A stabed wound over 1000 times
please just hurry im wanting to die
just hurry up and kill me
i cant stand to suffer like this
If wewe wont kill me
ill kill myself
so i can become free
free this tourchered soul
and kiss me good bye into the blackened night
youll never see me as long as wewe live
youllnever upendo me as long as i live
but im forced to be held hostage under evils wing
ill always miss you
to be never loved
forwhen wewe hold me in your ars agian
i will cry
i will fly
i will die
opon the ashes of our love
our upendo has caged me
Traped me
st me free
let me die
its the only way
happyness once came
happyness killed me
like i once killed my mother
the fallen angels call me the devil
while god laughs in my face and curses my name
pain i will always feel
please just hurry im wanting to die
just hurry up and kill me
i cant stand to suffer like this
If wewe wont kill me
ill kill myself
so i can become free
free this tourchered soul
and kiss me good bye into the blackened night
youll never see me as long as wewe live
youllnever upendo me as long as i live
but im forced to be held hostage under evils wing
ill always miss you
to be never loved
forwhen wewe hold me in your ars agian
i will cry
i will fly
i will die
opon the ashes of our love
our upendo has caged me
Traped me
st me free
let me die
its the only way
happyness once came
happyness killed me
like i once killed my mother
the fallen angels call me the devil
while god laughs in my face and curses my name
pain i will always feel
To the dream I'll never meet,
To the dream that is above the stars,
To the dream that was never reached,
To the dream that has to be put behind bars,
To the dream, I loved,
To the dream, I dreamt,
To a dream, to a dream
And only I knew what it meant,
To the dream, I smiled,
To the dream, I adored,
To the dream that is not possible,
To the dream that is now ignored,
To the dream, I wrote about,
To the dream, I thought,
To the dream, I admired,
To the dream, I want,
To the dream, I loved,
To the dream, I dreamt,
To a dream, to a dream
And only I knew what it meant,
To the dream that is long gone,
To the dream I beg for,
To the dream I dreamt
And nothing more,
To the dream I'll never meet,
To the dream that is above the stars,
To the dream that was never reached,
To the dream that has to be put behind bars,
To the dream, I loved,
To the dream, I dreamt,
To a dream, to a dream
And only I knew what it meant.
To the dream that is above the stars,
To the dream that was never reached,
To the dream that has to be put behind bars,
To the dream, I loved,
To the dream, I dreamt,
To a dream, to a dream
And only I knew what it meant,
To the dream, I smiled,
To the dream, I adored,
To the dream that is not possible,
To the dream that is now ignored,
To the dream, I wrote about,
To the dream, I thought,
To the dream, I admired,
To the dream, I want,
To the dream, I loved,
To the dream, I dreamt,
To a dream, to a dream
And only I knew what it meant,
To the dream that is long gone,
To the dream I beg for,
To the dream I dreamt
And nothing more,
To the dream I'll never meet,
To the dream that is above the stars,
To the dream that was never reached,
To the dream that has to be put behind bars,
To the dream, I loved,
To the dream, I dreamt,
To a dream, to a dream
And only I knew what it meant.
Fifteen Bones of an ancient man.
Among them, the warriors of his clan.
And now a serene silver gas
Will slide along the bloody grass.
Take the aqua weapon of your choice.
No time to love, no time to rejoice.
wewe turn your head from north to south.
wewe know that poison spills from your mouth.
What fresh hell has come anew?
Upon them a curse wewe will beshrew.
You'll break their wings and destroy their hearts.
They are naught but your work of art.
They are your canvas on which to dispense
Your lack of knowledge au common sense.
And from a single silver feather
Relfects the lonely World of Nether.
Among them, the warriors of his clan.
And now a serene silver gas
Will slide along the bloody grass.
Take the aqua weapon of your choice.
No time to love, no time to rejoice.
wewe turn your head from north to south.
wewe know that poison spills from your mouth.
What fresh hell has come anew?
Upon them a curse wewe will beshrew.
You'll break their wings and destroy their hearts.
They are naught but your work of art.
They are your canvas on which to dispense
Your lack of knowledge au common sense.
And from a single silver feather
Relfects the lonely World of Nether.
heyya, i wrote a poem , its title is "My Dear" ,so check out tell me, howz it..
Here I'm disconnected
and feeling so alone
Whatever I see,I feel
I know wewe don't know
no,no, I'm not fading
I'm just broken and Lost inside
Living in a situation,where darkness took the light
I wanna see that sight,
havin u all the time,
Holdin' me, Lovin' me
Why u are not here??
My dear...
Whenever I see u, My dear, I smile,
I'm not out of the pain, but at-least, I try.
Sometimes I cry, I scream,
Why all the time spent with u My Dear, looks like a dream??
Please, My Dear, stay with me,
I know u will not come now, but My Dear, hope never dies,
at-least come for a while,
when I will die...
~by
Mehakdeep Kaur
well m thinking to hv a pen name..but not decided yet!! :)
Here I'm disconnected
and feeling so alone
Whatever I see,I feel
I know wewe don't know
no,no, I'm not fading
I'm just broken and Lost inside
Living in a situation,where darkness took the light
I wanna see that sight,
havin u all the time,
Holdin' me, Lovin' me
Why u are not here??
My dear...
Whenever I see u, My dear, I smile,
I'm not out of the pain, but at-least, I try.
Sometimes I cry, I scream,
Why all the time spent with u My Dear, looks like a dream??
Please, My Dear, stay with me,
I know u will not come now, but My Dear, hope never dies,
at-least come for a while,
when I will die...
~by
Mehakdeep Kaur
well m thinking to hv a pen name..but not decided yet!! :)
When in a problem one small support makes us to feel lucky
Times when we are crying one word makes us to laugh
Even if moyo is all ours they live in half
Making fun even if we don’t like is their habit
On our single smile in sadness they jump and run like rabbit
Don’t recall the past, don’t worry about future
They teach us like experienced tutor
They are my dearest friends
Who live with me with upendo that never ends
No end, everyday is a new start
They will never stop our mutual loves and cares cart…..
(Dedicated to all my Marafiki whom I upendo so much, who made my life worthy and never asked for anything for their care and love. My friends, who are funny and lovable make me alive. They give me hope and they are my light. I have nothing but my emotions and my words. So my dearest Marafiki that’s all I have to gift you. (I upendo wewe ALL)
dear herat please come back
to your upendo who is still waiting
who still has hope in moyo
tears in eyes but smile on lips
people ask why do i smile?
but do i need a reason?
now my tounge forgot all taste except salty
taste of nasty salty yet delicious tears
with all my tears
i sollowed all my glooms
but come back i need you
can wewe crush your feelings, my feelings, our feelings?
i was your crush can wewe crush me now?
night and days are one for me
all time i spend in waiting for you, tears shed along
come back let single one remain in my eyes
i plead wewe to come back
with all my upendo and......what was it??
yeah that of my SMILE
to your upendo who is still waiting
who still has hope in moyo
tears in eyes but smile on lips
people ask why do i smile?
but do i need a reason?
now my tounge forgot all taste except salty
taste of nasty salty yet delicious tears
with all my tears
i sollowed all my glooms
but come back i need you
can wewe crush your feelings, my feelings, our feelings?
i was your crush can wewe crush me now?
night and days are one for me
all time i spend in waiting for you, tears shed along
come back let single one remain in my eyes
i plead wewe to come back
with all my upendo and......what was it??
yeah that of my SMILE
I use my smile
to hide my pain.
I use my knowledge
to keep me tame.
A uchungu, chungu feeling,
A uchungu, chungu thought.
If I have cried
It is for naught.
I keep my sorrow
locked tight inside.
In nobody
I can confide.
I have my locks
I have my keys
I do not have
Sweet memories.
I was alone
I was astray
I was used up
And tossed away
I use my laugh
to hide my fears.
I use my skill
to hide my tears.
I listen as
the Angel sings,
But still I cannot
Spread my wings.
I have no body,
I have no soul.
No story is left
It has been told.
I use my upendo
to lock my heart.
wewe use your hatred
to tear me apart.
to hide my pain.
I use my knowledge
to keep me tame.
A uchungu, chungu feeling,
A uchungu, chungu thought.
If I have cried
It is for naught.
I keep my sorrow
locked tight inside.
In nobody
I can confide.
I have my locks
I have my keys
I do not have
Sweet memories.
I was alone
I was astray
I was used up
And tossed away
I use my laugh
to hide my fears.
I use my skill
to hide my tears.
I listen as
the Angel sings,
But still I cannot
Spread my wings.
I have no body,
I have no soul.
No story is left
It has been told.
I use my upendo
to lock my heart.
wewe use your hatred
to tear me apart.
Glass walls are like
Knifes, they make wewe bleed
The shattered pieces
Can cut wewe deep
So fragile and delicate
Like a teenager's heart
One wrong move
And it falls apart
Brick walls however are
Tough to defeat
With their strong bases
Of non-concrete
Now plexiglass and glass
Walls are like the
Same, only with the
First wewe feel nothing
I see my walls
Of trasparent plastic
That contain my emotions
Like "affection" and "erattic"
If we don't ever
Get the chance to
Meet, know my plexiglass
Walls make me me
Knifes, they make wewe bleed
The shattered pieces
Can cut wewe deep
So fragile and delicate
Like a teenager's heart
One wrong move
And it falls apart
Brick walls however are
Tough to defeat
With their strong bases
Of non-concrete
Now plexiglass and glass
Walls are like the
Same, only with the
First wewe feel nothing
I see my walls
Of trasparent plastic
That contain my emotions
Like "affection" and "erattic"
If we don't ever
Get the chance to
Meet, know my plexiglass
Walls make me me
A sonnet with iambic pentametre.
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Sneaking out the windows,
creeping in the cold,
the little blackened widows—
it's the truth that we will hold.
When working in collusion
with our enemy;
our trust is an illusion,
while no one holds the key.
Your final destination
is just around the bend.
wewe gave in to temptation
you now repent your sin.
The dawn is just beginning, so is serenity.
But no one will remember how wewe lost all sanity.
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Sneaking out the windows,
creeping in the cold,
the little blackened widows—
it's the truth that we will hold.
When working in collusion
with our enemy;
our trust is an illusion,
while no one holds the key.
Your final destination
is just around the bend.
wewe gave in to temptation
you now repent your sin.
The dawn is just beginning, so is serenity.
But no one will remember how wewe lost all sanity.
My Trust Has Now Died, kwa Vampiyaa
Simple words cannot describe my anger towards you.
I wish for wewe to cry; to know that I am crying too.
Nothing wewe can say can ever allow me to forgive.
Now it is my turn to fight; it is my turn to live.
This friendship, these memories... mean nothing to me now.
I spend my time alone crying and wondering how
wewe could have ever betrayed me in such a sad way.
To you, to the world, I have nothing at all to say.
wewe have to know that I am finished with your lies.
upendo to wewe is less than nothing... because it always dies.
The universe now knows the reasons why I have cried,
But for everything that's happened, my trust has now died.
Simple words cannot describe my anger towards you.
I wish for wewe to cry; to know that I am crying too.
Nothing wewe can say can ever allow me to forgive.
Now it is my turn to fight; it is my turn to live.
This friendship, these memories... mean nothing to me now.
I spend my time alone crying and wondering how
wewe could have ever betrayed me in such a sad way.
To you, to the world, I have nothing at all to say.
wewe have to know that I am finished with your lies.
upendo to wewe is less than nothing... because it always dies.
The universe now knows the reasons why I have cried,
But for everything that's happened, my trust has now died.
I am at the edge, i look down and see an endless pit.
It calls to me, whispers sweet nothing into my ears,
But suddenly it is replaced kwa your voice, telling me to turn around and walk away
To come to you, hold wewe and care for you, to be the one who won the battle against the pit
I follow your voice, through meadows and forests, and find myself in a familiar place, Home.
Your voice is louder, stronger and if possible zaidi beautiful, I know i am close,I walk, anticipation coursing through every bit of my body
I breath in deeply and smell your scent, a mixture of rain and lavender
I turn and see you, your eyes full of the upendo that i missed
I run to wewe and wrap, upangaji pamoja my arms around you, knowing that i am where i am meant to be....
It calls to me, whispers sweet nothing into my ears,
But suddenly it is replaced kwa your voice, telling me to turn around and walk away
To come to you, hold wewe and care for you, to be the one who won the battle against the pit
I follow your voice, through meadows and forests, and find myself in a familiar place, Home.
Your voice is louder, stronger and if possible zaidi beautiful, I know i am close,I walk, anticipation coursing through every bit of my body
I breath in deeply and smell your scent, a mixture of rain and lavender
I turn and see you, your eyes full of the upendo that i missed
I run to wewe and wrap, upangaji pamoja my arms around you, knowing that i am where i am meant to be....
Do remember those times when we used talk nonstop?
Those times when wewe told those guys to leave me alone and knock it off?
So tell me, why'd wewe throw it all away?
wewe were there for me like I was for you.
It's true.
Yea, we'd fight sometimes, but that's what Marafiki do time to time.
So tell me, what happened to the old you?
The one I couldn't get enough, too?
And even sometimes called me Boo?
I thought that sinced I moved, You'd still care about me.
And and be there for me. Atleast try to be.
Guess I was wrong.
If I had that chance to atleast say goodbye before I moved, would wewe still wanted to try talking to me?
au see?
No matter what, I'll always have in my moyo and memories..
Those times when wewe told those guys to leave me alone and knock it off?
So tell me, why'd wewe throw it all away?
wewe were there for me like I was for you.
It's true.
Yea, we'd fight sometimes, but that's what Marafiki do time to time.
So tell me, what happened to the old you?
The one I couldn't get enough, too?
And even sometimes called me Boo?
I thought that sinced I moved, You'd still care about me.
And and be there for me. Atleast try to be.
Guess I was wrong.
If I had that chance to atleast say goodbye before I moved, would wewe still wanted to try talking to me?
au see?
No matter what, I'll always have in my moyo and memories..
The color of lips as you're out there cold
Blue
The name wewe got from a gypsy wise and old
Blue
The color for me and you
Blue
The way we spent time together as friends
Blue
The way we stick to uchungu, chungu ends
Blue
The color for just me and you
Blue
The way the impact hit us
Blue
The way others never shown justice
Blue
The reason why they saved me from the wreckage but not you
Blue
The color for only me and you
Blue
The way your lips looked like on that sad day
Blue
The way wewe left me on a Monday
Blue
The color for me and you
Blue
I hate that they saved me and not you
Blue
They alisema there was nothing they could do
Blue
The mood for just me not you
Blue
How I feel right now without you
Blue
I wish there was something I could do
Blue
I wish I was there with you
Blue
Forever the color for just me and you
Blue
The zaidi I wipe them away
The zaidi they flow
I hide them
So wewe don't know
I'm drowning,
Frowning,
My life feels over
I could use something lucky,
perhaps a clover
Voice shaking,
Words cracked
All because you'll never come back
When wewe left wewe took something,
My happiness, my pride
Now the tears I'm left to hide
Your gone,
Never returning
Heartbroken yelps from the depths of my soul,
Patting,
Consoling,
It's okay, I'm told
It's not the end of the world for most, My my world is crumbling to a tragic toast
A river big and flowing,
Leaving my face slightly glowing
These tears won't end no matter what,
All because of our endless love
The zaidi they flow
I hide them
So wewe don't know
I'm drowning,
Frowning,
My life feels over
I could use something lucky,
perhaps a clover
Voice shaking,
Words cracked
All because you'll never come back
When wewe left wewe took something,
My happiness, my pride
Now the tears I'm left to hide
Your gone,
Never returning
Heartbroken yelps from the depths of my soul,
Patting,
Consoling,
It's okay, I'm told
It's not the end of the world for most, My my world is crumbling to a tragic toast
A river big and flowing,
Leaving my face slightly glowing
These tears won't end no matter what,
All because of our endless love