I'd never felt so dead before
So cold, so pained, unbearably sore
I never thought I'd hurt like this
Without wewe here, your murderous kiss
Without your hand to envelope mine
Without your voice, deep, divine
Without your dark, concealing eyes
Without your words, your venemous lies
I'd never thought of myself this way
So alone, every night, every ending day
I always saw my reflection inayofuata to yours
But I'm in darkness, behind closed doors
Without your speech, always mysterious
Without your smile, making me delirious
I thought you'd stay forever, you'd care
But now all I remember is your hateful stare
A lil' something about my feelings.
Amazing is
zaidi than a word.
zaidi than an adjective.
Something I'v never heard.
I'v never been loved
and I will never see how
My inayopendelewa boy will upendo me
Not then
not now.
My someone special
could never be him.
I'm too short au too gawky
And I'll never fit in.
Everyone can see
that sparkle in his eyes
just isn't for me.
To live and to die
au to stay in his arms.
My choice rings clear
but only from afar.
Chapped lips
dry hair.
Is not hip
is not fair.
Cannot fly
cannot act.
Relationships die
I don't have your back.
Deep blue eyes
a welcoming face.
Takes to the skies
delicate as lace.
Always kind
always tries.
Never mind
he cannot be mine.
Amazing is
zaidi than a word.
zaidi than an adjective.
Something I'v never heard.
I'v never been loved
and I will never see how
My inayopendelewa boy will upendo me
Not then
not now.
My someone special
could never be him.
I'm too short au too gawky
And I'll never fit in.
Everyone can see
that sparkle in his eyes
just isn't for me.
To live and to die
au to stay in his arms.
My choice rings clear
but only from afar.
Chapped lips
dry hair.
Is not hip
is not fair.
Cannot fly
cannot act.
Relationships die
I don't have your back.
Deep blue eyes
a welcoming face.
Takes to the skies
delicate as lace.
Always kind
always tries.
Never mind
he cannot be mine.
Today I had dance
Just like most days
But today was different
Today was the siku I saw u
u where just standing there
with your black hair and cool boy
swagger
I didn’t know why u where at a dance studio
maybe that’s cause wewe are a guy
but then I noticed a girl run up to you
it was Katrina. I knew her
maybe I could know wewe too
me and Katrina are in the same line class
but we are years apart
I’m 12 and she’s 8
but where does that leave you
I never found out
I found out that your name was Anthony
I always tried to catch your eye
and during the last week of dance I noticed
that wewe came to the studio zaidi often
I was delighted. I would always look for you
and sometimes I would catch wewe staring back.
I barely know anything about you
but I don’t care
Katrina always talks to me. She very outgoing
maybe wewe are to
so inayofuata time I see you
I’m going to be outgoing too (:
Just like most days
But today was different
Today was the siku I saw u
u where just standing there
with your black hair and cool boy
swagger
I didn’t know why u where at a dance studio
maybe that’s cause wewe are a guy
but then I noticed a girl run up to you
it was Katrina. I knew her
maybe I could know wewe too
me and Katrina are in the same line class
but we are years apart
I’m 12 and she’s 8
but where does that leave you
I never found out
I found out that your name was Anthony
I always tried to catch your eye
and during the last week of dance I noticed
that wewe came to the studio zaidi often
I was delighted. I would always look for you
and sometimes I would catch wewe staring back.
I barely know anything about you
but I don’t care
Katrina always talks to me. She very outgoing
maybe wewe are to
so inayofuata time I see you
I’m going to be outgoing too (:
my hero is my mother ,who i certainly cannot mistake for my brother,
her personality stands alone ,
she is seated at the juu of the throne,
she wears a crown high and mighty,
in my moyo i donot take lightly,
she is my role model, my light, my moyo ,my all,
she was with me there when i had my first night mare ,when I wet the kitanda ,when we had our first fight,i thought she would leave ,but she is still with me after all
my hero is my mother,who i certainly cant mistake for my brother,
i do not like when she angry,
when she is angry she reminds me of crazy mandy,
she can be cheerful at times'
even sometimes when we play mimes,
she is my only hero,
so happy mothers siku to my mother,who i certainly can not mistake for my brother
her personality stands alone ,
she is seated at the juu of the throne,
she wears a crown high and mighty,
in my moyo i donot take lightly,
she is my role model, my light, my moyo ,my all,
she was with me there when i had my first night mare ,when I wet the kitanda ,when we had our first fight,i thought she would leave ,but she is still with me after all
my hero is my mother,who i certainly cant mistake for my brother,
i do not like when she angry,
when she is angry she reminds me of crazy mandy,
she can be cheerful at times'
even sometimes when we play mimes,
she is my only hero,
so happy mothers siku to my mother,who i certainly can not mistake for my brother
I wrote these:
I am
I am smart
I am beautiful
I am creative
I am a singer
I am protective
I am a person who watches wwe
I am a helpful person
and if wewe dont agree with anythin tough luck getting this girl
Fathers
At your said
Until wewe grow up
During the tough times
From siku to day
To take care of you
Also in your heart
True love
siku kwa day
Night kwa night
i wait for true upendo to come
But it never does
As i wait kwa the window
Wishing upon a star
for my prince to come
takin me away
Eyes
There i see you
with those beautiful eyes
lookin back at me
as I see our future knowing wewe are the perfect someone for me
Secrets
I have a secret
it pounds, roaring, screaming
inside of me, wanting to come out
But I ignore ot, all i want to do is run
away from it
All it does os haunt me for eternity
I am
I am smart
I am beautiful
I am creative
I am a singer
I am protective
I am a person who watches wwe
I am a helpful person
and if wewe dont agree with anythin tough luck getting this girl
Fathers
At your said
Until wewe grow up
During the tough times
From siku to day
To take care of you
Also in your heart
True love
siku kwa day
Night kwa night
i wait for true upendo to come
But it never does
As i wait kwa the window
Wishing upon a star
for my prince to come
takin me away
Eyes
There i see you
with those beautiful eyes
lookin back at me
as I see our future knowing wewe are the perfect someone for me
Secrets
I have a secret
it pounds, roaring, screaming
inside of me, wanting to come out
But I ignore ot, all i want to do is run
away from it
All it does os haunt me for eternity
ur the best friend a girl could have
u always bring happiness
u always give love
no matter what
ur always there for me when push comes to shove
when ever im sad
u make me laugh
when im mad
u always do something to lift me up
no matter what i know i can count on you
to be there
to make me smile
i know that i can trust wewe with anything
and i know that if were to fall
u would pick me up
and sit me back on my
and no matter what
u will always bring
love
peace
and hope
for all my good friends
u always bring happiness
u always give love
no matter what
ur always there for me when push comes to shove
when ever im sad
u make me laugh
when im mad
u always do something to lift me up
no matter what i know i can count on you
to be there
to make me smile
i know that i can trust wewe with anything
and i know that if were to fall
u would pick me up
and sit me back on my
and no matter what
u will always bring
love
peace
and hope
for all my good friends
like that of rose petals fallen into the sea
the night is bright
a soft breeze plays with my hair
lifting it but then letting it fall
down my back into its usual waterfall of waves
the soft meadow nyasi is wet under my feet
like the wet sand on the beach, pwani that u run through
soft and squishy but also a little rough
as i run i can feel the moon on my back
its comforting just like the stars
they're like the eyes of people
watching over wewe as u enjoy the splenders of night
no wonder its such a salama place to be
people say the night is dark and dangerous
but it really isn't
even if u do find ur self being scared
just look up and see all the eyes watching over you
ur never alone but always safe
like a mbwa mwitu running in the night
Death
Is it painful au is it beautiful
Heaven and hell
United as one
Death wewe do not know about
Until wewe die
Memories of your died ones
Come to life when your soul leaves your body
Dieing
Does not kill wewe withen
But on the shell of your soul
Life sucks the humanity of yourself
Tell it slowly painfully
People hear yopu screa
But mock, laugh and walk away
but when the world is dying
wewe laugh at them
being torment
Till they die a much zaidi painful death
they all die going to hell.
Is it painful au is it beautiful
Heaven and hell
United as one
Death wewe do not know about
Until wewe die
Memories of your died ones
Come to life when your soul leaves your body
Dieing
Does not kill wewe withen
But on the shell of your soul
Life sucks the humanity of yourself
Tell it slowly painfully
People hear yopu screa
But mock, laugh and walk away
but when the world is dying
wewe laugh at them
being torment
Till they die a much zaidi painful death
they all die going to hell.
[1795-1821]
What is zaidi gentle than a wind in summer?
What is zaidi soothing than the pretty hummer?
That stays one moment in an open flower,
And buzzes cheerily from bower to bower?
What is zaidi tranquil than a musk-rose blowing
In a green island, far from all men’s knowing?
zaidi healthful than leafiness of dales?
zaidi secret than a nest of nightingales?
zaidi serene than Cordelia's countenance?
zaidi full of visions than a high romance?
What, but thee, Sleep? Soft closer of our eyes!
Low murmurer of tender lullabies!
Light hoverer around our happy pillows!
Wreather of poppy, babu buds, and weeping willows!
Silent entangler of a beauty's tresses !
Most happy listener! When the morning blesses
Thee for enlivening all the cheerful eyes
That glance so brightly at the new sunrise.
Elusive dreams
This pre-life crisis, is killing me
A beautiful tragedy
Who I was wasn't me
wewe make it easier to be
Easier to be me
It's hard to believe
wewe make it easy
Speaking silence
Words can break
It feels like we are falling awake
In a place, in a time of our own
wewe make it easier to be
Easier to be me
It's hard to believe
It felt like the world
Fell from my feet
Gave up on myself
wewe didn't give up on me
Let myself go
wewe were still there
Like coming nyumbani
Coming up for air
wewe make it easier to be
Easier to be me
It's hard to believe
wewe make it easy
Easier to be
To be me
[Lifehouse – Who We Are]
