poem!

Mirror
kwa Alyssa Rivers

Every morning I look in a mirror
I don’t see anyone I know
I just see
Fear
Blackness
Coldness beginning to take over that person body
Forever

Their scared
They can’t found themselves anymore
I can feel the person slipping away
One kwa one
Then all of sudden
Their gone forever and never coming back

All I can hear is the thoughts of that person
Saying
I cried every night with my eyeliner running down my face
From the tears of sadness.
And I kept on saying ‘I wish this would end ‘
Over and over again
But no one answered my call au pled
Until now

She starts to sit there
And says “I’m alone”
No cares about me at all
Because if they did they wouldn’t
Walk out on me
And leave me here alone
To die

Every morning I look in the mirror
I don’t see anyone I know
Until now
That girl
Was me.

I still cry.
Why did wewe leave me like this?
Why did wewe have to die?
Now my life is a crisis

wewe knew wewe would rot
There was no god to you.
I would have fought
To keep wewe from being blue

But wewe resorted to a gun
Which left me in hell
Now I run
Trapped inside my shell

I make myself bleed, like wewe did
I starve myself, like wewe did
I hid my feelings like wewe did
Now, Will I die like wewe did?

Maybe if wewe would have stayed
I wouldn't wish for death
I could've been saved
But now, I let out my last breath



So I know this is depressing but it means a lot to me, no rude maoni please...
~OfmiceandDes

In the end
By: Alyssa Rivers

Every time I close my eyes
I go back in time
Thought damaged memories and dreams
Of unfinished majibu of why it happened

I go though seeing all the
Tears of morrow
To blackness and darkness of my life
To never knowing when it will end
All over again

Until now
I can’t feel
My moyo beat slowly down
My breathing stopping one kwa one
My hands and body grow cold and numb

Do wewe know what this means?
I do
My memories and dreams
My tears of morrow
My not knowing when it will end

As finally
Come to an end
I’m gone
Forever

We hung out almost
Anywhere,
With one another.
We were always
Together,
wewe alisema forever.

When we came to
High school,
I tried to hold
On to you.

wewe come to talk,
once in a while,
But I only give,
wewe a smile.

I always listen to the
Same melody,
And wewe keep appearing
In my memory.

I think of wewe every
single day,
But your face seem to
quickly fade away.

I give out hopes and wishes
Just to see wewe one last
time,
But I can only see wewe in my
Mind.

wewe will always live in my
Heart,
And nothing will ever tear
us apart.

I'm trying not,
To cry,
All I wanted to do
Was say goodbye.

Trying to forget the pain,but everywhere I go,it follows me
It hurts knowing that you're not here anymore
If I think back it hurts even more,cause then I remember again what I've lost
All I have left from wewe are the fun and beautiful memories,but they're not so real like wewe were
My thoughts wander,trying to find yours,but you're to far away for me to reach
I try to think how it would've been if wewe wre still alive but you're resting now
My tears are sad,but also happy because I'm lucky to have known you
A great person in life one who loved to have a great time
Now you're flying with the angels,but one siku we'll fly together and have those great times again

To give it all away
To be loved one day
Never liking what i saw
Never seen a face this raw

Believing this silly lie
To see this pathetic life
My pain grows stronger
My life go longer

Pain fills my soul
Never able to make my life Whole
To die would be a pleasure
Hateing my life just a measure

The thoughts of suicide
I just want someone to be kwa my side
Hanging myself infront on mum
My neck soon turns num

Please wewe cry
It was my choice to die
Never able to breath
Mother would never leave

Pain fills me
Getting hit kwa the bully
Hated it all
Hang myself in the mall

Screams fill my head
Never tucked into my bed
My life was hell
All they ever say is oh well

I call for you
But all wewe do is screw
Falling into water to drown
With and brick to keep me down

All i ever do is pray
That maybe i can stay
But im left to die
All to do is cry

They never shared
They never cared
Lift my up into the light
I know my future stands bright

when i wake my eyes start to water
my father has not been around for years
my tears are not to shed for i try
to be brave for my brothers and sisters

we live in a house with mrs and mr camln
they are nice but still not family
we all have a story to tell
we cant hide in a shell when some one
some wear is going threw pain
some one some wear is in the rain wanting to get out
my moyo fill's up with worry
i say sorry but what is the use
we all need to step up and be a friend
to some one cuz we all have a story so do u

This poem is all about the beauty of nature that I feel...
This poem is totally opposite to the last poem I wrote"I don't belong to the world"

Look what I see there
those roses are very dear to me
Hear what I am hearing now
those imba birds are very dear to me..

This green nyasi freshens up my mood
that blue sky , gives me a hope
that shiny sun brightens up my smile
These winds are calming my heart

See what I see there
a upinde wa mvua after a very heavy rain
those colors can be seen in my eyes
I can feel the magic of this nature

I am flying with the butterflies
even though I am on land
I am imba with the birds
even though I don't have a nest.

a man can feel all this nature
when he own the treasure
the treasure isn't the gold
that treasure is just the happiness.

When wewe hope,
wewe expect and wish,
wewe have a feeling for wanting,
Your desires to be filled,
wewe don’t want them killed,
Hope makes wewe stronger,

We live to hope,
Hope is what keeps us going,

Keep it sealed,
Let it be healed,
Like it’s your shield,
Sometimes it’s your battle field,

Keep hope close to wewe in life,
Sometimes wewe need to rethink twice,
For hope is unstable,
It comes and goes,

Hope is a special gift,
Not everyone knows,
If they do, they don’t bother to show,


Some of us want to lose hope,
Some of us want to regain hope,

Some think it’s a useless tool,
Yet they’re the ones blind,
Who won’t come to mind?

wewe and I, we all need hope,
No matter how far we seem from it,
It will find us one day,
For hope will come to us,

Wish and desire wewe moyo out,
Keep in mind,
Don’t back away;
wewe know what wewe want,


Keep hoping till the END……

Looking back on everything,
I still remember his smile.
I wish things didn't end so soon,
And turn back time for awhile.

No matter how much it hurts,
I still upendo him so.
A part of me needs him so much,
Can't seem to let him go.

Knowing I won't be able to see him,
Makes my moyo cry out in pain.
I can't believe we won't talk anymore,
The thought makes me wanna go insane.

He was my reason for waking up,
For the smile wewe see on my face.
Going a single siku without him,
Makes me feel so out of place.

I was afraid of opening up,
Now I'm afraid of the inayofuata day.
Whenever I see him one last time,
I'm terrified of what he may say.

I know tomorrow will hurt,
But the tears will fade away.
Life is too short for regrets,
There will be a brighter day.

But when I see him one last time,
I won't know what to do...
When he tells me that last goodbye,
I'll whisper,"I already miss you.."