and yet, so loud to your ears.
In the imagination of your thoughts
wewe feel the magic as if it's real,
and yet it's part of your life.
People shall judge.
People shall remember.
These mistakes you've made
shall label wewe for the rest of your life.
People shall judge.
And this whisper is too loud,
it never goes away.
The whipping body can not
be repaired,
'cause people always judge.
Hypocrisy of the society
shall always be present,
thus their sight shall never see
the failures they made.
But people shall judge.
People shall laugh.
Forgive your past,
forgive yourself,
forgive me
and I shall forgive you.
I'll find wewe on the sanctuary
of our own,
forgive your past,
although people shall judge.
listening her inayopendelewa song
over and over again...
Her head is full of thoughts.
She won't share with anybody but paper...
She's alone,
no matter if
there's somebody around.
She's alone
with her thoughts,
trying to get away,
to suppress the dark side
of her soul,
to kill every dark thought
that travels through her mind...
And remember,
dream is just a fantasy,
wewe won't escape from your fear,
wewe won't find your cure
dreaming of better days...
And she cries
only when she's alone,
so nobody can hear,
and she prays for the siku
when the Sun will shine again,
the siku when
she will feel the joy of life,
the purpose will be bright...
In memories of your life
you've died so many times.
Memories of distant days
memories of unseen dreams.
You've died
you've died inside.
Inside of your silence,
your voice screams with
painful sorrow.
Memories of your distant life
and you'll fade inside.
In tafuta of light,
your eyes see nothing
but the agony of your screaming
tone that never stops bitting you.
You're all alone
in this fog,
living of the memories
of the life that is distant
to your sight.
Crashed and bitter
wewe die along with
dreams that are never going
to be seen.
you've died so many times.
Memories of distant days
memories of unseen dreams.
You've died
you've died inside.
Inside of your silence,
your voice screams with
painful sorrow.
Memories of your distant life
and you'll fade inside.
In tafuta of light,
your eyes see nothing
but the agony of your screaming
tone that never stops bitting you.
You're all alone
in this fog,
living of the memories
of the life that is distant
to your sight.
Crashed and bitter
wewe die along with
dreams that are never going
to be seen.
and extreamly over grown.
the world, it has chilled me,
frozen my very soul.
my little hope bird, it is gone
forbidden and forwarned.
all my faith and trust,
it flew away in the storm.
the fire, it can not warm me,
i do not feel the cold,
the sun doesn't shine,
my moyo is numb.
and this is why,
my hope bird has died.
because the world has chilled me,
my moyo can not ache,
nor can it brake.
the lie of a life
i'm suppose to live,
but, no one can give
an explination.
so i ask, Why?
why do we need
to belong in a group?
why can't i be me?
so this is why
hope for me is a place uncharted,
and my hope bird is gone.
i hope wewe understand...
Hole In My Soul
by
Jeremy Gould
The sun rose up with me today
and I can't help feeling this way
but every siku brings me down
and there's stillness all around
I've got to get away from the pain
so I try a stroll down memory lane
Yep, I still remember you
How could I forget?
wewe thought I'd Lost you, I bet
But wewe were the first
The first to hold me tight
The first to kiss me goodnight
Now there's nothing left
but this hole in my soul
that reminds me of what I've lost
Somehow I've got to replace
the emptiness that once was full
But what price do I pay, what cost?
The loneliness surrounding me
leaves me feeling less valuable
kwa the hour, kwa the minute
my livelihood slowly slips
As I watch it float away
I don't even try to stop it
I can't replace what you've done
so there's one solution, only one
I have to let wewe go
But there's one thing wewe should know
No matter where wewe are
No matter what wewe do
I'll always have this hole in my soul
to help remind me of you
by
Jeremy Gould
The sun rose up with me today
and I can't help feeling this way
but every siku brings me down
and there's stillness all around
I've got to get away from the pain
so I try a stroll down memory lane
Yep, I still remember you
How could I forget?
wewe thought I'd Lost you, I bet
But wewe were the first
The first to hold me tight
The first to kiss me goodnight
Now there's nothing left
but this hole in my soul
that reminds me of what I've lost
Somehow I've got to replace
the emptiness that once was full
But what price do I pay, what cost?
The loneliness surrounding me
leaves me feeling less valuable
kwa the hour, kwa the minute
my livelihood slowly slips
As I watch it float away
I don't even try to stop it
I can't replace what you've done
so there's one solution, only one
I have to let wewe go
But there's one thing wewe should know
No matter where wewe are
No matter what wewe do
I'll always have this hole in my soul
to help remind me of you
has been labeled kwa darkness.
Your birth is your death.
wewe have died a thousand times
in your heart,
death shines in your eyes,
following wewe like a limpet.
You've died,
though wewe still breathe,
but life is just a shadow
of your past,
wewe don't see the life.
Your road is spiny,
hope is smothered and distant
to your sight.
You're on the road,
but this road is your life,
and this life is a burden of
your fate,
and past never dies until wewe die.
Your road is full of thorns,
empty and abandoned,
like your heart,
like your life.
The siku of your birth
has been labeled
kwa darkness.
It's everywhere wewe look,
you're on this road alone
and this road is the burden
of your fate,
past never dies until wewe die.
hear my
unspeakable words,
those are screaming
inside my
Lost strifes!
See me,
see it through my
frightened eyes,
those will onyesha you,
those will defeat
the peace itself.
That peace,
well-known
to you,
but not to me.
Not to me.
I've seen it only
in their eyes,
while mine were dreaming.
Grabbing my soul,
living inside,
the fear loves me more,
smiling to my
faith.
Hear me,
hear those
unspeakable words,
those are living here,
praying silently,
crying sternly.
Hope is awaken,
but weakened.
Hating fear
and its cruelty,
it struggles
tirelessly,
though
fading...
Fading
along with
unseen dreams,
sleeping
along with
sorrow.
The doors
are locked,
Sun is not
illuminating
my path,
not mine.
Fears sleep
in there,
loving my failures,
listening to my
unspeakable
words,
those are prayers,
unseen
dreams,
fear lives within.
Do wewe remember the song I never sang?
Do wewe remember the words I never said?
Do wewe remember the upendo I never felt?
Do wewe remember the tears I never shed?
Do wewe remember the pain of heart's first fall?
Do wewe remember who put me through it all?
Do wewe remember the way wewe never cared?
Do wewe remember the time I felt so scared?
Do wewe remember holding me in your arms?
Do wewe remember me walking out the door?
Do wewe remember us standing in the rain,
when wewe alisema wewe wanted me back again?
©COPYRIGHT, Waverly L. Harris, 2011, DO NOT REPOST WITHOUT PERMISSION AND CREDIT FOR THE AUTHOR.
Do wewe remember the words I never said?
Do wewe remember the upendo I never felt?
Do wewe remember the tears I never shed?
Do wewe remember the pain of heart's first fall?
Do wewe remember who put me through it all?
Do wewe remember the way wewe never cared?
Do wewe remember the time I felt so scared?
Do wewe remember holding me in your arms?
Do wewe remember me walking out the door?
Do wewe remember us standing in the rain,
when wewe alisema wewe wanted me back again?
©COPYRIGHT, Waverly L. Harris, 2011, DO NOT REPOST WITHOUT PERMISSION AND CREDIT FOR THE AUTHOR.
I'm desire
I'm pain
I'm denial.
Call me whatever you
want me to be.
Call me!
That's all wewe see.
I'm pale
I'm tired
I'm love
I'm desire.
My kiss is so deep.
Can wewe feel my soul
talking?
My kiss is so soft.
Can wewe feel me?
Will wewe dream me?
I give my upendo to you.
I haven't chosen that,
it's just how it meant
to be.
I hide my tears from you,
i lock my the pain inside of me.
That's the place
i wish wewe never find.
That's my soul,
sorrow and desire.
I give wewe all wewe want,
i choose the sweetest words
for you.
My touch leads you
to the highest
power of imagination,
just to onyesha you,
just to have you.
with a seed of grace. The expression
of joy slowly shine on its face.
A little black maua, ua beautifully
devine. An elegant structure in this maua, ua u will find.
upendo and the joy of
happiness, this shows a black flowers
elegance. the color of
this maua, ua so proudly stand out.
wewe are a little black maua, ua without
a doubt.
Note: I would like to bring this out to a little girl that was killed in chicago where i live. so smart, so nice, so good, but why did she had to die..... she was part of the light and now i must find her in the darkness and bring her back to life.
echo in my head,
seeking for
the truth,
remembering,
memorizing...
Sounds of past
still harm my soul,
but now I'm strong,
I can accept the truth.
Sounds of past
echo in the depth
of my heart,
though some truths
have never been found.
We just see these
through our eyes.
Sounds of past
still echo,
sometimes silently,
but we know
that the past still
lives inside,
as a memory,
as a burning wound.
Sounds of past
still echo
inside.
As a memory,
as a burning wound.
away wewe left
flying far from me
shooken kwa the wind
the pain
we were meant to be
far wewe left
Never to Return
the pain destroyed wewe
wewe were never to be whole
There was nothing left to learn
wewe left me that cold night
Without even a hug
I was left behing
all alone
with just a red lady bug
wewe left me
crying alone
A week had passed
slow and painful
my red lady bug sat dull
wewe were still gone
never coming nyumbani
I couldn't forget wewe
but wewe were still here
the red lady bug was still here
I knew wewe were gone
there was no hope
but somehow I felt wewe
I knew wewe were near'
the Red lady bug was nothing to fear
wewe are still gone
not coming back
I miss wewe
I feel wewe
and all I have left is the red lady bug
flying far from me
shooken kwa the wind
the pain
we were meant to be
far wewe left
Never to Return
the pain destroyed wewe
wewe were never to be whole
There was nothing left to learn
wewe left me that cold night
Without even a hug
I was left behing
all alone
with just a red lady bug
wewe left me
crying alone
A week had passed
slow and painful
my red lady bug sat dull
wewe were still gone
never coming nyumbani
I couldn't forget wewe
but wewe were still here
the red lady bug was still here
I knew wewe were gone
there was no hope
but somehow I felt wewe
I knew wewe were near'
the Red lady bug was nothing to fear
wewe are still gone
not coming back
I miss wewe
I feel wewe
and all I have left is the red lady bug
Left & lonley
Abondoned & destroyed
the doll will seek revenge
The hate and pain have all subsided and left a fiery passion for revenge
The doll will have revenge
In pursiut of unfair justice in an unfair world
The doll will gain revege
The war that rages the hate that raises
All left the doll empty & tattered & broken
The doll will get revenge
The doll left broken kwa the side of the rode
Ignored kwa all mankind
The doll will receive her revenge
Who determines what is just in this unjust world
Not the doll au me au you
In a world of wrong what is right
Not the doll au me au you
Who leads the way in this endless maze called Life
Not the doll au me au you
One zaidi Chance
kwa Cody Herman
Do wewe remember the good old days?
When we used to laugh and play?
Nothing worried au stopped us
We would run until we were breathless
Tell me, when did it stop?
Why did it all drop?
Was it because of something I did?
I know I was stupid
I didn't mean to do it
It came bit kwa bit
It wasn't till the end
That I knew I had Lost a friend
It never worked out
But kwa then there was no doubt
If I could turn time back, I would
Even if it was just to see our childhood
I ask for one zaidi chance
Just to advance
To turn back the clock
For our friendship again to unlock
It was my entire fault
Our comradeship didn't just halt
I wished I never started that romance
Again, I ask for one zaidi chance
kwa Cody Herman
Do wewe remember the good old days?
When we used to laugh and play?
Nothing worried au stopped us
We would run until we were breathless
Tell me, when did it stop?
Why did it all drop?
Was it because of something I did?
I know I was stupid
I didn't mean to do it
It came bit kwa bit
It wasn't till the end
That I knew I had Lost a friend
It never worked out
But kwa then there was no doubt
If I could turn time back, I would
Even if it was just to see our childhood
I ask for one zaidi chance
Just to advance
To turn back the clock
For our friendship again to unlock
It was my entire fault
Our comradeship didn't just halt
I wished I never started that romance
Again, I ask for one zaidi chance