conversation kwa saying something that absolutely embarrassed me beyond belief. He asked right in front of everyone "mommy; how come daddy makes wewe scream at night when you're in your room with him?" Kyle looked at me with a mortified look on his face and I started to blush. I alisema "oh my God; this is embarrassing!" Grandma immediately burst out laughing as I turned bright red. She alisema "so I guess that swali from Carter means that wewe and Kyle just might be ready for another baby?" I alisema as I continued to blush "possibly; I'm still stuck on the fact that Carter was awake all those times and heard Kyle and I!" Kyle alisema "I guess we automatically assume that he will be sleeping when we decide to try because it's usually midnight!" I alisema wanting to change the subject away from the sex life between Kyle and I "I have to go to work soon so; wewe guys might want to leave!"
After they left, Kyle looked at me and then Carter asked "daddy; how come wewe make mommy scream like that?" Kyle alisema completely at a loss for words "ummm; mommy and I are just watching scary sinema together in our bedroom. We don't wake wewe up; do we?" Carter responded "not really; I get up to go to my potty in the middle of the night and I can hear mommy screaming. I thought wewe were hurting her daddy." I forced back laughter and alisema "don't worry buddy; daddy would never hurt me! Daddy and I just watch some really scary sinema at night and it makes me scream really loud." Carter alisema "oh okay then; just as long as you're not hurting mommy daddy!" He ran off upstairs and Kyle and I both took a sigh of relief. Kyle alisema "oh my God AJ! wewe and I need to be zaidi careful about making sure Carter's asleep!" I alisema "I'm just glad that he didn't decide to walk in on us! That would have terrified him! I'm locking our bedroom door from now on; so at least he will have to knock! I've never been so embarrassed in my life!" Kyle alisema "tell me about it! We just had our son describe the noises that he hears wewe and I making while we're being intimate to your 80-year-old grandmother and little siblings!" Afterwards, Kyle and I couldn't help but laugh at the awkward situation our son had created!
August 5, 2013,
I stood in the bathroom and tossed yet another negative pregnancy test into the trashcan which was now overflowing with the past pregnancy tests I have taken. I walked out of the bathroom and Kyle could tell kwa the expression on my face that it wasn't successful. I threw my hands up in the air as I sat down inayofuata to him on the kitanda and alisema "I don't get it! It was so easy for me to get pregnant the first time! wewe and I have literally had sex every night for the past five months and still nothing! I wonder if something is wrong with me!" He alisema "maybe wewe should just make a doctor’s appointment just to be sure that nothing's wrong babe!" I alisema "I'll see if the doctor can fit me in for an appointment tomorrow morning before I go to work. I hope nothing's wrong with me that stopping me from getting pregnant!"
August 6, 2013,
Kyle and I sat there in a hospital room waiting for the results of the tests the doctor performed on me. Thankfully, Prince and Paris are still off from school for the summer and agreed to watch Carter during my appointment. Kyle and I were both worried because it was taking the doctor a really long time to come back into the room.
After 20 dakika of waiting, Dr. Simpson came back into the room and alisema "every single test I ran on wewe came back negative. There should be no reason why wewe yourself can't become pregnant. You've obviously had a child before; so your eggs looked perfectly fine to me. Do wewe mind if I do some blood work on wewe Kyle?" He alisema "I don't see why not." She ran some tests down to the lab and we were once again left waiting in the hospital room for the results.
Dr. Simpson came back into the room and alisema "I've never seen this in a 19 mwaka old before!" Kyle and I both asked in unison "what is it?" She responded "from everything that I can tell from the tests… You're almost completely sterol Kyle. wewe only have a 5% chance of getting AJ pregnant with your own equipment; if that's what wewe want to call it!" Kyle just looked at me and bolted out of the room. I alisema as I looked at Dr. Simpson "I better go after him; thanks for making time for my appointment."
I ran outside to the parking lot and saw Kyle sitting on the curb trying his best not to cry. I sat down inayofuata to him and alisema "there's still that 5% chance that wewe could get me pregnant naturally. We can keep trying if wewe want to!" He asked "what's the point? I'm not real man according to what the doctor just alisema in there!" I put my arm around him and alisema "just because wewe can’t get me pregnant with your own stuff doesn't make wewe any less of a man than wewe are in my eyes!" He asked "what makes wewe say that babe?" I alisema "think about it; it takes a real man to be a father to a child that isn't even biologically his! wewe gave up your dream of being a mechanic just so I could live my dream! That's way zaidi than Damien would ever do for Carter au me if I was with him instead of you!" Kyle asked "you really wouldn't upendo me any less? Even if wewe and I can never physically create a child together?" I alisema "of course I would still upendo wewe as much as I do now! I upendo wewe for wewe and that other stuff has nothing to do with it! Besides; just think of how much money we'll save because we really don't need condoms anymore!" Kyle smirked and alisema "yeah; that's always a good thing!" I alisema "if wewe want to keep trying to get me pregnant, I'm cool with that because in end if it doesn't work it was a real good excuse to mess around with wewe even zaidi than usual!" The two of us rolled around on the ground laughing and he alisema "you can always manage to cheer me up; no matter what's going on!"
September 15, 2013,
I came downstairs carrying my cell phone in my hand and Kyle asked "why do wewe look so depressed?" I alisema "that was one of the producers of the Nickelodeon onyesha that I'm part of and he just called to tell me that the onyesha is canceled because of bad ratings." Kyle asked "so what happens now?" I alisema "I guess I go back to finishing my sekunde album that was supposed to be released. Then I will probably have to go on tour again; hopefully this time worldwide!" He alisema "well; I'll be here to support wewe with whatever wewe need while you're in the studio au promoting the album when it's released." I alisema "thanks; I don't think we've had so many depressing things happen to us this close together before!" He alisema "the good thing is that it can't get any worse than it already is!"
After talking with Frank on the phone about heading into the studio tomorrow to finish working on the album that I never completed, I sat there in the living room staring off into space. I noticed out of the corner of my eye that a police officer was walking up to the front gate. I got off the kitanda and opened the gate from the keypad inside and he knocked on the door to the house. I answered it and he alisema "hello; I've been asked to deliver this mandated court appearance paperwork to your house.” I wrinkled my eyebrows with a puzzled look on my face and shut the door as he walked away.
I opened the machungwa, chungwa envelope and pulled out an official court document that alisema "petition for custody" across the top. Underneath that, I read" the father stated as Damien Adam Hayes is issuing wewe Alanna Michael Jackson with a petition to the court of Santa Barbara County for partial custody and/or visitation with the child hereby stated as Carter Shawn Jackson. wewe have four months to decide if wewe would like to settle this out-of-court kwa way of mediation au if wewe would like to appeal the above father's ability to adequately care for the child. – Thank wewe for your time, Judge Marion Anderson
I shook my head in disbelief as tears began to well in my eyes. I ran upstairs and shut the bathroom door faster than Kyle could even notice. A few dakika later, he heard me sobbing and leaned up against the door. He asked "what's wrong AJ?" I alisema "come in here!" He opened the door and sat down on the closed toilet kiti, kiti cha as he looked down at me. I curled myself up into a ball and had my head buried in the juu of my needs as I sobbed uncontrollably. Kyle asked "what's going on?" I managed to force out the words "Damien wants to fight me for custody au visitation over Carter!" Kyle alisema "I thought Damien didn't care if he ever saw Carter again!" I alisema "that's the thing; Damien doesn't care about Carter! He's only doing it to spite me because I am a lot better off financially than he is! I think he thinks that if we evenly shared 50-50 custody of Carter then I would have to pay him some sort of child support for the time he would have Carter! I think I really would have to pay child support if he won 50-50 custody of Carter!" Kyle alisema "even though I've never met Damien, I hate him! That's really immature of him to use Carter to get money from you!" I alisema "I don't even care about the money! I care about Carter! I don't want him to get attached to Damien all because Damien will pretend like he cares about him for the first few months and then decide to just not onyesha up one siku when Carter is waiting for him!" Kyle alisema "I understand why wewe want to protect Carter from being hurt emotionally kwa Damien and I highly doubt with Damien's past he will be awarded any type of custody! I think the most the courts would be willing to give him is supervised visitation! Don't worry AJ; we're going to fight this in court! We can't let Damien get any time alone with Carter because there's no telling what he would do just to get money out of you!!!"
I was just getting back to Neverland after filming the pilot episode of "my stepbrother is a secret agent" and I'm excited because this new job has way better work hours than my muziki career does. I'm not saying that I'm giving up on muziki but, I do need a break from it for a while and surprisingly my manager Frank took the news very well.
It was just a little after 10 o'clock in the morning when I walked through the front door and Kyle was in the jikoni making pancakes. I walked up behind him and kissed his neck as he alisema "I can already tell that I'm going to like having wewe nyumbani so early every day!" Carter ran into the room and pretty much jumped into my arms with excitement.
I helped Kyle set the meza, jedwali and all of us sat down to eat breakfast. Kyle alisema as he helped Carter cut his pancakes "we have to start thinking about when we're going to tell your family about our engagement. They haven't even seen Neverland since we moved in. I think everyone's long overdue for a visit; don't you?" I alisema "Prince, Blanket, and Paris yes… My other family members not so much! They always cause problems when it is definitely not necessary!" He alisema "just think about it because wewe can't keep them away forever babe!" I alisema "I know that; I just think we should invite them over tomorrow and get all this over with! I'm perfectly fine with having my siblings come over here anytime they want to; even if they wanted to sleep over! I would upendo that!"
January 2, 2013,
Kyle had just walked in carrying four boxes of pizza in his arms when my family members pulled into the driveway. I rolled my eyes and alisema sarcastically "oh joy; this is going to be fun!" I opened up the door and was surprised to see that it was only my aunt Latoya and of my siblings. I alisema as I hugged each of them "I'm a little surprised that grandma didn't at least come!" Aunt Latoya alisema "she couldn't deal with coming here and remembering how happy your dad was when he was living here." I alisema sympathetically "I understand; there's plenty of time for her to visit us!"
As we sat down at the table, I reached for a piece of pizza and Paris noticed my engagement ring. She looked at my aunt and asked "is that a promise ring AJ? Please tell me that's just a promise ring!" I alisema "it's not a promise ring Paris; it's an engagement ring!" Paris alisema almost seeming to be in denial "engagement ring as in engaged to be married?" I alisema "yes; that would be why it's called an engagement ring!" My aunt’s eyes widened as she stared at me with a stunned look on her face. She alisema "engagement ring; really Kyle? Are wewe sure you're ready for such a big commitment at 19 years old?" Kyle responded "if it was any other girl, I wouldn't have proposed so quickly; but I'm truly in upendo with AJ and always will be!" Aunt Latoya asked "you know that Carter's part of the deal if wewe marry AJ right?"
We moved into the living room and Kyle continued the conversation kwa saying "of course I do!" I alisema "Carter calls him daddy and says that he is his daddy!" Aunt Latoya laughed and asked "yeah; but how much of the dirty work that goes along with parenting are wewe doing Kyle?" I alisema "I don't know who told wewe that the two of us aren't good parents! I'm assuming from my uncles… Don't believe everything that they say because they blow everything out of proportion!" She alisema "they told me that Carter still drinks out of a baby bottle and wears diapers!" I alisema "they haven't seen him in months! They don't know what they're talking about! We may be teenage parents; but I think we're doing a pretty good job at it! He doesn't drink from a bottle anymore!" She asked "well; what about the diaper situation?" I alisema "they are completely gone for your information! I would think that wewe out of all people wouldn't believe everything that comes out of some of the family's mouths!" She alisema "it's not that I believed them; it's just that you're just a teenager who doesn't really know anything about parenting."
I furrowed my eyebrows because I was quite offended kwa what my aunt had just alisema and alisema "just because I'm a teenager doesn't mean that I can't figure it out!" She alisema "I didn't mean for that to sound rude." I alisema wanting to let it go "it did sound rude; but that's alright!" Prince asked as he looked at me "you do realize that most of the family is going to flip out about this whole wewe and Kyle getting married thing; right?" I alisema "that's alright; they always complain about something that I do au don't do. I'm used to kwa now!" Paris alisema "I have a feeling that some of them won't come to the wedding just because they want to annoy wewe AJ." I alisema "I really don't care anymore! I've seen firsthand how two-faced they can be and I don't really want to associate with them! I can see why dad kept us a salama distance away from them!" Kyle alisema "all I care about is that I get married to AJ! It doesn't matter what it takes! I know that she is the one for me and other people's opinions don't matter!"
January 3, 2013,
It was barely 7 in the morning when Kyle and I were woken up kwa this loud banging noise coming from outside. Kyle rubbed his eyes and asked "what the hell is that noise babe?" I forced myself out of kitanda and looked out the window. I alisema "YOU'VE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME!!!" Kyle asked "what is it?" I bit my bottom lip in anger as I alisema "my uncles are outside ramming their fucking car into the front gate!" Kyle looked out the window and shook his head in disbelief as I put my slippers on. Kyle asked "where are wewe going?" I asked "where do wewe think I'm going? I'm going to find out what the hell their problem is!" He alisema "I don't think that's a good idea AJ! Maybe I should just call the cops!" I alisema "the cops aren't going to get through to them; they never do! I'm going down there to deal with this myself!" He alisema "then I'm going with wewe to back wewe up!" I quickly looked into Carter's bedroom and noticed that he was still sleeping.
Kyle and I walked up to the front gate outside in our pajamas. Once they saw us coming, my uncles got out of the car and Marlon alisema "you guys better not get married! We totally disapprove of all of this!" Jermaine asked "what are wewe two thinking? wewe guys are only a couple of stupid teenagers!" I alisema "first of all, what the hell are wewe doing ramming into the gate like that? sekunde of all, wewe guys don't really have a lot of room to talk! Each of wewe doesn’t know how to respect a woman!" Randy alisema "yes we do and we know a whole lot zaidi about upendo than wewe do!" I alisema "really? Last time I checked all of wewe have either several failed marriages au a marriage in shambles!" Jackie alisema "if wewe and Kyle go through with this wedding, all of us will be there to protest!" Kyle laughed and alisema "you really think we care about your approval; newsflash we don't!"
I looked at the damage that had been afflicted on the gate and alisema "you guys are going to be paying for this!" Tito alisema "you make millions and millions of dollars; pay for it yourself!" I alisema "if I don't receive a check in the mail from wewe within the inayofuata week, I will be pressing charges for property damage and attempted trespassing!" Jackie alisema "I don't believe you'll actually go through with it; but whatever helps wewe sleep at night!"
They all got back into the car and drove off in the other direction. I looked at Kyle in complete disbelief and asked "are they really that immature?" Kyle alisema "apparently!" I alisema "I know how my dad was with confrontation of any kind and he must've been terrified of my uncles!!! They don't scare me at all and I was being dead serious when I alisema that I'm going to press charges on them if they don’t give me the money to repair the gate! Dad probably would've let them get away with it just to keep the peace; but I'm not like that and they'll learn their lesson quickly! I don't know how many times I have to say au do something until they realize not to mess with me! I'm so sick of the ridiculousness they cause! They are grown men and need to start uigizaji like it because I'm getting fed up with their crap!"
February 11, 2013,
I was sitting in the living room watching TV with Carter while Kyle did some maintenance work on my truck when I got a phone call from Prince. I answered it and asked "what's up? I miss wewe guys!" He alisema "you know my 16th birthday is coming up and I don't really have anything planned. Blanket was thinking of what he would want to do for his 11th birthday and he brought up the idea of hanging out at Neverland to have a sleepover together." I alisema "it's funny that wewe bring that up because I was just talking to Kyle the other siku about having a sleepover with the three of you!" Prince asked "so does that mean Blanket, Paris, and I can sleepover at Neverland?" I alisema "of course; but instead of just staying one night since tomorrow's Friday, wewe guys should just stay for the whole weekend!" I could hear Paris in the background asking "is AJ going to let us stay the night at Neverland? I haven't been there since 2005 and I've been dying to go over there since I found out she owns the ranch!" Prince alisema "the entire weekend is even better! We'll be there around 4 o'clock tomorrow! Thank wewe so much AJ!" I alisema "you don't need to thank me Prince! I miss wewe guys and can't wait to see you! Carter needs help with something; so I have to get off the phone now. I'll see the three of wewe tomorrow." He alisema "okay AJ; we upendo wewe and can't wait to spend the whole weekend at the ranch!"
February 12, 2013,
Kyle had just gotten back from picking up the Chinese chakula we ordered and we were waiting for my siblings to get here; so we could start the weekend long sleep over at Neverland. I opened the front gate from a keypad inside the house as a car pulled up in front of the entrance to the ranch and dropped them off. As I welcomed Blanket, Paris, and Prince inside, I noticed Paris had dramatically changed her appearance from the last time I had seen her. She died her hair black and had it cut in a punk rock style. I stared at her in silence for a few sekunde trying to come up with the right words to say and I alisema "it's a little surprising to see this new side of wewe that I didn't know existed; but I like it!" She thanked me and we all sat down at the meza, jedwali to start eating.
I asked "how are things going for wewe guys over at grandma's?" Blanket alisema "it was really fun in the beginning; but now she's hardly ever around anymore!" I asked "what do wewe mean?" Paris alisema "ever since our uncles and Janet kidnapped her over the summer, they've been watching her like a hawk! I'm assuming wewe saw the video of me and Aunt Janet arguing in the driveway at Havenhurst! She took my phone away when I tried to reach out for help when we hadn't heard from grandma in a few days! I was really worried about her; Prince and I both were!" Prince alisema "I was going to call wewe AJ; but there's not much wewe can do from halfway around the world!" I alisema "you still could've called me! I told wewe that if wewe ever needed anything that I would be there for you; no matter what!" Paris alisema "I am so sick of all this drama! The biggest reason we wanted to come over here was to get away from the rest of the family!" I alisema "I know how wewe feel because they had been harassing Kyle and me ever since they found out about the two of us planning to get married! They leave nasty notes in the mailbox and try to scare us with their threats." Prince alisema "it's probably only going to get worse after wewe two get married! All they do when they come over to our house is complain about wewe and Kyle! It's really starting to make me mad!" I asked "why; what do they say about me and Kyle?" Prince alisema "they say that you're really immature and that Kyle doesn't know the real side of who wewe are AJ!" Kyle alisema "they don't even know what they're talking about! I can guarantee wewe that I know zaidi about AJ then all of them combined!" I alisema "they only see what they want to see! They bring out the anger in me! Very few people can make me that mad!" Paris alisema "after wewe pressed charges on them for damage to the front gate and attempted trespassing, they flipped out! It was only a $500 fine au they could have fought wewe in court over it! I couldn't believe they actually thought about taking it to court instead of paying 500 bucks! It would've only been $100 each for them to pay the fine equally! I don't understand why they would want to make a big deal out of nothing!" I alisema "it's because they just want to get as much money as they can from me! That's the only motive they have and that's all they care about!" Kyle alisema "I really hope that wewe guys try to stay away from them as much is possible because they are up to no good!" I alisema "alright; enough with all this drama; let's have some fun!"
I started to onyesha them around the house and Prince noticed the grand kinanda sitting in the corner of the living room. He asked "is that the same kinanda that was here when we all lived here?" I alisema "yes; it is!" He ran his fingers across the keys and alisema "I remember that all of us would sit on the floor while dad played us some songs a little while before we went to bed." I alisema "yeah; and wewe and I would argue over who would sit on his lap! I've kind of forgotten all the songs that daddy taught me when I was little." Blanket alisema "I wish I wasn't three years old when we moved out of here because I don't really remember anything dad did with us here." I alisema "that's alright Blanket; I bet wewe still have a lot of fun memories with daddy in the other places we lived in together!" He alisema "I still have some memories; but I'm forgetting most of them because I was only seven when he died!" I alisema after thinking about it for a few dakika "follow me wewe guys; I have an idea!"
Blanket, Prince, Paris, Carter, Kyle, and I all walked down from the main house to the personal movie theater that was on the ranch. Kyle and I haven't set foot inside it since we moved to the ranch and this seemed like the perfect excuse too! We walked inside and saw the concession stand that the few staff members I hired a couple of weeks zamani had stalked full of candy. The popcorn machine was already running and the buttery smell filled the air around us. Blanket asked "this was really our own movie theater AJ? I alisema "yeah; it's pretty cool!" Paris asked "why did wewe want to bring us to the movie theater?" I opened a nearby door and we walked into the screening room. Kyle sat down with Carter on his lap and helped him open up a package of sour, wamekula gummy worms.
10 dakika later, I came in carrying a huge stack of videotapes and Blanket asked "what are wewe doing AJ?" I alisema "you'll see in a minute" as I popped a videotape into the VHS machine that was installed in the wall. I sat down in the chair inayofuata to Prince and a nyumbani video started playing.
*In the nyumbani video, dated at the bottom of the screen February 18, 2001*
Dad, Prince, and I were all sitting on the couch. I asked "daddy; why do wewe have to leave tomorrow?" He responded as he looked down at me "you know I have to work AJ. I wish I could stay every single day; but I do have to leave every once in a while to make money." Prince alisema "I'm going to miss wewe too much daddy! I don't want wewe to leave!" Dad alisema "I know apple head; but I have to! You're going to have fun here with Grace; I promise!" I alisema "you always say that we'll have fun while you're gone; but we never do! It's so much zaidi fun when you're nyumbani daddy au when wewe take us with wewe on your trips!" He alisema "I know AJ; but I can't always take wewe with me; especially because there are three of wewe now and I can't leave Prince and Paris behind!" I alisema "I know; I'm just going to miss wewe tucking me into kitanda every night and playing hide and seek!" He alisema "I'm only going to be gone for three days and then I'll be back!" I asked "you're still going to help me get ready for kitanda tonight; right? He alisema "I always do!"
The video cuts off for a few sekunde and then continues onto onyesha dad lying inayofuata to me in my bed. I asked "am I going to be able to see wewe tomorrow morning before wewe leave?" He alisema "I don't think so sweetheart because I'm leaving really early in the morning!" I asked "daddy; can I ask wewe something?" He alisema "of course wewe can!" I asked "what's it like to be in love?" He had a surprised look on his face that such a big swali could come from a six-year-old. He pondered it back and forth in his mind for a few dakika before saying "it depends on what kind of upendo you're asking about." I asked "what kinds of upendo are there?" He alisema "well; there's upendo like what I have for wewe and your brother and sister. Like the way a mommy au daddy loves their children. Then there's puppy love." I alisema "I know what wewe mean; like when a boy dog and a girl dog upendo each other!" He chuckled and alisema "no; that's not what puppy upendo is! puppy upendo is when two young people think they might upendo each other." I alisema "oh; are there any zaidi kinds of love?" He alisema "there is one more." I asked "what's it called?" He responded after waiting a few sekunde "true love." I asked "how do wewe know the difference between true upendo and regular love?" He alisema "trust me; when the time comes you'll know the difference! You'll just be able to tell! Why are wewe asking me all these maswali about love?" I alisema "I don't know; I was just wondering." He alisema after lightly pecking my lips "oh okay; just as long as wewe don't go out and fall in upendo with any boys anytime soon! Your daddy's little girl and if it were up to me wewe wouldn't tarehe any boys until wewe turned 50 years old!"
*Video ends*
I definitely understand what true upendo is supposed to feel like now because I'm truly in upendo with Kyle. It's funny how dad just knew that someday I would figure this whole being in upendo thing out! I put another videotape in the VHS and pressed play.
*In the video dated at the bottom of the screen March 1, 1999*
Dad looks directly into the camera and says "hello world; I just want to onyesha wewe what I have to deal with on a daily basis." He points the camera in my direction and asks "do wewe know why you're in timeout this time AJ? I alisema "I don't care! Shut up; wewe stupid daddy!" He sternly alisema "stop that right now! wewe don't tell me to shut up au call me stupid; that's not nice at all!" I started taking off one of my shoes and pretended like I was going to throw it at him. He alisema "don't even think about it AJ!" I laughed as I threw my left shoe directly into the camera lens and just barely missing his face. He asked "why would wewe do that AJ?" I stuck my tongue out at him and alisema "because wewe told me not to; that's why!" He sighed with frustration and alisema "it doesn't matter how many times I put wewe in the corner; it always turns into a battle! Do I need to go over there and hold wewe on my lap until wewe calm down?" I alisema "I AM CALMED DOWN!!!" He alisema "no you're not and what did I tell wewe about yelling in this house? Do we yell here?" I alisema "NO!!!" He calmly asked "then why are wewe still yelling at me Alanna?" I alisema "BECAUSE wewe WON'T LET ME OUT OF TIMEOUT!!!" He alisema "you yelling at me won't get wewe any closer to being out of Timeout! wewe know that yelling at me isn't going to bother me AJ."
I started crying and he alisema "that's not going to work anymore either!" I alisema "you're a mean daddy!" He alisema "that's not a nice thing to say to me. Do wewe realize that if wewe just calm down wewe would already be out of the corner?" I alisema "JUST SHUT UP DADDY!!!" He alisema "stop telling me to shut up Alanna Michael Jackson! I hope you're not in timeout for three hours straight like wewe were earlier."
*Video ends*
Prince alisema "I can't believe wewe use to talk to dad like that!" Paris alisema "yeah I know AJ; and then wewe threw your shoe at daddy's head!" I alisema "I used to be really out of control; but since I had Carter I have calmed down a lot! I've only gotten into a few fights since then and try my best to avoid situations where I would have to fight. Before, I would go looking for someone to start a fight with; just so I could prove that I was stronger than them! I hate to say it but, I think the fact that dad isn't physically here anymore has caused me to grow up a lot just because he isn't there to protect me from a bad situation that I put myself in anymore!"
February 13, 2013,
We were all sitting around the meza, jedwali eating the birthday cake I bought for Prince and I alisema "so little brother; I saw the picture of the police officer uandishi wewe a ticket for the way wewe parked one of the cars!" He laughed and alisema "cut me some slack AJ; this whole driving thing is new to me!" I alisema "I know; I just like messing with you!" He asked "I still have to finish a few zaidi hours of driving with an adult in the car before I can go for my official driving test and I was wondering if wewe would ride around with me in the car today?" I alisema "sure; Kyle will wewe stay here with my brother and sister and Carter while I go with Prince?" He alisema "that's fine babe; I don't know what all of us are going to do; but we'll have fun!" Carter alisema "daddy; can we go swimming in the pool?" Paris alisema "that sounds like fun!" I alisema "alright; wewe guys have fun! Prince and I will be back in a few hours."
Prince climbed into the driver’s kiti, kiti cha in my truck and I sat inayofuata to him in the passenger's seat. I alisema "you better not crash my truck because you'll never hear me forgive you!" Prince looked at me horrified and I alisema “I’m joking! There's no pressure!" He took a sigh of relief and started the truck. As we drove many roads in Santa Barbara, we started to make small talk. Prince asked "so how do wewe like being an adult?" I alisema "it doesn't really feel any different to me because ever since grandma kicked me out of her house Kyle and I have pretty much been doing everything on our own. It's definitely weird paying bills and signing documents; but I like having the responsibility. I don't have to depend on other people anymore to make sure that things get done!" He alisema "grandma really misses wewe and started to regret making wewe leave. I think she realizes now that wewe live at Neverland with Kyle and Carter that wewe will never songesha back into her house! I think she knows that dad would have been disappointed in both her and wewe for letting it get to the point where wewe need to be on your own pretty much at 17 years old. Dad would never let wewe go out on your own at that age; let alone take Carter with you! Grandma felt really badly for that and worried about wewe for days on end until Aunt Latoya called her and told her that the three of wewe were staying with her." I alisema "I was never really mad at grandma for kicking me out. Sure, I was mad in the moment; but that's part of my oppositional defiance disorder. I know I deserved to be kicked out of the house because she did warn me about anything going on between Kyle and I. Honestly, I felt really stupid about it afterwards! I wasn't really worried about myself; I was zaidi worried about Carter!" Prince alisema "I was really mad at uncle Jermaine for threatening to bring drake to the pound if wewe didn't come to pick him up! I actually ended up getting into an argument with him about it! I'm not usually the type to challenge the adults; but that was totally uncalled for!" I alisema "I'm completely fine with wewe guys stepping out into the spotlight a little bit; I just don't want it to get in the way of your education because that's what's most important right now! I saw Paris on the Ellen onyesha and heard that you're conducting an interview for entertainment tonight!" Prince alisema "Blanket isn't really handling not having wewe living with us that well! Even though he is 11, he cries for wewe almost every night when he's in his room kwa himself! I go in there and asking what's wrong; but all he'll tell me is that he misses daddy even zaidi now that he doesn't see wewe every day!" I alisema "well; anytime wewe guys want to come see me and hang out is fine with me! I get off of work from filming the Nickelodeon onyesha around noon most days." He alisema "once I get my license we'll visit wewe a lot more! I don't really like asking people to drive us over to your house because all they do is complain about you!" I alisema "don't pay any attention to them Prince; they aren't worth it!" He alisema "it's almost like they forget that you’re my older sister and they criticize wewe right in front of us! They don't even care about our opinions and the worst part is that they don't even really know us! They may think they do; but they don't!" I alisema "let them talk bad about me all they want because I don't care and I never will! The only people whose opinion matters to me are Kyle, my siblings, Carter, and dad!"
We pulled back into the driveway at Neverland and got out of the truck. Prince and I walked out to the backyard where the swimming pool is. I sat down on the edge of the pool and let my feet hang over the side into the water. Blanket, Kyle, Paris, and Carter noticed us and I chuckled at how cute Carter looked swimming around with his little Spiderman lifejacket on! Kyle lifted Blanket up and tossed him halfway across the pool. Blanket alisema as he resurfaced to the juu of the water "you should come in AJ!" Carter alisema "yeah mommy; wewe should come in!" I alisema "I think I'm okay up here for now." Kyle asked "Carter; do wewe want me to make mommy get in the pool?" Carter alisema "yeah daddy; but how are wewe going to do that?" He alisema "you'll see" as he looked at me with a mischievous gleam in his eyes. He climbed out of the pool and slowly walked up to me as I laughed. I alisema "you wouldn't dare!" He chuckled and alisema "oh; but I would!" I walked backwards and alisema as I put my arms up to block him from grabbed me "I have a pair of $200 jeans on; don't!" I bumped into Prince as I continuously walked backwards and he playfully pushed me towards Kyle. As Kyle picked me up, I shouted "no, no, no!" I started laughing uncontrollably and grabbed onto Prince's shati as I alisema "if I'm going in then you're going in with me!"
I pulled Prince just barely inside the pool before Kyle tossed me with all his might across to the deep end. I came up for air and alisema "you are so dead Kyle!" I climbed out of the pool and went over to where Paris was sitting drying off of the towel. Paris asked "you really are in upendo with Kyle; aren't you?" I alisema "of course I am! I wouldn't have taken the engagement ring if I wasn't!" She alisema "I can honestly say that I've never seen wewe so happy in my life! Kyle is such a great guy and any guy who would father a child that isn't biologically his is amazing to me!" I alisema "yeah; I know and that's what I wish other people would see!" She alisema "while wewe were gone with Prince I finally got to see what wewe were talking about! He got Carter dressed to go swimming, made sure that he ate enough of his lunch, and he even helped Carter wipe his nose when he sneezed everywhere earlier! He is the only guy I know besides dad that wouldn't hesitate to clean up boogers!" I alisema "I know; it almost makes the want to cry because that should be Damien! Trust me, I couldn't care less if I ever saw Damien again; but at least Carter has Kyle! It's sad to think that the only father that he's ever known isn't even his father! I just don't want him to know about Damien yet because I don't want him to get his hopes up that Damien will be there! Kyle already does everything that any good daddy would do! I couldn't ask for a better fiancé if I picked him out myself! He watches Carter all siku for me while I'm out living my dream! He picks up chakula for me and brings it to me at work! He gives Carter a bath four nights a week because we agreed to mgawanyiko, baidisha that evenly! He cleans up everything and anything that Carter does au plays with; including things that most fathers wouldn't even go near au want anything to do with! I just upendo Kyle so much; it's the kind of upendo that wewe can't even describe!" Paris alisema "I think if daddy was here he would totally approve of wewe getting married to Kyle; even if wewe guys are only a couple of teenagers!" I asked" just out of curiosity; what if instead of Kyle and me getting married it was Damien? What do wewe think dad would say?" She alisema "dad would have a total freak out! He hated Damien for all the pain that he caused you! I'm so glad that wewe realized that Damien wasn't good for wewe au Carter! I agree with wewe on Kyle; I think he's the perfect guy for wewe and Carter!"
February 14, 2013,
I had just gotten nyumbani from work, after an extra-long siku and was just happy to be able to relax. It was 9 o'clock at night when I walked through the front door of the house and all the lights were off. I turned them on and walked upstairs. I glanced over in Carter's room and noticed that he was asleep. I walked into his room and turned the TV off after kissing the juu of his head which was still wet from taking a bath earlier. I shut the door as I left the room and went down to our bedroom.
I turned on the light and saw Kyle sitting on the edge of the kitanda with rose petals surrounding him. He alisema "happy Valentine's siku babe! I know wewe don't really like romantic holidays like this; but I wanted to do something special!" I kissed his lips as I sat down inayofuata to him on the bed. I went to grab the box of condoms that was sitting on juu of the dresser and he alisema "you know AJ; we don't really need to use those!" I asked with a confused look on my face "why; I thought this whole romantic thing was to get me in the mood and it's working! wewe didn't really have to do all this to make me want to!" He alisema "that's not what I meant! Obviously I want to have sex with wewe because it's Valentine's siku and I upendo you! What I meant was that we don't need to use the condoms!" I alisema "but; if we don't use them there is chance that wewe could get me pregnant!" He alisema "that's the whole point AJ; I want to have a baby with you!" I alisema "whoa; slow down Kyle! We aren't even married yet!" He alisema "so; let's go get married at the courthouse in a couple days!" I asked "what's gotten into you? Why do wewe want to do all this so suddenly?" He alisema "your uncles came kwa the ranch again this morning and spray-painted the sign outside. I say that wewe and I just go get married as soon as possible. We can still have the big wedding in a few zaidi years; but this way everyone will know that we were serious when we alisema that we were getting married and maybe they'll leave us alone!" I alisema "actually, that doesn't sound like such a bad idea after all! Instead of doing the whole thing with a priest, we should just save all of that for the big wedding. wewe and I can just go down to the courthouse for now and sign a marriage license that states that we are legally married just so my uncles can't try to sabotage anything anymore!" He alisema "sounds good to me; just as long as the family knows that we will eventually have a huge ceremony like a normal wedding when we have zaidi time!" I alisema "the people that matter will understand where we're coming from! I would never leave them out of the real marriage! This is just the paperwork that says that were married; not an important wedding! I would never leave any of them out of that!"
February 17, 2013,
We just left the courthouse after signing our marriage license, and we are headed over to my grandmother's house to tell everyone. We pulled into the driveway and I asked "are wewe ready for this… Husband?" Kyle laughed and alisema "you're so cheesy! Yes I'm ready for this… Wife!" I held Carter's hand as he walked inside and the entire family was waiting for us. Uncle Randy alisema "I heard wewe have an announcement to make.” I alisema as I took a deep breath "Kyle and I got married."
Just like I thought they would, they immediately erupted into a barrage of screaming and protest. Uncle Jermaine asked "what do wewe mean wewe guys got married? I thought wewe were going to have a wedding!" I alisema "we are; just not right now because I'm too busy with work to plan a wedding! We just went down to the courthouse and signed our marriage license; that's all! We are saving all the special stuff for the big wedding ceremony in a couple of years!" Grandma smiled and alisema "I really don't understand why your uncles are being so immature about this! I'm happy for wewe and Kyle!" Jackie asked as he raised his voice at my grandmother "how can wewe be happy for them? This is the stupidest thing they have done! Michael would be flipping out right now if he was here!" Kyle alisema softly "actually; AJ and I went to a psychic to get Michael's approval on the marriage and he was okay with it!" Uncle Tito alisema "all that psychic stuff is fake and wewe are just using that as an excuse!" Paris alisema at the juu of her lungs trying to overpower the screaming that was going on in the room "EVERYBODY JUST BE QUIET! WHY CAN'T wewe JUST BE HAPPY FOR AJ? EVERYTHING CAN'T ALWAYS BE ABOUT wewe GUYS!" She ran upstairs and I ran after her.
I followed Paris into her bedroom and shut the door behind me. She had tears in her eyes and her mascara was running down her face. I looked at her sympathetically and alisema "it's alright Paris! I don't give a shit about what they think!" I alisema down on the kitanda inayofuata to her and put my arm around her as she alisema "I hate it when our uncles come over here! It's always so stressful because all they want to do is start drama! I don't know why they like to pick on wewe so much; I don't get it! What did wewe ever do to them to deserve that?" I alisema "it's not about what I did to them; it's about what I have! They are just jealous of my success and I guarantee wewe that if I passed each of them $1000 that they would totally be with us being married! All they care about is money Paris! That's all they'll ever care about!" She alisema "I'm so excited that wewe and Kyle are married! I know that dad would be excited too! It's funny because dad would always joke around when we were little about wewe and Kyle getting married someday!" I laughed and alisema "it's pretty ironic that me and Kyle are actually married now!"
May, 7, 2013,
Kyle and I are slowly settling into married life and it's actually pretty easy to use to! We were upstairs getting ready for kitanda and Kyle was in the bathroom that is in our bedroom brushing his teeth. I looked in from the spot where I was laying in bed. He laid down on the kitanda and I alisema "now that we're married; I've been thinking about this whole baby thing and I think we should go ahead and start trying to get pregnant." He alisema in an excited tone "finally; let's start now!"
June 13, 2013,
There is a knock on the front door of Neverland and I went up to answer it. It was my grandmother with my siblings. I invited them inside and we went into the living room where Carter was watching TV with Kyle. They all sat down on the kitanda with us and my grandmother alisema "I just want to apologize to wewe for the way that your uncles acted when wewe announced everything with the marriage license." I alisema "you don't need to apologize to me grandma; I know that you're scared of them and that they intimidate you!" She alisema "I upendo you, Kyle, and Carter! I don't have a problem at all with wewe to getting married with a marriage license for now and then the ceremony later! I can completely see that wewe two are in love!"
Carter interrupted the conversation kwa saying something that absolutely embarrassed me beyond belief. He asked right in front of everyone "mommy; how come daddy makes wewe scream at night when you're in your room with him?" Kyle looked at me with a mortified look on his face and I started to blush. I alisema "oh my God; this is embarrassing!" Grandma immediately burst out laughing as I turned bright red. She alisema "so I guess that swali from Carter means that wewe and Kyle just might be ready for another baby?" I alisema as I continued to blush "possibly; I'm still stuck on the fact that Carter was awake all those times and heard Kyle and I!" Kyle alisema "I guess we automatically assume that he will be sleeping when we decide to try because it's usually midnight!" I alisema wanting to change the subject away from the sex life between Kyle and I "I have to go to work soon so; wewe guys might want to leave!"
After they left, Kyle looked at me and then Carter asked "daddy; how come wewe make mommy scream like that?" Kyle alisema completely at a loss for words "ummm; mommy and I are just watching scary sinema together in our bedroom. We don't wake wewe up; do we?" Carter responded "not really; I get up to go to my potty in the middle of the night and I can hear mommy screaming. I thought wewe were hurting her daddy." I forced back laughter and alisema "don't worry buddy; daddy would never hurt me! Daddy and I just watch some really scary sinema at night and it makes me scream really loud." Carter alisema "oh okay then; just as long as you're not hurting mommy daddy!" He ran off upstairs and Kyle and I both took a sigh of relief. Kyle alisema "oh my God AJ! wewe and I need to be zaidi careful about making sure Carter's asleep!" I alisema "I'm just glad that he didn't decide to walk in on us! That would have terrified him! I'm locking our bedroom door from now on; so at least he will have to knock! I've never been so embarrassed in my life!" Kyle alisema "tell me about it! We just had our son describe the noises that he hears wewe and I making while we're being intimate to your 80-year-old grandmother and little siblings!" Afterwards, Kyle and I couldn't help but laugh at the awkward situation our son had created!
August 5, 2013,
I stood in the bathroom and tossed yet another negative pregnancy test into the trashcan which was now overflowing with the past pregnancy tests I have taken. I walked out of the bathroom and Kyle could tell kwa the expression on my face that it wasn't successful. I threw my hands up in the air as I sat down inayofuata to him on the kitanda and alisema "I don't get it! It was so easy for me to get pregnant the first time! wewe and I have literally had sex every night for the past five months and still nothing! I wonder if something is wrong with me!" He alisema "maybe wewe should just make a doctor’s appointment just to be sure that nothing's wrong babe!" I alisema "I'll see if the doctor can fit me in for an appointment tomorrow morning before I go to work. I hope nothing's wrong with me that stopping me from getting pregnant!"
August 6, 2013,
Kyle and I sat there in a hospital room waiting for the results of the tests the doctor performed on me. Thankfully, Prince and Paris are still off from school for the summer and agreed to watch Carter during my appointment. Kyle and I were both worried because it was taking the doctor a really long time to come back into the room.
After 20 dakika of waiting, Dr. Simpson came back into the room and alisema "every single test I ran on wewe came back negative. There should be no reason why wewe yourself can't become pregnant. You've obviously had a child before; so your eggs looked perfectly fine to me. Do wewe mind if I do some blood work on wewe Kyle?" He alisema "I don't see why not." She ran some tests down to the lab and we were once again left waiting in the hospital room for the results.
Dr. Simpson came back into the room and alisema "I've never seen this in a 19 mwaka old before!" Kyle and I both asked in unison "what is it?" She responded "from everything that I can tell from the tests… You're almost completely sterol Kyle. wewe only have a 5% chance of getting AJ pregnant with your own equipment; if that's what wewe want to call it!" Kyle just looked at me and bolted out of the room. I alisema as I looked at Dr. Simpson "I better go after him; thanks for making time for my appointment."
I ran outside to the parking lot and saw Kyle sitting on the curb trying his best not to cry. I sat down inayofuata to him and alisema "there's still that 5% chance that wewe could get me pregnant naturally. We can keep trying if wewe want to!" He asked "what's the point? I'm not real man according to what the doctor just alisema in there!" I put my arm around him and alisema "just because wewe can’t get me pregnant with your own stuff doesn't make wewe any less of a man than wewe are in my eyes!" He asked "what makes wewe say that babe?" I alisema "think about it; it takes a real man to be a father to a child that isn't even biologically his! wewe gave up your dream of being a mechanic just so I could live my dream! That's way zaidi than Damien would ever do for Carter au me if I was with him instead of you!" Kyle asked "you really wouldn't upendo me any less? Even if wewe and I can never physically create a child together?" I alisema "of course I would still upendo wewe as much as I do now! I upendo wewe for wewe and that other stuff has nothing to do with it! Besides; just think of how much money we'll save because we really don't need condoms anymore!" Kyle smirked and alisema "yeah; that's always a good thing!" I alisema "if wewe want to keep trying to get me pregnant, I'm cool with that because in end if it doesn't work it was a real good excuse to mess around with wewe even zaidi than usual!" The two of us rolled around on the ground laughing and he alisema "you can always manage to cheer me up; no matter what's going on!"
September 15, 2013,
I came downstairs carrying my cell phone in my hand and Kyle asked "why do wewe look so depressed?" I alisema "that was one of the producers of the Nickelodeon onyesha that I'm part of and he just called to tell me that the onyesha is canceled because of bad ratings." Kyle asked "so what happens now?" I alisema "I guess I go back to finishing my sekunde album that was supposed to be released. Then I will probably have to go on tour again; hopefully this time worldwide!" He alisema "well; I'll be here to support wewe with whatever wewe need while you're in the studio au promoting the album when it's released." I alisema "thanks; I don't think we've had so many depressing things happen to us this close together before!" He alisema "the good thing is that it can't get any worse than it already is!"
After talking with Frank on the phone about heading into the studio tomorrow to finish working on the album that I never completed, I sat there in the living room staring off into space. I noticed out of the corner of my eye that a police officer was walking up to the front gate. I got off the kitanda and opened the gate from the keypad inside and he knocked on the door to the house. I answered it and he alisema "hello; I've been asked to deliver this mandated court appearance paperwork to your house.” I wrinkled my eyebrows with a puzzled look on my face and shut the door as he walked away.
I opened the machungwa, chungwa envelope and pulled out an official court document that alisema "petition for custody" across the top. Underneath that, I read" the father stated as Damien Adam Hayes is issuing wewe Alanna Michael Jackson with a petition to the court of Santa Barbara County for partial custody and/or visitation with the child hereby stated as Carter Shawn Jackson. wewe have four months to decide if wewe would like to settle this out-of-court kwa way of mediation au if wewe would like to appeal the above father's ability to adequately care for the child. – Thank wewe for your time, Judge Marion Anderson
I shook my head in disbelief as tears began to well in my eyes. I ran upstairs and shut the bathroom door faster than Kyle could even notice. A few dakika later, he heard me sobbing and leaned up against the door. He asked "what's wrong AJ?" I alisema "come in here!" He opened the door and sat down on the closed toilet kiti, kiti cha as he looked down at me. I curled myself up into a ball and had my head buried in the juu of my needs as I sobbed uncontrollably. Kyle asked "what's going on?" I managed to force out the words "Damien wants to fight me for custody au visitation over Carter!" Kyle alisema "I thought Damien didn't care if he ever saw Carter again!" I alisema "that's the thing; Damien doesn't care about Carter! He's only doing it to spite me because I am a lot better off financially than he is! I think he thinks that if we evenly shared 50-50 custody of Carter then I would have to pay him some sort of child support for the time he would have Carter! I think I really would have to pay child support if he won 50-50 custody of Carter!" Kyle alisema "even though I've never met Damien, I hate him! That's really immature of him to use Carter to get money from you!" I alisema "I don't even care about the money! I care about Carter! I don't want him to get attached to Damien all because Damien will pretend like he cares about him for the first few months and then decide to just not onyesha up one siku when Carter is waiting for him!" Kyle alisema "I understand why wewe want to protect Carter from being hurt emotionally kwa Damien and I highly doubt with Damien's past he will be awarded any type of custody! I think the most the courts would be willing to give him is supervised visitation! Don't worry AJ; we're going to fight this in court! We can't let Damien get any time alone with Carter because there's no telling what he would do just to get money out of you!!!"
Michael Jackson's personal chef Kai Chase just testified -- claiming a frantic Dr. Conrad Murray begged her for help the siku MJ died, ten dakika before anyone called 911.
According to Chase, she was in the jikoni preparing lunch for Michael and his kids -- and between 12:05 and 12:10PM, Murray ran downstairs, yelling for her to "get Prince, get help, get security."
Chase claimed she sent Prince to Dr. Murray and returned to work.
Chase admitted she didn't contact security -- a point highlighted kwa defense attorney J. Michael Flanagan.
Yesterday, MJ's personal assistant Michael Amir Williams testified ... Murray called him at 12:13 PM, and Williams immediately phoned security. MJ's security guard Alberto Alvarez eventually called 911 at 12:21 -- between 11 and 16 dakika after Murray allegedly asked Chase for help.
While Chase was leaving court today, we asked if she thought her testimony was helpful -- she responded, "Absolutely."
According to Chase, she was in the jikoni preparing lunch for Michael and his kids -- and between 12:05 and 12:10PM, Murray ran downstairs, yelling for her to "get Prince, get help, get security."
Chase claimed she sent Prince to Dr. Murray and returned to work.
Chase admitted she didn't contact security -- a point highlighted kwa defense attorney J. Michael Flanagan.
Yesterday, MJ's personal assistant Michael Amir Williams testified ... Murray called him at 12:13 PM, and Williams immediately phoned security. MJ's security guard Alberto Alvarez eventually called 911 at 12:21 -- between 11 and 16 dakika after Murray allegedly asked Chase for help.
While Chase was leaving court today, we asked if she thought her testimony was helpful -- she responded, "Absolutely."