Dear Michael Its One Of Your mashabiki Janyce. I Just Wanted To Say That I Miss You. And Every Moonwalker Misses wewe And Your Family. I Never Really Write Letters au Things About My Feelings So Please kubeba With Me And Im Not Great At Spelling. I Couldnt Sleep Last Night,It Was Hard For Me To Fall Asleep. I Also Wasnt Really Hungry For chajio, chakula cha jioni Last Night But I Still Ate. Im Really Trying My Hardest To Not Cry But Its Hard,It Really Is. I Just Wiped A Tear From My Eye. If wewe Would Of Still Of Been Alive Then Everything Thats Going On Wouldnt Have Even Happen. But Thats What I Believe. I Havent Talked To Alot Of People Since I Got Up Today And I Plan On Not Really Talking Alot Today. But Im Going To Try Really Hard To Not Break Down And Cry.

I Remember What I Was Doing When I Found Out The Awful Terrable News. I Just Got Out Of The kuoga And I Was Getting Ready To Go To My Public Liebrary. I Just Got Done Putting On My Shoes When My Dad Came Out Of My Mom And His Room And Since I Had The Remote He Told Me To Put On Any News Station So I Turn To CNN And When I Saw That wewe Died I Didnt Know What To Do. My Mom Was Crying And My Dad Went Back Into His And My Mom's Room And I Saw Your Brother Speaking And I Still Didnt Know What To Do, I Was Speechless. It Was 5:26pm In Florida. But That Night When I Went To kitanda I Cried And Cried. I Didnt Go To kitanda Untill 5 am. And The inayofuata siku I Was A Reck. Then Your Memorial Service Aired And I Cried My Eyes Out During The Whole Thing. I Lost It When Paris alisema Her Little Speech: "Ever Since I Was Born Daddy Has Been The Best Father wewe Could Imagine And I Just Want To Say That I upendo You❤,So Much. That Was The Sadist Thing I Have Ever Heard. And When I First Saw This Is It I Couldnt Handle Watching It But I Did. Then The inayofuata mwaka I Spent My Whole Summer Learning zaidi About wewe And I Watched Almost Everything That Had wewe In It On Youtube. And I Saw All Of Your Mini Movies(Music Videos) And I Still Do This Today. I Can Remember When I Got My First Mix Cd With Some Of Your Songs On It. And I Can Remember When I Got Bad And Dangerous Special Edition Cd For krisimasi And I Still Have Them Today And Let Me Tell wewe They Are Well Loved And I Also Got A Book Filled With Pictures Of wewe When wewe Were In The Jackson 5/Jacksons Up To The Later Years And That Book Is Well Loved As Well Lol. I Think I Got Them In 2009 au 2010 I Cant Really Remeber Which krisimasi mwaka It Was Lol. I Can Also Remeber When I First Saw The Dangerous Tour Live In Buchurest. My Mouth Was Open And I Was In upendo And Amazed. I Also Remeber When I Saw The Simpsons Episode Where wewe Were A Guest Star. Everytime I Hear wewe Sing Lisa Its Your Birthday It Makes Me Cry. It Really Does. And I Do Not Know Why. I Remeber When I First Saw Ghosts,Moonwalker, And Your Private nyumbani Movies. I Loved❤❤❤ All Of Them And I Loved❤❤❤ Every Moment Of It. They All Made Me Laugh,Sing Along And Cry. wewe Were A Great Actor And If wewe Didnt Make It In The muziki Industry Then wewe Would Of Been An Awsome,Teriffic,Cool And Great Actor And I Would Of See Every Movie wewe Would Of Acted In. Its The Truth.

Everyday wewe Insipre Me To Be My Very Best And To Try My Best At Everything I Do. But Its Hard Sometimes Because Alot Of people Can Be Mean wewe Know How That Feels. wewe Also Helped Me Through A Dark TimeIn My Life Where I Was Not Myself And I Was In A Dark Hole And I Couldnt Get Out Of It. wewe Saved My Life. Your muziki And Voice Soothed Me To Sleep When I Couldnt And Helped Me To Live Another Day. And I Thank wewe For That.

(This Is A Poem I Wrote. It Somewhat Explains How My Life Was During My Dark Times. Its One Of My Unfinished Poems But Its Also One Of My Poems That I Cant Finish, I Hope That Made Sense. Its Hard To Explaine.)
Evil
your a firework in my eyes
wewe were with me in your muziki and mini sinema when the evil was trying to beat me down further in the depths of hell
wewe helped me lived another siku when the evil was in my life
i was going to give up but then i thought what would wewe do if wewe were still alive
your simile,your laugh helped me
i was on the verg of calling it quits
but i didnt because i would have left my family,friends,and the other people that i upendo with all of my heart.
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(This Poem Explains My Life During The Dark Times A Little Bit zaidi Better That The Last One. And When I Was uandishi This I Was Thinking Of Michael As A Best Friend, And In A Way A Boyfriend. This Poem Explains What I Went Through And Its The Truth. Thank God Im Not Going Through This Anymore.)
Abuse
He left me battered, beaten and hurt
Every night I wanted to give up and not live anymore
Many days and many nights I was in pain and I cried so much
I wanted everything to end
I wanted every thing to stop
Physically, mentally verbally abused
That was my life and no one understood me
I felt like no one cared au even thought about me
I now replay the multiple video that are in my head
Im forever scared, forever hurt, forever left alone in the dark, left alone in the pits of hell
BUT Then wewe came and raised me from the pits of hell i lived in
wewe loved me when i didnt upendo myself
wewe saved me from an early death that i was going to create
wewe were their when no one was their when i needed them
wewe wanted me and that means alot to me
wewe are my Gardian Angel, My LOVE, My everything
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I Just Wish That The Press Would Of Have Left wewe Alone. wewe Didnt Diserve The Pain And Hurt That wewe Went Through And It Makes Me Sad And Mad When The Press Still Talks About wewe In An Untruthful Maner. And It Hurts Me When People Say That wewe Hurt Children When wewe Didnt At All. wewe Would Slit Your Own Wrist Before wewe Would Ever Harm A Child. And It Hurts Me When People Say That Paris Prince And Blanket Are Not Your Children When They Are. It Hurts Me Knowing That Paris Misses wewe But I Know That Your With Her In Spirit And I Know Its The Same With Blanket And Prince. I Know That wewe Loved Your Children With Every Bone In Your Body And From The Deepest Part Of Your Soul. I Wish That I Can Bring wewe Back, I Really Do. I Also Wish That wewe Could Come Back For A mwaka Just A Year. Then All Of Us Moonwalkers Would Be Able To See wewe Again. And Then wewe Would Be Able To Spend Time With Your Children.

Michael If I Was Able To Meet wewe I Would Say: "Michael I Love❤ wewe With All Of My Heart❤ I Know That wewe Hear That From Alot Of Your mashabiki But I Mean It. I Love❤ wewe So Much That It Hurts Sometimes. Yeah I May Sound Stupid But I Dont Care." Then I Would Ask If I Can Have A Hug And If I Was Lucky Enough Then Both Me And Michael Would Hug Each Other. And I Would Possably Cry But i Would Try To Hold Back My Tears. But Im A Real Emotional Person So Yeah That Would Be Hard. Now If I Saw Michael Out In Public With His Kids I Would Just Walk kwa And Say Hi. I Wouldnt Ask For Anything At All. And Its The Same Way If I Ever See Paris,Prince And Blanket In Public I Would Just Walk kwa And Say Hi And Thats That.

I Sometimes Feel That Im Michael's Friend And Im His Other Sister And I Sometimes Well Most Of The Time I Feel Like Me And Michael Is In A Realtionship. wewe Can Call Me Crazy,Weird,Or Dumb But Thats How I Feel. I Truely Think That Me And Michael Would Of Been The Best Of Friends. Just Like Him And Elizabeth Taylor. On That Note Elizabeth And Michael Were The Best Of Marafiki Untill The Sad End. I Truely Believe That Elizabeth Coulndt Live Without Her Best Friend So That Is One Reason Why She Became An Angel Like Michael Did.

Im Going To Be Honest Awhile Back I Was Watching The World muziki Awards Performance Of Earth And When I Was Watching It I Felt A Cold Breaze And Then I Heard Michael's Voice And He Was Talking To Me And He alisema JJ(Which Is My Nickname) I Love❤ wewe And Your Not Alone For I Am With You. Then My Left Cheeck Became Cold. I Think Michael Kissed Me. Exactly On The One mwaka Aniversary I Was Comming Back From My Marafiki House And Her Mom Was Driving Me nyumbani When I Saw Michael In The Clouds I Wish I Had A Camra. He Had A Big Smile On His Face And It Made Me Smile. And That siku Was Bright And Sunny. And wewe Could See Some Sunlight Behind Michael And It Looked Like He Was Glowing. It Was Beautiful And It Made Me Tear Up A Little Bit. And I Have Seen Michael's Ghost Before. And I Do Believe That He Is Still Hear On Earth Because He Has Some Unfinished Busness but He Doesnt Stay All The Time. He Visits Us And He Makes Sure That His Family And Paris,Prince & Blanket Is Ok. Thats What I Believe. Last Night Before I Went To kitanda I Saw Michael's Ghost And He Looked Sad And I Wanted To Hug Him And Comfort Him But He Left Before I Could Of alisema Anything.

(Here Is A Poem That I Wrote Awhile Back. It Is Loosely Based On Michael's Sone One zaidi Chance At Love.)
One zaidi Chance
If i could have one zaidi chance i would bring wewe back
If i had one zaidi chance i would take away all the pain that the press gave wewe
If i had one zaidi chance wewe would have never left us wewe would still be hear today and forever more
If i had one zaidi chance i would have been able to meet wewe in person
But that chance is gone but my dream will never ever be forgotten
Because wewe are in my moyo always and forever untill the siku i die
I will always upendo you
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(This Is One Of My Old Poems I Wrote Last Year. Idk If I Ever ilitumwa It.)
3 Years

Its Been 3 Years Since wewe Left

June 25th Was The siku The World Had Stop Moving 2009 Was The mwaka 2:26 Was The Time (5:26 Was The Time In Florida)

I Was 14 At The Time

Your Name Was On The News Saying That wewe Were Dead

CNN,MSNBC,VH1,MTV All alisema The Same Thing,Then Your Brother Came On And Announced To The World That wewe Were Dead

wewe Were Only 50 When wewe Left Us

wewe Were Prepairing For Your Upcomming Concert

The tamasha That Would Be Your Very Last

The Last Curtain Call, This Is It The mashabiki Were Screaming Your Name

Now They Were Morning

People Were Asking Why Did wewe Have To Go And Leave Our World So Cold

Then 2 Years After Your Death Dr.Conrad Murrey Was Sent To Jail

We Heard Your Voice We Saw Your Picture

It Was Unimaginable To Hear Your Voice

It Was Not How We Rememberd It, It Was Druged It Was Hard To Hear It

wewe On A Hospital Gurtie Was To Hard To See,To Hard To Handle,To Hard To Imagine

All Of Us Were Used To Seeing wewe Happy And Filled With Joy

We Saw Your Memorial Service

We Saw Your Daughter Crying

Now wewe Would Be Proud Of Your Children

Its Been 3 Birthdays Since wewe Left

Its Been 3 Christmas's Since wewe Became An Angel

wewe Were Truely Gone To Soon

Its Been 3 Very Long Very Sad Years

But....

We Will Always Celebrate Your Life,Your Legacy,Your L.O.V.E. <3

Michael Jackson

wewe Will Never Be Forgotten.
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(Here Is Another Old Poem. Its Not Really Good But Thats Just Me.)

Why did wewe leave me

Do wewe understand that when wewe left my moyo broke into a million pieces
I know it wasnt your falt but i want wewe to come back
I want be able to see wewe
I want to know if your ok
I want to know if wewe are happy
I want to go back to the times when wewe were happy and filled with joy before wewe were hurt beyound belief
When i see wewe in pictures i have of wewe during your times of hell i start to cry
Your soul was broken and wewe were getting ready to break and i could see that
I could not stand seeing wewe like that
I was so used to seeing wewe filled with so much joy wewe were glowing with it
But no matter what wewe stayed strong
When i heard wewe were gone i was speechless i had tears running down my face i did not understand why wewe left without a goodby
Then a mwaka passed kwa and i was heartbroken when it hit that mark
I wanted wewe to come back
Then a mwaka became 2 years and my moyo was still broken but now i went to kitanda with tears in my eyes and i cryed myself to sleep
I try to think about the happy times but the tears still fell
Then 2 years became 3 years and im still crying but on the inside
People critzie me because of my upendo i have for wewe and it hurts when people do that
My moyo is still broken but its getting fixed
wewe are my HERO
wewe are my inspiration
wewe are my EVERYTHING
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Ok Well I Feel Like Im Talking WAY To Much So Im Going To End This Now. Michael I upendo You❤❤❤ And I Miss wewe So Much. I Can Already Tell That The Rest Of My siku Is Going To Be Hard But Im Going To Try To Remeber The Good Times That wewe Had And Im Going To Try My Very Best Not To Cry But It Might Stil Happen Who Knows.

☮Michael Jackson☮ The ♕King Of Pop♕
✞ August 29 1958- June 25 2009 ✞ We Never Can Say Goodbye
Although Michael Is Gone He Is Still In Our Hearts ❤ ❤ And He Still Lives On In His Music♪ ♫ ♩ ♬. ❤❤We ⓁⓄⓋⒺ You❤❤ To Quote Michael Born To Amuse, To Inspire, To Delight
Here One Day
Gone One Night
Michael Was Truely Gone Too Soon.


ⒹⓄⓃⓉ ⓁⒺⒶⓋⒺ Ⓐ ⒸⓄⓂⓂⒺⓃⓉ If wewe Have Nothing Nice To Say. Plane And Simple. I Dont Want Any Haters To Leave Their Hate On Here. Thanks For Understanding.

Enjoy The Pictures At The End Of This. And Believe Me Their Are Alot. And I Mean ALOT. Lol.